Turn on the vibrato, a boy said to a girl: You, I want to take you facing the sea, spring blossoms, but the girl feels that he can never do it. But I think of Haizi at this moment, I think of him writing this poem only two months before his death, may you have a brilliant future, may you have a lover and become a family, may you be happy in the world. I reread Haizi's poetry collection again.
Haizi, formerly known as Cha Haisheng, was admitted to the Law Department of Peking University in 1979, taught in the Department of Philosophy of China University of Political Science and Law after graduation in 1983, in March 1989, spring returned to the earth, everything recovered, everywhere was full of vitality, just turned 25 years old Haizi, quietly lying on the cold railway tracks of Shanhaiguan, bid farewell to this turbid world, only took away the Bible, Walden Lake, "Lone Raft Heavy Ocean", "Conrad Novel Selection", from the spring to the spring. As he himself said: In the night, I have suffered three times, wandering, love, survival.
"After the drumming, we call the heart that dances in the dark the moon, and the moon is mainly composed of you" A "Asian Copper", which is also the first outstanding poem that brought Haizi a wide reputation and established his important position in the Chinese poetry scene in the future, many haizi poetry collections put this poem at the beginning, which is the epitome of the country.
"The wind of my hometown, the clouds of my hometown, gather your wings, sleep on my shoulders" A song "Wheat Field" brings us into a pure world, wheat field, moon, village, field, etc., here, the glitz fades, all of which does not need any modification, the flow is the most real clear water, the most sincere cry, which is the epitome of home.
Once he asked his classmates from the podium of the University of Law: "Which poet do you all like?" "The students from Ai Qing, Xu Zhimo, Bing Xin, Gu Cheng... When it was B's turn, she stood up and said bluntly: "I like the child's poetry", Haizi fell in love, the object was this B classmate, he wrote a poem for her "You are mine, half-cut poems, half-cut poems, half-cut with the heart, half-cut buried with the flesh", only deep love, love to the bone, can write such a poem, a "birthday for B", "Autumn comes, everything is unforgettable, as if two lambs meet on the way" Met in the autumn, her youth belongs only to Haizi alone, but the ending has long been written, a city, a countryside, There is a chasm between these, Haizi can not cross, on the last night of October, I will never write about you again, this is the epitome of her.
In 1989, Haizi finally began to write about herself. From tomorrow onwards, be a happy person, may you be able to face the sea and blossom in the spring. But he really couldn't hold on, and the loneliness of his heart, the loneliness of his spirit, made him just want to be liberated, as in his "Sun. The Psalm says, "I have come to the end of mankind"; as in his Book of the Sun. The Land says: "Carrying the blood-red sunset on your back, go to the cemetery of your hometown"; as in his "Sun. As the Great Zaza says, "I put on the straw of wheat and die peacefully, this time not buried in the mass graves of my hometown on the hilltops," he seems to have found a habitat for his soul. From 3:00 a.m. to 4:00 a.m. on March 14, he wrote his masterpiece "Spring, Ten Haizi", "Spring, all ten Haizi are resurrected", some people have died, some people are dead, or maybe Haizi lives in another world. He went so far that he was like a soaring eagle that we could not see. This is the epitome of him.
Shallow joy is like a dog, deep love is like a long wind. Tagore, who wrote "The world kisses me with pain, I sing in return", will not choose to die himself, and lu Yao, who wrote "Know, the road of spring is still full of mud", will not choose death himself. But the Kingdom Weihui who wrote "the most cannot be retained in the world, Zhu Yan ci mirrors the flower and the tree", the Maupassant Society that writes "The life of a person is neither as good nor so bad as people think", and Haizi who writes "From tomorrow onwards, be a happy person", why can't Haizi?