Li Na sat on the sofa by the wall, constantly changing the direction of her face as instructed by the staff, hoping to find a most suitable angle for the camera. The lighting in the room was a little dim, and it didn't seem to be perfect after looking for it a few times, "it seems that there are still some shadows on the face on the left side", the camera teacher turned around and moved the shelf to change the direction of the lights, and then prepared to re-adjust the camera angle and machine settings... Li Na saw this and said busily, "Forget it, don't bother, I can do it."
"Forget it, don't bother, I can do it." This is Li Na's attitude towards many things.
The interview | House Little North
Written | Soybean
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▲ Desire
Li Na was a little restrained, holding Mai's hand tightly. Dressed in a blue denim suit, with a few strands of medium hair braided into thin braids, thick eyeliner and flying eyebrows, at first glance, everything in front of the girl is trying to piece together a rebellious image of "untamed". But she is not like this, her nervousness makes it difficult to associate with the cool handsome, "I had insomnia last night, and now I have insomnia the next day when I have a job, so I am not used to it." 」
When she said this, she was just stating the facts, and there was not too much emotion mixed in, "I can still lose sleep because of work, I am also very pleased, at least it shows that I am not completely numb." 」 As an actor and a singer, you have to be sensitive."
The workload of a year is not much, Li Na spends most of her time "enjoying" life, she is a very homely person, does not like to go out, and rarely socializes. Her home, within inches of her, is her world. Chasing American dramas, watching variety shows, occasionally playing games with fans, and going to the fan base for three meals a day to punch cards to report safety are all her contents of the day.
"I'm not used to it, and I don't want to get used to the current rhythm." Because now my life is greater than my work, I still hope to have more jobs, and the ratio of the two can be equal."
Li Na's desire to work a little more began to become stronger in the past two years, and she thought that she was not a very enterprising person, with a lazy personality, did not like to compete, and felt that it should be her own others who could not take it, and why should she take it. However, in the entertainment industry where the weak eat the strong, the consequence of not fighting or grabbing is often nothing.
There was a large period of time when Li Na could not receive a job, was refrigerated, and her income was suspended, although it was not tight, at least it had to be refined in shopping. "Laziness is not the same as laziness, and having to eat without ambition is to put it bluntly to work to meet the needs of life." It is said that celebrities have high incomes, but they also have to look at a few first-line stars. It's normal for someone like me to have financial pressure."
After a long time at home, emotions will also fall into anxiety. After the enthusiasm for work improved, Li Na expressed her willingness to take more work with the team more than once, handing over materials, running groups, auditioning, singing, recording variety shows, and she couldn't remember how many times she had been rejected. When the director is casting, she often sees a table of photos, these are all actors who have passed the pre-screening like her, waiting for the next round of adjudication. "Who made me neither a big coffee nor a traffic person, what are people looking for me to do?" 」 Li Na is like a villain in Super Mary, after one round of passing, there is another round, carefully walking on the one-way street, at any time will be squeezed down, panic can not last forever.
Over the years, she has also acted in some dramas, but they are all tepid roles. People look for her because they value her image, and the roles are mostly similar. Lively, righteous, and a little bit of mischievous ghost girls, Li Na played one after another.
"Will you look back at the plays you've made?"
"Not really, because I don't act well, and there are a lot of roles that are not suitable or like for me." She smiled, a little helpless and a little calm, "I'm not even embarrassed to put 'them' in my resume." Although the character's popularity is not high and the influence of the work is not large, Li Na is very serious about every opportunity. The valuable experience accumulated in these experiences has made her deductive steps more calm and firm.
Li Na is not fond of acting, her original intention is to be an actor. In 2006, I went to participate in the competition of "Super Girl", and I also hoped that there would be multiple opportunities for everyone to know and facilitate future filming. In order to hone her acting skills, she also went to Beiying for further study. "The saddest thing in life is that there is nothing to choose from." In the first few years after the draft, Li Na maintained a good degree of exposure, and some scenes would take the initiative to find it. Later, the drama gradually decreased and decreased. Not being in front of the camera means that it will soon be forgotten, and when Li Na is mentioned, people will only think that it is a familiar but long-standing name.
"I was very passive, and once regretted entering the industry, thinking that I would not forget about it and find another way to make money." But my fans will insist, they always ask me over and over again, Li Na, why haven't you produced a work lately?"
Fans asked questions over and over again, and she explained over and over again, "It's not that I don't want to go, it's that people don't look for me." Li Na didn't feel that there was anything she couldn't admit to not being able to admit, she never deceived herself, "Every time I make up my mind to do something, that timid me will come out and influence my decision." 」
She said she was a contradiction, and the thoughts of persistence and abandonment alternated between different time periods. "In the past two years, it seems that I have suddenly opened my mind, and I feel that I should be brave enough to fight again, and maybe I can only fight this time." If you have a chance for fans to see the works, one more one." She confessed that compared to the "Buddhist system" in the past, she now wants more, or gradually knows what she wants, and for her, "it is good to have desires."
▲Feelings
Sometimes when people hear certain songs, see certain scenes, and cry for their feelings, the parties are not touched at all. 14 years on, Li Na can't remember what songs she sang on the Supergirl stage. Why?
"2006 was like a dream, it felt very unreal, like another person doing this thing, and at that stage I couldn't touch me." 」 Although it has been a long time since supergirl fast man, the related memories of killing are often traced back. A friend once dragged Li Na to see a show, predicting that she would cry too much to herself. On that day, many fast men and women sang the theme song of the year on the same stage after many years, but when she heard the end of the song "Sing If You Want to Sing", she did not shed a tear. "Nothing has touched my tears now, and I don't feel anything when I see that the Dao has been in great harmony for a few years."
For the "06 Supergirl Reunion Incident" that was boiling over some time ago, Li Na did not deliberately mention it, nor did she bother to avoid it. When the topic came, she frowned slightly, not annoying, but confused. She didn't understand why things turned out to be like that, like a magical drama, and she seemed to be out of it. Originally, to participate in "Ace to Ace" is a notice that Li Na values very much, received an invitation from a first-line satellite TV, which is precious to her in recent years, and thought it would be a good job opportunity, who thought that it would be a dismal end.
"Life and experience are so much to do with each other." This is the truth that Li Na realized after 14 years of ups and downs in the entertainment industry. In fact, she couldn't say why it was so difficult to be moved by the past, "I don't know if I don't want to face the past or my present self, in short, I don't especially think about the past." 」
In 2005, Li Na was still working as a graphic model, and by chance, she stood out among the girls who auditioned, starring as the heroine of the MV of Wu Kequn's song "Pan Pan Generation". In the era when MVs were popular, it was a very high starting point, "for myself at that time, it was the most satisfactory work." Even now, years later, she is still excited about that MV. "You know what? Later, I met Teacher Wu Kequn again. At an awards ceremony, the agent took me over and asked if he remembered me, and Wu Kequn said he remembered."
Later the story everyone knows, in 2006 Li Na participated in Supergirl, won the fifth place in the country, a moment of popularity throughout the country, the same year, launched the first solo single "NA NA", the following year, starred in his first TV series "That Kid Is Really Handsome", the first personal music album "Li Na" won multiple awards. In 2008, he published the graphic growth collection "Na Xiao Chi", and in the same year, he won the Most Promising Newcomer Award at the "Fifth King of Songs Awards Ceremony". "
The "Most Promising Newcomer Award" is like a satirical footnote, and Li Na's future gradually disappears into the unknown path. The sense of rupture is obvious and the contrast is strong. The entertainment industry is too cruel, what kind of works, how many fans, in what form the heat is lost, are all put on the table, so that people have nowhere to hide. "Initially it was blind optimism, then it was a negative and decadent face." The "supergirls" who debuted at the same time as Li Na, some of them have developed smoothly in the development of entertainment, and some have completely changed careers to find other ways. It was good to be able to give up, she had thought about it more than once, but she couldn't do it, so she had to struggle so straight.
For a long time, Li Na was trapped in the "shadow" of Supergirl. Fragments of competitions, fragments of music, and fragments of her memories often made her feel deeper sorrow. She is not willing to let the former glory reflect the darkness of the present, she wants to "escape" from the past. Not thinking about it became a way for Li Na to feel comfortable.
Li Na loves to watch TV, watch dramas, and brush variety shows, but she does not watch the current talent show. "Because I have experienced it, I am too familiar with the draft environment and mentality, and I am no longer interested." Not watching the draft may also be a proof that Li Na "does not want to think back". What is "feelings"? Li Na wouldn't bother to think, "Let the past pass." She pulled her braids twice with her hand, "Participating in Supergirl was already the bravest thing I ever did." If you can go back to the past, I'm afraid I won't have the courage anymore."
Nianhua boiled wine, noodle soup, a few wind and rain, occasionally "escape" a no harm.
▲ Tears
In the past, Li Na loved to cry, and the tear point was also low, watching the "Loyal Dog Hachiko" paper towels smoked one after another, "Titanic" watched several times, or can move the tears across. "I don't cry much now, but the tear point is high." After relaxing, Li Na, cross-legged in the sofa, as if afraid that others would not know, stressed several times that she did not like to cry. For any problem that may touch the emotions, Li Na tries to take it as easily and quickly as possible, does not want to talk about the pressure, does not want to sell feelings, she is trying her best to be calm and restrained, not sad or happy.
"When was the last time I was touched?" She let out a question into the air, as if expecting an answer to her. "Some time ago, the fans sent a video, the last game of the Changsha Finals, I saw my mother there to help me canvass for tickets." 」
After saying this sentence, Caught off guard, Li Na was stunned there, her emotions disintegrated her rationality, her eyes began to flush, and after choking and saying several sorry words, she still couldn't help crying, and her mother was an armor and a weak rib for her.
The tissue handed over by the staff was rubbed into a ball by her panic and pressed on her eyes, "I really didn't want to cry, I just saw the video and thought, my mother is old, I feel bad..."
In the summer of 2006, in the second half of the competition, her mother would join her fans in canvassing for her and running to the newsstand to buy all the magazines related to her. The video released by the fans allowed Li Na to see her mother's appearance again, when both mother and daughter felt that everything would become more and more beautiful, and there was hope everywhere under the hot sun.
"And then, as you can see, that's my highlight moment." It's impossible to hide it, it's true that there is no notice, and my mother's worries are also true." Li Na asked herself that she was not as strong as her mother, whether it was the grievances she had suffered over the years or the difficulties, her mother would always accompany her to give her the warmest encouragement. "My mom always said it would be fine." As she spoke, Li Na's tears welled up again.
"It's all going to be fine." It is also what Li Na often says to those who support her in the fan base. She is not a social person, and she loves to chat with fans. What time to get up, what to eat, what to do at work, whether happy or sad, Li Na shared with the fans in every detail, "Fans say that I am the most chatty artist in history, and the group is always very lively." It is not that no one has advised, it is best to keep a little mysterious as an artist, and not to shake everything out, so that it is not attractive. However, Li Na didn't care, "The human design will collapse, and I still hope that fans can see the multi-faceted and real me."
"Finally, is there anything you want to say to your fans?"
"I don't have anything to say to my fans in front of the camera, I talk to them too much every day, and I feel a little contrived to say it to the camera." 」
Throughout the interview, Li Na simply told her feelings, she was sometimes calm and sometimes active. I can't help sobbing when I talk about my mother, and I am happy like a child when I play interactive games. As she said, there are many sides of her living in this contradiction, each of which is real and grounded, without grandiose and official Q&A, and she will not say anything to decorate herself.
14 years, 7 years and 7 years, Li Na was more peaceful than before.