Virgin Mountain

Fossie is an ordinary ground worker at the airport, kind and honest, working diligently and reclamation, but in this era of appearance and justice, it seems that fat and bald people are original sin.

Colleagues behind the unscrupulous speculation about whether he is still a virgin, and even blatantly throw his bald head with headphones, Fossey has long been accustomed to such teasing, each time silently endure and leave. There was no resistance, and even when the supervisor asked if he had been bullied, he said lightly, I thought it was just a joke.

This is the 40-year-old Fuxi, obesity and baldness make him carry the inferiority complex deep into the bone marrow, the whole person has become introverted and not good at words, no social, has not talked about a relationship, still lives with his mother, every Friday at a fixed time will go to a fixed restaurant to fix the window position to order a fixed Thai fried noodles, and then the waiter will take away the opposite tableware, and then drive to the beach, order a favorite rock music, look at the sea in a daze.

Fossie's hobby is fiddling with battlefield sand, and his only friend is also connected because of this hobby.

Fossey is a good man, too good to fit in with the world, and he is equally lonely, shutting himself in a safe zone. Until the mother's friend accidentally messed up his sandbox diagram, in the face of Fossey's anger, he said to him that you should deal with the battlefields of life instead of obsessing over these virtual things, for the people in distress bears, the faint light is also unusually warm, the next day, facing the little girl who forgot to bring the key to the neighbor's house sitting in the stairs, he took the initiative to invite the little girl home to write homework, and entertained her with milk and bread, and in the childlike dialogue with the little girl, he felt the sincerity of the little girl. But then the little girl's father, for his behavior, cast a wary look, without a word of thanks, quickly led the little girl away, it seemed that the fat and bald skin bag lived a pervert.

On his birthday, Fossey received a hat and a dance ticket, the old man hoped he could go out for a walk, the lonely Fossey did not want to go out, the mother told him that going out would not want his life, at least you know what you gave up, under the pressure of the mother, Fossey could not drive to the dance teacher, the classroom atmosphere was very warm, everyone chatted very hi, and the lonely Fusig did not fit in, had to crept out, sitting in the car, in a small space, it was his shelter, the snow outside the car, Fossey was ready to sit until the end of the dance class, The snowflakes grew bigger and bigger, the students who had finished the dance class continued to go home, there was a woman trapped by the storm at the door, Dong Zhang Xi looked to the front of FuXi's car, took the initiative to ask Fuxi, can you give him a ride, Fuxi nodded in agreement. The car was driving in the snow and wind, in a closed narrow space, and this was The first time Forsy had been in close contact with the opposite sex. In the thick night, Fossey's looks and silence, was misunderstood as a pervert and stalker, Fossey knew and quickly explained, he came to dance, just did not go in, said to take out the dance ticket, the lady said that her name is Mona, said you can try it, maybe not as difficult as you think, the lady got off the car and looked at the distant back, the heart more or less produced a little fluctuation, next week in the dance class, in the face of the teacher's sharp comments and guidance, Mona always cast an encouraging smile, while Fossie can also spit out her tongue, Shrugging his shoulders, accepting calmly, one day Furcy and Mona learned in small talk that she liked flowers and travel, so he went to the travel agency with great excitement to book a tour group in Egypt, where it was different from here, it was sunshine, he went to the flower shop to find her, wanted to surprise him, and the shop owner said that she had long since stopped working here, When Fossie drove to Mona's house, he saw her coming out of the garbage truck, Mona was very angry about Fossie's sudden arrival, turned him away, he didn't care about her work, Mona opened the door to let Fossey in, Fuxi excitedly gave her the brochure and ticket you gave, she looked at Fuxi warily and asked Fuxi why she would send him this, Fuxi misunderstood her, she had no love for her, Fuxi walked out the door in frustration.

Fossey would still be teased at the same time, but he still endured in silence.

Later, for several weeks of dance classes, I didn't see Mona, Foxy was at Mona's door for several days, and I didn't see her figure, Fossey slammed the door madly, found that Mona was a depressed person, hiding in a dark closet, hysterically let Fossie leave, the kind Fossey couldn't bear to leave like this, he asked the leader for leave, to take care of Mona, and slowly Mona came out of depression. ............

Fossey does not accept love in return

With the brochure for egypt, Forsy boarded the registration glass passage that he had been looking up to when he worked, sat in the window seat, and looked at the mountains and rivers, and the corners of Hissie's mouth showed a smile.

We don't know when, because of the silence of some events, sometimes because of poverty, sometimes because of looks, sometimes because of work, sometimes because of love, gradually this has become the norm for us to walk in the world, lonely to live, lonely to face anything, lonely to face grievances and pain, to close themselves in a thick security barrier, like a top spinning in place, and some people say that Fossie is lonely, but in forty years old life, there are several people who are not lonely, even in a loving family, Long and tired marriage will also make people lose their vitality, for anyone will be gradually engulfed by the growing shadow, life will eventually turn into ashes, so they all long for a certain moment of thrilling, and even use the way of drinking to quench their thirst in exchange for a moment of intoxication, if blindly afraid of their own defects, yesterday's failure, today's dilemma, tomorrow's difficulties, in the end, we will be uncertain, occasional lightning and thunder, and even the world containing storms to frighten, and gradually we will live as Fossie, with loneliness as a companion, Imprison yourself in the same place, erect an insurmountable barrier for yourself from the heart, and occasionally remember that the "Generation of Masters" said that the human realm is divided into three layers, seeing heaven and earth, seeing sentient beings, seeing oneself, rather than reading thousands of books, walking thousands of miles, and looking up at sentient beings from high mountains, in the end you still have to know yourself. If one cannot go out, one cannot gain the experience of life, the pleasure and meaning that exist in the world. We can only live in real life, rather than in the inner world to think painfully, how to choose, can't bear to swallow, do not give up lightly, with a naked scenery to meet the naked you, regardless of the wind and rain in front of him. It is still a storm, we are not moving, like a virgin mountain, plucking up courage, to be full of hope for life.

And all that can keep me is the white clouds on the mountains, the mist in the mountains, and the poetry and the distance.