When a friend I've known for twenty years lies in a hospital bed and holds her last breath to reveal her heart to me.
She said: "Actually, I am so afraid of death, but just now I am suddenly not afraid." ”
The tears in my eyes were swirling, but I still forced the tears to ask, "Why?" ”
She went on to say, "When I was young, my parents were dead, and everyone else said I had killed them. I also like to steal things, grandma told me, said that after a person dies, Yama will read her life, and then judge her to heaven or hell, you kill your parents, but also steal things, you will definitely go to hell in the future! I was so scared that I never stole anything again. I was really scared, and even just now I was still so scared, afraid of being judged by Yama's king for my whole life, afraid that I would enter the Yin Cao Mansion instead of the paradise that everyone yearned for, afraid that after I went in, my father and mother would ask me why I wanted to kill them... But I'm relieved, I'm in my early twenties, I've done so many good things, I'm not going to go to hell, right? ”
I really couldn't hold back, lying on the bed crying, she was weak but still with the last effort to slightly raise her hand and touch my head, I watched her cry, she said, "Don't cry." Is it okay to grant me a wish? ”
She said, "Help me take care of the buns." I have raised her for more than ten years, and she is almost exhausted like me, please do your best to make her happy in her last time, okay? Oh, don't tell her I'm dead, I'm afraid she'll be upset. ”
I really couldn't hold back, promised her to run out of the ward, crying in the corridor outside the ward, and people around me looked at me, but I really couldn't help it.
She was so beautiful, so kind, but she was afraid that after death, her parents would ask her why she wanted to kill them.
The bun is the dog she raised since childhood, the skewer of the earth dog combined with the black-backed Demu, she regards it as a treasure, her grandparents always shout to send the dog to the dog meat shop, she desperately blocks, and even releases a cruel word "The dog is dead, I will die with her!" ”
The grandparents longed for her to die, but this was the only bloodline left by their sons, and they could only be raised reluctantly.
One day, her grandparents secretly sent the dog back to her hometown, she knew, she couldn't afford to get sick, looking at the scared eyes of the dog in the video, and the bald fur on the body, yelling at everyone there, she threatened her life, and the grandparents sent the dog back.
When the dog returned, she also suffered from depression.
Every day in class, I just looked at the blackboard and came home with a smile.
Because her life is there. Her dog, her redemption, the only light in her life.
When I grew up, I earned money by working, half to my grandparents, half to my own use, and I used it for charity.
Donate two hundred dollars a month to the local foundation and never leave behind.
Go out every day to feed stray cats and dogs, take them to the hospital for treatment when they encounter serious cases, and then release them.
When she meets a beggar on the road, she will always do her best to help, and she herself is hesitant to buy a dress for dozens of dollars on Pinduoduo.
She gives the best to the dog and shows the kindest side to others.
She loves the world with all her might.
Depression is still not good, fighting the disease for nearly a decade, and recently suffered from cancer.
What did she do wrong?
He was scolded by his neighbors for broomstick stars, isolated by his classmates, and had few friends.
Until her death, she thought she had killed her parents.
She lay dying in her hospital bed, and only a few of her friends went to visit.
She has no relatives anymore.
The only relative is the bun.
The dog she spent most of her life guarding died before the bun.
She is not ashamed of others, and she is not ashamed of herself.
But she had exhausted her life and reconciled with herself.