Stuart vividly remembers that on an ordinary afternoon, he had gone from being a grain of the crowd to a loaded sociopath. Since then, he has become a ghost wandering the streets, a strange person used by parents to scare children.
It's a short but incredibly long life of a 33-year-old antisocial, with only an extremely unhappy and fragile soul in the fog of alcoholism, heroin, violence, thieves, etc.
This is a TV-Moive based on Alexander Masters' book of the same name, and a lot of the dialogue in the film restores the real dialogue of the original work.
Alexander never imagined that he would eventually develop something similar to a friendship with this crazy tramp. Most people can't understand the living conditions of marginal people like Stuart, and this unknown person is undoubtedly terrifying and disgusting to most people. This impression also exists in the middle-class people that Stuart has always been hostile to, although they have not been carefully understood, but the opposition between class and power has formed a natural hostility.
This is originally a heavy and sad true story, but the film has ulterior motives and uses a fresh method to entertain the narrative. When Alexander was initially in the car telling Stuart about the beginning of the biography, Stuart grumbled that it was all boring. He also knew that people didn't want to care about the growth of an unknown person, but there was a different kind of curiosity to understand what had happened to create such a damaged soul.
What we saw was a scruffy tramp walking strangely and talking like a whisper. In front of Alexander, Stuart was able to easily come forward and talk, as if there was no threat, but with a little understanding, he knew the dangerous side behind the young man who seemed to be vulnerable in front of him. Severe self-destructive tendencies, emotional instability, suffering from uncommon muscular dystrophy, day-to-day alcoholism and long-term use of heroin.
Behind all these vices, unlike the angry tramp who is lazy and has nothing to do all day and only knows how to hate the system, Stuart has a very kind and grateful attitude to face the people who have helped him. He remembered the charity and care of the two men at Cambridge University, giving him clothes, food, and even intimate pudding after meals. With the same goal of helping two Cambridge scholars in prison innocents, Stuart and Alexander walked together.
As a typical Middle Class British, Alexander was initially skeptical and resistant to Stuart, and when Stuart first came to Alexander's house, he even feared that Stuart would steal valuables from the family. However, as the contact deepened, he found that Stuart was full of surprise and fascination, and he became more and more fond of Stuart. As Alexander said, Stuart led him into an unknown world. This world is a kind of crazy chaos that "mortals" like us have never entered.
Stuart calls his dark side the midnight fog, a condition he can't control and predict.
Stuart is often controlled by sudden demonic emotions, his thoughts are in chaos, and when he reacts, he is often covered in blood. Because of the suicide attempt, the mood is on the verge of collapse at any time, and the British government has provided Stuart with a set of small bureaus at a high rate. When he was at peace, Stuart lived silently in this space, writing diaries that others could not read, carefully classifying, sorting out his own itinerary, and even coming up with some plans to help foreign businessmen start their own businesses.
Anger in the average person is just a passer-by, and from time to time, turn your head and go. In Stuart,Rage is already a long-term resident who is not far away.
Stuart has a more unfortunate life than most people, being bullied since childhood, being sexually abused by his own brother and the manager of the children's home in his childhood, torturing himself in various juvenile detention centers and prisons, and sitting in prison for 5 years for the robbery of the bigger fart, in addition to mental torture, he also faces the darkness of disability. A person has never had a good thing in his life, not even a good fantasy, how much torture does it take for a person to endure?
The delicate friendship with Alexander was perhaps the best course of Stuart's life. This is also why the final outcome is so bitter. Even Alexander couldn't understand whether Stuart's death was a suicide or an accident, but we always hoped that Stuart just had the misfortune of crashing into the train. If after having friends like Alexander, you still can't get rid of the suicidal obsession, such a Stuart is too painful.
The title of this article comes from Stuart's summative commentary on Alexander's upcoming biography while trying on a suit. He himself struggled to tie the bow tie and said lightly," "I have lived a very controversial... and very unpleasant life. ”
This line is so monotonous, so peaceful but so peacefully narrated such a sad helplessness.
Stuart was just a nobody, a powerless individual living at the bottom, a tormented and damaged soul. At any given time, there are always such inconspicuous individuals around us who disappear into tired and fragmented bodies. We can't see it, and we may choose not to see it. The film is like a patchwork of a fragmented mirror, through the refraction of the mirror to see a chaotic world that we can't understand, and in the blink of an eye, what we see is our tearful and powerless self in the reflection.
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