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A secret past has become a torment in the heart

author:Love Zhang Ting

Congratulations, from week 9 onwards the embryo can already be called a fetus, he or she is your real baby.

By week 10: By the 10th week of pregnancy, the fetus can reach 4 cm long and is shaped like a lentil pod. This is when your baby's wrists and ankles are fully developed and clearly visible. Your baby's arms are longer and your elbows are more curved. The eyelids of the fetus are glued together.

What was said in the front of the video and what was said in the back were not clearly heard. Just remembering that the baby's wrists and ankles were developed and clearly visible, I kept thinking about the picture that the doctor had brought to see at that time.

"This is its hand, this is its foot. It's a good development, but it's a pity. ”

A secret past has become a torment in the heart

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And Hua Hua, Qiong Yu was known at school. At that time, the three of us had a very strong relationship, and we went to school and went shopping together so much that we hated not being able to wear a pair of pants.

After graduation, Hua hua and I chose to go to Guangzhou for internship. Saying that it is an internship, it is actually working in an electronics factory. Make a computer motherboard. Anyone who has been to an electronics factory knows what's going on. Because most electronics factories are similar.

In 2010, the monthly salary in Guangzhou was about 1800 to 2500.

When I got paid money, I felt that my wings had hardened.

And Qiong Yu went back to his hometown to find a job as a waiter, only a few hundred yuan a month. But win in close proximity to home. At that time, Hua Hua and I advised her that the salary here was high, and she could come to work together, and everyone had a companion.

A secret past has become a torment in the heart

Her mother was sick, and a grandfather was old and could not leave the medicine. Her brother's tuition fees, for various reasons, her father's burden is getting heavier and heavier. Fortunately, at this time she was on duty, and although her salary was not high, she was close. There is another person in the family who can help take responsibility. So the first few times didn't promise us. Neither her parents would agree with her.

When her mother's health was better and the conditions at home were slowly getting better, we had the idea of asking her to come out and work together. But at this time, she was mysteriously refusing to agree every time. We both felt that she had changed, and I and Hua Hua could hear it in our voices. It felt like she had become more cheerful, and even the laughter seemed to infect me and Hua Hua. All thinking about asking her what she's been eating lately, how sweet does it feel to her from the inside out? Is it peach blossom luck.

A secret past has become a torment in the heart

She laughed and said: Recently, there was a person who was chasing me in the back kitchen, and I fell in love with him. After repeated questioning, she said it. I can imagine her holding up her phone and talking about how her boyfriend was good to her.

Because Hua Hua had already moved out to live with her boyfriend at that time, she didn't say anything after listening to it, but just said, "Protect yourself well."

At that time, I did not encounter this situation, directly a small white fool, did not know anything and did not understand anything. Just when I silently blessed her, I also looked forward to when I could talk about a sweet love.

It was half a year after I got her call again. That day, I was still asleep and confused after answering the phone, and after reacting to it for half a day, I only remembered the words pregnancy, borrowing money, and hospital. Then I called Hua Hua and confirmed. Qiong Yu did not call her.

At that time, what Hua Hua said was nothing like a thunderclap for me. In short, Qiong Yu was pregnant, and the man who worked with her knew that he wanted to take her to see her parents at first, and then changed his face to tell her not to want this child, because the conditions in his family were not good. Wait until he has earned money to have children. Then the phone can be called, and after each connection, ask Qiong Yu to find a way to solve this matter by borrowing money. He went home to borrow money and then return it to Qiong Yu.

As a result, Qiong Yu was naturally deceived. Being cheated out of money and losing money. The family did not dare to say. I couldn't do anything before I called us.

It had been two months since I called us and she said she was coming to us. Hua Hua was with her boyfriend, inconvenient, that is, borrowed her 2,000 yuan. I'm a single dog, and she has no choice but to come to me. At that time, I didn't have enough money on me, and she only had the little money she borrowed.

At that time, I had an uncle working in Changping, Dongguan, and it was relatively close. I thought of borrowing 5,000 yuan from this uncle and returning it to him when the salary was paid. And tell him not to tell my parents that I borrowed money from him. My uncle was also tight on hand, and it was not yet time to pay his salary. But ask me what I want so much money for. I said there was something urgent to do.

Later, my parents knew. Uncle said, because I was afraid that something would happen to me outside. Called me and thought I was being bullied outside. After repeated questioning, I said this situation of Qiong Yu.

My parents, while rejoicing that it was not me, thought that she had encountered things and found me again, and it was not easy to think that it was not easy for people to work outside. Just like a daughter outside, she took care of this matter and gave me about 3,000 yuan. Ask me to lend it to her.

But I was told to lend her money and go to the hospital to check on something, because She had a boyfriend. And I don't know anything, and I can't help much with the past. And another one is that if I follow this situation, it will not be good for me. There will be an impact later.

She called Hua Hua, but Hua Hua said that she was going to work and did not have time to come over. Tell us to watch for ourselves. What can we do? She couldn't do it alone, only I followed her hard.

At that time, she had begun to get pregnant, but the clothes she wore in the cold were not obvious. When I checked with the hospital, the doctor was very enthusiastic about us at first, and it turned out that he had a straight face behind him. About an hour later, the doctor called me to a room. Open a small box.

I was there on the spot. He looked at the little blob in the doctor's hand in a daze.

What can I do? What can I do? I don't want to, my parents know what will happen to me here now? No wonder I wasn't allowed to go before. In this case, I was at a loss.

I had an idea in my mind: Baby, your parents can't help it. You find a nice guy next time. Happy and healthy. Or else you wait for me, and when I get married, you come to be my baby.

What happened to this later, I don't remember. The three of us also slowly drifted apart a little behind us because of some things. Just the occasional phone call.

Later, I talked about two love affairs that ended in vain, and I met my husband in 17 years. I have been married since 18 years, but I have not been pregnant, and I don't know what the reason is when I go to the examination.

Mom and Dad, everyone around me is urging, and those who get married later than us are born. I myself was secretly anxious in my heart.

Is it retribution? Or was it because I was thinking about it? Or the hospital I didn't listen to my parents and went with her. When I dream back in the middle of the night, I will remember the scene that the doctor showed me at that time. I always felt like I was killing it.

If I don't borrow money, if I don't care, if... Just no ifs.

I thought I had slowly forgotten it, but suddenly it was so clearly imprinted in my mind. This thing has accompanied me all my life, falling into a dark corner of my heart. Maybe at some point, inadvertently and again, I thought about it again.

Love yourself whenever and wherever you are.

This article is narrated in the first person, and the names are pseudonyms.