"She's dead, all that's alive is her shell"
In 1987, a 94-year-old woman was about to come to the end of her life, which should have been a sad and comforting thing because she had lived so long, but not many people were relieved because of this 94-year-old woman who had no husband, no children, no property, and even no cemetery in the end.
But once she looked beautiful, she was talented, she joined the Left League, Lu Xun evaluated her as a "heavenly immortal", was pulled to compare with Zhang Ailing, she should have been sought after by countless young masters, she should have spoken and laughed in the sun, she should have been shopping with her sisters, so why did she finally have such a bleak ending?
"She" is actually called Bai Wei, Bai Wei was born in 1893, her real name is Huang Zhang, as a girl in the transitional period, she had a father who actively participated in the Xinhai Revolution, so she knew that she was shackled by feudal ideas, and naturally pursued the influence of democratic ideas, after the establishment of the Republic of China in 1915, she entered the Provincial Third Girls' Normal School.
She is a girl destined to leave a glorious era in this era, during the school because of excellent grades, hard work, sincerity and sincerity, although as a girl, she was selected as the head of the student council, almost the level of the president of the student union, and she did not live up to this high hope, when a Qing Dynasty widow was the principal, the principal was extremely conservative in class, Bai Wei with a group of people complained about him.
Although the complaint was unsuccessful, she was also expelled, and had to go to several places to continue her studies, but nothing difficulty overwhelmed her, and in 1918 she went to Japan alone to work as a nanny, a waiter, and even a garbage collector, and then established herself at a girls' normal school in Tokyo, where she was so erudite, biological, historical, educational, psychological, and finally shined in literature.
She also had a passion for the motherland, and in 1926 she gave up the opportunity to study for graduate school at official expenses and resolutely returned to China to devote herself to the revolutionary cause, hoping that she could use which brush and ink to whip some of the current phenomena, so she knew Lu Xun, Lu Xun was equivalent to recognizing her as her female disciple, letting her join the Left League, and carefully cultivating.
Then Bai Wei's highlight moment on the literary world came, "Playing the Ghost Tower", "A Station on Beining Road", "Comrade Enemy", "Fire Letter" and a series of anti-Japanese novels or dramas pushed her to the forefront, when the forefront of Chinese literary female writers, a copy of "Lin Li" was included in the "10 Works Since the New Literature", during which she was juxtaposed with Yu Dafu's "Sinking" and Lu Xun's "Scream".
At this time, Bai Wei's achievements can already be imagined, but this is only because of intercepting the superficial stories in Bai Wei's life, in fact, a bad love has put her on the cliff, and the next second will be swallowed up by the abyss, and the person who has brought her misfortune and is about to bring greater misfortune is Yang Sa.
The word "sao" originally referred to combing the hair of the horse, and Qu Yuan's "sao" of "leaving the sao" refers to poetry, that is to say, at the beginning, the sau did not have the meaning that we modern people think, and the reason why there was such a meaning later, Yang Sao's deeds are indispensable, he is a typical negative man who has no bottom line in love.
They met in 1924, Bai Wei was 30 years old, Yang Suo was 24 years old, Bai Wei had been half advanced and half rotten father, instilled advanced ideas at the same time, and then stuffed into a feudal widow family as a daughter-in-law, the widow mother-in-law could not see her young and beautiful, beat her all day, and even bit her ankle tendon once, so she fled to Japan, ran for many years, and finally liked Ling Biru.
This is probably her first love, but the other party is not moved, she was greatly hit, just Yang Sao also lost love, the two comforted each other, and gradually had feelings, but Bai Wei was inferior, one was inferior to herself, divorced, the other was inferior to herself, so in the face of Yang Sao, there were always a few points to do small bows, give and take, and even bow down, such a posture is destined to be suppressed by Yang Sao.
Yang Sao was really rude to her, "There is no bell Wuyan, nothing to do summer Yingchun" played thief slip, frustrated by other women, went to bai wei, felt that bai wei was bored, and went around with flowers and grass to cause disappearance, and then felt that bai wei really couldn't stand it, and even said: "My favorite woman is you, you remember!" But I'm going to experience a hundred women and then... Fall forever in your arms! ”
Bai Wei actually tolerated it, no matter Yang Sao hugged left and right outside, or occasionally went to find her like a flip card, even if the other party went to Hangzhou, Zhangzhou, and Singapore in order to hide him, she also persevered and followed all the way, Yang Sao said to go through a hundred women, and then come back to her after 3 years, she actually believed it, so she returned to China and waited foolishly.
In 1927, at the peak of her career, Yang Sao really came back, and seemed to have rekindled her old feelings for Bai Wei, but they all said that they were "seems", so in fact, the impoverished Yang Sao saw the resurgence of the old feelings of Jin Guang's thighs, Bai Wei was not unaware, but still with him, and let Lu Xun help Yang Su publish articles, and the two "clicked" the literary world together.
But soon a bigger blow ensued, she found herself suffering from Hualiu disease, the people who infected her did not think about him except Yang Suo, and she was full of joy to prepare for the wedding, and sent invitations everywhere to prepare the banquet, but the guests only saw her alone that day, Bai Wei was heartbroken, and in 1933 she and Yang Suo's correspondence was compiled into a book and sold, the preface read:
"Like forgetting the past life will forget all this, the cut love, even if it cannot be connected by the wood picking method, everything in the past is like an illusion, and everything has been destroyed."
She forgot that no one knew, but the damage caused by the relationship was real, one was that physically she had encountered too much when she was young, the foundation was not good, coupled with a series of chaotic diseases, it seemed weak, on the other hand, mentally, she basically did not have any articles and works after that, and the aura had dried up. Then someone saw her poor and destitute, pulling a scooter to sell small dishes...
Then in 1978, when a reporter went to interview her, who lived alone, she was completely devoid of the appearance of a talented woman in the Republic of China—"her face was ravine and crisscrossed, like a spider with a web; her blue cotton jacket was roughly made, and the stitches were more than half an inch long." "So girls, so good girls, remember that the most important thing in life is not to be in love, but to live well in an era of many misguided paths."