Back to the hometown for the first time to see the only thatched hut in Grandpa Ha's home, at that time the home just powered, is the kind of yellow is not very bright bulbs, Grandpa is afraid of wasting electricity and is reluctant to use, every time after dark Grandpa still uses his kerosene lamp, kerosene lamp is made of glass small medicine bottles, lit after there is a faint flame, because it is a grass house, the windows are still small, even the daytime house is particularly dark, Grandpa is the old society people do not like my granddaughter, think that the granddaughter is for people to raise, raised to marry, is an outsider, So what I do is not pleasing to the eye, always love to nag two sentences, I also think grandpa does not like me, so the old love with him to do, our village every set, out of the door is the set, every time to catch the market Grandpa buys a lot of delicious food, but he hid it and did not give me to eat, because at that time there was no TV at home, the house was dark, so in addition to sleeping and eating, I basically played on the street, I can see Grandpa carrying delicious home, but I went home to find, but there was no, I knew Grandpa hid, The little place in the house was always found by me in the end, grandpa later went to the place where he put food and couldn't find it, he scolded me, I didn't care or go out to play, dad came back and was treated in a local psychiatric hospital, during the treatment must be there, so I didn't see dad for half a year.
Came back for a while, at my age early to the time to go to the kindergarten class, because there was no kindergarten in our village at that time, there was no way, my aunt took me to the kindergarten of their family, the aunt had an older brother who was three years older than me, saw me this sister, the brother was very happy, every day to go to school with me, also told the children of the kindergarten class who want to bully my sister I will beat you, at that time felt particularly happy, someone protected me, spoiled me, my uncle was also very good to me, only the aunt was particularly strict with me, Her thoughts are the same as grandpa,patriarchy,she likes what her brother does,I do what I do is wrong,so I'm particularly afraid of her, as long as we are both alone at home, I sit there motionless, so she looks at me and is angry, I think I'm sitting with the wood, then I get up and stand, stand there She doesn't look good, say I'm okay with the pole Yes, I just go out in the yard to look at me annoyed, but when I go out, she said, come out and stand there, don't run blindly, tell the truth, This is the first time I have been so strictly managed, I can't stand it, there is no way, I just stand there, the sky is dark, the aunt did not say to call me into the house, I really did not mean to see a sickle next to me, I found a branch with a sickle to cut, cut a few times, cut my own hand, the hand bleeds, I cried in pain, my aunt heard from the house out of the house to see my hand bleeding, said me, let you stand honestly, you are good to play with the sickle here, this time the handle is broken, this time honestly stand, talk without listening, after saying it and entering the house I think I feel wronged, I want to go back to my grandfather's house and I don't know the way. Can only secretly open the gate to go out, but here I don't know anyone, there is no place to go, walked for a while to see a courtyard next to the door I went in, a look is a place where no one lived for a long time, I crouched there, think about what to do this time, now go back to the quasi and have to be scolded, do not go back here is still afraid, can only crouch there, after a while I heard as if my uncle was shouting my name to find me, closer and closer to me, I thought I still go out, if a moment the aunt came to be scolded more severely, the uncle hurt me, Say I two sentences to say, I went out, uncle said where are you, looking for you for a while, how can not find, we are worried about you do you know? Come home with me, after saying that I will go home, to the door of the house I dare not go in, the uncle said to go in, your aunt is still at home worried about you, into the house I saw the aunt is not a good look at me, I am afraid to hide behind the uncle, the aunt said I do not say you, tomorrow let your uncle send you back to it, look for your grandfather, we can't manage you, so the next day the uncle rode a bicycle to send me back to the grandfather's house, the grandfather said how good it is, you are blessed not to know to enjoy, the grandfather said that there is no kindergarten class at home, there is a primary school, You go straight to elementary school, and you're old enough.