Author/Headline Author/Mo Jinxian
Time flies like a white colt, the past is still faintly like the passage of time, as if it is still stuck in yesterday when I was 20 years old, the mood at this moment is very nervous, passionate, sunny, frank, sincere, struggle, hard work, fearless, happy and happy every day. Time is hurried, in the blink of an eye, the official step into the 30th and the year of standing, 30 years old, from the new stand at the beginning of the intersection of life, looking back at the past ten years of life, there is a scenery of harvesting all the way, more is the baptism of the years and the tempering and precipitation of mental thoughts. There are regrets, there are sorrows and joys, and there are gains and losses. In the next ten years, I believe that I will be more calm, calm, determined, and firmly believed!
Ten years have undergone too many changes, marriage, buying a house, decoration, buying a car, these are their 20-year-old originally did not think, once the teenager with lofty ideals, determined to do a career! As a result, standing at the intersection of 30 years old, like most people, I finally chose to buy a house, buy a car, get married, and enter a new stage of life. Originally did not think about these questions, but finally broke the order in my mind, after all, it is still the life of rice, oil, salt, sauce and vinegar! Originally, we were secular mortals, and life should have been uneventful. Although it is difficult to escape being baptized by society, the shackles of the world and the grinding of life, the original intention has not changed! The yearning for a better life, the higher requirements for themselves and the high goals have not changed. This is not a change made by the helplessness and compromise of real life at the moment, but the desire of one's heart for one step closer, which is a positive attitude towards life.
I can't forget about my hometown. I was born in a small mountain village in a remote area in the southwestern border of Hunan, and on December 18, 1991, on the eve of the cold winter moon, the eve of the Chinese New Year's Eve, the villagers were busy killing pigs, beating rice dumplings, pasting Spring Festivals, doing New Year goods, and resigning the old and welcoming the new, with joy and harmony, a sense of peace and tranquility. With the arrival of the New Year, the ringing of the bell, the approaching of the New Year's steps, a cry, the sound of falling to the ground, breaking through the night sky at four o'clock in the morning, new life will be born! The sudden birth of the baby breaks the festive atmosphere of the traditional festival, and the family is full of joy and happiness! Born in the Year of the Goat, on the eve of the Spring Festival, it means "festive and auspicious", so it takes the nickname Xiqing, hoping for happiness and peace, healthy and happy growth.
From a young age, I was active, lively, mischievous, provocative, troublesome, often at the instigation of adults, often quarrels and fights with my companions, for which I often caused some unnecessary trouble and incidents, so the three sisters also followed a lot of scolding by their parents, so their parents often argued with their neighbors. Because he is the fourth oldest in the family and the only newborn male in the family, he has set his parents' spoiled eyes since he was a child, and at the same time, he has also pinned their good wishes for their life to hope for Jackie Chan!
My parents are authentic farmers, since I was four or five years old, a family of six, not to say how rich, but the family experienced bittersweet and bittersweet, life is happy and harmonious. Because of the poverty of the family, my sisters and I were not happy in childhood, my father in order to maintain the family's livelihood, for our four sisters and brothers to study and school, all year round in addition to farming, every New Year's holiday, other times had to go out to work, running around and toiling! The family is poor, it is really no way, at a young age, several sisters have dropped out of school, can't bear the burden of their parents, in order to alleviate the burden of sharing the family's housework, the eldest sister and the second sister went out early to work to earn money, and returned home for the Spring Festival every year. The third sister and I were left to study, and the burden of life at home was reduced. In the family, the mother is left to run the whole family, farming in the fields, tirelessly, quietly dedicating her youth to the earth, facing the loess with her back to the sky all her life, fighting with the yellow land for a lifetime, in addition to the grain to feed the family, and finally when she is old, she has not figured out a lifetime in the yellow land.
When I was 7 years old, I learned to stir-fry and cook rice, and I silently took on housework responsibilities for my family. I remember once, the stove was too high, short, so I put the stool up to stir-fry, ready to pour out the boiling water in the pot, and when I was not careful, the stool flipped over, and all the boiling water in the pot was poured on my chest. Because it was in the summer, the weather was hot, the skin and flesh of the chest were inflamed and rotten, my parents were looking for medicine, and after more than a month of careful care by my mother, the wound was finally healed, which became an unforgettable memory in my childhood memory... As a man in the family, he also secretly vowed that in the future, he must go out of the mountain and become the pride in the eyes of his parents, so that his family can live a good life and be a useful person to society.
My parents are industrious and capable, brave and kind, sprinkling a lifetime of blood in the mountains, sprinkling between heaven and earth, a lifetime of hard work, facing the loess with their backs to the sky, it is indeed impossible to change the face of the family as poor, eating pumpkins, sweet potatoes, grains, a little rice, not every meal can eat rice, sometimes soy sauce, lard bibimbap, sugar water bubble rice, although this life deeply stings my young supreme heart, from childhood lack of clothing and food, the family is poor, childhood is not happy, a two-cent popsicle , to eat the four sisters and brothers, clothes and pants are sewn and patched, the new three years old three years, rotated to wear, the big patch is very conspicuous, go to school that I will still remember. When I was a child, the biggest expectation was the Spring Festival every year, buying new clothes and shoes, eating melon seed candy, uncles and aunts would bring New Year's gifts, rice and oil, peanut candy, and some household subsidies, and from time to time I would receive their red envelopes, these are from relatives, uncles, aunts, and aunts' homes, which is the happiest and happiest time of my childhood.
Back in the late 1960s, at the beginning of the Cultural Revolution, my grandfather died of starvation, my father was just 13 years old, forced by the pressure of life's poor livelihood, my grandmother took my father to remarry. Later, the uncles and uncles in the village took a lot of trouble and communicated many times, and it was difficult to get their father back. So my father became an orphan in the village, and from an early age he was sent to the fence, lonely and helpless; since he was thirteen years old, he worked with people to do carpentry work and make a living. After many years, I became a well-known carpenter outside the village; I enthusiastically saw my father in the carpentry work outside the family. My grandfather would have several brothers, all of whom died of starvation and frostbite, lack of food and clothing, my father was the only remaining fire seedling, so there were almost no relatives in the village, back in the village, other families are surrounded by brothers and sisters, only our family is a family of six people, slightly thin. The father is kind by nature, industrious and simple, and there is no dispute with the world, but the mother is completely different from the father's personality, the nature is strong, the iron bone in the bones is dignified, when he is young, he is not often bullied, that will not be much face of the father, it is the mother who greets the front, to resolve the dispute... Later, fortunately, the people in the village slowly learned that my mother's family was strong, so they were not bullied and bullied too much... So that later, my personality developed to be indisputable with the world, although occasionally untamed, I think it may be related to the words and deeds of my father and mother.
My father was an orphan, knew my mother in his early 20s, industrious and simple, and when it came time to talk about marriage, through the introduction of the villagers, the trustee matchmaking, met my mother, that my father was a carpenter, he could do anything, chasing my mother's meeting, soaking in my mother's house for dozens of days, carrying water and firewood, carpentry at home, repairing and weaving bamboo baskets, field geography and agricultural work, all contracted, plus doing things diligently and quickly, quickly won the favor of my mother, and was able to impress my grandparents Later, he agreed that his mother was married to his father! Before that, it was said that my mother, under great pressure from the outside world and her family, wanted to marry my father despite my grandparents' objections. Because at that time, my father's family was a peasant for generations, my mother's family was an educational family, my grandfather was a people's teacher, a well-known educator, and two families that looked like they couldn't beat eight poles, and my father and mother were thus combined.
My mother's family of seven sons and sisters, uncle, aunt, second aunt, mother ranked fourth, the back of the two aunts and brother-in-law; my grandfather dedicated his life to the cause of rural education, quietly cultivated in the education industry, his life was respected and loved by the people, and he harvested countless honors and flowers in his life. During the Cultural Revolution, I was not spared, and I was criticized by the left-leaning line; until my grandfather died when he was in college, he lived to the age of 80s, and died without concern and in peace, which was a long life at that time. When I was a child, I remember the care and care I gave me and the care and affection of my family, but unfortunately I did not go back to see him for the last time, which became a regret that has always been buried in my heart over the years.
In the year of marriage, there was really nothing in my father's family, a poor family situation, a glance at the mountain, can not stop my mother and father to come together determination, so that in the first few years after marriage, the money rice oil and salt almost rely on the mother's family to help, every New Year's Festival uncles and aunts they pick something from time to time to come over, give some living expenses to subsidize the family.
With the growth of my age, all the way to primary school, middle school, college, gradually away from home, away from my parents, into society, because of poverty, basic reading that will be in school reading accompanied by my inferiority and cowardice, negative psychology, more is repressed to escape, forced to change the fate of the thought, this deep self-suggestion, until I stepped into the society to participate in work!
When I was in elementary school, the school was in our village, every morning when I got up, I needed to climb 5 kilometers of mountain road for more than half an hour to arrive, 4 and a half days a week, every Friday at noon, on weekends when my parents were busy, I helped the family do housework, herd cattle, herd chickens, and let go of ducks. When it comes to farming and cooking at home, I think if I grow up, I won't have to do housework. When I went to school, whenever the sun was fine, when I encountered a rainy day, the muddy mountain road was rugged and bumpy, and I accidentally fell down, and my clothes were basically wet, and I was covered with loess mud. The time close to home was not very long, and it took more than four years. Then I went to the township to study in the 5th and 6th grades, returned to school every night, finished school on Friday afternoons, and spent two years in boarding school. Away from home, only two days a week to go home, remember the most difficult is the way home, from home to school need to walk nearly 20 kilometers, back and forth a week to get 40 kilometers, just like this study career lasted for more than 2 years, even if this did not change and crush my heart, although there have been losses and complaints, but still survived.
After the junior high school to the town, the pressure to enter the junior high school academic performance became greater, facing the pressure of junior high school promotion, due to the lack of attention to the educational foundation of the family from childhood, until the sixth grade grade grade was mediocre, and the grade in the class belonged to the middle. Fortunately, fortunately, relatives and cousins and brothers-in-law at home, as middle school teachers, have received their guidance and care, and their academic performance has improved. However, due to the weak basic theoretical knowledge from a young age, it is still very difficult to catch up with the middle school. After more than two years and three years of hard work, barely admitted to an ordinary high school, I know that I am not the material for studying, because my family is poor, I once wanted to drop out of school, but fortunately, under the care of my cousin and brother-in-law, I was able to persevere in the care of my cousin and brother-in-law, give careful guidance for academic study, and help in life. High school is from the small town to the county seat, as if he also saw the bigger world, just like Sun Shaoping in "Ordinary World", walking out of the mountains to the big city. From now on, I will no longer silently start working hard, and I must go to the provincial city to see! Time to live up, three years of high school academic career, opened a window in my eyes, let me through passive learning to the back of active learning, cognition is opened step by step, I want to go out to see the world to see this beautiful city. People in the city life of the City of Nice. It turns out that there are not only county seats in the world but also Changsha, Beijing, Shanghai big cities, I want to go out to see, I finally chose the provincial city of Changsha!
Ordinary world, extraordinary people, four years of college, the saddest thing should be far away from home and the care of relatives, the lack of love, no relatives and no reason, uprooted there is an inexplicable loss. The first time I stepped on the green-skinned train from my hometown to the provincial capital, I arrived in the provincial city after 12 hours all night and the next morning. I remember when my father took me to the train station and told me to study hard, he staggered all the way and took me to the station with his luggage, and I remember he stuffed 7800 yuan tuition and 800 yuan living expenses into my pocket, and I cried at that moment. I know that this is all the savings that my parents have saved over the years of hard work and thrift, and the tears come back to me here...
In the four years of college, I did not idle, except for classes, the rest of the time was to find ways to work-study, do part-time work to earn living expenses. Because of the poverty of the family, the summer vacation basically does not go home, in addition to the winter vacation For the New Year, in each semester back to school home to give me half a year's living expenses, I know that poverty, living expenses are also limited,
I didn't dare to ask for more, so I had to earn less living expenses by myself, and in addition to the time spent the most in school for four years, I spent a variety of part-time jobs and organized my classmates to work. In the past four years, I have worked as a waiter in a restaurant, handed out flyers, resold quilts and daily necessities, set up stalls, worked as a salesman, sent tours, experienced all kinds of life, and even so, I have lived a tight life. Forced to change the status quo of life, not to be compromised, dare to fight against fate, the heart of not being satisfied with the status quo has always inspired me to move forward, and has been accompanying me to go out of school after 14 years of college and go to society...
Originally and most people graduated from internship confusion do not know what to do when it is difficult to choose, a chance, and finally the wrong choice to engage in the real estate industry, eight years to experience too many changes, the real estate industry ups and downs, fortunately persevered to stay in this industry. Now the industry is once again facing changes in the industry reshuffle. After 14 years of lows, my heart has been calmer, more calm, determined, and firmly believed! I think that even if the industry is changing, people's wishes for a better life and a better living demand will not change, there will still be demand in the future, and the industry is still a big track and an important pillar of the national economy. High and low cyclical changes are normal phenomena, I also firmly believe that the future of real estate still has a long way to go, 5-10 years of urbanization process, as long as there is a house upgrade will have residential consumption demand, there will be opportunities! The future real estate industry market will also change dramatically, and the housing two-level differentiation is serious... With the aging of the population, the structural adjustment and change of the population, the national policy of not speculating in housing, and the background of common prosperity, the industry reshuffle changes have been intensified! After experiencing pain, the industry has gradually stepped into a more standardized, more scientific, more reasonable, more refined...
The future has come, I think no matter who it is, today we are all in an era of unprecedented great changes, such as walking on thin ice, like approaching the abyss, only change can adapt to change. We are all a grain of dust in this era, when we see our own smallness, we will crawl forward, only by insisting on not forgetting our original intentions, we will see the sun of tomorrow and meet and embrace a new tomorrow! Forever young, always tearful, always on the road...
I am still a teenager of the past, and I have not changed a bit. May you run away for half your life and return as a teenager!
2022.01.20 02:40