My first husband met in a private apartment building, and at the time, I was the director of a property company, and he was in charge of procurement in another company, and we were both renting houses and living in the same building. Ha; ha; ha; ha, a burst of laughter hit my ear drums, and I walked into the office in doubt, what's wrong! I turned to my colleagues and asked: Ha; ha; ha; there was another burst of laughter, and two of them reached out to me for candy to eat, I was blind, what do you mean? Little friend, if you want sugar, you become ten years younger, and I have a lot of yours. "Like sugar", like sugar? I wondered even more, who is married? That first to report, I do the leader, should buy, another colleague pointed to me behind, I found that there is a gay man standing in the middle of the room, it turns out that she is the procurement of our next door company, surname Liu, name Zhi'an, just like this, we met. One day, I was on vacation, he asked me to go to a park to play, on the way, I asked about his work, he told me, he is in charge of procurement, basically out of the business trip all year, once out is for several months, when there is nothing, you can also rest for about a week, I listened, my heart is saying: not appropriate. He traveled for so long, who can be sure that he does not change his mind, and I can't follow him, so I said: "What do you generally come from, what do you usually do?" "To help others order, our company is specialized in business intermediary affairs." After I listened to his job introduction, I felt inappropriate, after marriage, he was outside, I was at home, it was a separation of two places, there would inevitably be cracks, I walked, while playing drums in my heart, when I was about to get to the park, I made an excuse, said: I was a little unwell, wanted to buy some cold medicine, I walked away, I drove back to the dormitory, no longer go out, just looked for a house on the Internet, and moved out of the apartment building the next day. We probably had another month or so, and we met again, and she probably knew why I was leaving, but he said, "He's changed jobs." But I didn't believe him, and I deliberately said: I've got a boyfriend, but he doesn't believe it, he says, "I've inquired, you're still single." "After understanding, he did change jobs, I slowly accepted him again, after a few months of exchanges, he proposed marriage, I did not object, got a license, which month after marriage, our relationship is still very good, he will always care about my body, diet, often joke, we should be ready for the next generation, I feel this is very natural, about two months, he himself changed jobs again, back to his old unit, I don't know, in one night when I was going to bed, he told me:" I'm angry and argue with him until the middle of the night, when I have symptoms of early pregnancy. So, the doubts in my heart are getting heavier and heavier, he is always on business trips, which makes us all need to be tested, he doesn't care about my feelings at all, only his own decisions, we can't be together often, he travels for a few months, we are almost always separated, I am very worried, worried that we have been separated for so long, reducing the interaction between us, we will become more and more strange, more worried that he will meet a more beautiful than me, or more capable than me, more seductive. The more uneasy and depressed the heart became. I was more than a month pregnant, and due to psychological influences, my early pregnancy reaction was very serious. When I do housework, I can't do it, but he is not around. My heart was a little insurmountable, very depressed, and when he returned, I made a suggestion that he find another job. Tell him that I can't support my body now, he doesn't care about me at all, but finds some reasons to shirk responsibility, he said: "The salary for business trips is much higher, there will be a next generation soon, the cost will be more and more, if I don't find a good job, how to support this family", simply I listen to him, I also have a reason, thinking: I will support myself, and it will pass. No more pestering. Suddenly, his phone rang, but he hurried to the outside stairs to answer the phone, the sound was so small that I couldn't hear it clearly when I slept on the bed, but I heard that the other person was a woman. I asked, "Who's calling?" What's the matter? But he didn't come back to me, he said, "I'll go back when I go," and immediately withdrew and left. I thought about it, probably the company leader, he just came back, to report to the work! However, I wanted to come and go, I felt that something was wrong, he was out on a business trip, the boss was not so fast, he knew that he was back, that is, he knew, he would also let him rest for a while, and he was not so anxious to call him away. The more I thought about it, the more wrong it became, slipped off the bed, and sat on the couch in a daze. It wasn't long before he came back, but I noticed that his face wasn't right, and I asked, "Where have you been, and he immediately said, "The boss told me to arrange the next trip." I asked: Where is your next trip? What to order? Shenzhen "wants to order a batch of women's clothing." You're not lying to me, are you? Did the boss tell you to arrange your next trip? Why is your face so livid, as if the sky is about to fall, what is going on? I asked rhetorically: he showed me the record of his conversation with his boss. I look at time but it's innate. I pointed to the date to show him, you don't need to lie to me, your lies, have been exposed, who is behind your back dating you? I don't want to know, but why are you going to marry me and hurt me, I'm sorry for you! I have your flesh and bones in my belly, where is your conscience! He didn't care what I said and stopped talking. After a long silence, he got up and went to the bathroom, I took the opportunity to unzip her back bag, but found a large number of invoices, all for girls to buy daily necessities, for example, slippers, women's underwear panties, hair clips, lipstick lipstick, moisturizer, etc., he never bought these things with me, I almost passed out, I tried to wake myself up, and then, hid these invoices in my tidying box. He walked slowly out of the toilet, sat down on the couch, and said to me, "It was my sister who had a car accident and told me to deal with it." I helped him pay two thousand yuan in compensation, and I was afraid that you would make trouble. The next day, I wanted to go to the hospital for pregnancy test, bought some gifts by the way, ready to go to the hospital with him to see his sister, but he refused to go, I finally understood, I went to do the examination, proposed to the doctor to beat the fetus, the doctor said: "The first fetus can not be beaten, it will affect me in the future can not conceive a child, my tears are like broken beads, can no longer bear it, shouted loudly: Why is fate so tricky? Regret, self-blame, anger does not come from one place. So with the passage of time, it was soon my due date, but he was going on a business trip the next day, and if I was going to give birth, what would I do? I wanted to come and go, no, I found him, was preparing lunch in the kitchen, I called him: Zhi'an, can you not leave tomorrow?" Why? He asked: I said, "Did you ask knowingly?" My due date is coming, you are still going out, I am going to give birth alone, what should I do? He said, "It's okay, I'll call my friends to help." I was amazed! Your friends can also replace you as a father, you are really amazing! Are you that busy at work? Saying that it was too late, it was fast, I snatched his mobile phone, immediately dialed his leader's phone, I asked: "Are you Manager Xie?" Liu Zhi'an, can you not go on a business trip tomorrow? The other side replied, "Isn't Liu Zhi'an resting?" Is he on paternity leave? Didn't ask him to go on a business trip? "I was dumbfounded, I stared at him, and I realized then that she wasn't going on a business trip at all outside, and he had changed and become something I didn't know. My tears fell again like broken beads. I was so hurt and regretful that I cried out loud and I asked him, "Are you on a business trip?" "You're so good at deceiving people, who are you fooling around with outside, can you tell me?" He never made a sound", I dragged my heavy steps to leave this magic cave. When I walked out the door, I couldn't help it, and my mind kept shouting: No, you can't be so vulnerable. So I hid in a supermarket next door to see how he reacted when I left, but I didn't see any action. I bought a bag of bread from the supermarket, resolutely returned home, but the house was empty, I went downstairs, opened the garage, the car was gone, I suddenly felt the sky spinning, holding the headache and crying, just at this time, my stomach also hurt violently, the neighbors heard the crying, they all ran over, rushed me to the hospital, just that night, my son was born. A month after the birth of the child, I carried the child to his unit, I told the truth to the leader, the leader immediately investigated the matter, and found out that it was with a demon girl in the unit, surnamed Tao, named Jing. A colleague in this unit revealed to me that a demon girl cannot have children, I was like five thunderbolts at that time, I was stunned, my heart was particularly uncomfortable, why was I so stupid? Almost became someone else's fertility tool, the unit leader suggested that I divorce, give the child to him, I did not want to, I submitted a divorce lawsuit to the court, the court according to the facts of my lawsuit to decide the house and children are with me. And just like that, my first marriage ended. My fate was destined to have so many twists and turns, I was very difficult to accept the reality, every day like a dream, wash my face with tears, one day, the child's first birthday, my relatives all arrived, seeing me in such a situation, I advised me to go outside to relax, do not stay at home every day, my cousin promised me to go to Guangdong with him, she helped me take care of the children, and just like that, I found a garment factory in Guangdong with my cousin and did parking space workers. Life in the clothing warehouse seems to be better than in the property company, and the salary is also a form of more to do more, want to do more, do not want to do can do less, the pressure is not big, I am ready to do it here, just like this, I did more than three months in the garment factory, met a bed cutter, her surname is Yang, the name Xiaojun, he is not tall, the skin is a little rough, but he is very kind to people, he is also my hometown, we talk to each other very much, I want to learn to learn bed cutting techniques with him, I finished the day's task, The rest of the time feel idle, just go to the side of the bed, help him lalab, by the way ask him some bed cutting skills, he is very patient to tell me, sometimes, measuring ruler, afraid that I can not see, he will lean sideways to measure, but also remind me from time to time, I will find some paper in the dormitory after work, to draw drawings, draw well, the next day, take it to him again, listen to his instructions, I will change it at work, so that I quickly mastered the bed cutting skills. Then, he recommended me to the workshop director to learn management, learned for more than a month, just like this, I was promoted to workshop director in the garment factory, three months of probationary period, I work overtime every day and night, every time a batch of new goods came, I had to work overtime with the cutting bed, the two of us often together, discussing clothing design, how to make clothes will look better, more in line with the trend, after three months of hard work, my workshop director probationary period has passed. I was able to take two hours off a day, and my salary rose by more than a thousand. At this time, my cousin and I rented a room and cooked our own food. My compatriot Yang Xiaojun also came to my partner, especially when it came to the factory unified holiday, our family is even more lively, colleagues read to set up the fire, talk and laugh, some will be me and Xiaojun to make an article, I will use words to fork, I am married, and Yang Xiaojun is still unmarried, I always feel unworthy of him, but Xiaojun deliberately hugged me, kissed me, joked too much, day after day, he slowly moved closer to me, sometimes, only when I was there, he would deliberately tease me, put his hand on my shoulder, and said: "You see, I am two poles," I deliberately said: "You are really fit when you wear clothes," often took apart his topic, but he smiled and said: "I am bipolar," I deliberately pretended not to understand, avoiding his topic, I sometimes asked about his family, only to learn that he is the only child in the family, the family environment is very good, there are grandparents at home, need to be taken care of by his parents, parents often force him to find a girlfriend, he said at this time, he will pause, and then look at me and say: "Be my girlfriend!" "One day, his family came to a phone call, saying that his father had a birthday, to go home, at that time just when we came to the factory a batch of new goods, I both had to work overtime, I couldn't find time, he was in a hurry, he asked me to negotiate, I had no choice but to agree, he went to the train station that night, I thought he was home, just stayed in the workshop, both to manage the cutting bed, but also to manage the workshop, just like a war, just when I was too busy to open, suddenly heard his voice, how? Didn't catch a ride? Well, God has eyes, let him come back, just when I was suspicious of this, he came to my side, holding a bouquet of roses in his hand and said: "You go down with me, go to meet someone", I am convinced, I can't finish everything here, you still have this kind of leisure, do things quickly! "I ignored him. Unexpectedly, he dragged me with his hand, let's go! I followed her downstairs, and I was dumbfounded, it turned out that he had picked up his parents, "Which song is this?" "Your parents are coming, what are you telling me to do?" He suddenly turned and knelt before me, calling my name, my dear, holding up the bouquet of roses with both hands, Ouch! I didn't believe that everything in front of me was real, my heart, fluttering straight up, almost jumping out of the chest, the face was like a fire burning, I was very conflicted, yes or no, I hesitated, he handed the flower to my hand, I reluctantly took it, but, always felt inappropriate, and wanted to return it to him, he saw me take the flower, directly dug out a red box from the bag, opened, but it was a diamond ring, my face burned even harder, I retracted my hand, no, I can't pick it up, I responded in my heart, He dragged my hand directly and put it on my hand, and just like that, my second marriage began to sprout. I went through the torment of my first unhappy marriage, my heart seemed to be dead, unwilling to accept everything in front of me, I would often avoid him, when I went to work, he walked in front, I deliberately walked slowly in the back, he would sometimes turn back to pull me, I always refused, I said: "I don't deserve you, you are not married, and I am already the mother of the child," he said: "I know you have a child, I don't care, do you still care?" "Your child is my child, you can rest assured, I will never abandon, I like your character very much, I love you!" But I said; what you men say is not trustworthy, and now, you have sworn that after you get married, it will change. It was always difficult for me to get out of my pain. He looked at me so distrustful of him, she was very sad, once, I suddenly fell ill, he jumped straight, found my cousin, the two of them sent me to the hospital together, my cousin wanted to go to work, and left, but he stayed by my side, there was no place to sleep at night, he used a mat to sleep on the ground, did not go away, I wanted to take medicine at night, injection, he got up to help me pour water, take medicine, but also keep the hanging needle, call the doctor to change the medicine at any time, the whole night did not sleep. I cried gratefully, and the next day he couldn't hold on to it, so he slept at my feet for a while, and from this incident I felt that he was a responsible man, and since that time, I knew that he really loved me, and I gradually accepted him. After I was discharged from the hospital, I was very weak and could not get up in the morning, he would help me buy breakfast early, and when I got up, I felt the warmth of home, my heart was melted by his enthusiasm, his love. He was going outside again, ordering fabrics for the boss, and it was a day or two after he went, but I was a little unaccustomed to it, and I found that I was a little inseparable from him. We often quarrel over a small matter, but after the quarrel, I feel that it is my own fault, and I can't wait long, he comes back to coax me, but I feel very embarrassed. It's not about him arguing, going back to something else. After more than a year of awkwardness, we were in that year 11