One's world is sometimes pretty good

My world has been much quieter since that day, and I don't know why maybe it was because of her departure. Sometimes I feel empty in my heart, and doing something often feels empty and lonely. The things promised to her before have also slowly picked up, from a cigarette in the previous few days, I am now a good day a cigarette, sometimes even two or three or so, sometimes even feel that I am very tired, want to know my own life, but in the blink of an eye I think about my parents are still alive how to let them send me off. I was a child at home, and the world of my parents collapsed, so what should my parents do then?

Feel that boys don't love too much, like I wait to be green, to the back of the waiting for a sentence I don't know? hh is really ridiculous, my eyes are not blind, I can distinguish between good and bad things, but also clear between people and people. Despite the explanations to me later, I still didn't listen because your first reaction was that I didn't know, to the front object in the back. You say it's ridiculous, this time I'm really tired and want to be quiet...