From 2018 to this year, I only worked for a few months a year, and I didn't even earn enough living expenses, why? I'm 26 years old, what did I choose at the age I should have struggled? What am I doing on the days of lying down? I shouldn't be like this, I shouldn't be a wasted youth!
I didn't finish junior high school to come out, I graduated from junior high school almost half a semester, I read the junior high school that will have not been studying, skipping class, infected with games, smoking and other bad habits, even if I go to school, many classes are also sleeping, do not write homework, the grades have not been able to see, directly into the class countdown, my homeroom teacher is actually very good to me, she told me to go to her dormitory to cook for me to eat, in the third year of junior high she even let me be the class leader, (when I was in the second year of junior high school, my grades and performance were OK) She wanted to cultivate me, but then I skipped class, Class sleeping and other behaviors made her very disappointed, and even embarrassed her, because I was the class leader she designated, she had to remove my position, at that time I had no pocket money, in order to smoke and go to the Internet café, I did not eat breakfast to buy cigarettes and occasionally play games, but that little money is enough, even to buy cigarettes is not enough, but I can not ask the family to want, because my family is still relatively poor, single parent family, my mother left me at the age of one, did not come to see me before the age of 20, did not give alimony, my father always said that he was sick, No money, and want money will be asked what to do, I can not find any excuses, so do not want much, in the long body when the nutritional intake is not enough and smoke, directly let me have no chance of handsome, learning is not good, has become a complete dick. But this is not the last straw that overwhelmed my junior high school dropout, in the second half of the first semester of the third semester of junior high school, I began to touch the family's money, when my father was working outside, my second uncle was at home with them and I lived with them, my grandfather was also there, I secretly touched their small money, I would go to the Internet café all night when I had money, and it wasn't long before they found out, in the academic performance plummeted and the guilt of the teacher and the family, I didn't want to go to school, after the end of the year I went out with my family to work, even so the homeroom teacher still told me to go back to junior high school, I was too guilty And without the heart to learn, I didn't go back.
Came out to work that will be only fifteen years old, the family sent me to learn to step on the sewing machine, they are also a garment factory, do the post-process, check the goods packaging and iron those, I stepped on the sewing machine for about half a year, a month a thousand pieces barely enough for living expenses, maybe to see my sewing machine step on the ground, half a year later and then arranged with my eldest brother (uncle and son) to go to his factory to do the whole iron, so two or three years, he has been taking me to and from work, he has a motorcycle, I am more mixed, But the average month is also 3.4 thousand, at that time I had no other consumption except to play online games, and I saved some money in a few years, 15 years I made a regretful lifelong decision, want to go to my hometown to build a house, I originally did not have this plan, it was my third uncle when they called me back to build a house, when he wanted to build a house at home, because their previous house was a little small, they wanted to send two daughters back to their hometown to study, wanted to expand it, and my hometown only had a wooden house, because our homestead was next to each other, they said to join me, so that they could make a beautiful house, by the way, they also helped me to make it, all kinds of persuasion Saying that in the future, I will need to take a daughter-in-law or anything, and many relatives and friends feel that it is feasible to persuade me, (Why persuade me?) Because I have savings, my father does not), but I have no feelings, I do not want to go back, at that time there was no cement road on the road of my hometown, plus I had four years of elementary school, and junior high school was not in my hometown. When I was a child, I grew up with my grandparents in the village, and when my grandmother died at the age of 9, I rarely stayed in my hometown, I felt that it was useless to make a house in my hometown, and I didn't want to go back, so I didn't agree.
But why did I want to do it again in 15 years? Just that year's Spring Festival, the three uncles their new house was completed at home to put wine, I also went back to my hometown for the New Year, that year the hometown also paved a cement road, that year home to play happily, 15 years out, I kind of want to have a house in the hometown, the old wooden house at home I also don't want to live, I go back to live in the uncle's house or the three uncle's home. I told my dad to go back and make a house, and I was hesitant at the time, but my dad had quit his job as a security guard and said I didn't have any intentions. He went back and started to do it, and I still worked to earn money, at that time I mentioned that I went to the side of the road to do it, I thought it was more convenient there, but in the end dad decided to go to the original homestead to do it, that is, next to the three uncles, where my father and their four brothers' homestead was arranged by my grandfather at that time, except that the second uncle was the son-in-law who came to the door, and the homestead was bought by my father. But why would this house make me regret it for the rest of my life?
This house really makes me regret the intestines, in addition to this house is really useless, before there was said that in 14 years the three uncles have a proposal to start a house with me, so that the house will look better, indeed their original house is small, I did not do it with them, they started a room that was about the same size as the original, resulting in their room being very uncoordinated, not good-looking, I came to make a room next to them for 15 years to make it much better than theirs, they were very angry, saying that I did this to make the village think that their brothers were not in harmony, Let them make such a strange house, their family no longer has a good face for me, accusations and insults come to my face, in the face of this sudden change, my faith and personality began to change, the atmosphere in the family is no longer harmonious, I feel the most guilty that I hurt my niece (the daughter of the second brother (the second brother's second son)), her mother and second brother have divorced, she is also quite pitiful, she did not offend me, but because in this atmosphere, I vented my negative emotions to her, So she chose her mother's school when she was in junior high school, her mother was from Sichuan, we were from Guizhou, so that she later caused trouble because of the college entrance examination.
So this house makes me regret for the rest of my life, it makes me collapse, it makes me cry, it alienates me from my loved ones, and it teaches me profound lessons. It makes me embrace entertainment, now I feel that it is wasted, from 18 years to now, working for a few months a year, even living expenses are not enough to earn, the days of lying in the dormitory are playing games, brushing videos, occasionally brushing headlines, life disorder, I don't know where to go in the future?