Desperate Circumstances (Novel)

Text | Li Yan

People living in this world are not necessarily smooth sailing, or encounter difficulties and setbacks, or encounter disasters... In this regard, some people are upset and miserable, and some people are depressed and pessimistic and disappointed. In fact, the burden of life, if you taste carefully, how can it not be the golden stone of life? The fortitude and fortitude of being a man, all of which are tempered by setbacks, the brilliant stars of man are born out of deep disasters, and the graceful and colorful nature of people is precisely the feet that are deep in the mud and do not forget to look up at the stars...

In January 1995, I jumped from the town government to a company in the town as a secretary, and the manager renovated and renovated the office, and his original office let me use it. Despite this, its facilities are also beyond the main leaders of the town's party and government: with suites, large wooden desks and chairs, high-end coffee tables, sofas, Poly board wall skirts... There are also program-controlled telephones that have just been installed by township units. I couldn't help but be complacent about this choice I had made, but before long, my intestines were remorseful.....

Comparative income is relatively low. Here, although the salary is twice the original, and as a secretary, however, the number of tedious tasks that must be handled every day is innumerable, although the unit is less than two kilometers away from home, and the time spent Chinese New Year's Eve the family is less than 10 nights, and it used to be possible to eat at home, but now it is necessary to pay for meals in the unit room.

Relatively low social status. It turns out that no matter where they go, people receive high and far away, and they are respectful, including going to various villages and town units to do some private affairs, all the way to the green light, people are still polite, and now, when they go out, they need to pay tribute to people who are slightly valuable.

Connections are intricate. Most of the company's personnel are "inbreeding", coupled with each other's climbing and kinship, almost all employees are involved, and I entered alone, there is no relative and no reason, if you inadvertently offend a person, it is possible to attract a large group of people from the whole system to come to fight, and people can do whatever you want. The only distant uncle who was involved with me and was regarded as a "patron" by me as a driver in the company was very harsh on me: he took the unit bus he was driving into the city, and because of the delay of 10 minutes, he left me in the dust; in view of the special identity of the driver, he heard that the manager wanted to reuse me, and then his head shook like a rattle: "He is my nephew, that is, let him be the premier of the State Council, I have no opinion, the key, he is not that piece of material..." Then, catching the wind and catching shadows, Out of context, a whole bunch of so-called reasons are listed to refute them.

The chances of getting ahead are slim. There are regular employees in the company who want to adjust their posts or counties, and the operation has not worked for several years, and for me, a temporary worker, it is difficult to make a difference

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In the days of sorrow, I think that it is not the world that chooses you, but the world that you choose, and it is not what kind of life fate gives you, it is you who choose that life for yourself. Since this is the case, don't complain about the world, don't stand up for the hammer, establish a solution to the thinking, find the entry point and breakthrough to break through the bottleneck, work hard, try, change, it is always possible to usher in the "sunny day".

On the basis of the analysis and judgment of the quality structure of the staff in the system, I looked at the gap in the lack of secretarial talents in the system, and on the basis of the original writing expertise, I secretly saved up my strength, continued to exert efforts, overcame the difficulties of the company's small, less news, and less contact with the outside world, and implemented briefings, publicity reports, and theoretical research together, and finally obtained the elegant title of "little writer".

Good luck sent me autumn waves, but it was fleeting. Just when my writing strength and fame were advancing with the times, the manager of our company was transferred to the director of the county company office, and the office urgently needed secretarial talents, of course, I was the best candidate, Presumably he knew me very well, and he could take me with him later. However, it didn't take long for the news that "after the manager was transferred out, people were embarrassed and angry because I said a lot of bad things about him", and Xu was a person who hated me to see through the reason that I wanted to use this "Goofy" to deliberately make up right and wrong to secretly make up bad things. It seems that the long-planned plan has been completely aborted.

The roof leaks and rains. In the Spring Festival of 1997, just when the family was happy, I accidentally learned that the manager who had recently taken up my new position was going to sweep me out of the house, and it turned out that someone had put a basin on my head, which made me extremely depressed and anxious.

Explain. People are deliberate, the impossible things, said there is a nose and an eye, even if it is thorough, the manager is unbelievable, and, the more black the painting, the more difficult to argue, it is very likely to detonate a "bombshell", if it explodes, the thunder wave will inevitably touch the depths of the formation, and even cause half of the personnel of the unit to "crush to pieces", they absolutely cannot retreat from the whole body, and they will fall into a situation of no return.

It will be. What is the value of living like the walking dead in an embattled predicament?

Escape. Although people say that "there is no grandfather here, there is a place to stay", however, there is no more ideal place to go than at present, and besides, "a good woman does not marry a second husband", it is better to go one place, it is better to stay in one place and stay in one place, if you leave at this time, it is in the arms of some people.

There is always a road in life, the sun can not shine in, some people are afraid of the dark to go back, some people choose to go down in the dark. In the days when I was attacked by the enemy on my stomach and back, weak and desperate, and helpless, I tossed and turned, thought bitterly, and gradually became enlightened: People live in hope, hope makes people refreshed, and they are full of vigor in doing things; people, not afraid of being blocked by thousands of people, only afraid of surrendering themselves, there is no desperate environment, only the hearts of people who are desperate for the environment; no matter how bad the reality is, there must be hope of survival, no matter how difficult the situation is, one day it will disappear; trekking in the trough, how to go is upward, as long as the vitality is not extinguished, even if it is hit by natural disasters and man-made disasters, Temporarily blocked, there will be a day to look up; the so-called best life, but in the predicament silently find the direction, quietly store energy in the silence, as long as not discouraged, do not give up, there is a road, bold walking, dreams, bold flying, will eventually meet with the beautiful ...

I lacked the psychological quality of "Tarzan collapsed in front of me and the color remained unchanged, and the musk deer was happy on the left and did not look at the moment", nor did I dare to show a trace of strange words and deeds in front of people. There are four paths to escape depression: reading, literature and religion, and confiding. Literature, along with philosophy and religion, is the troika of the human spirit, all of which have the effect of re-understanding life to make it broader, to purify the soul, to make the restless mind tend to be calm and stable, and to find more vivid feelings about life. I took the method of reading, writing a diary, and confiding in the solution: I forgot to eat and sleep to learn new businesses, new knowledge, and new skills; from time to time I recorded helplessness and resentment about the current embarrassing situation, even if I suffered unfair treatment during the period; I could not tell my own painful experiences like Xiang Lin's sister-in-law in Mr. Lu Xun's short story "Blessings", and the result was to annoy people, be swept out of the house, become a beggar, and die in the wind and rain, but chose to fight with the eight rods of the unit, no half-cent relationship, It is impossible to spread the best friends to talk and talk to achieve the desired purpose.

The so-called "good luck" is nothing more than using setbacks and tribulations as a driving force, but it is a continuous effort, but an opportunity to meet the effort. In 1998, in an essay contest organized by the County Party Committee Literary Association, the documentary essay I wrote won the first prize. One of the judges was the general manager who parachuted into our county company not long ago. It turned out that he also liked literature, and from that article, he not only saw my level of writing, but also saw my profundity and reality. On the proposal to let me work in the company's office, of course, caused many people to "break the gong", he personally came to the scene to conduct a detailed inspection of me, resolutely made a decision, I was actually the first person to work in the temporary work of the county company office.

When you get to a new job, the requirements are more stringent, the tasks are more arduous, the relationships are more complex, and the challenges are more severe. Hugo once said, "Man is stronger and more indomitable in adversity than in good times." Hemingway also said: "Life always makes us bruised, but then those wounded places will become our strongest places." "Isn't it? Good times are all polished by adversity, and adversity is the mother of good times, the ladder to good times, and the sublimation of life's awakening; those cracks that have been scratched by thorns have eventually become the patterns in the story, repairing our lives more thickly and more calmly. Therefore, people who can come out of desperate adversity are bound to become more radiant and charming, and they will inevitably make you stronger in the years to come.

Tonglian: Henan Neixiang Rural Commercial Bank

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