In 1950, the China Youth Arts Theater rehearsed a new drama "Paul Kochakin", directed by Sun Weishi, a female student returning from the Soviet Union, and the male protagonist Kochakin and the female protagonist Tonya were performed by a star couple, Jin Shan and Zhang Ruifang.
Drama "Paul Kochakin" starring Jin Shan and Zhang Ruifang
In the process of rehearsal, Zhang Ruifang found that her husband Jinshan, who was the vice dean, was in love with the director Sun Weishi, and she endured the huge pain in her heart after realizing the truth, and still played a pair of lovers with her husband on the stage
When the drama was first performed at the China Youth Art Theatre, Jin Shan and Zhang Ruifang were divorced, but for the needs of the plot, the two of them still had some intimate hugs and kissing actions during the performance, at that time, this real and open performance made the audience very shocked, and Sun Weishi, as a director, sat calmly under the stage, watching, while taking notes, and his expression was not wavering.
At this time, Zhang Ruifang couldn't help but think of the haunting shadow in her heart: Zheng Zenghu, her first love with her green plum bamboo horse.
At that time, it was Zheng Zenghu who personally submitted a courtship letter to her for Jinshan and entrusted her to his friend Jinshan, and now, the romantic Jinshan is born of love and empathy, but at this moment, Zheng Zenghu has gone to Taiwan, separated from her on both sides of the strait, and can no longer appear beside her in time to comfort her pain and care for her life.
The two of them were young classmates and had deep roots, but because of the war, they had no part in their lives.
Until Zhang Ruifang was 86 years old, when Zheng Zenghu died of a stroke and could no longer call her across the ocean, Zhang Ruifang told her about this past and interrogation, she said: "This relationship has been buried in my heart for a long time, never mentioned, now that he is gone, I am also old, it is time to have an account for it."
At this time, Zhang Ruifang was old and often lost her memory and could not recognize people, but looking at Zheng Zenghu in the old photos, she still clearly remembered the small things that happened between him and him.
The beautiful past of riding a bicycle to the Summer Palace for a spring tour and rowing under the White Tower in the North Sea is like a woodcut that is deeply engraved in her heart, even in her twilight years, it is still as clear in her heart as yesterday.
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Zhang Ruifang was a native of Baoding, Hebei Province, his father Zhang Ji was an artillery instructor at the Army University, he was the commander-in-chief of artillery of the First Army Of the Northern Expeditionary Army, he died in the Xuzhou front during the Northern Expedition Revolution, his mother Lian Wei (formerly known as Du Jianru) was an underground party member, and the Zhang family was one of the secret clubs in the early days of our party
The first on the right is Zhang Ruifang
After graduating from junior high school, she was admitted to the Western Painting Department of Beiping National Art College, and because of her outstanding appearance, she was invited by the famous "Aimei Troupe" in Beiping to participate in acting.
Although there are many admirers, Zhang Ruifang already has a heart.
She recalled that at that time, the art college was in a state of turmoil, and the students wanted to drive away the stubborn and conservative principal, so she was elected and Zheng Zenghu of the sculpture department as student representatives to negotiate with the provost of the school, who was Zheng Zenghu's father.
The two became familiar with each other, Zhang Ruifang's studio was upstairs in Zheng Zenghu, during class time, Zhang Ruifang was painting upstairs, zheng Zenghu was clanging downstairs to chisel carving, and when it was time to eat, Zhang Ruifang used his high heels to put a few feet on the wooden floor, and Zheng Zenghu immediately finished work and waited outside the door to wait for Zhang Ruifang to go downstairs to eat together.
After school, they each rode a small bicycle, while walking and talking, the two people's homes are not in the same direction, Zheng Zenghu always went around a big circle, sent Zhang Ruifang to the door, and then turned around and rode towards his home. Zhang Ruifang's mother is very fond of zheng Zenghu, who is old and sensible, and often lets them both take their sisters to the Beihai and the Summer Palace together, rowing and painting, and the two have a beautiful relationship.
Later, Zheng Zenghu met Zhang Ruifang in Chongqing and said with regret: "You know what? Your mother had already promised you to me. ”
Both of them were only seventeen or eighteen years old, and if it were not for the subsequent war, the two adults would certainly have facilitated their marriage.
In 1937, the July 7 Incident broke out, the influence of the family made Zhang Ruifang full of ambition to save the survival, she and Chen Huangmei and others formed the "Beiping Student Field Mobile Theater Troupe", and later joined the progressive group "National Revolutionary Vanguard", in the chaos of the war, the party organization decided to let the "Minxian" go south to Chongqing.
Zhang Ruifang came to zheng Zenghu, hoping that he could also go south with him, Zheng Zenghu can play the pipa, but also the "people's first" needed talents, and the Zheng family is a traditional scholar, hope that his son will study well, study abroad, do not want him to participate in politics, Zheng Zenghu has been admitted to Tsinghua University, afraid that such a walk can not get a diploma, so he can not walk with Zhang Ruifang.
Before leaving, Zheng Zenghu invited Zhang Ruifang to a meal, and many years later, he asked confusedly: "Did I invite you to eat roast duck or shabu lamb that day?" My dad always blamed me, I shouldn't have invited you to eat roast duck, eat roast duck, don't you just fly, but I always suspect that you are invited to eat shabu lamb.
At dinner, Zheng Zenghu could not eat a bite, and when he said goodbye to his sweetheart, he burst into tears.
Zhang Ruifang said: "He cried vigorously, I was not too sad at the time, I thought that in some days we could still meet, who knew that it would go for so long, 8 years of resistance!" 8 years, this walk, is 8 years. We were so separated. ”
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After the two separated, Zheng Zenghu kept writing letters to Zhang Ruifang, hoping that she would go back and finish reading the books and get a graduation diploma. He was looking forward to Zhang Ruifang's return, but he had not waited for her figure.
Zhang Ruifang recalled: "Once, someone imitated my signature and left a note for him, saying that I had returned, and you went somewhere to find me. He saw that it was my signature, was very happy, and quickly went to the address written on the note. But when I got there, there was another note that said: I have something to do now, you go somewhere and wait for me. When he arrived at the designated place, he found a similar note. Then he ran with one note after another and didn't see me. Finally, when he learned that someone else had teased him and that I hadn't come back at all, he fainted. ”
In 1938, she transferred to the National Drama Troupe in Chongqing to listen to the performances, and later became an actor of the China Drama Art Society, starring in famous dramas such as "Home", "Beijinger", "Qu Yuan", "The Flower of Tang Di" and so on, becoming one of the "Four Famous Dans" in the drama industry and a household name in Chongqing.
Zheng Zenghu went to Pennsylvania State University in the United States to study for a doctorate in electrical engineering according to his father's wishes, and broke off contact with Zhang Ruifang.
During the time when the two were separated, Zhang Ruifang and the director Yu Ruji met, Yu Ruji was knowledgeable and could play the piano, she admired Yu Ruji's talent, the two exchanged letters for more than a year, booked for life, and Guo Moruo witnessed the marriage and held a wedding in Chongqing.
However, after getting married, Zhang Ruifang found that Yu Ruji's personality in life was dull, which was completely different from the free and free in the letters, and the personalities of the two were very different.
Zhang Ruifang said: "He is a good person, but his personality is too cold, a little impersonal, and I am a person who attaches great importance to feelings." At the end of a performance, Zhang Ruifang received a letter from her family, learning that her brother had died, and Yu Ruji just "Oh", frowned, and did not express it, which made Zhang Ruifang cold and very dissatisfied, and soon, the two divorced hastily.
At this time, Zheng Zenghu came to chongqing electric power company to work, when reunited, Zhang Ruifang was married, disappointed, he married a woman who looked and behaved like Zhang Ruifang, and before getting married, he declared to his fiancée: "I have a person in my heart, you don't ask, don't care about my affairs."
Zhang Ruifang said: "I have never met his wife, but I heard that it looks like me, and his wife knows that the person in his heart is me. ”
After Zhang Ruifang resumed being single, Zheng Zenghu deeply knew that he was not qualified to pursue her anymore, and the two always maintained a gentleman's friendship and did not confide in half a sentence.
In 1943, when Zhang Ruifang was rehearsing "Qu Yuan", he and the movie star Jin Shan played Qu Yuan and Chan Juan in the play, respectively, Jin Shan had just broken up with Wang Ying at this time, and in the pain of lost love, he could not help but fall in love with Zhang Ruifang during the rehearsal.
Ba Jin, Cao Yu, Zhang Junxiang, Wu Zuguang and others all instructed Zhang Ruifang: "Jin Shan is indeed a talented actor, but his life is too romantic and too casual, and he must remain sober and rational, and cannot be intoxicated by his fiery feelings." ”
And Jin Shan and Zheng Zenghu are good friends, so they ask zheng Zenghu to help him send love letters and help him matchmaking. Zhang Ruifang recalled: "He was in great pain at that time, and often handed me the letter while wiping away his tears. It was hard for him. ”
The person who wants to love is in front of him, but Zheng Zenghu not only can't love, but also helps his friends to make love letters, and the inner entanglement and reluctance make him miserable.
Soon, Zhang Ruifang and Jin Shan married, and after liberation, the couple entered the China Youth Art Theater together.
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Zhang Ruifang, who has strong self-esteem, immediately cut off her love affair with Jinshan, applied for transfer to Shanghai, and left her sad place.
Zheng Zenghu, who followed his family to Taiwan, was working as an engineer at the power company in Taipei City and later became a professor at Taiwan Normal University, and could no longer solve zhang Ruifang's problems.
In her third marriage, Zhang Ruifang chose a simple and loyal man: screenwriter Yan Li, Yan Li created a number of classic films, once served as the deputy director of Shanghai Fine Arts Film Factory, versatile and optimistic
After marriage, Zhang Ruifang was unable to have children due to physical reasons, and the two adopted a son, supported each other, and spent 48 years together, until Yan Li died of illness in 1999.
In 1987, when the Taiwan authorities opened up the mainland to visit relatives, Zheng Zenghu took advantage of the opportunity of academic exchanges abroad to take a detour back to the mainland to visit Zhang Ruifang. Yan Li laughed and said, "My lover, of course I have to take care of it."
The three of them were already septuagenarians, and the two open-minded men soon became friends, talking and laughing, and they were very close, but they put Zhang Ruifang aside.
At this time, everyone found that Yan Li actually looked very similar to Zheng Zenghu
When the green plums become ashes and the bamboo horses grow old, the people I fall in love with will still have your smiles and eyes, across the mountains and the sea, across the decades, and the lovesickness will not die in this life.
At the time of the old classmates gathering, everyone urged these two old classmates who had never pointed out their hearts to hug, and under the support of everyone, Zheng Zenghu and Zhang Ruifang left the only group photo in this life, on the photo, the twinkle in the eyes of the two was still the shyness of the teenager.
After returning to Taiwan, Zheng Zenghu sent Zhang Ruifang and Yan Li two boxes of clothes, which also contained Yan Li's two suits, all of which were very well sized.
Since then, every New Year's Holiday, Zheng Zenghu's first phone call has always been to Zhang Ruifang. But one year, Zhang Ruifang picked up the phone, but there was no speech, just crying, Zhang Ruifang's heart suddenly picked up, asked Zheng Zenghu's family to know, it turned out that Zheng Zenghu had suffered a stroke, lost the ability to speak, and could no longer ask her personally: "Are you okay?"
In this life, Xiao Zheng shed a lot of tears for her, until he could no longer shed for her.
At the age of 86, Zhang Ruifang still deeply missed the long-deceased Zheng Zenghu, she knew that she was not long gone, and she hoped to publicize the beauty cherished in her heart and "have an explanation for it."
Although the war is chaotic, the yin and yang are wrong, so that their love in this life is shallow, but the magnolia flowers of the Summer Palace, the tower shadow of the Beihai, and the bicycle of the art college will always be the precious memories in their hearts.
When faced with a reporter's question, she replied: "In the world, there are too many yin and yang errors, but how long life is, how long love is, and my concern for him has accompanied me all my life." ”
Old people are forgetful, but they don't forget to miss each other. Because that was the youth he and she had once had, the dreams they had once had.