When I was working on a large project in the unit, I worked overtime for two consecutive months without taking a weekend off. Almost every day I was busy until I went to bed at 2 o'clock at night and woke up at 6 o'clock in the morning.
Labor is like this, obviously exhausted, but with things in mind, I can't sleep. No matter how tired you are, the alarm clock is set at 6:30, but you always wake up at 6 o'clock, silently close it, get up, brush your teeth with a headache, and change clothes.
With the mood of going to the grave, go to work.
Exhaustion can make people numb. It has been too long, and it relies on inertia to rotate continuously. Trivia, chores, problems of all sizes, voices, tasks, telephones, hundreds of people eating and drinking Lasa. It feels like every cell in the body is squeezed out of the juice by the working gears. One by one, they dried up.
In the end, there was almost no distinction between man and animal.
That afternoon, because the bus driver of the inspection group was grumpy and did not take the highway, he was known by the big boss, and he called my office and indiscriminately scolded me.
After staying up for such a long time, such as the last three kilometers of the marathon, I didn't know what exhaustion was, I thought it was made of steel, but at the moment of the phone call, I suddenly collapsed and cried until I couldn't catch my breath.
It turns out that what people can't stand the most is not suffering. It's that you don't know why you're suffering and eating.
Thinking of the tired and tired days in the past two months, I really know that the Plate of Chinese Food, the grains are hard. In the end, it was only the person who ate who tasted it, bit a grain of sand, and then scolded and threw away the whole box of rice.
What makes people grow up, people grow up to encounter this kind of thing, cry, sort out their voices and emotions, continue to calmly work overtime until 9 pm, and pack up their things and go home as usual.
Of course, what makes people old, old is to encounter this kind of thing, will never cry again.
Stepping out of the building, I looked up, and the moonlight was cold, only a sickle of light, hanging quietly. Dark blue sky, stratus clouds like the sea. Somehow, remembering the poet's sentence "The sky has nothing, why give me comfort", there was a slight tidal wave under my eyes.
The moon was quiet, and in the open space behind the office building, a broken radio shouted into impatience with Indian dance music, a loud noise. A group of big aunts are happily dancing gymnastics, forming a large circle, living like zombies, raising their hands flat, one after another, slowly rotating in a circle. Their expressions were so cheerful that they looked innocent. I can't help but think - if this life is like this, from youth to twilight, but every day to work, retirement in the open space to dance the "dam dance", is not equivalent to living in vain.
Enough is enough, go to yours, dog day life.
After finishing the project with all my heart and righteousness, I resigned calmly.
After all, it is a person with a choice, and I did not expect the 600 yuan salary and 1000 yuan of performance to live. In the two-thousand-word resignation letter, I wrote with some sadness, "I don't want to look back after many years, and the peak I have climbed all my life is the rush hour." ”
All the leaders are reasonable, understand, and say that it is indeed a concession to let you stay here. We also don't understand why you're here.
I thought it was a smooth and smooth way to leave, and from then on, I was too lazy to work, just traveling the world, feeding horses and chopping firewood, and caring for grain and vegetables.
Unexpectedly, on the night of the email, the big boss (the one who scolded me on the phone) would not let me go. I am also a person in a high position, and I am emailed back in the middle of the night, writing a long series of words to keep me, saying" I will also correct the way I do things."
At the end, a separate email was added: "Really don't go!!! ”
Five words, three exclamation points.
The next day was a morning work meeting, which was open until 1:30 p.m. Later I was gone, and he was still in the meeting.
Instead, he sent me a text message, "Don't go." ”
It made me suddenly confused: like in the romance TV series, the long-term marriage is not harmonious, the big husband plans to cheat and seek a new life, but the wife suddenly comes to keep it.
Talked to a friend who loves diving about these things. Ten years old friend, I talked to her on qq, said to her, "You know, I am not because I can't bear this suffering, can't stand this loneliness, and escape from life." I just feel that life is short, and there is no point in going on like this. ”
She said, "I understand. "Like me, I never used travel as an escape from life.
It may also be that I didn't want to admit it.
I found that the reason why I love diving so much is because I found that I couldn't cope with the world on the shore and didn't have the ability to maintain physical and mental freedom in complex real life. ”
We resign, travel... But we all have to go back to life. Life is, whether you are in Paris, In Buenos Aires, in Anshan, or in Dali, you need a room, a bed, food, clothing, shelter and transportation.
To be a person with an unbroken conscience and who has joined the world, we must admit that we cannot completely escape the world and travel the world to feed the horses and chop firewood.
It is not easy for a person to admit his limitations.
I used to love to promote that set of things more than anyone — as the big celebrity said in the talk show: "You don't date, don't fall in love, don't hang out, don't drink, don't shop, don't go crazy, don't rebel, don't chase stars, don't have a crush, don't confess, don't party, don't sing, don't sing, don't lie wild, because you have to study, you have to work." 」 Have your youth been eaten by dogs? ”
But now, I want to ask the big celebrity more: "Are you by dating love to go out, drink, go shopping, go crazy, rebellious star chasing, crush confession party k song wild, did you become yours?" ”
Sorry, I still have to mention this tweet again: "When you fought all night, the lightfish in Brisbane had already crossed the coral thickets; when you rushed to the job fair, the little crab in Mombasa had just slipped out of the fisherman's palm; when you wrote the program code, the Prague tram was swinging through the golden sunset..."
But now, I just want to say that for the vast majority of our reincarnation technology is not good, not the second generation of rich officials, do not fight all night, do not rush to the job fair, do not write program code, how can there be money, ability, to see brisbane lamp fish, to Mombasa to see the fisherman, to Prague to see the sunset?
Don't pull it off.
I can understand that everyone loves beautiful and exquisite things. Fictionalized on the screen or on paper, often rich, luxurious, refined, and laid-back. Beautiful and tall young men and women, sitting in coffee shops during the day and chatting in nightclubs at night, endless gatherings of friends and traveling around the world; when they wake up in the morning, they also have exquisite makeup, hairstyles are not messy, there is no eye, and there is no need to pee, but affectionate and lovers to start a well-worded dialogue.
Of course, this is excusable. In addition to the commercial factors of public aesthetics, it may be that real life is already so pale and mean that we are completely tired; it is rare to take a break, so we prefer to look at some beautiful and relaxed fiction.
But you know, fiction is fiction, life is life.
The person who made the fiction did not live his life as he did in the fiction.
So don't be fooled.
Studying hard and working hard is the same as youth being eaten by dogs?
Is it meaningless to squeeze the bus every day and squeeze the subway and get to work on time?
Screw you.
All, travel, crush, k song, star chasing, eating and drinking... It's just an embellishment of life. You know you can't spend your life like this.
Unless you just want to practice reincarnation and become an x-second generation; then all the x-generations have struggled. According to that theory, their youth was eaten by dogs; the days they had studied and worked so hard were meaningless.
After all, even the rich wives and the big money need to learn, endure, and do their work; there is also the danger of shattering dreams.
Yes, those damn problems we did in our junior year of high school, and these damn things we do now, the instant noodles we ate when we had a hard time, the bikes we rode when we ran customers, none of them made sense.
But we have to go through these meaningless things to accumulate into a meaningful life.
In "Cloud Atlas", it is said that a drop of water is not a sea.
But not a drop of water, never a sea.
Far from it. The story ends with the fact that I did not go my own way, but accepted their retention for the time being; for retention, like jealousy, is one person's greatest affirmation of another.
The weak always resign and leave when they feel the worst, hoping that the change of the environment will bring something; the strong, when they feel the best, resign and leave, seeking a higher and farther world. I didn't say that, Yu Minhong said. To the effect.
Believing in what you do always makes sense. Burn it, dog day life.