I am a mouse, a mouse that lives in a dark corner.
I wanted to see the light, I longed to be human, so I came into this world despite the objections of the rat world, but I was still a rat, a rat living in a dark corner.
I was in a corner where no one saw me, hoping that it would get dark soon, because I was ugly, so I chose tranquility, and because I chose tranquility, I was destined to be lonely all my life. But I am not afraid, because I have the courage to endure loneliness, he gave me this, every night he will come here, so I silently prayed that the sky would soon darken, he was a different cat, there was an impulse in his heart, he had sharp eyes, with a melancholy look, smooth fur, sharp teeth, sharp claws, like a ruler of the cat world. He loves to come over here and date a cat named Xueling. Xueling is a beautiful cat, she has snow-white skin, a gentle personality, feminine eyes, a delicate face and a devilish figure.
When I saw XueLing bury her head in his arms, I looked down at myself, gray fur, quietly dull eyes, and her figure was so bloated, completely incompatible with beauty. An inexplicable hatred and bitterness arose in my heart. I hate Xueling, although she looks docile and beautiful, but she has my favorite, and at the same time I hate God, why don't you give me a look like Xueling, so that I can also be with my favorite, I can bury my head deep in his arms, hold him, touch him, kiss him, feel the sweetness from him, even for a second, I am willing.
I watched Xueling kiss him and walk away, watching him watch Xueling go away, until Xueling disappeared into the night, and he was still crouching there. The wind blew up his fur, and it looked so lonely that I couldn't help but want to get closer, but I didn't, and if that were the case, I would never see him again. So I watched him silently, feeling the wind blowing on him until he left.
I came to the place where he had just squatted and longed in my heart. Endure the loneliness of not seeing him during the day, endure the torment of seeing him at night and not being able to talk to her, not being able to touch and kiss her. Every day, the pain filled my body with the blood in my heart, and several times, I wanted to leave this, forget him, and start my new life. I hesitated, I couldn't help but see him, then I would die, and he never knew that there was a mouse that loved him deeply.
Another night, I didn't want to see his intimate relationship with Xueling, nor did I want to hear the sweet words between them. I hid in the grass, weeping, sketching myself with him... When I came out of the grass, Xueling was already gone, leaving him crouching there alone. Having endured so long in silence, I was going to tell him that there was a mouse that had been silently loving him, close, close, and I approached him gently, and he didn't notice it, because he had been staring in the direction where Xueling was going, motionless. I approached him gently again, and the characteristic smell of his body made my blood boil. I was intoxicated, and I was finally alone with him! I pulled myself back from my imagination because I saw his bright eyes staring at me strangely! I knew death was close to me, so I blurted out without thinking, "I love you!" "He's still staring at me." I have been deeply in love with you without regret, endured the torment of loving you, endured the pain of loving you, today, I finally have the courage to stand in front of you and say what I want to say..." I just said it myself, I think he will understand, because my eyes are full of love for him, I believe, he can see, he can understand! He pressed me under his paws, I had no fear, more of a calmness, I felt him tearing my body with his sharp teeth, I didn't feel pain because I was finally with him! "Honey, did you see that?" A heart, red, has always loved your heart..." Slowly, the body decreased a little, I gradually lost consciousness, I knew that I was about to leave this beautiful and sad world, forever away from my beloved him, but I did not regret it, because I was going to be one with him, short-lived, so happy...
Finally, I came to heaven in a feeling of happiness, only to find that there were so many love like me, knowing that it was impossible to get, but giving everything, I asked them: "Do you regret it?" "No regrets!" They answered in unison. Why ask them, do I regret it? I don't know, and I don't want to know...
Unconsciously coming to heaven for so many days, because of the thought of him, I begged God to give me a chance to see him, God hesitated for a moment, agreed, so, through the thick clouds, I finally saw him, is that him? Is he I deeply in love with? Godless eyes reveal sadness and helplessness, covered with dust and curled up in the dark corner, looking so helpless... I was heartbroken, I was helpless, and I asked God with tears in my eyes, what is going on, why is this happening? God said slowly, "Child, I didn't want you to look at him again, since you came here, Xueling has fallen in love with another Elvis Presley, he is more powerful, stronger, so she left him... When he found out, he went to find the Elvis and regain his favorite, but where was his opponent, and the result was... "I am sad, I hate the Xueling who abandoned him, but what can I do?" I can't bear to look at it again, I regret it, I'm thinking, if I can stand it for a while, then maybe I'll be with him? Will there be happiness? I slowly turned around and looked at God with tears in my eyes, not knowing what else to say.
God looked at me and said in a serious tone, "Child, there are some things that we can get effortlessly because they are ours; there are some things that we can get through our own efforts because they can be ours; but some things, no matter how hard we try, are impossible, because they do not belong to us in the first place, so why waste any more energy?" Child, you and he are not all the way, you will not have a happy future, forget him... Starting with the "heart", you look at the sky...
I looked up and looked up at the sky, a new sun was slowly rising, fiery red, the sky was beautiful...