Your name, my heart

"Your Name, My Heart" (completed)

He carried me to the cupboard and sat down, his dark eyes looking me straight into my eyes.

"How many times have I rejected you, you just said?" he asked.

"128 times." I looked down and my heart couldn't stop beating.

"So, how about kissing 128 times to make up for it?" He put his hand around me, and before he could finish speaking, the kiss fell softly: "1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6..."

When he counted to 119, he looked at me with red eyes: "I have conceded defeat. Every time you refuse, how about compensating you with ten thousand kisses?"

The fire of desire ignited little by little in his calm eyes until it stretched into a sea.

"What are you going to do to me?" I smiled at him with my mouth pursed.

「...... Do what spring will do for cherry trees."

What Spring did to the cherry tree, I sent him a love letter in Neruda's poem.

Meaning, and you blossom and bear fruit...

The cold and ascetic male god doctor × sensitive and kind little medicine generation

(Please eat a sweet candy ~)

1

The white coat leaned over my head and put it back on the pillow.

In an instant, the nose was filled with a strong and strange smell of men, like mint mixed with soap horns, clean and fascinating.

On the metal badge in front of me is a small blue letter: Emergency Department Dr. Gu Zuo.

The name made me feel a little dizzy.

Caught off guard, he threw up.

The clean white coat was covered with a piercing filth.

The doctor slowly and methodically took off his mask and said lightly, "Classmate Jiang You, you are a new way to chase me?"

My heart "clucked" a little.

It was really him, the gu zuo I had been chasing madly for two years.

Not ready to meet. I panicked and hid the spring light of the deep V evening dress, rolled over and got out of bed to get ready to slip away.

Gu Zuo was stunned for a moment, and then he put his arm around my shoulder and said, "I'm sorry, I recognized the wrong person." Digestion with alcohol should be left to watch for 24 hours. This is the observation ward, you can sleep for a while."

His slightly cool fingertips were like a soothing medicine. The body became his puppet and was obediently helped back to the bed.

Ten years apart.

His shallow dimples still carry a clean youthful spirit, and the wider chest and clear throat knots show the sexual tension of a mature man.

There was the sound of the emergency bed pushing past outside the door, Gu Zuo concisely and professionally said a few words, put back the mask, and strode away.

Mixed with alcohol and a tired body, he quickly fell asleep.

2

The sound of rain outside the window pulled me back into the rain of the evening class.

At that time, the night rain was particularly delicate.

Delicately covering the window glass of the classroom, it also lightly illuminated Gu Zuo's face.

"Ginger Right! What are you writing here?!"

The teacher's rosy dress appeared in sight, and with rage she took away my notebook and read aloud:

"In the rain, his eyes were shining brightly and smiling at me, and his eyes were like a dangling milky way. Ah, it turns out that there are so many stars when it rains..."

Yes, there are stars in Gu Zuo's eyes, can't you all see them?

The teacher read exaggeratedly, and the classmates laughed wildly. Only Gu Zuo by the window was still quietly reading a book, and his head was not raised.

"Ginger Right! Spend the work of writing this kind of thing on studying, and you won't fail every time."

"If I can catch up with Gu Zuo, I can score a hundred points every time!"

When the teacher heard the rebuttal, he exploded: "Jiang Right, go out and stand!"

I walked out with my head held high, standing soaked in the rainy corridor, looking left through the glass.

Worthy of the boy I chased 128 times, just the vague outline, all of which made people red.

But why?

Why is it that suddenly Gu Zuo is gone and his classmates are gone? ......

The teacher in the rose red dress turned into the face of a lawyer.

She told me, with a rain-stained face, that my father's company was bankrupt and that I could no longer go to expensive private schools.

That night, my parents and I dragged two worn-out suitcases and stood in the empty torrential rain.

For the first time, I experienced the feeling that my heart was like dead ash, and the ash was blown away by the wind and there was nothing left.

This feeling was a hundred times worse than seeing Gu Zuo go home from school with the beautiful female school committee.

In the cold and bone-chilling rainy night, the girl's heart about Gu Zuo's heart was also like the lightning of a thunderbolt in the night.

After the moment of light, it fell into boundless darkness.

3

I woke up at five in the morning.

Picking up the mobile phone, it was the leader's good report: "Jiang Right, yesterday you didn't drink in vain, sell two devices to count your performance."

He followed, "Give me next week's plan by ten o'clock."

I glanced at the time in the upper right corner of my phone and calculated in my mind that it was time to go to the company's "liver" program.

Just after stepping on his high heels, Gu Zuo, who was wearing a white coat, pushed the door in, his eyes filled with faint red blood, and he was carrying two steaming bags in his hand.

"Excuse me, Dr. Gu." I smiled politely, lowered my head and straightened the hem of my skirt to go outside, but a pair of hands grabbed my wrists.

At the age of 18, when I first opened my love sinus, I imagined countless idol drama scenes where Gu Zuo grabbed his wrist.

Every time, I imagined these scenes, imagining his body temperature, screaming with excitement in the quilt.

But how can I be compared to the proud and clean me I was then?

Like this pleasing black wrap-up evening dress, in contrast to the steady and ascetic white coat,

Really, vulgar and debauched.

"This patient," Gu Zuo looked down at me, "you just washed your stomach five hours ago, and you can't leave now."

I looked back and smiled, "It doesn't matter, my life is hard."

Gu Zuo stared at me for three seconds, and finally did not speak, and handed me the steaming bag in his hand: "I brought it to my colleague, but he is already off work, send it to you."

I reached over, walked out of the emergency room, and casually threw my breakfast in the trash.

If you don't see or eat, you won't be distressed.

People who are exhausted have no right to sentimentality.

4

A week later, I met Gu Zuo again. This time it was at the dinner table.

The manager brought us two medical representatives. The other was Gu Zuo and a young surgeon.

I'm the only one woman.

"I've long heard that Manager Chang has a special female medicine substitute who can drink, is this one?" The surgeon held out his hand, "My name is He Jun."

"My name is Jiang You." I also smiled and held out my hand, and the newly made nail art was bright red and feminine, which was very lined with today's wrap dress.

"Jiang Right, Jiang Right..." He Jun shattered his thoughts and looked at Gu Zuo, "His name is Gu Zuo, you are lovers' names!"

Gu Zuo extinguished his cigarette and stood up, stretched out his hand to shake my hand, "Hello."

I greeted him and smiled, "Thank you Dr. Gu for saving your life last time."

Maybe there is Gu Zuo, who is not in a state at all today.

But when he was slightly drunk, it was enough to get he Jun, the "little white rabbit" who had just entered the society, drunk.

He grabbed my hand and kept praising, "Jiang Right, Jiang Right, how are you so good?" You're really beautiful and good at drinking."

I used to be fine, but at my best I was still worthless in the eyes of others.

I looked across from He Jun at Gu Zuo next to him, who was drinking, smoking, and chatting with others.

The grayish-white smoke made it impossible for me to see his face, but I could clearly perceive his indifference.

I recall that countless times when I confessed, he kept on his headphones and turned a deaf ear, quietly doing problems or running.

It's really desperate.

"Jiang Right, do you know that every time I go to the operating table, I am so scared?" I'm afraid that my decisions, mistakes, and tension will end a person's life with my own hands. Jiang Right, I'm so scared! He Jun was drunk, and his eyes flashed with fear that the young doctor could not dispel.

I don't know if this is the right time to use empathy, but I'm really uncomfortable, it's uncomfortable, it's worse than the day I divorced my ex.

"He Jun, I'm afraid to prove that you still love life, and you still care about things, how happy."

I grabbed the glass of red wine in He Jun's hand, looked up and dried, and smiled:

"You see me, the family is bankrupt, the marriage is failed, and I go to the hospital more times a year than I go home. Isn't it special to live to suffer?"

He Jun pointed at me and smiled, and I also looked at him and laughed, and then we both laughed so much that we couldn't stand up straight on the table, and the tears came out of the laughter.

Later, He Jun smiled and asked Gu Zuo breathlessly, "Gu Zuo, you say, is Jiang Zuo okay?"

I walked away, not wanting to know Gu Zuo's reaction for the first time. For the first time, I felt relieved.

It turns out that the feeling of completely tearing oneself apart in front of the person you like is painfully intertwined.

Now, the robe of life is crawling with lice.

Then it is better to let this delicate and dripping rose stay in the past dream forever.

Gu Zuo, I don't care what you think of me anymore.

I don't care if you're wearing headphones, looking down, or pretending not to hear.

I don't care anymore.

5

I woke up in bed at home.

My mother took the white porridge and put it on the table, and looked at me worriedly: "Right and right, you don't have to fight like this, the money you owe is almost enough, and you and your father can still make money..."

"Mom, don't say it, it's easy to finish early." I squeezed out a laugh. The pain of debt collection and the cold eyes of the victims, like bats in the night, suck the essence of the family.

Mom paused and tentatively said, "The person who sent you back last night looks a bit like Gu Zuo..."

I pursued Gu Zuo in a high profile, which was well known at the time.

At that time, my family was rich, my parents thought I was happy, and I didn't mind my crush, and my mother was even a fan of Gu Zuo.

I took a mouthful of white porridge in my mouth: "Yes... It's a bit like Gu Zuo."

"At that time, if it weren't for the changes in the family, you and Gu Zuo might have been together, and you wouldn't have suffered so much..." Mom choked up a little.

"Mom, what are you talking about, I'm not very happy now?" Did you mention it before?" I pretended to be happy to drink the last bite of porridge, and took a mouthful of satisfaction: "The family is rich, it is better to eat a bowl of rice made by my mother." And, preferably, another bowl."

Mom looked at me worriedly and went out with the bowl.

I lay on the bed piecing together fragments of memory.

At the door of the hotel, He Jun's face was red with drinks, and he smiled and said goodbye to me.

When Gu Zuoheng picked me up and tucked me back into the car, he frowned and whispered, "How did you become so thin?"

I was in the back seat of the car, lying on my left chest and saying over and over again:

"Gu Zuo, you see, I don't care about you anymore."

"Secretly tell you that I've been married to someone else, but unfortunately he doesn't love me..."

"Gu Zuo, are you saying that there are really people in this world who don't deserve love?"

"Gu Zuo, do you know that you like someone, but you still don't have the feeling of responding, it's really desperate."

Gu Zuo carried me on his back and went up to the fourth floor in the dark and dilapidated corridor.

He's grown a lot taller and a lot stronger.

The back is wide and sturdy, and the faint scent of mint in the ears makes the corridors that are crowded on weekdays like sunshine.

He should feel emotional, right?

Ten years ago, when he came to my house and took the notes that I had not returned, my house still lived on a large flat floor like his home.

I hid behind the thick curtains, and when I couldn't wait for him to find me, I jumped out and shouted, "Gu Zuo, I hid here the day you married me!" Don't you find me!"

Ten years later, the room had shrunk to one-tenth of the large flat floor, and the small, high windows were only covered by an abandoned blanket.

The gap between us, he should be able to empathize with it.

If you want to completely break with the glorious past, it is better to let him end it. Many years ago, I was so attached to him, imagining walking side by side with him through the streets and alleys, watching the lonely sunset and the withering of roses.

Even if you leave, deep inside you have never forgotten it— perhaps what you can't forget is not the young love itself, but the only clear, white day in your life.

Unfortunately, everything was predestined.

6

After the meal, Gu Zuo and He Jun helped me sell several medical equipment one after another.

Because of their similar age, under the suppression of my poisonous tongue, they did not become Party A's father, but only Became Party A's brothers.

After two meals, I skewered and drank beer at the barbecue stall on University Road.

Halfway through the drink, He Jun was so drunk that he lay on a beach chair and waved his hands continuously.

Only Gu Zuo and I drank and chatted, talking about favorite movies, newly listed medical equipment, emergencies in the emergency room of dog blood, and the workplace black dramas staged by our company every day.

We tacitly avoid mentioning the previous.

It was as if the wind and waves had subsided and the sea had returned to calm.

The giant beast in his heart that had recently been frantically wrestling with the past slowly lightened his nose and slept peacefully between Gu Zuo's usual smiles.

128 rejections, far away.

However, some feelings are always in the shadows of the past.

Just like at this moment, Gu Zuo came back from buying cigarettes and brought me a glass of juice. He said, don't drink, drink juice.

It is a domineering peach.

Peach. Gu Zuo.

Gu Zuo is allergic to Tao Mao'er.

"Gu Zuo, I like you the most, and I like peach the most." But I can't sit with you with peaches, it's so hard to choose."

"No trade-offs, peach and you, I don't like it."

he...... Remember when I loved peaches?

I rubbed the pink juice and looked for answers out of the corner of my eye.

The teenager in the white shirt in the memory was sliding the mobile phone screen with his slender, white fingers, and it was at this time that he slowly raised his eyes to meet my gaze and smiled: "Don't like it? Recommended by the clerk. I'll buy you another drink."

"Nothing." I quickly inserted the straw and laughed at myself for being sentimental.

"Ask me for a gastroscope next week." You drink too much, and the gastric mucosa is easily damaged."

I felt a fever in my heart and bit the straw and looked at him for three seconds.

"Have you, the quack doctor, started to pull guests by the dinner bureau?"

"I'm going!" I'm hard to date okay?! You nameless little medicine generation!"

"Quacks! quack! quack! ......」

"Little Medicine Generation!" Small medicine generation! Small medicine substitute..."

……

Gu Zuo smiled softly and handsomely.

Reminds me of a quote from the book:

"He doesn't laugh and laughs, and when he laughs, he laughs like nectar."

7

"Right Baby!" He Jun copied his hand in the pocket of his white coat and ran to meet him.

In the corridor behind, Gu Zuo was talking to several elderly doctors. The body is cold and straight. The faint glow around me stung my eyes.

"Don't worry, I'll wait for you." When He Jun walked to the side, I pointed to the back, "Don't you listen to the leader's words?"

He Jun looked back and said, "That's not the leader's lecture, it's the immortals fighting." The big guys consulted to discuss the treatment plan."

"That Gu Zuo..."

"Of course I'm the big guy."

I was taken aback, and I was impressed that Gu Zuo was the same as me, with average grades.

"Don't you know?" I'm about to mention the Deputy Chief Surgeon. The unwritten rules of the hospital, delegating the emergency department to exercise for one year, are basically promoted internally."

He Jun talked about Gu Zuo gushing endlessly, admiring and obedient, like a little daughter-in-law in feudal society.

"Speaking of which, I can obviously eat by my face, but the business is more handsome than the face." Domestic Top Medical College M.D., domestic and foreign journal papers sent to the hand soft..."

I remembered saying that Gu Zuo was a "quack doctor" and was too ashamed to do it.

"My girlfriend on the left also has a lot of fans." Dr. Chen Jingyue, who have you ever put in your eyes? Until I went to the hospital to the left, it was called a desperate chase."

My mouth opened in surprise again.

He Jun's next words were even more irritating: "However, according to my observation, Zuo seems to have a girlfriend."

"Have a girlfriend?" Who?" I suppressed the tension in my heart, leaned over, and pricked up my ears ready to hear the answer.

"Are you idle?" Dr. He." Above his head, gu Zuo's deep voice suddenly came.

He Jun and I were like two children who had been caught talking badly.

However, He Jun took the lead in betraying me: "Left, right and right will invite you to dinner, knowing that you have a birthday today."

Fart! I obviously came to them to sign a medical equipment sales contract!

「？」 Gu Zuo, who was wearing a mask, tilted his head and looked at me tentatively.

"Ah yes, I have booked a hotel, North Zhongshan Road." Confused, I stuffed the half-paid contract back into my bag.

"Okay." He answered crisply, making me and He Jun's eyes widen.

"Left, you're not tonight..."

"Cancelled temporarily." Gu Zuoyang raised an eyebrow and interrupted He Jun, looking at me, "You wait for me in the clinic area, I will go to change my clothes."

8

Gu Zuo changed into a white pullover sweatshirt, black jeans and small white shoes. Bangs are casually placed on the forehead, and the cold white skin is clean and cold.

Thin, straight legs stride under the sweatshirt, attracting patients' sideways glances.

"Gu Zuo, are you off work?" Dr. Chen Jingyue caught up.

"Hmm." Gu Zuo walked over to me and stood still. Dr. Chen noticed that I was wearing a plain dress and light makeup today.

I remembered He Jun telling me that Chen Jingyue was chasing Gu Zuo. Look over and look into her murderous eyes.

Seconds to instigate.

"I didn't drive today, can I take your car?" Dr. Chen asked.

"I made an appointment." Gu Zuo replied, "Inconvenient."

"Then send me to the subway station." Dr. Chan looked at me as if demonstrating, "Don't you mind?"

Due to occupational diseases, my head shook like a rattle: "I don't mind."

Five minutes later, I regretted my decision and jumped out of the car to escape.

"North Zhongshan Road?" The people over there are very mixed, and I haven't been there. The financial center opened a French dish, which was very good."

First Blood！

"Jiang Right, do you have to drink with men in a bar to make medicine?" How unsafe. I can't do it..."

Double kill！

"We often have some female pharmacists in our hospital, and the boundaries are difficult to grasp with the doctors. Oh?"

Triple kill！

Blood tank is in a hurry!

But Dr. Chen didn't intend to let me go:

"Jiang Right, they said your ex-husband..."

"Dr. Chen, girls' beauty is not just a look, right?" Gu Zuo's hand lazily rested on the steering wheel waiting for the traffic lights, and the sound was cold.

"Or is it that if the pharmacy and the doctor are not equal, is there also inequality between the doctor and the doctor?"

After a pause, as if to add, he said, "Do you also have to publish more than 30 SCI papers so that I can talk to you well?"

Gu Zuo... From the reversing mirror, I was surprised to see that although Gu Zuo's face quickly returned to his usual coldness and indifference, his eyes and mouth were full of sharp smiles.

Looking at Dr. Chen's angry back, I whispered to Gu Zuo, "Just now... Don't do this in the future. She just likes you and wants to chase you."

Gu's left fingertip tapped the steering wheel haphazardly, and his anger still subsided: "When you chased me at that time, you were not so malicious to the people around me."

As if touching some sensitive topic, we were suddenly silent.

Light music flows slowly. The wind blowing outside the car window was blowing coolly between the two of them.

9

Zhongshan North Road is a leisurely pedestrian street alley.

After eating the hot pot, we walked around the road and watched the street lights.

Having lived in this city for 27 years, I have never been here.

Thinking of this, I was stunned: I forgot that today is Gu Zuo's birthday!

There was a sweet shop in front of me, and I pretended to buy water and asked Gu Zuo to wait for me under the ginkgo tree for a while.

When he returned, covered in frosty moonlight, he stood under the tree, bowing his head and kicking a stone waiting for me.

It's like a space-time overlap.

Once in the playground of the evening self-study, the wind blew on a summer night.

I sat on the lawn watching the left exercise, and he was really good at doing a long air handstand in front of me.

He asked me why I was staring at him.

I said, Gu Zuo, this angle kiss you don't know what it feels like?

When I think about it, the roots of my ears are a little red.

"The cake must be delicious." Gu Zuo raised an eyebrow and smiled at me.

"If you come out with me today, your girlfriend won't be upset, right?" I handed him the cake.

"Is it too late for you to think about this question now?" He groaned, "But it seems like, I don't have a girlfriend."

After taking two steps, I added, "If you have a girlfriend, you won't be reduced to coming out with you for your birthday."

"Gu Zuo, are you polite?" I hit him in the arm.

He hid, "Ah, the cake is going to be poured."

Back in the car, Gu Zuo slowly opened the window, and his arm with obvious muscle lines was casually placed on the edge of the window: "The birthday cake should be accompanied by some red bars."

"Huh?" I looked at him.

"I have red wine at home, and many of them are brought back from abroad." He looked ahead, "Interested?"

"Okay." Seeing how cheerfully I answered, he looked at me in surprise. I said, "You go upstairs and take the wine off, and we'll drink it in the car."

"..." Gu Zuo ticked the corner of his lips and couldn't stop smiling.

Hey?

Obviously it is autumn, how can there be the sound of snow melting?

10

Gu Zuo's large riverside flat is hidden and open.

We sat on the carpet on the balcony eating cake and drinking red wine until we were slightly drunk.

"You have a little bit of cream here." Gu Zuowei smiled and drew on his lips.

"Aang, you wipe it off for me."

Gu Zuo leaned over, with a clear mint smell and a faint smell of sweet wine.

"Here..." His cool fingers swept over the corners of my lips over and over again, like a cream stain that could never be wiped off.

I looked down and felt the burning look in my eyes.

"Right and right, you have a wrinkle at the corner of your eye."

"I'm getting old."

"Hmm."

"You seem sad." I say.

"It's very sad." He touched the wrinkle, "It's sad. I missed watching the first wrinkle crawl up your face..."

I thought he was joking, looked down and scolded him for being too damaged, but looked up to meet his serious eyes.

His eyes were still shining like stars, and his eyes were like a dangling Milky Way.

It's like time and space have been reversed for ten years.

11

"Who made you reject me at that time, and rejected me 128 times?" I couldn't help but say.

"So, is it punishment?" He held my face and said in a very soft voice, "So no matter how many days and nights, no matter where you go, no matter what life is filled with, you will never be forgotten."

Coax me or not.

Coming out of his mouth, my heart melted.

"So, how about kissing 128 times to make up for it?" He leaned over, wrapped his arms around my waist, and the kisses landed delicately on my neck socket, collarbone, and earlobe. 「1，2，3，4，5，6......」

Slender, bony fingers slightly plucked the trench coat. The coolness left by disinfectant alcohol on your fingertips gently glides over every inch of skin.

Fragrant red wine spills out and falls beautifully on the Moroccan-style carpet.

He stared into my eyes among the stars that were about to disappear: "Right and right, now I am awake."

That look carried the ascetic seduction: "Right and right, I don't know if you are sober or not." It doesn't matter, for you, I am determined to get it this time."

Trance was carried up into the clouds, and I hazy as if I was 18 years old again.

Be the proud and clean version of yourself.

12

Two months in love, a lot of moments to be together well.

For example, when cooking, he hugs me sweetly behind his back, his chin rests on the top of my head, and his voice is muffled: "Wife, I'm hungry."

For example, he called me during overtime and muttered, "Is it okay to come to my house tomorrow night?" The house is so big that I dare not sleep alone."

For example, when I went to the hospital to see him, he couldn't hide the smile at the corner of his mouth, and judged the two of them with a cold and alienated look in front of others. In the pocket of my white coat, I took out a piece of candy and put it in the palm of my hand: "Nothing for you, the patient sent me candy."

Late-night companionship, Cartier lovers necklace, again and again I was making him laugh...

Like a bubble whitewashed in the sun.

Two hours ago, when Gu Zuo met me at the entrance of the restaurant, it was broken.

The customer's greasy hands and unbridled teasing.

The wine spilled on the clothes, and the shirt became transparent; he was wrapped around his shoulders and smiled: "Zhao Zong walks slowly, I miss you too."

As soon as he turned back, he bumped into Gu Zuo's solemn face. The appearance of the wolf has been seen by him.

A short moment of staring at each other, but it seems to be eternal. It seems that time and space have frozen, only the heart is beating fiercely, and another voice suddenly burst out in the bottom of the heart: Jiang Right, the dream has been done for a long time, it is time to wake up.

At this moment, I was waiting for Gu Zuo's downstairs to return.

At night, the late autumn wind was very cold, and I couldn't help but shrink in the trench coat.

13

Gu Zuo walked over in the dim light.

Looking down, he asked quietly, "Did you forget to bring the key again?"

"Gu Zuo, I..." I said to him, solemnly.

"Go up there and say, okay?" He reached out and helped me pull the collar of my trench coat, which had a few glaring stains on the silk white shirt.

He was really gentle.

So gentle that I almost gave up resistance.

All the way to help me put my bag in the entryway cabinet.

Turn on the light, open the bag, a torn square aluminum foil bag.

Not a brand we use very often.

The gentleness of the lake under the eyes suddenly darkened, like a fierce storm hidden.

I kicked off my high heels and walked past him, but I was dragged by him.

He looked down and said painfully, "Right and right, I said I raised you."

"Gu Zuo, I also said that I will not rely on anyone, I have my own value." I met his gaze.

"Is that what you mean by value?" His voice was poignant.

"So, how far do you think you can go?" Dr. Gu, you saved lives on the operating table and shone brightly in the expert seat. And I, night and night, sell my soul, even my body, in a staggered way. The pain of being in debt, the pain of being looked down upon, the pain of living in a dark corner, you have not experienced it. Will two people like this be happy together?"

I frowned, "Gu Zuo, we divide..."

Before he could finish speaking, he grabbed his hand and pressed it against the wall.

Two lip flaps violently imprinted on my lips, with a familiar mint scent.

The switch was turned off by pressing the back.

In the darkness, his voice was a little low, and he was trembling and choking, and whispering in my ear, "Do I agree?" Jiang Right, did you get my consent? ......」

I didn't speak, struggled a little harder as he pressed against the wall, the alcohol made me feel dizzy, my body weak, and I let myself be carried back to the bedroom by him.

I ignored him, and he stopped talking, as if he didn't know tiredness.

A night of chaos.

With his fingers slightly cool of disinfectant alcohol, he wandered paranoidly and over and over again, as if to wipe away the traces of my stains.

I felt the sharp rise and fall of his chest and an uncontrollable whimper.

The wind caught the rain and lapped vigorously at the glass outside the window.

Like a child crying out for his own loss.

14

My tears slipped from the corners of my eyes, dripping on the white dark jacquard pillow and seeping into the gray core.

It was quiet.

He didn't know,

The condom was deliberately placed in my bag. Nothing happened.

He didn't know.

Chen Jingyue once looked for me.

In the tall café, she looked indifferent and proud, and she was infiltrated by money, excellence and pampering.

"Jiang Right, do you know that after Gu Zuo is with you, the resources are getting worse and worse." Now there are no opportunities for training and further education."

A knife!

"I don't deny that I'm in the way. I'm not fighting you, I'm fighting for opportunities. Everyone should return to their right place."

Two knives!

"Gu Zuo is a surgical genius, but without the cultivation of organization and stronger social relations, even the sharpest scalpel will become blunt." Can you bear it?"

Three knives!

Dr. Chen can pick up and drop the knife every time, and the knife is deadly!

It reminds me of my self-deluded moments.

He Jun told me that Gu Zuo had been transferred back to surgery. The position of promotion in the emergency department was given to another middle-aged doctor.

For several nights, Gu Zuo frowned and made English phone calls in the study, constantly saying Sorry and My fault.

Lacking the latest experimental data, his new paper progressed slowly, in front of the computer, wearing glasses and frowning.

The glittering trophies and certificates in the display cabinet behind him, and the dim man at the desk, seem to be separated by two worlds.

He was full of spirits and clean, and he should not have lived such a life.

Even when I asked, my boy would always take me in his arms and comfort me: "Rest assured, I can handle it."

But how could I be willing to pull him down.

I'm not sure, how terrible it would be for him to take a step down?

Then let him go and let him fly clean again!

An encounter not seen in ten years is the script of a romance drama.

But reality has always been a naked life.

The more beautiful things I should not touch.

Tragedy will always happen again, in destiny.

15

In the few days after separating from Gu Zuo, my mother said that my personality had become colder.

The family didn't know about our underground affair.

During this period, Gu Zuo repeatedly clamored to see his parents, but I resolutely refused.

Gu Zuo narrowed his mouth and shook my hand: "You've been sleeping with people for so long, don't you give a name?"

I couldn't open my mouth to tell him, and now I sensed it, it was because of my deep feeling of inferiority.

Chen Jingyue said that everyone should return to their positions.

Just like at this moment, Aunt Zhang on the door was chattering on the side: "Jiang You, my cousin is a little older, 14 years older than you, but people have cars and houses, and they are the team leader in the factory workshop." Another point, I told people about your situation, he said that he didn't hate that you had been married, but your family's debt..."

I was half-lying on the couch, looking at the ceiling, contemplating.

Look, my position is to marry a 41-year-old workshop worker with a car and a house.

If I told her, I was in a two-month relationship with a 28-year-old, big G-go, flat-floor, Ph.D. graduate.

Will she put down the melon seeds in her hand, come over and touch my forehead, and then scold me for being neurotic?!

16

After breaking up with Gu Zuo, I began to numb myself with work.

I put a camp bed in the office, studied market plans day and night, learned big data analysis, and even drank two or two more than before.

Like unwillingness, but also like escape.

In three months, my performance soared from the company's sales crown to the regional sales crown.

Brought an intern, Qi Sichu, a boy who had just graduated from college.

The first time we met, he moved a chair and sat next to me, and put his backpack on the table: "Sister, I'll mess with you later."

Cold, proud, with a bit of a stubborn look, very similar to Gu Zuo.

I smiled back at him, "I'm a workaholic."

Qi Sichu smiled, "Isn't it?" I'm also a workaholic."

Resby!

Qi Si Chu Zhen workaholic Ben Freak!

Later, I learned that Qi Sichu was the son of the regional boss and came to the grassroots level to understand the market.

The two of us worked overtime every day like ascetics.

Finally, because of eating the same family's expired takeaway, he was poisoned by food in the middle of the night and went to the hospital.

If I had the option, I wouldn't come to the provincial hospital.

Thanks to the blessing of this male brother, the manager said that he would definitely go to the best hospital, and also entrusted the relationship to build a double high-end ward.

"We both had a box lunch at night and got food poisoning." Qi Sichu weakly held his head and explained the condition to Gu Zuo, not noticing that Gu Zuo's face was getting more and more ugly. "I only ate a little scrambled egg with tomatoes, it must be a problem with the kung pao chicken..."

Gu Zuo didn't listen to him finish, and turned his head to hand the food sample to the nurse: "Focus on measuring the scrambled eggs with tomatoes."

"Doctor, I said, I only ate a little scrambled egg with tomatoes, and I should focus on the diced chicken." Qi Sichu held his head and weakly defended.

Gu Zuo called on the nurse to send Qi Sichu to the clinic, and walked quickly to my side to help me walk to the ward.

After walking for a while, I couldn't help it: "Your little boyfriend, don't you know that you don't eat chicken?"

17

I lay in my hospital bed and looked out, and there were scattered fireworks in the suburbs.

It turned out that it was almost the New Year.

Gu Zuo came in at this time, and there were about a dozen doctors and interns standing behind him, and he should have become the deputy director of surgery.

He wore a mask: "I am your tube bed doctor Gu Zuo, what can you do to find me."

Needing to be hospitalized for three days, Qi Sichu and I hung hanging bottles in the same ward.

When Gu Zuo inspected the house, he would come to ask about our recovery.

Once when the nurse wanted to help me get a needle, I turned my head to grieve my mouth, and Gu Zuo just pushed the door in.

Looking at each other, he was stunned to see me and said to the nurse, "I'll come."

He held my hand, the needle in the other hand, looked down at the blood vessel on the back of my hand, and said, "It won't hurt."

His curly eyelashes blinked in the soft light.

Every stroke hit my heart.

18

In the two days of hospitalization, Qi Sichu videoed with his girlfriend every day, and the young man's love sparks splashed around, and I blushed and beat my heart.

Gu Zuo also knew that he was not my boyfriend, and his attitude towards him eased a lot.

"Sister Jiang, don't you have someone you like?" Qi Sichu hung up the hanging bottle and lay down on the bed to ask me.

I thought about it and said, "There has been, but I don't think I deserve him."

Qi Sichu couldn't laugh and said, "Does anyone care if they deserve it this year?" What is not worthy of you, for your own good to break up, this kind of words is purely moral kidnapping! Others tell me that I can live for 5-10 years with a healthy diet, but I am not allowed to eat barbecue, eat hot pot, drink Coke, what does it mean that I live for so many years?"

I said, "I always feel like I'm not good enough."

Qi Sichu was righteous and stern: "The regional crown is bought by your hard work, and this kind of concentration and investment is used in love?" If not, how can you easily talk about a relationship?"

I was taught by an intern who was 5 years younger than me, but he made a lot of sense.

Is it just that Gu Zuo would think so?

Qi Sichu paused and tentatively asked, "Sister Jiang You, you and Dr. Gu... Should...... Have deep feelings, right?"

I was a little flustered, we behaved like ordinary doctors and patients, how could Qi Sichu see it?

Qi Sichu glanced at me, as excited as a detective solved the case, and sat up" "I saw."

"What do you see?" I asked.

"Once when you were asleep, Dr. Gu came in to tour the room, and he secretly kissed your fingertips and hair..."

The heart was struck violently, like a thunderbolt of brilliant lightning in the night.

Gu Zuo...

"When Dr. Gu saw you, I could feel him in pain. I don't know why you didn't choose him, I'm going to be bent by him for a man."

Qi Sichu could not hide his pride in seeing through it, and kept saying:

"My sister hasn't stayed in a high-end ward, has she?" Public hospitals will not provide such high-end fruits, teas and health products. In order to pretend that it was provided by the hospital and not let you be unnatural, he had to bring me a copy every time."

What Qi Sichu said later, I never listened to it again.

I'm so uncomfortable.

There is like a leather band in the head, pulled by reality and ideals at both ends, and it is about to be broken.

19

The day I was discharged from the hospital was Chinese New Year's Eve morning.

Gu Zuo almost ran in.

Qi Sichu went out very sensibly.

There were only two of us left.

Gu Zuo, who had just stepped off the operating table, did not have time to button the buttons of his white coat. There was a faint streak of red blood in his eyes, but it did not affect his handsomeness in the slightest.

"I'm going to be discharged, Dr. Gu." I smiled and stood up, my eyebrows bent.

He didn't speak or laugh, and his dark eyes were visibly momentarily stunned.

It's like wanting to talk and stopping.

「...... Before I could say anything more, my body was gently held.

For an instant, the nasal cavity was full of a faint smell of mint and disinfectant alcohol, a smell that I had been obsessing with in my dreams.

"Right and right, let me hug you again." He leaned against my neck socket and his voice was low.

Later, it was natural for us to say good bye and go our separate ways.

At that time, I thought that we would all have enough time to come to Japan.

But if he knew that he would rush to Wuhan that night, maybe everything would be different.

20

He Jun said that Gu Zuo handed over the petition and rushed to Wuhan as the first batch of medical personnel.

I remembered the day I was discharged from the hospital, and I looked back and saw Gu Zuo standing in the hospital room with his hand hanging down. He said, "Right, I hope we'll see you again."

I finally understood the gentle and sad gaze under his eyes--only because Gu Zuo already knew at that time that he was going to a life-and-death covenant! But why didn't he tell me then? If he had said it, that moment would have been different.

However, Gu Zuo still refused to say, just looked at me so indifferently. Accept the pain that the woman he had given him all the tenderness and patience and sweetness had brought him.

At that moment, I just felt the air I inhaled burning like a fire in my chest, and the intense pain made me almost unable to stand. Tears that could no longer be stopped ran down his eyes, and he collapsed on the ground against the wall, his whole body trembling.

Television in the living room has been broadcasting the latest outbreak situation, the announcer has a dignified tone, and the number of confirmed cases and deaths continues to rise.

Our cities are waiting, and the haze is shrouded.

And the man I love, in another city, in the colder winter, wearing thick protective clothing, racing against time, fighting against the disease, and fighting tenaciously against death.

Life or death is uncertain.

When the countdown to New Year's Day rang, I was covered in a blanket and crying like a fool.

21

Winters are particularly long.

I have been staying at home because of the pandemic.

When looking for something, I turned to the tidying box that was moved out of Gu Zuo's house when I broke up.

Everything in it is a memory of us being together for just two months.

There were watercolors we painted together, membership cards in the gym downstairs, LEGO models from Hogwarts Castle, dresses, necklaces, earrings that Gu Zuo gave me...

In the corner of the tidying box lay quietly a wrapped gift.

I was a little confused, and when I opened it, my heart was hit!

It was a book that I had been taken away by my teacher!

I opened it to see that from the first time I saw Gu Zuo, I wrote about the small things I shared with Gu Zuo every day.

Today the canteen dishes are salty, you need to drink more water.

When I was riding home today, I saw a red three-dimensional heart-shaped kite flying in the sky, dragging a long tail. I wonder if you're watching with me at the moment?

Saving the earth is tiring, and although it is a little exhausting, I will, don't ask me if I have cried, because Superman can't shed tears.

Until the last page I wrote, the payment was made on June 22, 2008:

"In the rain, his eyes were shining brightly and smiling at me, and his eyes were like a dangling milky way. Ah, it turns out that when it rains, there will be so many stars... Gu Zuo, 亻"

I remember that the word "you" was only half written before it was taken away.

I flipped back, and in the second half of the book, Gu Zuo's clear and powerful handwriting wrote a thick pile.

January 22, 2009: I took the top ten this time, and the teacher gave me the book as agreed. Jiang Right, when are you going to take it?

June 9, 2010: Jiang You, graduated, we moved away from the classroom, why haven't you come back?

September 1, 2010: I was admitted to an eight-year medical student, and on the first day of registration, I would like to meet you around a corner.

March 5, 2011: Jiang Right, today is your birthday. Happy birthday. Where are you?

August 28, 2011: I looked for you all summer and no one knew about you. There is no trace, no sound. I sometimes wonder, are you just a girl I imagined?

July 2, 2015: I went back to our school today. Standing on the playground, when the wind blows from all sides, I seem to hear your laughter. Five years on, Jiang Right, where are you?

September 3, 2016: Right right, the wind at LA is cold. It turns out that the farther away from you, the colder it is.

October 9, 2016: Right and right, in that encounter, you have done everything you can, so that no matter what the end is, you can have no regrets. But what about me? How do I face myself?

February 14, 2017: Right right, I want to give you a lot of Valentine's Day gifts. Moroccan carpets, no-man's land rose perfumes, snow on the Jungfraujoch and a white dress in the window tonight... Just want to give it to you.

June 23, 2017: The most important thing in life: the motherland, medicine and you.

June 22, 2018: Right right, I finally have your message that I am preparing the final data of the paper. Wait for me to go back! Wait for me! Be sure to wait for me!

My tears dripped down to a photo sandwiched between the next page.

That photo was taken in the guest seat.

At that time, in the spotlight, I took the hand of another man and smiled softly. I am the bride.

August 2, 2018: On this day, I received my PhD certificate.

On this day, I lost my girl.

22

I took a picture of the book and cried and sent WeChat to Gu Zuo.

Five hours later, the phone rang softly, and I quickly picked it up to look at it, and there was a soft one lying in the chat box:

「1」

I smiled with undried tears.

This is the tacit understanding between me and Gu Zuo these days.

Like ten years ago, I talk to Gu Zuo on WeChat every day about some things that are not salty or light.

Say what kind of stuffing is the dumplings wrapped by my mother today, say that I learned to make cold skin with the short video, said that our city epidemic prevention is doing a good job, everyone did not run around, obediently stayed at home to contribute to the motherland...

Gu Zuo replied with a "1" every time.

The timing of the response is uncertain, sometimes during the day, sometimes late at night.

There were different intervals, sometimes a few minutes, sometimes several hours.

A short number always makes me have the joy of the rest of my life.

Because gu zuo and I both know,

In the days of racing against death, every second counts,

A short "1" word proves:

He's alive.

It was a pair of hands with a mission, in a high-intensity work, hastily laid down.

Like a cloud of wolf smoke, it ignites the signal of life.

About Gu Zuo, about his patients, about me...

That's what I love about him. Never tamed by suffering, he dressed in white and marched retrogradely, accompanying patients in the most dangerous times, and practicing the oath of zhengzheng of medical students.

Death lifts all barriers in an instant.

As long as he's alive.

23

However, Gu Zuo had not returned to my WeChat for 21 hours that day.

Previously, the longest interval was only 8 hours.

I'm at a loss,

Tears flowed down in large drops.

I called Gu Zuo like crazy and sent WeChat.

In the end, I think that even if Gu Zuo is really infected, he really falls,

Can someone see his phone ringing, help him pick it up, and let me see him again.

Let me look at him again...

He is an angel in white, he is a "retrograde", he is a warrior who fights death...

But he is also my boy, the boy who is bullied by me and will skim his lips, like to eat the egg boy at the hospital door, and he will be afraid to lie in my arms when thundering...

Where are the angels in white? It's just a group of children who change their clothes, learn from their predecessors, cure the sick and save people, and rob people with the god of death...

I sent a WeChat message to Gu Zuo: "Gu Zuo, you are not allowed to die!" Gu Zuo, you don't want to die! Gu Zuo, as long as you don't die, we'll be fine, okay? We got married and had many, many children..."

After sending WeChat, I cried on the bed, not wanting to respond to any concern.

The world seemed to be dark.

Until half an hour later, the sound of WeChat video woke me up:

It's Gu Zuo!

I shivered and pressed the green button.

On the other end of the phone, it was Gu Zuo's face.

Wearing a protective suit that had taken off his hat, he sat paralyzed on the ground leaning against the wall, the mask indentations on his forehead and face were clearly visible, and the skin around him had begun to be allergic and red.

The red blood and bags under his eyes were full of exhaustion. Luckily, he was fine, and he was still with his colleagues.

Before I could speak, he spoke weakly, "Right and right, is what you just said true?"

"What?" I was terrified, and my tears couldn't stop flowing.

"I, we get married, we have many, many children..." He was so tired that his eyes could not be opened, but his eyes were still as firm.

I cried and laughed, laughed and cried, "Of course it's true. You must give me a good one."

At that moment, Gu Zuo leaned against the wall and stared at me.

Suddenly, a fluttering, tearful laugh stopped in my palm.

His eyes were shining brightly and smiling at me, and his eyes were like a dangling milky way. It turned out that at any time, there would be so many stars in his eyes...

Gu Zuofan's outer chapter

She was in the depths of time, what she looked like that summer.

In the sunlight, the skin shines as beautiful as satin, and the slightly upturned corners of the eyes overflow the unreasonable spoils of heaven.

That's how it came into my life.

During that time, my parents' marriage broke down.

For two whole years, they kept pulling and pulling in their marriage.

Not only is he reluctant to start from scratch and rely on each other, but he often makes a big fuss because of the ripples brought by his father's third party.

Even, over time, even I felt that I was wrong.

From time to time, I wonder if my father gave up the family because I wasn't good enough; whether it was because I didn't grow up that my mother didn't have the courage to find a new life.

It was a dark moment in my life.

And Jiang Right, at that time, was only an indispensable existence.

I had no feelings for her, like any girl, that I had anything more than the liking between my classmates.

But she was very good to me. It was really nice.

She would borrow my notes and whisper to the school committee to help me correct the wrong questions, even though I wouldn't read them at all.

She would climb to the high shelf of the playground to look at the night sky, and when she thought about why my parents quarreled yesterday, she would quietly climb up and sit next to me, and gently hum Jay Chou's love song: "Look at the stars one by two, three by four."

In order to chat with me, she "encounters" incredible things every day.

"Gu Zuo, guess I'm today..." This is her usual opening remark.

I admit that the warmth she gave me underpinned the confidence I had lost in my family during that time.

But I didn't want to enjoy her emotions for no reason.

I've rejected her many times.

She kept persevering, and then I simply put on my headphones before seeing her and ignored her, and I think that way, she would slowly feel bored and leave me.

It's just that it doesn't work. She still filled my life everywhere.

Until one Saturday at five o'clock in the afternoon, she texted me as usual: "Gu Zuo, I am waiting for you under the bench under the sculpture in Labor Park.

Just in time for my parents to quarrel, I was very confused, put the phone aside, and after a while forgot to reply to her.

She's texted me many times before, and I often don't reply, sometimes I don't want to reply, sometimes I forget. When I looked back and talked to her again, she smiled innocently and confusedly, "Oh, I forgot."

I thought it was the same that day. It wasn't until after ten o'clock that she sent me a text message again: "Gu Zuo, you want to see me again, don't you come to see me?" ：）」

I was a little flustered, and I couldn't imagine that a girl had been waiting for me for five hours in a desolate park.

I took a taxi, and just around the corner, I saw her standing alone under a tall sculpture on the side of the park road, her small body bowed, one arm desperately rubbing tears.

My heart ached.

He even wanted to run to her side immediately and coax her: "Don't cry, am I not coming?"

But I was in such a hurry that as soon as I got out of the car, I was hit by a taxi whizzing by and flew out.

I lay on the cold ground, looking at jiang right's back in a white dress through the blood that flowed from my forehead.

Getting farther and farther away...

In that car accident, I was not in any serious trouble, but when I entered the operating room, my parents suddenly realized the importance of family and reconciled as ever.

Wonderful irony.

Is this the last thing Jiang You gave me before leaving?

Make up for my pain with her pain?

After Jiang You suddenly disappeared, I inquired about her many times.

I learned that her father was a well-known local entrepreneur who had incurred a lot of debt because of the failure of his investment.

They disappeared quietly and completely, so completely that when I wanted my father to help me find Jiang You's contact information, he said, "You can't find out what you can't find out in black and white, you look up to your father too much." They are now hiding in which ravine, and they dare not even use the electric light."

I've never been so desperate again. At that moment, I knew clearly that no one would be able to save her, to save me, that she would be alone between heaven and earth, and that she would not be rescued at all; and now that the same fear and darkness had come to an end, I knew that I would also lose my last salvation.

I was depressed for a long time. Then I thought I should be able to do something for her.

In order to get her book back, I began to study desperately, and finally got my wish.

I remember saying that she liked Dr. Naoki Jiang in "Mischievous Kiss" the most, and she also liked to see me save lives and help others, and I went to medical school.

Ten years later, I was finally no longer a boy who only sparkled in her eyes.

However, when surrounded by applause and flowers, the person I wanted to share the most was the girl who had seen the most awkward moments for me.

Time flies, and the years whistle away.

The bud of love in my heart not only did not disappear with time, but grew wildly in the memory and filled my heart in an intricate manner.

The long wind in the night often blows the girl's voice, and she is humming: "The music box that only remembers is still spinning, how to stop?" 」

How do you stop?

Fingers dancing wildly at the keys, notes falling, filling the heart is full of loneliness. The moonlight shattered to the ground, like her tears on the night of parting.

After some hard searching, when I saw her again.

She was already the girl in the wedding dress.

The groom was the one she met at work.

At the wedding, under the guidance of the host, she happily and shyly told how he accompanied her through the trough.

Their happy photos took turns on the big screen, like a public execution of me.

That smiling eye, as bright as when I was 18, wasn't rekindled because of me.　

At that moment, I was extremely jealous of the man standing next to her.

He got those so easily.

——The dark and green but unforgettable years of my ten years ago, the darkness and loneliness of ten years of wandering, those pure and clear eyes. My loneliness, my pride, my dreams...

The dreams and dreams that I have hidden deep in my heart.

I couldn't imagine that I could see Jiang Right again.

At twelve o'clock in the middle of the night, she was taken to the emergency room, full of alcohol, and had to wash her stomach immediately.

After being a doctor, for the first time, I did not restrain myself, and the man and woman who rushed to her lost their temper:

"How the fuck do you give people drink like that?" Don't die."

"She wanted to drink it herself." The customer said that she could close an order after blowing half a bottle of liquor. We can't stop it."

They explained again what I didn't listen to again.

Just staring at the little pale face on the emergency bed, feeling a little inattentive, she would suddenly disappear from my sight.

"Dr. Gu, you go and take a break, I can come." The nurse looked at my glowing eyes and thought I was tired, and said cautiously with the gastric tube.

"I'm responsible for this patient the whole time." I took the gastric tube tremblingly, and for the first time I truly felt the pain of the patient's family.

After washing her stomach and lifting her back to the pillow, her tiny body curled up on my chest.

My heart couldn't help but beat wildly, but after she threw up on me, I suddenly forgot how to say hello.

"Classmate Jiang You, are you a new way to chase me?"

Only a greeting was downplayed, but she seemed to be frightened and wanted to leave in a panic.

In the days to come, she seemed to be deliberately avoiding the distance from me.

The floating world is dirty and sinister, how many stories have she experienced that I don't know, will she disguise herself like a blossoming cactus, cute and heart-wrenching?

I didn't want to hurt her self-esteem and didn't want her to think I was pitying her.

In the past ten years, she has lived seriously and hard, and has single-handedly shouldered the debts of her family. Her responsibility and dedication are enough for me to respect.

In order not to make her resist me, I found various ways to approach her, and even bought a lot of her medical equipment and equipment out of my own pocket.

Fortunately, she looked at me with less and less alienation, and we slowly changed from "friends" to "good friends".

"Zuo, I've never seen you chase girls like this, people send flowers and diamond rings." You're good to send the deal, and send it in my name." He Jun held up the bill and looked at the transaction amount and was so distressed that he couldn't do it.

She didn't know,

I had been in a world without her for so long, and it was hard to wait for her, and I had enough patience to make her accept me little by little.

We are finally together.

Two months, as if we want to make up for all the ten years we missed.

When the morning sun shines through the curtains, the tips of her ears seem to be transparent, and the eyelashes cast a shadow on the white face, often giving me a return to the trance of 18 years old.

She was fragrant and soft, and I couldn't help but kiss her.

The little friend who did something wrong in his arms made the days hot again.

Soon, the quiet days began to ripple.

During that time, two doctors at the surgery department took maternity leave in succession, and I was transferred back to the surgery department, doubling my workload.

Just in time for the American teacher to have a paper to be in a hurry.

I was so busy.

That time I coaxed her to sleep, wrote my papers late into the night, and found her standing quietly in front of the study.

Barefoot, not sure how long I stood.

I took her in my arms and asked her what her grievances were.

After asking for half a day, she looked at me with tears in her eyes and said, "Am I dragging you down?"

I thought she was sleepy, flirting with me and throwing a tantrum.

Thinking about it now, I really regret that I didn't want her to worry at that time, and I didn't explain it to her.

Let her later put on a play that even I lied to.

Speaking of which, growing up, she was the only one who could successfully deceive me.

The discovery of cat greasy was an anonymous report that the supervision office suddenly launched an investigation three months ago, reporting that Jiang You and I had an improper power and money transaction.

I typed out all the orders with Jiang You and the documents for donating medical equipment and equipment to the rural hospital and slapped them on the desk of the director of the supervision office:

"I can assist in the investigation." If it affects Jiang Right, I will leave my job."

There was a lot of commotion in the hospital, but the biggest reaction was Chen Jingyue.

As soon as she heard that I had threatened to leave, she actually had to withdraw the report. The retraction of the report failed, and I quarreled with the people in the supervision room, and happened to be overheard by others.

I went to question Chen Jingyue, and in a few words I asked her about her clumsy and clever plot.

"Gu Zuo, you two are not suitable at all." You are not a world of people at all." She was surprisingly confident that she could get me.

So confident that she forgot that I had always respected women and didn't want to argue with her. But every time I face Jiang You's problem, I will change a person.

I didn't look at her much: "You are wrong Chen Jingyue, I am in the same world as Jiang You." I'm not with you. Because you'll never be better than her."

I don't believe in fate, but why does Heaven always let us miss it?

When I took care of everything at hand and tried to find her again, I faced a life-and-death parting.

Right and right are about to be discharged, I hold her, her neck socket is still the familiar smell of milk.

Faint, like the immediacy and separation we used to have.

If I could, I really wanted to hold her like this for the rest of my life. If I could come back, I would definitely hold her like this for the rest of my life.

There was a noise in the maternity ward, interrupting the memory.

"Dr. Gu, the baby on the right is spitting up." He Jun held on to the door and tugged at the stained shirt, and looked at me with his eyes: "You say, do you have to let the child and his father pay for my dry cleaning?"

"I just told you he was going to throw up!" Qi Sichu was cutting an apple, glanced at He Jun, and complained, "I know him so well, I should be the baby's dry father."

The culprit who had vomited on He Jun's body, the soft little sticky stick, was raising his small fist, as if he was yawning a lot in disbelief.

He had small curly hair and clear eyes that blinked.

Lively and mischievous like his mom.

Right and right were holding him in their arms. The sunlight wrapped a soft circle of light around her.

At this moment, she shook the baby's fleshy little arm and greeted her softly in a soft voice:

"Look, Daddy's here!" ~」

(End)