Ni Ping is a very famous host in China, and she has a natural affinity for the program she hosts, which has won unanimous praise from the audience.
However, such a successful host has a bumpy emotional experience, especially the love-hate relationship with the famous director Chen Kaige, which once became the focus of everyone's discussion.
For this period of the past, Ni Ping made a detailed analysis in her autobiographical book , "Days".
"It's a period of time without self-esteem, a time of losing yourself.
I made this mistake soberly, it was a time when life degenerated and souls surrendered.
My infatuation, I thought I could make lovers cherish, I first established that love is unconditional, and then, I want to love the most perfect state, is the combination of two people.
For love, I can't help myself and live a life that I can't look back on, if someone asks me now, what is this feeling that those days give you? I would say, there is no dignity. If someone asks me a thousand times, I will tell him a thousand and one times that there is no dignity!
The horror of love is precisely this kind of defiance. When you can give, you never think that the fire of your life is about to be extinguished, in fact, it is a time of lost reason.
Whenever a well-meaning person asks, are you not going to start a family again? I would fall into boundless embarrassment and sighs;
After work, my friend asked me: Where to send you? I swallowed and couldn't answer for half a day.
I feel that I have overstep my bounds for the sake of emotion, have experienced the humility and slackness of emotion, and all I have left is the last bit of dignity of being a woman.
An innocent person, but living an innocent life.
Chen Chong once said to me that a man must truly love a woman, he will marry her no matter what, a man who does not intend to marry the woman he loves, is a man without a sense of responsibility, you must not trust such a man.
But he kept saying to me, I'm going to live with you.
But he never gave me a name.
Even if it is misunderstood by colleagues and questioned by my own relatives, for this love, I would rather put down my body and be the most gentle woman behind him. ”
Even if Chen Kaige was too busy at work to take care of his father who was bedridden, Ni Ping took the place of him to do filial piety, and took care of all the affairs of his father's death, and even attended the funeral as a daughter-in-law, still could not change the fact that he cheated on Chen Hong, and was finally forced to end the eight-year marriage with the farce of Chen Hong's forced marriage.
"Once we loved each other so much, it was just vulnerable!"
"I really regret my intestines!"
Between the lines of "Days", there is a surge of regret and hatred for this past. It profoundly portrays the tragic woman Ni Ping, who would rather let go of her self-esteem for the sake of the man she loves deeply, and taste all the pain caused by it alone.
After 8 years of wholehearted dedication, the final result is not "I married you", but "you married another woman." ”
What a harsh reality! What an unforgettable past! What a devious and changeable human nature!
Seeing this, are you still willing to be the woman in your marriage who can sacrifice her self-esteem for love?
Love that is low to the dust cannot blossom into happiness! Zhang Ailing used her own personal experience to draw such a painful conclusion very early!
You can love a man, but don't lose all of yourself. No man is worth your life to please. If you don't love yourself, how can you make others love you?
Remember: in marriage, you must not lose self-esteem and self because of love, once you have reached that step, you will soon be severely punished by reality!
Because the man who loves you will never let you be wronged a little!
A man who doesn't love you, even if he gives his life for him, will only be ruthlessly abandoned by him!