Once, I was a person who had very few colds. Before 2019, I wasn't even quite sure what the process of going to the hospital was like.
At the beginning of 2019, intermittent blood in the stool and diarrhea made me feel some "malfunction" in my body, but thinking about being young, there would be no big problems. In early July, as my symptoms worsened, I was "forced" by my family to go to the hospital for examination. I was diagnosed with a serious illness, and the moment I got the results, I just felt that the sky was spinning, and my wife's tears soaked her eyes. Turning my head, I saw my daughter, who was less than four years old, looking at me and smiling, and I forced myself not to let the tears flow out.
That night, we arrived in Wuhan, and the next day we went to Tongji, Xiehe and other major hospitals, and all the expert numbers that could be hung up were hung up, and although the experts did not announce my "death penalty" in person, their words had told me very clearly that the illness would not be light. A piece of medical record made Ben's death, which was out of reach with me, suddenly close at hand, and the despair of life being counted down could not be described in any words.
After a week of repeated check-ups, I started the surgery. I remember the first time I was lying on the operating table, I said to the doctor, "Cut as much as you can, and be sure to clean up the virus." I was afraid that the doctor did not pay enough attention, and continued: "Doctor, my daughter is not yet four years old, I hope to accompany her for a few more years, as long as I can survive, even if I lose some physiological functions, it does not matter!" ”
The second surgery was much more complicated, lasting nearly 9 hours, and a section of intestine more than 30 centimeters long in the body was removed. The moment I woke up from the operating table, I suddenly had a feeling of nirvana rebirth, as if the tumor was about to leave me completely.
After being discharged from the hospital, my body gradually recovered, and the leader of the detachment often called me to inquire about my condition and encouraged me to recover as soon as possible and return to normal life as soon as possible. During this period, I met some patients and came into contact with many terminally ill patients, and I slowly realized some truths of life. Healthy and healthy life, it is really not a very easy thing, the so-called perfect life will not have, no one can predict, tomorrow and accident which one comes first, but as long as you live, it is beautiful, so you must cherish life, cherish life.
Four months later, I went back to work. I am a person with a strong personality, when I was a soldier, I competed for everything, and when I was a soldier, I won the first prize for outstanding talents of non-commissioned officers in the whole army, and I was sent to school as an excellent soldier. After becoming a cadre, he participated in countless competitions at all levels, won the third class merit four times, and was commended by the armed police force as a pacesetter in learning and becoming a talented soldier. It can be said that the nearly 20 years of military career have been rewarded with honor and applause. Suddenly suffering from severe illness, this strong contrast made my psychology also have inferiority. For a while, I was afraid to see my friends, afraid that after others knew about my condition, they would look down on me or even my family, afraid of being marginalized by colleagues and friends around me, afraid of never being able to live like a normal person again...
I insist on commuting to work like normal people, working the same way, all kinds of assessments, and I am never absent. Every three to five minutes, I will still run a five-kilometer ride on the playground of the unit, and with this silent action, I tell the leaders and comrades who care about me that I am very good, or the same me as before, although the body is missing some "parts", but I can do what I can do before.
After returning to my post, I fought against the "new crown epidemic" with my comrades-in-arms and participated in major tasks together, and at the end of the year, I was commended as an outstanding cadre of the "four haves", the department led by me was commended as an advanced department, and the corps also recorded my personal third-class merit.
As the saying goes, blessings are incomparable, and misfortunes are not alone. At the end of the same year, my wife had a lung resection, which once again cast a shadow over the miserable family, and taking care of my wife and children became a major event outside of my daily work.
The head of the unit talked to me, cared about me, and asked me to pay attention to rest; the comrades around me advised me not to fight too hard, and my body was my own. I don't understand these truths, in the process of getting sick, I feel the preciousness of life more deeply. At the same time, I also realized more deeply that life will eventually pass, and others can walk the road in a hundred years, I may only have sixty years, fifty years, or even shorter... This requires me to work harder, harder, and work harder than others.
At the same time, I am also a father, husband and son, and I hope to infect my loved ones with my positivity and ambition, so that they can see strength and hope in me.
Very fortunate that the extended family of the barracks gave me so much care and warmth. At the same time, the profession of a soldier has given me the opportunity to serve the country, give back to the society, and serve the people, so that I will not be confused in the process of contributing to society and realizing my own value. In my lifetime, I must base myself on this position and let the meaning of life be expanded and sublimated.
Life kisses me with pain, and I want to sing in return. Fireworks are short, but they still bloom desperately. For the rest of my life, no matter how long or short, I will live hard...
Author: Tian Jian, Hubei Armed Police Corps
Producer: Liu Fengqiao, Zhang Hongwei
Executive Producer: Zhang Jinling
Editor-in-chief: Guan Shusheng, Wang Wen
Duty editors: Wang Chao, Wang Yanting
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