Where are you dear? Do you think about me and the children, now the children are all older, I have a daughter for you for more than 7 months, she looks very white, this is not in our family, in your family relatives have not seen anyone with such white skin. I don't know who inherits us, there is providence in the darkness, she is the most perfect gift from Heaven to us!
Since you left, I have been in a daze every day except crying, and I dare not recall the days when I was around. I have always avoided the child's mention of the topic of dad, dare not look at the photos of the two of us, and dare not go to see the photos and videos of our family of four. Everything is dusty! But I can't deny that I think of you every day, and this kind of thought carries pain, hurt, heartbreak and expectation! I live like a walking dead in pain, only to know that I can't die now, and the children are miserable. I still don't have the courage to abandon them when I lose you...
And you are determined not to look back for your own sky. ......。
It's been almost a year, and your departure has brought me out of the days when life was worse than death! Although he did not die, he lost his soul. I can't imagine that the lost you and the love you brought to us will ever come back to me, it's a sensitive issue that can't be touched. I seem to have become accustomed to living with your parents and have no way of living my own life. Usually, I don't pick and choose when I eat, as long as I eat well. I don't remember when the hot pot and barbecue faded out of my life, and I never went down to the kitchen to cook food for the children to eat. The outside meals also lost the temptation for me, and I always ate some steamed buns with some porridge at home for breakfast. I lost interest in food, without you by my side, my world is just rough tea and light rice, maybe one day will change for the sake of children, but at least not now, your departure will completely disrupt my life.
We gave birth to Little Q within a year of our marriage, and from the time we were pregnant until you left, we were taking care of the family together. You tolerated and pampered me in every way, so that I was the queen of your love for 7 years, enjoying the treatment of being held up to heaven - and today, you went to the distant paradise, and you are burning for the stars! Leave me in this dark and cold hell, thinking day and day, night and night...
I don't know for whom to wear makeup and beautiful clothes for whom. Those sexy and attractive pajamas I had no reason to buy her anymore. When I am sick, I don't have you to take care of me, when I'm sad, I don't have you to coax me to be happy, I don't have you to chat with me at night, no one can give me the hug like you gave me, let alone sleep with hugs! The bed is always me and my daughter, there is no longer your figure, countless times in the middle of the night by the nightmare can not get your comfort, tears gushing, unwilling to can not help but desperately think of you, hands clapping at the atrium, for a long time can not sleep!
Since then, I have not had you in my child's life, whether happy or sad, sick and healthy, happy and painful, you do not care about us. You're no longer the first person I want to share. Maybe you're happy in heaven and happy every day! There is no time to take care of me and the child, but, honey, do you know how much the child loves you and how much I miss you.