When I left the house, I knew there was a pair of eyes behind me looking at me, but I would not look back. I just wanted to see her, to see what she looked like, and since she wasn't giving me a chance, I wouldn't give her that chance either. - "The Legend of Ah Fei"
The protagonist of the movie "Ah Fei Zheng Biography" Ah Xu, since he was abandoned by his own mother after birth, was raised by a social flower, and gave her 50 US dollars a month until he raised Ah Xu as an adult, for many years, his adoptive mother has refused to tell Ah Xu the news of his birth mother, so Ah Xu forced his adoptive mother in a retaliatory way, and finally knew the whereabouts of his birth mother.
When he traveled as far as the Philippines to look for his birth mother, the birth mother refused to see him, so he gave up on himself completely, and finally died on the train.
I have heard others say that there is a bird in this world that has no feet, that can only fly and fly all the time, and that when it is tired of flying, it sleeps in the wind, and this bird can only go down to the ground once in its life, and that time is when it dies.
He said he was a "legless bird" and that he wouldn't stay for anyone until a minute before he died, and he didn't know that he had stayed for love, but he didn't want to commit.
Ah Xu is sad, he was abandoned by his own mother when he was born, so he has a sense of inferiority that goes deep into his bones; his adoptive mother is a socialite, so he develops his natural arrogant and uninhibited temperament, so he retaliates against others in the way of love, and gives up on himself in a way of hurt.
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He has always wondered why his birth mother abandoned him, and his adoptive mother refused to tell him the mystery of his origins, so he began to take revenge, interfering with any of his adoptive mother's feelings and making her have a bad life, with the purpose of forcing her to tell the whereabouts of his birth mother.
Because of the fact that he was abandoned by his birth mother, he always hid a deep sense of inferiority in his heart, but he did not dare to admit it. He pretends to be arrogant and unruly, but he does not dare to admit love, he has love for Su Lizhen and Lulu, but he has to pretend to be ruthless, all because he has an unbreakable knot in his heart, and he can't understand why his birth mother is so desperate.
So he has a revenge mentality, revenge on his adoptive mother, revenge on the women who love him, let them grieve for him, shed tears for him, and heartache for him, in order to prove that he is still loved in this world, and there are people who are concerned, and he wants to feel it, abandon others, and others are deeply painful for him, so that his inferiority complex can be satisfied.
The adoptive mother insisted on not saying his origins, so that Ah Xu had always held a grudge against her, in fact, he did not know, the adoptive mother hid for many years, not to say, is to protect him, to avoid his life from being more hurt, but he does not understand, think that the adoptive mother did this, just to prevent him from recognizing the birth mother of the opportunity.
People's curiosity is endless, and the more they are hindered, the more they have the psychology of exploration. Therefore, when he learned the news of his birth mother in his adoptive mother's mouth, he did not hesitate to go to Nanyang to find his mother, because this was his heart knot for many years, and he wanted to know the result.
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When he gave up everything to go to Nanyang to find his birth mother, his heart was as he wished, but at the same time contradictory, he hoped to get the answer of his birth mother to redeem his broken heart.
However, to his disappointment, when he came to his birth mother's house, she refused to see him, and from the moment he left, he chose to give up his life, since she would not give him the opportunity to meet, and in the same way, he would not let her see him, and he wanted to make her regret for the rest of her life.
He has become more indulgent, more depraved, and his life is more aimless than before, and now he is just like his adoptive mother told him: For many years, you have retaliated against me because of the matter of your life, but in fact, this is just an excuse for you to indulge yourself. Now if you want to go, you can go, but don't let me know one day that you're fooling yourself!
His adoptive mother's words stung his heart deeply, but he was still obsessed with answering this puzzle, he just wanted to know what his birth mother looked like, and wondered why his birth mother was so cruel. But unexpectedly, his birth mother was so cruel that she did not even want to see him, and at that moment, he completely felt that he had been abandoned by everyone, and that his simple request could not be fulfilled until he died.
There is no expectation in his heart, life is like a walking dead, Ah Xu began to give up life completely, penniless in a foreign country, drunk and sleeping on the street late at night, maliciously provoking the underworld, and finally died on the train, at the last moment of life, he knew who the person he loved was.
The reason why he gave up on himself, gave up life, everything is the indulgence of inferiority, and this inferiority comes from the fact that he was abandoned at birth and could not accept this reality, the birth mother gave up on him all the time, the soul could not get a sense of belonging, like a bird without feet, flying in the wind tired, but could not stay, and finally he chose the only way to end his life to get the opportunity to go to the ground.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="21" > summary</h1>
The arrogant Ah Xu, who could have taken his adoptive mother's money and lived a carefree life all the time, but he was obsessed with the problem of his life and fought against his adoptive mother everywhere, indulging himself, taking revenge on others, in order to force his adoptive mother to tell the truth, he did not know that his rebellion was actually self-punishment.
He gets a sense of existence in a way of revenge, hopes that others will always remember him by being hurt, he does not want to be forgotten by others, like when his birth mother abandoned him, his arrogant appearance will never allow others to ignore him, so he uses an extreme way to attract the attention of others, get the attention of others, even if it is hate, he must let himself leave a certain place in the hearts of others.
When his birth mother refused to see him, his inferiority complex was seriously hurt, at that moment, he did not want to have any intersection with her, since she was so desperate, he would not treat himself kindly, he wanted her to regret it for a lifetime, even if he knew that she would not care about him, but he still had to fall into himself, only by constantly punishing himself, he felt that he was retaliating against his birth mother, he would feel that he was relieving himself, it was a kind of redemption for himself.
However, his inferiority complex in his bones is actually just a kind of indulgence in retaliating against others, giving up his own excuses, and deceiving himself.