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My name is Wang Xiaoxiao, stumbling, ups and downs, life has passed 30 years, career success, but also have their own family, but also feel very sorry in the heart, this is also my life struggle process.
Whenever I recall my life path, especially in the middle of the night, when I look at my husband who is snoring like thunder around me, I can't help but fall into the contemplation of the past...
At that time, I was beautiful, fair skin, dark and bright eyes, rounded face, slender figure, people called me a beautiful sister. When I was in high school, I was the school flower in the class, and I had many suitors, including a classmate, his name was Wang Hu, he was a rich second generation, tall, very handsome, he and I were classmates and friends.
Wang Hu's family has good economic conditions, wearing brand-name clothing, and he often buys me my favorite snacks to discuss topics and discuss life together.
That day was a rest day, Wang Hu invited me to eat thirsty wine in the hotel, talked about learning together, talked about ideals, talked about the future, I was excited to thirst for a few glasses of wine, full of red, shaky, he helped me open a room in the hotel, let me have a good rest, the sun was just right, shining on my beautiful face, Wang Hu did not turn qing looking at me, I did not know how long I slept, suddenly woke up to see Wang Hu sitting next to me, ashamed I suddenly blushed, covered my face and ran out of the hotel with tears.
Since then, Wang Hu has cared more about me, been considerate of me, amused me, and quietly indicated to his classmates and friends who were pursuing me: "Xiaoxiao is my girlfriend, don't bother her in the future." Just like that, keep my friends away from me.
After we graduated from the college entrance examination, Wang Hu confessed his love for me to me, and then I realized that he had a love for me. I have always considered him to be my good friend, helping me in my studies, taking care of me in life, and from the bottom of my heart I am very grateful to him, and his confession makes me very moved.
That day, when the college entrance examination was over and I was about to graduate, he asked me to dinner at the hotel. When I saw Wang Hu's one-meter-eight big boy, he blushed and shyly confessed to me: "I love you." I was really touched by this moving scene. However, I am not love for Wang Hu, but friendship, and his confession is a bit vain, and I feel happy in my heart.
In the end, I still ruthlessly rejected Wang Hu's courtship, because he was a rich second generation, and he could not be compared with my family, and people often said: "The door is not right, the household is not right." I said to him gently, "I'm sorry, I'm not thinking about falling in love now, we are still best friends, and I sincerely thank you for your care and help to me." ”
After Wang Hu was rejected by me, his persistent love for me moved me to tears, but I never accepted him, but I avoided him, afraid that he would come back to pester, stay away from him, and no longer have any contact with him.
Because I don't want to hurt him more emotionally, and I don't want to delay his bright future.
Later, Wang Hu knew that it was impossible for him to marry me, and he asked me many times to talk about his heart. With tears in his eyes, he said that he would no longer pursue me, but still wanted us to be close friends with each other, and I nodded my head and agreed with him.
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I was fortunate enough to be admitted to college and earned glory for my parents. When I entered the university campus, I was extremely happy and devoted myself to my studies, and as a result, I achieved excellent results, ranked second in the whole department, and became the leader of our department.
At this moment, the envious eyes of my classmates made me excited. Our class leader, his name is Zhao Shenghong, he has a clear eyebrow, and he is very talkative in the class, but his introverted personality, rarely interacts with people, and looks like a very cold handsome man.
After a long time, I gradually became familiar with Zhao Shenghong, and only then did I know that he was a boy with heat inside and cold outside, but he did not like to communicate and interact with strangers, but he had a warm heart for me, asking me to walk around the campus and talk about life and the future.
But soon, Zhao Shenghong and I had nothing to say, I never expected him to pursue me, which surprised me, and I still promised him to get along as a friend for him.
Although I seem to be thin and gentle and kind, I am actually a very assertive girl, with a bold and crisp personality, and never do things that drag mud and water and break the thread. Directly politely refused Zhao Shenghong's courtship.
Zhao Shenghong did not expect that I would refuse his courtship. He was embarrassed to say: "This is the first time in my life to pursue a girl, with all my sincerity and sincerity, very confident to give you happiness." ”
I rebuffed it this way: "I'm really sorry, the emotional thing, I haven't considered it yet, my parents want me to study well first." Sorry, we are suitable to be friends. He said embarrassedly: "I understand what you mean, don't force you, if you consider falling in love, I am confident that you will choose me."
When I was in my third year of college, I finally met a boy who made my heart move, his name was Liu Fan, tall, white and pure, especially the big eyes of the bright and energetic Qing, he was born in the countryside, and we met in the youth volunteer activities. The two of us have a common topic, and we are also very hard-working people, full of expectations for life. Even if the days are dull and the study is boring, both people can find happy activities, he often teases me, tells me some rural stories that make me very happy, and makes me feel very happy.
Soon, Liu Fan and I warmed up in school activities. Sunny and cheerful Liu Fan, his family conditions are not very good, similar to my family, but he still does his best to help others, I am always attracted by his sunny and cheerful smile, and soon Liu Fan and I have established a relationship.
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Liu Fan he did not solemnly confess, the two of us walked around the campus, talking about life, his big eyes stared at my face, four eyes looking at each other, I shyly turned my head, at this time, Liu Fan's hand took my hand, and I did not reject him, so the feelings developed in the direction of depth.
But this relationship was short-lived, and it came to an end in less than a year. Because Liu Fan's classmates in the dormitory showed that they had found the school flower as a girlfriend, this can be hilarious, and his bragging classmate Xiao Zhang in his dormitory joked: "You are so powerful, get our school flowers, I know that you two have been together, happy!" Hahaha laughed, making the roommates laugh and rolled forward and backward.
Liu Fan's roommate Xiao Zhang liked to brag a lot, bragging and exaggerating the scene when we were in love, in order to spread false rumors, and finally evolved into everyone saying that we both had a man and a woman. These slanderous words hurt me so much that I can't be a human being...
After Liu Fan knew, he was very angry in his heart, but he also knew that he had lost his word, grabbed the collar of his roommate Xiao Zhang and taught me a lesson, and quickly came to apologize to me. Since then, I have been more cautious about the scale between men and women, and slowly moved away from him.
Liu Fan was snubbed for this matter, and he couldn't help but hurt people during an argument with me, which greatly hurt my self-esteem. I said to Liu Fan, "It seems that it is difficult for us to go on this relationship now, thank you, let's break up." After I finished speaking, I cried and left, and I never saw Liu Fan come to me again, I knew that this relationship would not last long, so my love affair with Liu Fan ended. There was no good goodbye, no good goodbye.
I applied for a job with a crush and started a new life. But the wounds in my heart need time to heal. Over the years, among my many suitors, there was one other who had been waiting for me.
That was Wang Li, who grew up with me in my neighborhood, who was two years older than me. His parents and my parents have been friends for many years, both of them are a child, and when I was a child, I heard adults say, "Look at how much fun these two children have playing together, it's a natural couple, and when they grow up, they are married." The two families said, "Very good."
In fact, Wang Li has always liked me, and when he was in junior high school, he was very kind to me, defending me everywhere and caring about me. Because he suddenly found that other people's classmates asked me to go to the park to play, and some wrote me love letters, he felt particularly uncomfortable. At that time, he did not understand love, until he later consulted his classmates.
His love for me has always been hidden in his heart, and he has also tried all kinds of implicit confessions to me, at first I did not know, I was young and did not understand, but then gradually after I grew up, I directly rejected him: "Brother Wang Li, you are in my heart, you will always be my brother."
Years do not spare people, love wounds healed, I do not want to say my age, just in the blink of an eye to work for more than two years, I have not met the beloved, my parents are anxious, my heart aches.
That night, Wang Li came to see me at my house, and he politely confessed to me: "Xiao Rao, I have been waiting for you for so many years, I love you, I like you very much, I will wait until you get married before I give up on you, can you marry me?"
When I listened to Wang Li's heartfelt words, I was moved and shed tears. Soon, we walked into the happiest marriage hall of our lives.
This is the bumpy marriage road of my life, turning over the memories in my own mind, remembering the boys who have caused ripples in my heart, one by one...
Finally, I hope that the young friends who see this article must have a degree in love, thousands of good men, do not miss the good time of love, miss and never come back.
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