Before Qingwen died: biting her nails and sending them to Baoyu's collection, regretting that she had assumed a false name, and bluntly saying that she was very wronged
Before Qingwen died, Baoyu visited once. He was worried that Qingwen would be wronged when she arrived at her uncle's brother's house, so he bought a doorkeeper's mother-in-law to sneak out to visit Qingwen.
In the home of the many insects, Baoyu saw a weak and pitiful Qingwen. Qingwen was already thin at this time, her limbs were as thin as wood, and Baoyu couldn't bear that she was wearing four silver bracelets on her wrists and was uncomfortable, so she picked them up for her and put them under the pillow.
At this time, Baoyu was eager to know what Qingwen wanted to say in her heart, but Qingwen's answer made Baoyu feel very uncomfortable.
While thinking, he asked with tears: "What do you have to say, while no one is there, tell me." Qingwen whimpered, "What is there to say!" But a moment is a moment, a day is a day. I already knew that the horizontal and vertical situation would not last for three or five days, and I would be good to go back. Just one thing, I am not willing to die: although I was born slightly better than others, I did not have a private secret intention to seduce you, how to bite me to death and insist that I am a fox spirit! I was unconvinced. Today, having assumed a false name and dying, it is not that I regret it, but I knew that I had another reason that day. Unexpectedly stupid, only to say that everyone is horizontal and vertical in one place. I don't want to give birth to this verse out of thin air, there is no place to sue! "After saying that, I cried again."
At this moment, facing her beloved Baoyu, Qingwen felt both grievances and regrets in her heart. When the raider had a private relationship with Baoyu, Qingwen disdained to do such an ugly thing, and later when Baoyu offered to let Qingwen accompany him to take a bath, Qingwen refused, she did not want to be unspoken like Bi Chen. She felt that she was summoned by Jia Mu to Bao Yu, and in the future everyone would be together horizontally and vertically, and she only wanted to be with Bao Yu in a bright and upright way, instead of sneaking away at those ugly things like Raiders, Bi Traces, and Musk Moon.
Qingwen is a straight-talking, but also a clean and self-loving girl. She is a slave, but she longs for equality between people, and she longs for reciprocal love with Baoyu, not the unequal unspoken rule between the master and the slave. It is probably Qingwen's advanced thinking that makes the author Cao Xueqin feel that she is different, and when shaping the character of Qingwen, she is given a lot of pen and ink, and what is presented in front of the reader is a personality girl who is "proud, self-sufficient, and does not compromise with the world".
Such a Qingwen is hateful in the eyes of outsiders, but in the eyes of Baoyu, it is cute, and Qingwen tearing a fan is the best example. Bao Yu originally blamed Qingwen for breaking the fan, and later laughed for Bo Qingwen and let her tear the fan to play, and the plot of tearing the fan also became a classic fragment in the dream of the Red Chamber.
It is not difficult to see from this that among the four great maidens, Baoyu has respect for the attackers, trust for Musk Yue, and only for Qingwen that he really likes. Qing is Dai Ying, perhaps there is this layer of factors, Bao Yu alone likes Qing Wen in yi hong courtyard.
This time Qingwen was picked up, and the attackers knew that it was better for others to go, but Qingwen went, and Baoyu would be sad and sad. Sure enough, as the attacker expected, Baoyu not only suspected that the attacker had betrayed Qingwen, but also cried that he had lost Qingwen from then on. It was in this situation that Baoyu visited Qingwen once before she died.
Qingwen also thought that she had never said goodbye to Baoyu since then, never had the opportunity to meet again, and did not want Baoyu to sneak away to see her. Before qingwen died, she told Bao Yu about the grievances in her heart, and she regretted that she had no plan at the beginning, and she had assumed a false name and bluntly said that she was too wronged. In order not to leave too many regrets, Qingwen bit off three inches of nails and gave them to Baoyu for collection, and exchanged intimate clothes with Baoyu before dying.
In fact, Qingwen's being picked up, including Qingwen's death, has a lot to do with her personality.
Qingwen is a slave bought by Grandma Lai to honor Jia Mu, because she was born beautiful and clever, and she was deeply liked by Jia Mu. According to Jia Mu's idea, in the future, only Qingwen can summon Baoyu, and Qingwen is also well aware of this, otherwise she would not regret that she did not have another plan before she died, just thinking that everyone will be together in the future.
In fact, there is another reason for Qingwen's tragedy, that is, she did not put herself in the right position. In yihong courtyard, she was just a big girl, but she had three inch long nails. Even the doctor Hu Yong, who came to the mansion for the first time to see Qingwen, regarded her as a lady instead of a lady, and it was no wonder that when Madame Wang reported to Jia Mu, she threw her out on the grounds that Qingwen was lazy.
To put it mildly, Qingwen is the body of the young lady. In addition, from Qingwen's three-inch-long nails, it can be seen that she is usually in a state at work. According to the current parlance, Qingwen belongs to the senior technician, she has a craft, relies on technology to eat, is not an ordinary staff, if she works steadily, the future welfare will not be bad. But Qingwen is a little bad, she did not put her position right, whether it is work or life, compared to her low-level subordinates, she has never had compassion, once the subordinates make mistakes, she likes not to ask the boss to make their own decisions, such as expelling the fallen child.
To put it bluntly, Qingwen is a person who does things her own way, somewhat willful, does not know how to protect herself, and is easy to offend people, Qingwen was framed by Wang Shanbao's family before raiding the Grand View Garden is the best example. Later, Qingwen was picked up, in large part because the wives and sons in the garden who had been offended by Qingwen joined forces to say bad things about Qingwen, so that Madame Wang made the decision to expel her.
Attacking people is just the opposite, although she is not as beautiful and versatile as Qingwen, but the attackers know how to protect themselves, do things without publicity, be more low-key, handle things smoothly, be more generous to subordinates, and are deeply liked by Yihong Courtyard.
If Qingwen does things in a low-key manner and is more sleek, maybe she will not be thrown out of the Grand View Garden, but it is not Qingwen's personality, but attacking people.
In Baoyu's eyes, Qingwen's cuteness is her willfulness. However, Madame Wang and the wives and children in the Grand View Garden did not like such Qingwen, and they were doomed to a tragic ending of Qingwen.
When Qingwen said goodbye to Baoyu before she died, she felt that Madame Wang thought that she was a fox spirit who seduced Baoyu based on her appearance, and she was particularly aggrieved in her heart, feeling that she had assumed a false name in vain. Of course, Qingwen's crying and dissatisfaction are also the biggest irony of Lady Wang, Who judges people by appearance, believing that the beautiful Qingwen is a fox spirit that will bring bad Baoyu, in fact, the seemingly honest and reliable attacker who was entrusted by her with heavy responsibilities is the handmaiden who has a close relationship with Baoyu, and is the real fox essence.
I am Xiao Meng, telling you the story of "Dream of the Red Chamber".
Reference works: Cao Xueqin, Fat Yanzhai commentary on "Dream of the Red Chamber" Fat Collection