She suddenly felt so helpless, and the city that had been so familiar suddenly became strange. She thought there would be a lot of fulcrum she could rely on, but in the blink of an eye, it was gone. The situation was cold and the human feelings were cold and warm, and she originally knew it, but when she really tasted it, it was so helpless and bitter.
In the fast lane of youth, all opportunities are fleeting, she knows this clearly, and she is not willing. When she thought of going back to the small county town where she was going to return to her hometown, to be an ordinary primary school teacher, and to stay with a plain man, chai rice oil and salt until she was old, she shuddered! She's going to play once! Fortunately, she has capital, and that is her beauty.
In her freshman year, people discovered her beauty, and the suitors naturally flocked to her. She also knows. But she is not willing to waste her energy, and she is not willing to bury her beauty in vain, she wants to live the life she yearns for, she is silently looking for opportunities. For the group of young men around her who were dedicated to her, her head was always raised high. Just occasionally glance at the afterglow of your eyes.
Lin was one of those she had scanned with the afterglow of her eyes. Lin's height is not high, her skin is very dark, and there are some Muna, such a person, naturally, is not due to her wind and snow moon. But Xu Xiaomei, who was in the same dormitory, suddenly and mysteriously told her one day: Lin's father is the secretary general of the city's municipal party committee, and that is a big man with a lot of weight! She suddenly remembered that once, accompanied by the dean, Lin was walking in the boulevard of the school with an old man with extraordinary manners. At that time, the headmaster was so humble that his walking posture changed.
Her mind is meticulous. A week later, she knew everything about Lin.
She took the initiative to go and get close to Lin: Jolin went to a concert together, played ball together, went for a walk together... Everything she did was so natural, Lin certainly wouldn't refuse. Gradually, the relationship became intimate. Once, on the way Lin sent her back to the dormitory, she directly expressed her love for Lin, Lin did not refuse, but she was not so ecstatic as she imagined, for this sudden sexual love, Lin was very calm, calmly let her to some surprises.
But the love affair began: they held hands for the first time. First hug, first kiss... Time is fast, and by the time they graduate, they are already like glue, and it is difficult to separate. Naturally, when she graduated, she stayed in the city. And there is a good position in the government.
In the envious eyes and discussion of the students, a year has passed. She also has a certain foundation in the organ, and everything seems to be so handy.
She began to be dissatisfied with Lin, because she knew clearly that she had never liked Lin. She secretly warned herself that Lin was just a bridge for her, not the path she would take in this life. The bridge, after all, is going to pass...
There was a deputy director who had returned from the army, with a resolute look, a handsome demeanor, and a laugh that could infect everything... Everything made her like it so much. More importantly, he is a man of extraordinary ability, and he is already a deputy director at the age of 28
Her quarrel with Lin began.
For the first time, she hated Lin's mediocrity and inaction.
The second time, she disliked Lin's poor image, and went shopping with him, and those incomprehensible eyes cast all over the street made her feel a little inferior.
The third time, she hated the life of abandoning the forest without taste, did not understand music, could not take photography, and did not even care about the hottest non-sincere do not disturb...
I can't remember the number of times they quarreled, Lin went from the original rebuttal to the defense to the snort. By now, there was silence. No matter how harsh her words were, how strong their tone was. In the face of her dissatisfaction, ridicule and sarcasm. Lin always listened silently, for a long time, he would come to a sentence: In the beginning, why did you come to me? At this point, she couldn't say anything. Many times, she almost couldn't restrain herself, and wanted to say to Lin loudly: I want to break up with you! But she didn't dare, she knew that the background behind Lin was so powerful. She wasn't that stupid yet.
The opportunity finally came, lin's father was defeated in a power struggle, and perhaps there were other things, in short, he was removed from office. Everyone in the organs was talking about this matter, and she also made a message clear: Lin's father's threat to her no longer existed. She could do what she had to do. She is smart, does not want to make things too big, does not want to bear the guilt of guilt, she wants Lin herself to propose to break up.
Her quarrel with Lin escalated!
Again and again, sarcasm, ridicule, and even rambling. One day, Lin said to her: Let's break up, you are not suitable for me, or I am not suitable for you. She jerked her head up and stared straight at Lin: Why? Don't you love me anymore? His eyes were filled with doubt and innocence. Lin looked into her eyes, for a long time. He shook his head slightly: No, let's break up, I'm not suitable for you, it's not something that love can influence.
Her sky suddenly opened up, and everything was brand new. She suddenly felt so free. The world was full of smiles, and an unprecedented feeling hung over her, the kind of feather that she would definitely fly to the place she longed for.
The deputy director was named Bai, and his years of military life and current work in the organs had cultivated his current strength and wisdom. Add to that his straight figure, angular face, and broad shoulders. At a glance, people will have a feeling of wanting to rely on. In particular, the talent and strength he showed in the organs were so easy to maneuver everywhere, but they were decent. Men are represented by ability. She always thinks so.
Her contact with Bai gradually increased, Bai likes literature, in her spare time love to write something, she takes the initiative to help print the manuscript, sometimes also put forward some opinions, every time after reading the manuscript, she will carefully summarize and brew in her heart, so that the opinions she put forward are always very insightful. At this time, Bai would always raise his head and look at her approvingly with a smiling look. Bai can be busy at times and stay in the office late. Every night in the middle of the night, when Bai stretched out and yawned, she would hold a steaming supper and gently push open the door of Bai's office.
Bai certainly didn't hate her, and her beauty, and her cleverness, had always been something That Bai had admired. Substantial progress began to be made between them. Her happiness finally arrived under her own luck.
Men and women always forget something when they love, and in one accident, she becomes pregnant. When she happily told Bo and proposed the date of the wedding, Bai was unusually angry and unusually determined to let her have an abortion. She couldn't refuse, she knew that Bo's career was the foundation of their common ground. And now, it was time for her to pay.
For future happiness, she went alone to the Women's and Children's Hospital. When she walked out of the hospital door, her body suddenly hurt again, it was the kind of pain that was torn and lost, and she suddenly wanted to cry, but she tried to hold back.
Things were so sudden and unexpected that half a year later, Bai announced that she was getting married, and the bride was the daughter of a deputy mayor. Hearing this news, she was immediately confused! But soon, she woke up. I remembered why Bo refused to disclose their affairs in the office, why she refused to go shopping with her... She understood it all. She wanted to make trouble, but it was impossible, her breakup with Lin had already had a lot of criticism in the organ, and Bai's reputation was praised by everyone in the organ. Who would believe her? To do so is to humiliate oneself.
At Bai's wedding, she drank a lot of wine, perhaps because of alcohol, and she shed a lot of tears. In a trance, she suddenly remembered Lin, the black lin with a smile on his face. Remembering the sad but regretful look on Lin's face when they broke up. She suddenly wanted to see him. I felt that there were so many words to say to him.
She and Lin met at a very secluded little pond on the university campus. That's where they like to go when they're in love.
She looked at the small bridge on the pond and said to Lin quietly: I have warned myself countless times that you are just a bridge for me, a bridge on top of my difficulties, and when I walk across the bridge, I am facing my own way, and the bridge will eventually pass. You know? I never liked you.
Lin smiled: I know, I knew it from the beginning of our time.
So why do you want to help me? She froze! Turning his head to stare at Lin.
Lin's face was still that calm and sweet smile:
I wanted to be your bridge to success. But you know what? The "bridge" can help you reach the other side of hope. The road is your own way to go, if the road of your life has gone astray, and when you turn back, the bridge is already invisible.
About author:Zhuang Xin, a native of Pizhou, Jiangsu Province, was born in the late 1970s, came from the military, participated in the war and participated in the test, and is now a grassroots party building worker in a market supervision and management bureau. Since childhood, he has loved literature and is good at writing, prose and poetry, and "Bridges and Roads" is his debut novel creation. The novel is divided into six parts, describing the plot development of the story through the portrayal of the characters and psychology of the characters...