When she woke up and felt the change in her body, there was a feeling of suffocation, a feeling that only a mother can understand!
She carefully placed her hand on her abdomen and gently stroked it, but she could no longer feel the presence of the child, and her heart was frantic.
The pain of the body can not hide the pain in her heart, she closed her eyes tightly, did not want to see the person in front of her, even more unwilling to accept everything that happened, tears kept flowing down the corners of her eyes...
If everything could be repeated, she would not let such a thing happen, and all the regrets would turn into deep pain and helplessness, and at the same time, she would completely see the person next to her pillow, and finally let him fall to the ground!
When she first married far away, her parents obstructed her in every way, but they still failed to pull back her heart that was not unmarried. At that time, she did not pay any attention to her parents' advice, only knew that love needed someone to make sacrifices, and if she could stay with the person she loved for a lifetime, she was willing to be the one who paid for love.
So she married two thousand miles away, far away from her parents. Although the traffic is developed now, but after all, it is too far away, married for 10 months, only once back home, her parents will have a lot of worries every time they call her...
At the beginning, his parents opposed this marriage, not all because of the problem of distance, the main reason was that his parents found that his wine was not good, his father said that the wine was seen in the character, and his bad wine showed that the character was not much better, so he strongly opposed it.
I remember that it was the first time she took him home to meet his parents, who prepared wine and dishes and warmly welcomed him. But he drank too much that day, and after drinking too much, he shouted loudly, and he killed her vigorously, and it took a long time to stop...
Her parents were very unhappy with him and advised her to break up as soon as possible. When he woke up the next day, she told him what had happened the night before, and he was annoyed, apologizing vigorously and promising never to drink too much again. They were in love at the time, and she hadn't seen him drink much before, and she thought he must have been too excited, so she drank too much. She did not heed her parents' advice and forgave him.
After that incident, his parents completely lost a good impression of him and have always been opposed. But their relationship has been heating up, and once he proposed to her in the restaurant, and the romantic love enchanted her, and she promised to marry him.
He said that he was the only child in the family, that his father had his own business, and that he would help his father with his business when he got married. She knows that she is about to leave her parents, and she is very reluctant in her heart, but she cannot give up her love. Perhaps in the hearts of girls, love will always be in front of family affection, at least at that time she was like this!
Her parents knew that she was going to marry far away, and she was anxious and angry, and the methods of persuasion and coercion and inducement were used, but she still could not change her decision. The mother cried that she could not take care of her, and hoped that she would not regret it in the future! She promised her parents that she would be happy!
She quit her job and followed him back to his hometown, where his parents threw a grand wedding for them. On the wedding day, he was drunk as mud. After the wedding, he was drunk again, cursed and grinned at her, and pushed her, and she hit the corner of the table, and she was injured on the forehead...
The next day he saw her injured forehead and realized that he had made another mistake. He sincerely begged her forgiveness, saying that he could not drink alcohol at the wedding, and would never drink again. She believed him and forgave him a second time.
After 4 months of marriage, she became pregnant, and during these 4 months, he repeatedly broke his promises, repeatedly entangled with her because of drinking too much wine, and when he woke up, he would cry and swear to heaven, and she had begun to regret a little, thinking that what his father said might be right!
Just when she was gradually losing faith in him, she became pregnant. The news of the pregnancy made him very happy, and he suddenly seemed to have changed as a person, and he never went out to drink again. Sometimes someone called him out for a drink, and he would simply refuse. She felt that it was the arrival of the baby that changed him and saved her happiness, and she was very happy!
Such a peaceful and happy life lasted until she was 6 months pregnant, and at noon that day he went out to eat with customers, and his mother-in-law brought a few old sisters to play cards at home, and she made some simple meals and beckoned everyone to eat together. In front of her sisters, the mother-in-law wanted to show her status in the family and pick and choose the food her daughter-in-law cooked. In other words, she would not collide with her mother-in-law, but her body was very uncomfortable that day, and her reaction during pregnancy has always been very strong, and she is always uncomfortable from time to time.
Already unwell, she faced her mother-in-law's accusations, and she was very upset, so she quarreled with her mother-in-law. At this moment, he came back from going out to eat with the customer, and also drank wine, came back to see his wife arguing with his mother, his brain was hot, he didn't ask qinghong bai in the past and kicked her to the ground, she felt a sharp pain in her stomach at that time, and fainted...
When she woke up, already lying in a hospital bed, she struggled to remember what had happened, she knew it wasn't a dream, the child was gone, her heart was clenched...
She saw his remorseful eyes and expressions, but she could no longer make her feel sympathetic, and she felt that perhaps the person who could not be most sympathetic was herself.
She suddenly found herself stupid and stupid, stupid enough to believe a man who had not kept his promise several times, and it was like a dream, until she woke up from it after losing what was most precious.
She didn't want or want to look at him more, and it felt superfluous to say a word to him. There were countless hands inside her that wanted to reach out and pinch his neck...
Yet she knew that what she had lost would never come back. She finally understood that a person, after all, has to pay a price for his ignorance and stupidity, but this price is too tragic, and she is in pain!
She had already figured out a name for her baby, one for the boy and one for the girl. She has bought a cot, stroller for her baby, and she has also bought a variety of baby products and small toys for her baby. She has to talk to the baby in her belly countless times every day, and she even dreamed about the baby's appearance...
She is about to meet the baby, it will not take long for the baby to come to this world, how many times she has imagined the first time she met the baby, but what she did not expect is that the baby has not had time to come to this world, it has left this world early, leaving her body.
He apologized to her countless times a day, and he thought she would forgive him as before after he wept bitterly and swore repentance. But he wouldn't know that from the moment he kicked her in the stomach, from the moment she felt the baby was out of her body, she couldn't forgive him anymore.
After she was discharged from the hospital, her mother-in-law carefully apologized to her and comforted her that the child would be there in the future, and she must not think about it. She chuckled a little, said that the child is not an object, said that there can be something, turned around to pack her clothes...
She divorced him with lightning speed and returned to her homeland with a heart full of pain. She regretted her obsession, but after all, there was no regret medicine in the world.
After experiencing the pain, she finally understood that although some roads were chosen by herself, she did not have to continue to move forward with pain. She was glad that she did not lose her mind after being scarred, but chose to turn back. Although I woke up a little late, I was still awake after all. There is still a long way to go, and she believes that she will try to take every step of the way!