Li Zongsheng, a long-disappeared music talent, recently released a video.
"Sister Zhang, I'm Xiao Li."
This is a surprise video he specially prepared for Zhang Aijia's new variety show "Nian Nian Youth".
As early as 30 years ago, Li Zongsheng wrote a poem "The Price of Love" for Zhang Aijia.
And said to her, "When I wrote this song, I was thinking about you writing it, thinking about why you married someone else." ”
The entanglement between the two has remained difficult in the hearts of everyone for many years.
As a goddess of literature and art, Zhang Aijia is a well-deserved talent harvester, and Li Zongsheng, Luo Dayou, Yang Dechang and others have passed on stories with her.
She is not just the Zhang Aijia who is chased by half the talent of the entertainment industry, in the eyes of women, "Sister Zhang, is the kind of person we all want to live." (Little S once commented)
Zhang Aijia is a person who can't stay idle, she has too many labels and roles, too many glory and aura. From actress to singer, later, she became a director.
At that time, the Chinese-speaking circle was mostly male directors' narratives, and few people explored the situation of women and spoke up for women.
She saw this and thought, "Since no one has a voice for women, then I will come myself." ”
In 1986, Zhang Aijia wrote, directed and starred in the film "The Favorite", she used delicate shooting techniques to show women's state of mind and life, and this film also won the affirmation of the Golden Horse Award.
In 1995, Zhang Aijia filmed the film "Little Girl Fishing", based on Yan Geling's novel of the same name, which told the story of a 24-year-old girl who faked marriage to a 60-year-old man in order to take care of her boyfriend in order to obtain a green card.
After getting the script, Zhang Aijia found that it was clearly a female movie, but it was all the inner drama of the male protagonist.
She questioned, but the foreign screenwriter was furious: "What kind of woman is this little fisherman?" Except for going to work in the factory every day, it is to wait for his man to come back to bed. ”
Men cannot think from the perspective of women, nor can they understand the entanglement and growth of women's hearts.
After Zhang Aijia argued with him, he revised the script himself and completed the shooting. "Little Girl Fish" caused a sensation as soon as it was released, and at the same time, it also won the Best Screenplay Award at the Asia-Pacific Film Festival.
Zhang Aijia's films are different from Western feminist films, there is no "male and female opposition" of the Chu River Han dynasty, but in the gray area, the relationship between the sexes is discussed.
The growth and transformation of women does not mean breaking with the male world.
She never left men to talk about women, which made her work more convincing.
Nor does she portray women as suffering and suffering under great pressure.
Instead, with a peaceful mindset, pay attention to the inner contradictions and confusion of women in the face of love or dreams.
"I am a woman, and I care about the heart of a woman. Looking at things from a woman's point of view, it's just that kind of heart. ”
The women in her films are always like refreshing tea, although the taste is not stimulating, the vision is not gorgeous, but it is evocative.
Not only is the role she portrayed, but she herself has a vigorous vitality, and now everyone respects her as "Sister Zhang".
But compared to this "nickname", people are more familiar with her love experience when she was called "Little Sister".
When her career was booming, 26-year-old Zhang Aijia chose to marry Liu Youlin, the "Hong Kong bureau chief of the Associated Press" who was 16 years older than herself.
She still focuses on her career after marriage, and Liu Youlin hopes that his wife will return to the family. The contradictions between the two gradually arose, and after three years of marriage, they agreed to divorce.
In 1977, when filming "Shining Days", Zhang Aijia and Luo Dayou became acquainted.
She fell into the talent of Luo Dayou and the two fell in love.
Luo Dayou gave her the five-year painstaking work "Childhood", and the classic "Little Sister" was a gift to Zhang Aijia, and this nickname belonged to her alone.
However, the love was shallow, and the two broke up.
Zhang Aijia explained: "We experienced a vigorous love together, but at a certain time, his thinking began to shift to other places. ”
What she wants is the love that the other party is fully committed to, and if it is mixed with impurities, she would rather not.
In 1985, Zhang Aijia organized the creation of the public welfare song "Tomorrow Will Be Better", when Li Zongsheng stood in the last row.
At that time, Li Zongsheng was still a nameless newcomer in the music scene.
Seeing Li Zongsheng, who had a talent in the air but nowhere to show it, Zhang Aijia felt pity and began to spare no effort to excavate him.
At the same time, the two also became romantically in love.
In 1992, Li Zongsheng wrote "The Price of Love" for Zhang Aijia.
"When I wrote this song, I was thinking about what you wrote, why you married someone else."
Years later, at Li Zongsheng's concert, Zhang Aijia directly threw out the question: "Have you ever loved me?" ”
He responded with a song called "The Price of Love", singing and shedding tears.
After many relationships ended without illness, Zhang Aijia was still fully invested in love, not afraid of injury, regardless of gains and losses.
Perhaps because all her experiences have become nourishment in her life.
Love is just a way for people to understand themselves, so why be harsh on results.
Zhang Aijia, who entered the marriage because she was afraid of loneliness, sighed after going around: "I think everyone is still lonely in the end, or they still have to live in peace with themselves." ”
When people understand themselves, it is easier to meet the love they really want.
Zhang Aijia eventually entered into marriage with Wang Jingxiong, who is not a talented son, but a person who gives her freedom, appreciation and support.
Hand in hand for more than 20 years, the love in the eyes of the two is the same as that year.
Xu Zhiyuan once asked Zhang Aijia euphemistically: "Sometimes, do you feel that your generation has been on the stage for too long?" ”
Zhang Aijia smiled and replied, "No." ”
Most of the female stars of the same period with her were married and taught their children after their acting careers, and they disappeared into the world. Only Zhang Aijia still adheres to his pursuit of work and career.
At the age of 24, she wrote an article.
"Why in the history of Chinese cinema, almost every female star can't escape the fate of being arranged?"
"Youth hue is the most important condition, when red to make a lot of money, when you gradually fat, the first wrinkle in the corner of the eye, you quickly start to find a good husband, and then of course is to collect the mountain, marry, have children." Since then, the film industry has no longer had any relationship or connection with you. ”
"If it is a great fortune to be safe and happy after marriage, and it is a great fortune to be unhappy after marriage and lead to divorce, it is also a great fortune in misfortune, such as committing suicide because of an unhappy marriage, it is really unfortunate, but it is a common thing, who will be surprised by the suicide of a movie star?" 」
This is what she observes as a current situation of contemporaneous actresses, who are restricted, arranged, and bound firmly by the word "female star", but she doesn't want to.
She was brave, stubborn, and free, and in 68 years, she never changed.
Zhang Aijia, 62, once wrote a long letter to young people who have just entered the society - "Young people, what are you afraid of!" With personal experience, we encourage everyone to do something different.
"We all dare to let go of the original inherent things, dare to fight, to innovate, we are not afraid at this age, young people, what are you afraid of?" 」
Her "courage" has never been because she is old, and she has the courage to dare to open her sleeves and open up.
The carefree life of food and clothing from childhood did not domesticate her into a gentle and introverted bridesmaid, but made her particularly eager for freedom.
At the age of 13, Zhang Aijia went to the United States to study, just in time for the hippie movement, and her free heart was finally released.
Zhang Aijia and her mother as a child
"I was crazy at that time, wearing 10 rings a day and going to Central Park to follow the parade."
After being ordered by her mother to return to China, 19-year-old Zhang Aijia signed a contract with a well-known film and television company. Even the most popular stars sitting in the audience did not panic in their hearts.
"I'm probably born to do this."
19 years old and 68 years old, in Zhang Aijia's human growth river, there is no difference.
To this day, Lin Yihua also commented on her: "Zhang Aijia lived a very modern and self-sufficient life until she was more than 60 years old, and never blocked herself. ”
"I'm always curious and in awe, drawing nourishment from all my experiences and attempts." She said.
In her view, age has never been a tool for weakness, but a weapon for advancing. In old age, she is more active and shining than when she was younger, constantly injecting new strength into life.
This reminds me of Elon Musk's mother, Meyer Musk, who divorced at the age of 31, escaped the clutches of her abusive husband, and struggled to raise 3 young children to grow up.
48 years old, back to school; 60 years old, opened a fashion show; 70 years old, became an Internet celebrity, guiding women to live confidently.
She told all girls in her autobiography, Life by Me:
"Don't slow down as you get older just because you're a woman. Now I'm running like a bullet out of my chest — exploring everything, having fun, busier than ever. ”
Women's charm comes more from the exploration of life and the control of life, from the tenacity and self-confidence that emanate from the bones, zhang Aijia and Meyer Musk are like this.
Their energy, courage, and fun are not all in hand. On the contrary, it is the result of constant inward exploration and collision with the world.
Today, the 68-year-old Zhang Aijia is still eyebrow-raising, writing the right age, just the right story.
When she was president of the Executive Committee of the Golden Horse Awards in her final year, she designed a batch of canvas shoes to give to all the nominees.
It reads:
"Run, the road is still long."