Living in Mile, Yunnan, the first few days was November 9, I can't help but feel a little emotional.
On November 9th, when I first set off from home on July 9, I went to Yunnan and counted about 20 days of touring in Qujing's 5 counties and cities, and officially lived in Mile in the back, and it has been a full four months today.
When I came to Maitreya Residence, at the beginning I did not have a big grand plan, nor did I have any specific goals, I just wanted to do things desperately and do more things, but now it seems that at least the status quo is not satisfactory, in the face of the number of sojourners who can't pull up, in the face of countless facades that can't go in, the crowds that can't walk in, and the many situations that can't be opened, I have a feeling of powerlessness for the first time.
At night, a person walking next to the Lake Spring Ecological Park, looking at the flashing lights by the lake, watching the traffic flowing on the street, both strange and cold, I suddenly felt that I should not go.
In the few months of Maitreya, that is, occasionally shooting videos to help netizens find a room, other times is to do some things by themselves, many of the processes in the middle I have shared, the situation is not repeated, at this time, I suddenly thought of the conversation with Xiamen Li Jie, who had just left From Maitreya.
Sister Li came to Maitreya, and only lived for a short month before leaving, and she did not expect that she would call only a few days after leaving.
She said that after leaving Maitreya, she missed the beautiful scenery, the mild climate, missed Maitreya's food, missed Maitreya's Lake Spring Ecological Park, missed Maitreya's pension apartment...
"By the way, and Ah Mao, Ah Mao, I miss you too."
"Haha, miss me? In an instant, a warm current filled my whole body, and I knew that it was a big sister who had been weathered and experienced, and an aunt who was about 60 years old cared for and encouraged me.
"Yes, Amao, I miss you, in Maitreya these days, there is something good to eat and drink, you always remember me, others are not so lucky, which makes me not lonely in Maitreya at all, and my life is happy." 」
"Ah Mao, you are really good, we women, when we are alone, we are particularly bored, but when there are many people, we are annoyed, and there are not many women, how this person is, how that person is, in a few days, it should be estranged, and it should be clicked."
"But Ah Mao, you can always deal with everyone, accept everyone, why people come, what is the situation in people's homes, you never ask a word, don't say a word, no matter who it is, you don't ask more, don't care about people's idle things, and you haven't seen who you argue with, and who you have red-faced, you are always calm and silent, who comes you can receive, I still like who, don't like anyone, but Ah Mao, never heard you say a bad word about others."
"Haha, Sister Li has passed the prize", I couldn't help but interrupt Sister Li's words, although my heart was full of gratitude and encouragement, but I didn't think I was so good.
"Really, Ah Mao, I have learned a lot from you, I love and hate clearly, not left or right, I don't want to see people I don't like, but Ah Mao, you can accept everyone, this is really a place for me to learn, this time in Maitreya, men and women have been in contact with a lot, one by one is so complicated, only with you, without any burden, very relaxed, Ah Mao, sister is not praising you, sister really wants to learn this, in the future can anyone can cope, accept everyone." 」
"Sister, you have passed the prize."
"Ah Mao, just do what you think, really, don't care what people say, how to do it, society is such a structure, what kind of people have seven or eight grooves, really, you made me moved, sister came to Maitreya is lying corpse, is the pension, the whole person in the clouds, confused, with you only to find out that there is a goal, there is motivation, feel that I suddenly became younger, there is a goal and the urge to do something, the next time I come to the rice noodle shop to do volunteer work." 」
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"Sister, don't say it", after listening to Sister Li's words, I couldn't help but burst into tears.
I have never received so much praise and affirmation in my life, which makes me feel encouraged but also full of trepidation, but am I really so good? Good how to become such a haha today, remembering a sentence on the Internet: "Others welcome you to affirm you, not how you are, but people are excellent."
In fact, Sister Li is a truly excellent, truly high-quality person!
But now that she was gone, all the people who had dealt with Maitreya in the past four months were basically gone.
Tonight, standing in the cold and quiet Lake Spring Ecological Park, I also have the urge to leave Maitreya, and I remember a sentence that I wrote when I first arrived at Maitreya: "With my own strength, a small force to promote Maitreya's residence, when one day I am exhausted and can no longer exert half of my strength, I will leave here with nothing."
The words that were heroic and not tragic at the beginning turned out to be exactly the same as my current state of mind.
But in the final analysis, what should be done is still to be done, anything, either do it well, or do it well, do so little bit of what is it..., tonight, when I calmly write down the above paragraph, the mood is unusually open-minded and relaxed, yes, anything, try your best, people have powerless time, joy or sorrow, should do it or continue to do it, don't think about it so much, or Grandpa Mao and his old man said well, if the heavens are old, the right way in the world is vicissitudes. (End)