In April 2018, I married a person I did not love very much, we met for only half a year, we did not have too much contact in this half year, but he was really good to me, I worked in the city, because our family is in the mountains, he will take the initiative to drive me back every time, and will also go to the mountains to pick me up when I am going to the city, his initiative touched me, so in April, despite the objections of my parents, I secretly got a license with him.
In September 2017, we ate a supper together under the introduction of colleague Xiao Shi, he (Xiao Yu) brought a friend over and ordered a field chicken pot, the field chicken in the shop was very large, two pounds was enough for five of us to eat, and also ordered some small dishes (green vegetables, duck blood, dried tofu) The boss lady is a very humorous person, the first contact with him, think he is also very interesting, when ordering he will deliberately separate the field chickens, such as the boss lady, the field chicken how do you catch us to eat ah, is it necessary for us to go to the field to sit and eat chicken? The lady boss replied, hahaha, the little brother is a frog, you have not eaten; he will say, it was a frog, the frog is a frog, or a field chicken, I thought it was to go to the field to eat chicken... Wait; colleague Xiaoxia and his friends also chatted a lot, have been chatting very happy, that night everyone ate very happy, the first image is also good, I am not very good at chatting, just like he said less. After the first day, we didn't have much contact, and for the next week, he often went out for supper, breakfast, dinner, and said that he was born twice cooked, and came and went. Not long after, the company announced bankruptcy, we were all unemployed, Xiaoxia also went to Hunan, met a boyfriend in Hunan, and it didn't take long for the news that he was married, Xiao shi also met his current husband when he went to the bar to play, and everyone got married one after another. And I have no job, I went back to my home to work, went to the makeup room to learn makeup, did a makeup artist, every morning out and returned late, the feelings slowly faded, basically no contact, after losing my job I have been living in Xiao Shi's rental house, she chose to go to his husband's house to live, a person in the city is always lonely, confused and contacted him (Xiao Yu) again, and then went to the bar for the first time with him, just opposite the dormitory where I lived, that day almost played until 12 o'clock, the first time I went to feel very noisy, very disliked, He asked someone to send me back. I continued to contract many times, until one day I found that I really hated that kind of life, and I broke off contact with him again.
Time passed quickly, to the beginning of 2018, about 2 months or more, we were in touch again, I don't know if it was brain pumping, he called and said that he wanted to come over to mention the kiss, I actually agreed, when the fifth day of the new year, their family people drove to our mountains, came to mention the relatives, did not give red envelopes, is to buy some happy cakes and wine and the like, just so simple, lived here for two days and left, to the Lantern Festival after he came to the house to pick me up to the big city, when he also went to pick up a young lady, I don't know if it was a gamble or stupid, directly said my husband to pick up a young lady, otherwise it would be divided, no one knew anyone, he began to apologize non-stop, constantly explaining, the heart is too soft He apologized and forgave him. In April, he foolishly got a license with him, and the license was not found to be pregnant within a month, and then life began to be in the depths of the water; his family began to change their faces like turning books, all kinds of numbers fell, and began to negotiate a good bride price of thirty thousand also became ten thousand, at that time too stupid, did not stop the loss in time, and then the child was born, he took the child alone, others did not give a penny, the eldest sister also scolded that he spent the old man's money, did not go to work, let me carry the son who had just reached the full moon to find a job, he may not really be so loving, Just got and did not want to cherish, let the eldest sister count me and the child, the child just full moon all kinds of dissatisfaction, all kinds of provocations and provocations against me, and he gladly accepted such provocations, every time he lost his temper with me, smashed the stool in front of me, smashed things, scolded me. One wrong step wrong step wrong, don't know why it's so stupid.
Last year we went out to work together, the son to the mother-in-law, I am also tired enough, in the morning to get up early to feed the son breakfast, lunch does not know whether he has to eat, at night after work home to feed him, give him a bath, at that time he was thin and small, looking good pain, and then the eldest sister's son also got retribution, and got pneumonia admitted to the hospital, the mother-in-law was also admitted to the hospital because of the stroke, I also had to continue to work, I sent my son back to the mother's house, the child in addition to thinking about his mother every day, other times are very good to bring.
This year, because I was pregnant with my second child, I couldn't directly resign to take care of my baby at home, and I took care of my wife who had suffered a stroke. I don't know if it's because I'm too stupid or too kind, I can always be angry with myself, because no one helps, I'm tired, I'm annoyed, I can only take my son out of anger, I always can't help scolding him and beating him, maybe just because I don't want to love him anymore, but why not divorce it, in fact, I also thought about divorce, I also made trouble, and in the end I didn't succeed, I hurt my child, I was afraid that my child didn't have the mother's love, what should I do, I want to take my child myself but I have no income and no savings, and I am also guilty of following myself.
Life should stop the loss in time, otherwise the back will only be more and more owed, life will only be more and more burden forward, do not love, do not love, if there is an afterlife, I hope that everyone can be happy, do not have regrets and regrets!