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Last Saturday, I went to the Ninth Hospital to do picosecond freckles, and after the age of 30, age anxiety occurred in all aspects, and my mood also underwent many changes.
Talking to my parents about myself going to the medical aesthetics, they directly said nonsense, compared with my parents, I really lack some kind of strength to face life. In my grandparents, grandparents, parents, in the face of life's difficulties, bad luck, drinking for a while and smoking a smouldering cigarette, I can always think of living well even if not for myself, for my parents and children.
And I always seem to lack this spirit and strength, read a lot of books, live in the big city, farther and farther away from home, every year to go back to the few days, seem to be active efforts, but in fact is a kind of escape, gradually lost the simple heart and wisdom.
Every generation lives anxiously, in the same way in uncertainty. No one has ever been able to get the guarantee of a smooth future life when they are young, and the days are one day, and the days are slowly passed.
I have read a Japanese haiku before: "In the world, who is not like a person who hides from the rain?" It is said that everyone's life is actually not easy. Everyone carries the burden of life, and only when you also carry your own share will you step on the earth more firmly because of this weight.
What I admire most now is such ordinary people, who have no elite background and no extraordinary wealth and fame. But they have never lost hope for the future, optimism and persistent efforts.
02
Lately, I've been trying to learn something or maintain my social media account, but it's always hard to get started and stick to it. One moment I wanted to be a book blogger, another I wanted to be a food blogger, the next I wanted to make short videos, and I was left with a brief figure on every social network, and then disappeared into mid-air.
Blindly chasing the wind, but not knowing what you are chasing, like chasing the wind, chasing for half a day, there is nothing in your hands, leaving anxiety and confusion in vain.
One cannot picture nothing, nor can one draw too much. It is best to just figure the same. If you can get more than the same, it is your fate, but if you think clearly about what you want and only want the same, most people can still get it - asking for benevolence is also a good ending. I'm afraid that I don't want to understand it, and no matter what the picture is, I feel that it is not what I want most. Or there are too many pictures, it is impossible to get them all, but whether you get them or not, you feel unsatisfied.
03
September is coming to an end, September this year is exceptionally hot, in previous years, the city I live in, has been fragrant with osmanthus flowers, and now I have to blow air conditioning, without the smell of autumn.
I hope that in the next 3 months, we can find some answers, what kind of person we want to become, what kind of life we want to live, face the fireworks in the world, and in which direction we want to work.
As Tongyuan Shigeyuki wrote in the "Heavy Collection":
"Bear with me, isn't the sorrow in your heart dissipated?" In this miserable world, aren't the cherry blossoms blooming? ”
Osmanthus flowers will eventually bloom, and for those who are unfortunate at this time, endure, there will always be a better season.
Be a person who buries his head in life, for the personnel that he truly cherishes in his heart, and lives well.
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