Part.1
"It's a heavy time." The light rain that has been catching a cold is very depressed to me. But when she saw that I was still indifferent, she continued, "The cold makes me feel like my head is a burden. I was still expressionless looking at the boring scenery down the mountain.
A long time ago, I said to this mountain, "In the future I will go out of this mountain, even if it has 100,000 miles, I will travel through the past." "So, from an early age, I began to learn to walk through the mountains. Later, a person told me, "Even if you go out of this mountain, you are still a mountain person, you can't get out of this circle." ”
At that time, I seemed to understand the meaning of this sentence. Then I listened to his advice and read desperately. Probably because of my qualifications, I read it for more than ten years, and finally returned to this mountain.
It seems like it's an irreconcilable fate, and I belong to this big mountain.
"Lo..." Xiao Yu looked at me silently chewing on the grass stem.
"Well..." I replied casually.
"Lo, you know what?" Looking at the monotonous dress, my face was full of doubt, and finally I said in a deep voice, "Although I have not experienced that with you." But I can still see that you don't seem to be coming out of the past. Luo, you have a psychological problem, you should go and see! ”
"What?" It was stunned: "It can't be that I'm just..."
I 'just' didn't know how to say it for half a day, but the little fish had a "hate iron not steel" expression.
I looked at Xiaoyu's expression of such disappointment and thought about myself. Finally, he said, "I admit that I may be a little bit decadent, or pessimistic." But I didn't get to the point where I had a psychological problem, right? ”
"Huh? I said you! Xiao Yu looked up and down at me: "Usually you are always so smart!" And it seems to be so sharp that you can clearly see the essence of things every time. How is this on your own, and why do you always not see through it? Or do you really dare not admit it? ”
"I..." My voice softened for a moment, then continued to look at the mountain in the distance.
"Then you tell me what you like?" Xiao Yu asked very calmly.
"Loved being alone and quiet!" I replied without thinking: "I am used to being alone, I am always used to being alone in the corner, that is a sense of security!" How? Am I wrong? ”
"You're right. But apart from that, have you ever tried to communicate with someone else? "Xiao Yu did not show any surprised expression according to my performance.
"Communication? I don't like to talk to people. I pondered for a moment and then replied, "I like to be alone in a quiet way reading a book or writing a talk." ”
"You're gone!" Xiao Yu directly rolled his eyes and said solemnly, "Luo, although this may be what makes you different, you must at least consider your future life path." Because you can't be alone for the rest of your life, right? You always have to get married and have children, right? You have to live."
"I didn't think about it." I don't seem to know how to answer these questions from Light Rain. "I'm just used to being alone. ”
“……”
"I'm quite speechless to you!" Xiao Yu shook his head: "Listen! Lo. You can't always be alone, you know, a lot of people in foreign countries who have retired from your profession, in the end there are still some people who have survived, I hope you are not worse than them, in my impression, you should not accept to lose to them. ”
"Well, I don't allow any failure!" I said solemnly. "But I couldn't find a way forward, so I kept standing where I was, constantly standing still, constantly wandering and confused."
"I really..." Xiaoyu always felt that talking to me about ordinary things now was really the same as playing the piano to a cow. In desperation, Xiaoyu found the easiest way: "I suggest you go to see a psychiatrist!" ”
"See a psychiatrist?" I frowned but said nothing.
"Yes you have to look at it!" Xiao Yu said solemnly: "Maybe your previous life is not the same, you have not been able to fully adapt to your current life." You can see a psychologist who may be of great help to you. ”
"Hmm." My voice seemed to return to indifference, and my expression was still so unintentional.
When I told Mitsuo and Haji about this idea, they were stupid and didn't react for half a day.
"I'm going to see a psychiatrist!" Their performance made me mistakenly think that they had not heard what they were saying at all, so Zhou Zhenhua clearly repeated it again to express his thoughts.
As a result, after I finished speaking, the three tails were like cats being trampled on the tail: "Instructor, your brain has not been damaged by the bomb, oh no, you have not participated in the war for a long time, it is impossible to be stunned by the bomb, is it caught in the door?"
Yu Kill echoed next to him, "It's very possible." Otherwise, what is the purpose of seeing a psychiatrist to see that thing? ”
Ignoring their tease, "I feel like I'm weird in everyone's eyes." In what I think is rightfully true, no one else can understand. I thought about it for a moment and then continued, "So I think I need to adjust my mindset and see a psychiatrist." ”
Mitsuo and Haba kill kiran in an instant, and maybe they don't understand how I should be now.
"Instructor!" Mio said very seriously, "We haven't experienced your current situation." So can't give you any good advice. But instructor, remember, maybe you forgot some of the previous things, or you did it calmly, maybe you can walk out. ”
"Oh." I didn't think there was anything wrong with it, just a slight response. Yu Kill sighed and was silent over there.
Finally, there was the sound of yu killing depressed training fighting, and then Mitsuo hung up the phone after arranging for the doctors at the hospital here.
A long night passed, and when I got up the next day and finished training as usual after lunch. I went to the hospital psychology department in the city. Several psychiatrists have their own responsibilities. They all have one characteristic. Even all of them are very kind and have extraordinary affinity.
I said, "Excuse me, I'm here to explain counseling." ”
One of the doctors inside came over very briskly. Then said lightly.
"Let's start psychotherapy!"
Now that I have decided to do psychotherapy, I naturally will not have any delay. So I lay there quietly, allowing myself to make all kinds of preparations.
"This gentleman's surname is Su Bar, I am a psychologist invited by Mr. Mu, Mr. Su can call me Dr. Ma, although you have no need to restrain me as a friend in front of me." Dr. Ma is a psychologist with a gentle language that gives a very intimate feeling: "You see this is a comfortable chair on which people will unnaturally relax. Mr. Su, why don't we sit down and talk? ”
"Sorry!" I simply sat down on the ground: "I don't like to relax, because if I am too relaxed, I will feel that there is danger around me." ”
"Oh? That's the way it is! Dr. Ma smiled relaxedly and sat down beside me. He was also sitting on the ground, so that perhaps he thought that this was more affinity in front of me. Under normal circumstances, ordinary people will have a good feeling.
But I, "Why are you sitting on the ground?" I asked lightly.
"This..." Many doctors do this to get closer to the patient. But if you ask him why he has to sit like this to tell the truth, it is really very difficult to answer.
"You look down on me?" I asked again, and Dr. Ma was speechless on the spot.
Dr. Ma thought to himself, the people Mr. Mu cares about seems to be not so simple, so he is very afraid.
"I sit like this because it's my habit, and you're sitting like this on purpose to imitate my habits." So you look down on me! I said lightly, "If you don't respect my habits then you're insulting me!" ”
Dr. Ma said with embarrassment, "I'm still sitting on the sand, right?" He said he got up and was going to sit back on the sand.
"What do you mean?" My eyes instantly lit up, and out of thin air there was an extra murderous breath.
"I... It's not interesting! Dr. Ma didn't know what mistake he had made.
"I'm sitting on the ground, don't you think I'm weird when you sit on the sand?" My tone returned to speaking lightly.
"Sorry! Dr. Ma really didn't know what to say for a while. Finally, he thought about it for a moment and said, "I'll still stand here!" Then got up from the couch.
"Are you tall?" I glanced at Dr. Ma and asked boredly.
This time Dr. Ma really broke down. The whole person is standing or sitting there, nor is it as if it were a very obstructive existence. Looking at me stupidly, I heard Zhou Zhenhua reprimand and say a lot of truth.
Until finally Dr. Ma was said to have thigh cramps and his head swelled, and he couldn't tell the difference between southeast and northwest and then passed out.
In the end I left the hospital under the "attention" of other doctors.
Just after arriving at the residence, the mobile phone in his pocket vibrated, glanced at the phone number, answered it, and said, "Mio, I don't think it's useful for me to see a psychiatrist." ”
The three tails over there began to wail. "Instructor, you have received anti-hypnosis training from many top psychologists, and it seems that it was a mistake for me to introduce psychologists to you." At the thought of Dr. Ma, who had become half-stupid, the three-tailed fox had an urge to laugh.
And the feather kill next to the three tails, in the end, did not suppress his laughter, and finally laughed loudly, and was kicked far away by the three tails.
Mitsuo finally said, "Instructor, everything is up to you, we believe you can get out, it's only a matter of time." Finally, he hung up the phone in a hurry, and seemed to be depressed to clean up yu and kill.
And I, still on this hill, looked down the hill and still saw the scenery ten thousand times.
Part.2
It was another cloudy day after the rain, the clouds were still floating so faintly, it seemed that everything was so indifferent, and the wind still seemed to be blowing and whistling unrelated to the world.
The air after the rain is always so fresh, and I like the quiet and pleasant place more than the hustle and bustle of Shanghai. Perhaps accustomed to a faint sadness, he will only look up at the sky in silence, watching the white clouds slowly floating from the blue sky, like wandering souls, and gradually disappearing.
Walking on this country road, looking at the green of the mountains, it seems that the mood is no longer so irritable. During this period of depression, I always felt that the whole person was itchy and fidgeting. Then, under this somewhat sunny afternoon sky, walk down the familiar mountain path, looking for the old times that were once familiar.
Every time I see that haggard face in the mirror, full of stubble, I may not have thought that one day I would be so decadent, or pessimistic. As for the reason, it is because I am still someone else, it doesn't matter anymore, what matters is how I should get out of this predicament.
Carefully said, "I know you are a dragon, and I believe that one day, I will soar for nine days." "I don't know how she sees me, or how she sees me as a dragon. If I really am a dragon, then a certain martial arts move "Sleepy Dragon in the Field" seems to describe me now. Is it possible for a dragon to be trapped in a field? This is obviously not possible. But what if the dragon makes excuses on its own not to leave? The answer is unknown.
One day in the month, Zhe called me to ask me to go to his party. It was only after I tried so hard to convince myself that I promised him that I would go.
That day, after I went, I went into the box and saw some strangers all around, except for Zhe. The others had nothing to do with me, so I sat quietly in the corner and watched quietly as the others shook their bodies, moving wildly to the rhythm of the music, as if so happy.
Zhe played for a while and saw that I was still in the corner, silently playing with my phone. He walked over and said, "What's wrong, why don't you play today?" ”
I said, "I'm not used to this atmosphere. ”
Zhe looked at me wordlessly. Then sighed wailingly. "How come you're still like wood?" Can you come out for a walk and do some activities? ”
I smiled faintly and said, "I'm used to this, you go play." ”
When Zhe was about to leave, the two men entered the box from the hall. A man and a woman, a man's bodyguard, and the girl seemed to have a proud look on her face.
"Zhe, is this your friend?" How? ”
Zhe looked at me in the corner, still playing with his mobile phone, and had to reply: "It's okay, he's always like this." Then he made a helpless expression.
The girl also lost interest and turned to Zhe and said, "Zhe, you know what? My father found me a very powerful bodyguard, who had been a soldier from abroad. It seems to be some regiment of The British..." And the bodyguard behind her quickly took over, "It's the British Foreign Legion." "Say a look of pride on your face.
After listening to her words, Zhe turned to look at me, and I was still playing with my phone, but just looked up at the bodyguard who was very proud.
The girl continued to say triumphantly, "Zhe, my bodyguard is very powerful, especially the flying knife, which basically refers to the one who hit that." Ah Lian, you perform for Young Master Zhe to see. As soon as she finished speaking, the bodyguard behind her took a small flying knife from her pocket and flew towards Zhe.
Zhe did not expect him to shoot directly, and his body did not react, but instinctively moved a position to the left. But the flying knife was originally intended for Zhe to be fixed in its original position, and now that Zhe had left its original position, the consequences could be imagined. And the bodyguard had a look of fear on his face. Maybe he knew that he had lost his hand this time, and it was a fatal throat position, and this young master was not low in value, and it seemed that he had to escape.
I sighed and threw my mobile phone down the flying knife, just hitting the back handle of the flying knife, so the flying knife also changed its original trajectory, flew to the wall behind Zhe, and then fell to the ground.
Zhe Gang reacted, squatted down, and quickly drew the plastic saber from the calf position. The lift jumped, and then the bayonet slashed through the neck of the already stupid bodyguard, and blood flowed from the wound in an instant. But I could tell that Zhe didn't have a dead hand, just a skin wound.
Zhe quickly calmed down, and said with a cold face: "Yan, it seems that you have to change your bodyguard, and also, remember to go home and tell your parents and let him explain to me why your bodyguard assassinated me." The girl, on the other hand, was paralyzed, breathing heavily, her face full of fear.
Zhe looked at me as he walked over and pulled up his phone, then walked out of the box and left the casino. Then said "Thank you." I smiled bitterly, "Thank you, I don't have to, my phone is a bit broken, it would be good not to accompany me." "Looking at the depressed Zhe, I said with a smile." My mobile phone price is not much, just ten thousand, just saved your life, you have to give me ten thousand and one cents. ”
Zhe did not react and asked very doubtfully, "Why is there an extra dime?" Then I looked at me with a smile on my face before I reacted. Scolding: "Depend, it turns out that my life is worth a dime in your eyes!" ”
I laughed for a moment and then began to calm down. Then he said to Zhe very seriously: "Zhe, have you found that now you have regressed a lot, and your identity will have many dangers." So, there are some things that can't be put down, especially the strangers around you. ”
Zhe looked at me with a serious face and replied very solemnly, "Well, I will remember." Thank you tonight. I smiled, then pointed to the police car in the distance, "Xie don't need it, you can put this matter to rest first." ”
The police car soon arrived, and a group of heavily armored policemen came down, and I looked at Zhe with a bitter smile.
Xiang Zhe, an old policeman who was slightly blessed, said very solemnly, "Young Master Zhe, it seems that you have to go to the bureau with us." But I saw a deep jealousy in his eyes.
Zhe looked down at me and said, "Okay, but you must give me an explanation after remembering the incident." Otherwise, you'll have to go with me to that place to meet him." "Then he dragged me into the police car. And the old policeman followed him in a cold sweat.
In the interrogation room, a strong light shot straight into my eyes, and I had to squint. This is a common method of interrogation, and strong light will make people's eyes unable to open, making people prone to fatigue. When a person's heart is in a state of fatigue, the psychological defense line will decline. But having been trained in demonic fashion, the philosophers next door and I seemed to have become accustomed to these things.
The young policeman asked in a cold voice, "Name?" "I have answered many irrelevant questions. After about ten minutes like this, a female policewoman next to me read my profile and said, "Your profile is normal, normally suspicious, because your file is blank." ”
The young man next to me often picked up the information on the table with some doubt, and looked at me deeply.
The policewoman said, "What the hell are you?" Did you plan tonight's murder? ”
I kept my eyes closed, my eyes opened instantly, and then I squinted my eyes and said, "It's okay to interrogate me, but don't frame me, otherwise you'll have to think about the consequences." ”
The male policeman stood up angrily, "What are you talking about? Do you dare to threaten the police? "A look of anger on his face. The policewoman next to him tugged at the corner of his coat and whispered, "You're on his path, he seems to be diverting our minds, he's specially trained." Her voice was low, but I could roughly tell from her vague voice and the shape of her mouth that she was saying.
The policeman seemed to sense that he had made some low-level mistakes, took a deep breath and then asked, "Say, why did this fight happen in the bar?" What is your relationship with them? Be honest about the specific process! ”
I was impatient, but I knew that I was most afraid of being impetuous during interrogations. So he said, "I don't remember exactly." ”
Some of my words made them impatient to listen, and the policewoman asked coldly: Why are you fighting? And what happened to the deceased? ”
I chose silence in the end.
"Su Luo, you listen to me, and I warn you that you don't want to go out without cooperating with the police investigation!" The policewoman asked coldly.
I still squinted my eyes and adjusted my body slightly to avoid the glare.
When the policewoman saw that I was no longer speaking, she regained her original cold and stern face and said, "It seems that you have to be locked up for two days before you remember something!" Xiao Wang, today's interrogation ends here, take him down and lock him up! The policewoman said coldly, then stood up and left.
On the other side, Zhe was much better off than me, and he took out his mobile phone and made a call: "Hey, is it Director Wang?" Haha, sorry, so late to disturb Director Wang's rest, sorry sorry sorry. ”
"Zhe Gongzi, you don't want to be polite with me, I'm afraid that there is something wrong with calling me so late, right?" A man's thick voice came over the phone.
"Oh, Director Wang is indeed a fast man, there is indeed something, there is a person who wants to assassinate me, was saved by my friend, the people below you brought the two of us to the police station to ask about it, at present I am in the police station with him, and I hope that Director Wang will come to see, I have been busy lately and have no time to stay here."
"Oh? What kind of person would he dare to assassinate your zhegongzi? ”
"A personal bodyguard, probably someone else mixed in, but I've killed him."
"Killed? Well, since I'm coming right away, please wait a moment. ”
"Well, then don't bother Director Wang, in two days I will ask someone to send a pot of Mingqian Longjing to Director Wang, but the authentic Mingqian Longjing is difficult to buy!"
"Oh, Zhe Gongzi, why are you so polite, huh?"
Zhe hung up after a few polite words on the phone.
"Well, in a moment my bail will come!" Yang Jun put down the phone and said lightly to the people around him.
In a room on the third floor of a certain unit building, Wang Li sat on the sofa, he put down the phone in his hand, and said in his mouth: "The person who dares to assassinate Zhe Gongzi should not be a mediocre hand, but how can his friend save it?" What kind of character is this that deserves such a concern from Zhe Gongzi? ”
Wang Li's face changed suddenly, as the director of the Tianhai City Public Security Bureau, Wang Li has always been known for his calm and sophisticated, and his step-by-step climb to the position of director of the public security bureau has also played an important role in addition to his superior strategy, so under normal circumstances, Wang Li's face has always been extremely calm.
At this moment, his face changed, he quickly turned and went into his study, and then opened the safe in the study where the top-secret documents were placed, and from the safe he took out a document, which was a red-headed document, indicating the confidentiality and importance of this document.
The red-headed document only wrote the basic information of a person, and he read it while looking at it: "The name Su Luo, 24 years old, suspected of being a foreign veteran mercenary." The information provided in this document is very small, but the content makes Wang Li have to pay attention to it.
"No, I've got to go to the police station." Wang Li made up his mind, and then he put the red-headed document back in the safe, walked out of the study, got dressed, and was about to go out.
"Lao Wang, do you still want to go out at this late hour?" Did something happen? Wang Li's wife, Wu Ling, came out of the bedroom and asked.
"Nothing, I'll go to the police station, you go to sleep first, I'll take the keys!" Wang Li said a word and walked out the door. Then "Bang Bang" walked down the stairs, he was obviously in a hurry, and his mood was also very excited.
A black Audi sedan sped up and stopped outside the police station. The police in the police station will know who is sitting inside when they see the black Audi sedan and the license plate number on the sedan, that is, their boss, Wang Li, the director of the Tianhai City Public Security Bureau.
After Wang Li stopped the car, he hurried into the police station, and several policemen immediately greeted Director Wang and said hello, and Director Wang just nodded. There was a young man in the police station who was talking violently with a policeman, and the words on both sides were a little violent, and this young man was Zhe.
It turned out that after Zhe recorded his confession, he waited for two hours and did not see me come out, so he went up to ask a policeman about me, and the policeman replied that I had been detained. As soon as he heard this, he was anxious and quarreled with the policeman.
"What's going on?" Wang Li frowned and asked. "Oh, Commissioner, there was a horrible murder in a bar today, and we put two suspects involved in the murder in the bureau, and this person was one of the suspects, and she shouted for us to release the police station." A middle-aged policeman next to Wang Li said hurriedly.
When Zhe next to him saw That Director Wang coming, he went forward and asked lightly, "Director Wang, how do you think this matter should be handled?" I'm busy, and my friend should be being held by your men, so how do you say I should account for him? ”
Imagining the one in Zhe's mouth, Director Wang wiped his cold sweat and said, "Immediately, release people immediately." Zhe snorted faintly.
Wang Li said and turned to the female police officer and said. "Xiao Li, let his friends out."
"Director, I'm just afraid of this..." the female police officer said in surprise.
Wang Li glared at the female police officer fiercely and said angrily, "You don't want to do it, do you?" Then take off your police uniform and get out, and if you still want to do it here, let someone go. It seems that he was questioned by his subordinates, and this Director Wang was very angry and somewhat irrational.
The female police officer was very aggrieved, and her tears were about to fall, but she was quickly pulled away by the young male policeman next to her. Soon, the young policeman came over and opened the door for me, and then pretended to be indifferent and said, "Su Luo, check it out, you are all right, you can go out." ”
I sighed and followed his footsteps into the hall.
Zhe quickly stepped forward and asked me, "You're all right?" I smiled faintly, "You want me to have something." Then Tetsuzo gave me a punch, and I moved to flash.
"Then Director Wang, if there is nothing wrong with me, I am not," Fang Zhe paused and said. "Oh." Wang Li reacted and said. "Of course, it's nothing wrong, Zhe Gongzi, do you want me to give you a ride when it's so late?"
"So I can go out?" Zhe smiled and looked at me next to him. "Of course you can go out, misunderstanding, misunderstanding, Zhe Gongzi, don't worry about it!" I also learned about this incident in the bar just now, that is, the guy assassinated you first, you and your friends are legitimate defense, but Zhe you rest assured, I will definitely ask words from their mouths, give Zhe Gongzi an explanation! Wang Li said hurriedly.
"Oh, then thank you Director Wang!" Zhe smiled lightly, looked at Director Wang, and said. "In fact, your police station is doing a good job, handling cases quickly, and acting quickly!" “
Wang Li smiled and said. "Come, Zhe Gongzi, go this way!"
With the other policemen's faces full of doubt, Zhe and I quickly left the police station. Perhaps they did not understand who the "zhe gongzi" in the mouth of their bureau chief was, and why the bureau chief was so kind to him.
Looking at Wang Li, who was shaking his hand goodbye in the distance, I said to Zhe, "Don't look for me in the future, you know I hate the police station." ”
Zhe looked at me with a tired face and finally said good.
We quickly parted ways, and maybe he and I weren't in the same world in the first place.
Maybe we shouldn't have known each other.
Maybe it's just a ridiculous ending, or a process.
Part.3
The weather forecast said it was going to rain today. I looked at the cloudless sky and said carefully to the phone, "The promise when you are in love is like today's weather forecast, when it rains, he is right, and if it does not rain, it is unpredictable." Love, the sweet words in it, what can be done is called commitment, and what cannot be done is called lies. ”
Be careful over there habitually laughing wildly, I am used to using "huh" to express my silence, and careful likes to smile at the world. Be careful to say, "Happiness in love, how many points can you and I grasp?" Indeed, this sentence seems to be something that many people must admit.
While I was calling Careful, I sat down at the attic window, sorting through the pictures of the past. There are my own, and there are also with others. These photographs have long since become yellowed and mottled with the encroachment of time. Looking at the small figure in the photo, and the bright smile on the face, and then looking at the gray self in the mirror, my heart ached for a while, and then it quickly returned to calm, as if nothing had happened.
I don't know when I stopped taking pictures of myself, or I haven't been on photos for a long time. Maybe it's the pain of seeing people later.
No matter how yellowed the photos may still be, those good things are there.
Looking at the photos, the background that has long disappeared in the years is already very blurry, and the songs of childhood will still ring in the ears. Dilapidated old carriages, old locust trees, mulberry fields, busy people, etc., decorated my past, which has been wandering in this small village for many years.
Every time I look at the photos of the old times, I am always used to silence. In silence, silently recalling the past that has rolled in with time, the once overflowing smile has long been with the vicissitudes of the years, frozen in a certain photo.
The years are fast, and I am just used to remembering with my simplest words.
I can't forget, those I have stayed, walked, hurriedly crossed, I will remember in my heart, in a rainy afternoon, suddenly pick up a pen, record the once beautiful years.
Some people say, "People must know how to forget, and then they will encounter happiness again." "I can't tell if what other people say is right or wrong, I just know that for myself, forgetting is like a last word, and maybe at the last moment of my life, I will choose to forget." Now, it's just self-deception.
Many times, a person on the road to a certain place, habitually bring a camera, just want to keep some good.
When Mio and I were in Tibet, because we were on a mission, we saw many beautiful scenes, many of which were as beautiful as the passing of the world in the blink of an eye. I said to Mitsuo, "Mitsuo, I will definitely come here again in the future, and I will not leave in such a hurry." Then he and the three tails rushed across the border line.
A few years later, I went to Tibet again, but I could no longer find the mountain, perhaps I could no longer find the beautiful picture.
I like to annotate my own sadness in my own way, and then inexplicably pessimistic.
Too often, I always say some self-deceptive things to myself, knowing that they are not as good as a joke, but I still believe that although it is self-comforting, it is inevitable to redeem myself.
There are too few things in the world that are smooth, so few that you can only look up at the sky and wait for the raindrops to fall, maybe it can fade your despair.
I always write in bits and pieces like this, and I like to record something in this way. Then one afternoon he said, "The past is hard to look back on." Then laughed in the mirror. A lot of people say, "Lo, you're still young, you don't know the warmth and cold of the world." ”
I said, "I have escaped the vicissitudes of a thousand years in my memories." ”
Carefully said, "Lo, you know, why did you become like this?" ”
I replied, "If I knew that I had come to this result, I would not have allowed myself to appear in that season again, and maybe now I would not have to face the twilight of sorrow." ”
The vicissitudes of the sea and the mulberry fields, the thousands of mountains and rivers that have passed, have left a pale face.
Who am I waiting for? Who is waiting for me?
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