After regaining his freedom, Shen Si decided to solve the knee problem that had plagued him for many years, he underwent surgery, and now returned to the point where he could jog. Usually, when you have time, you can drill into the gym, pedal a bicycle, swim a dozen times in the 25-meter pool, and it is not a problem. At the age of 45, he finally managed to avoid falling into a greasy man. When people reach middle age, Shen Si often reflects on his words and deeds when he was young, such as when he was in his early 20s, in order to "grab the siege" and fight with Xu Genbao, "What does it mean?" "He's only fighting with his own body now.
On the eve of the National Day, the morning reporter went to the Lucky Star Football Club to interview Shen Si, one of the bosses. In addition to the "grudge" between him and Genbao, we also talked about Wang Guolin, who had passed away, and other people and things that could not be avoided in the first half of his life. In this interview, he shared for the first time the experience and insight of his 6-year career in the window, and Shen Si felt that this period of time helped him understand the real human nature, so it was not a waste. As for the road ahead, it was long and unknown, and he wanted to walk a little more steadily, a little more meaningfully. Therefore, in addition to regaining a healthy knee joint, it also needs a little dream, and this dream will be realized by the young players of the lucky star...
When he was about to reach the end of 5 months from prison, Shen Si received the news of Wang Guolin's death.
On the night of August 29 last year, the former COSCO club boss died suddenly while playing wild football with a friend. In later media reports on this sudden tragedy, wang Guolin's tragic past in life was almost invariably mentioned - in 2003, because of the match-fixing incident in the last round of matches, he was not able to win the last A-A championship. Several of the team members involved at that time included Shen Si, Jiang Jin, Qi Hong, and Xiao Liming, all of whom later paid the price of imprisonment. The loop of events has actually closed here, but for a long time after that, the voice of public opinion was unwilling to give up the torture, just like the headline of a certain report tried to guide, "Shen Si always owes him a word of sorry."
I asked Shen Si if the two had a chance to reach some level of reconciliation until Wang Guolin died, and he shook his head. "I didn't have much contact with him later, because we didn't have a very pleasant cooperation before, that's all..." After a moment of deliberation he continued, "I want to be a kind person for each of us who are still alive, first of all, you have to be a good person." Then you also have to respect all the people. If you do these two things, it will be helpful to this society and the people around you. In turn, this society will also give you a correct and objective evaluation because of these two points. ”
<h1>I feel like a kinder person</h1>
The latter passage inadvertently reveals a certain truth about the nature of existence—man ultimately lives in the external world's evaluation of himself. The deceased is gone, how does the living hope that future people will evaluate themselves?
I think that in a few years, if I have more good people and fewer bad people, it will be enough.
So, going back to the fundamental question, does he see himself as a good guy or a bad guy?
I feel that I am a kinder person and a more upright person. When people live, they must be able to be honest and live through this pass in their own hearts.
When a person pays the price for the mistakes he has made, he may have reason to think that he is not ashamed. For a long time, however, that secret devoured Shen Si's conscience. Jiang Jin, who was involved in the match with him, later recalled that he called Shen Si first on the morning of being taken away by the task force, and the latter did not call back until the afternoon, saying that he had been asked to talk and "said everything." This is October 2010, the "anti-gambling anti-black" fire has been going on for a year, the parties have a vague premonition that the fire will burn on them sooner or later. When things really came, Shen Si had a sense of relief, and finally did not have to carry the secret anymore, which could be embodied as a bribe of 2 million yuan.
His father, Shen Ping, will always remember the day his son had an accident. On this day, the old man died and visited the Expo Garden, and when he came back, he received a call from his daughter-in-law and said that something had happened... There is no need to repeat here the beginning and end of the several match-fixing cases involved in them, and the people who remember will always remember that the people who forget are because they choose to forget.
However, there was one detail that could have been drowned out in the flood of reports during the trial, and that was before the end of the trial proceedings, the judge told Shensi that he could defend himself. Shen Si did not do this, but instead used this time to say sorry to his father in the audience, "Dad is a very upright person, I became a player, he paid a lot of hard work, I am sorry for my father, I hope to fulfill my filial piety in the future." ”
Abandoning self-defense and apologizing to his father, Shen Si's move was unexpected. It carries a strong appeal to humanity, and as you know, the court has always been the most impersonal place, so the whole act stands out in time and space because of its contradictions. Years later, he explained his behavior at the time by saying:
My parents raised me to play football and were proud of me from an early age. The son who had always made them proud suddenly caused them so much harm, the greatest harm in their lives. Other people, including myself, could get through it no matter what, but I was afraid that they would not be able to get through, and the blow was too big for the old man.
<h1>A motorcycle plus a two-bedroom apartment is my 20-year-old career dream</h1>
Jiang Yonglin, another father in the courtroom and Jiang Jin's father, was full of confusion. His second son, Jiang Hong, was forced to retire many years ago for refusing to play match-fixing, while his younger son, Jiang Jin, was imprisoned for playing a match-fixing. The tragedy of this family reflects one of the most fundamental problems of Chinese football - people never know where the right way out is. The old man asked himself if he was wrong to focus on cultivating talents for Chinese football.
In the late 1970s, when Shen Ping used a little street light every night to force Shen Si to learn how to use the 12 parts of his body to toss the ball, he undoubtedly had the same aspirations as Jiang Yonglin. In those days, no one pointed to making a fortune by playing football, which was something that pushed the limits of people's imagination. By 1993, before Shenhua established a professional club, the 20-year-old Shen si had entered its predecessor, Shanghai, when it was the youngest on the team.
His professional career began on a train packed with migrant workers: on the eve of the Spring Festival that year, he received a training notice and took a train ride for more than 30 hours to Guangdong to meet the team. He described his journey to the toilet on the train, "stepping on the body of the crowd on the ground, stepping high and one foot low in front of the toilet, and then shouting loudly to drive the people inside out." ”
Shen Ping regretted that he had not been fierce enough to buy his son a ticket to Guangzhou, and he thought that the next time he would have to let Shen Si fly. The next time the father and son were entangled in the contradiction for the sake of airfare money, the wind of professional football was about to blow all over China, when The head coach of the Shanghai team, Wang Houjun, explained the concept of professional players to his players, "You can get 10,000 yuan every month in the future!" Everyone is going to become a million yuan household! ”
Shen Si caught up with the trend of professional football
This year (1993), our basic salary was more than 100 yuan per month, and there were some training bonuses, like the older players had more than 1,000 Hong Kong dollars, and our younger ones were more than 500. Because the sponsoring team at that time, Agfa was a German film company headquartered in Hong Kong. This year, my income has surpassed that of my parents.
Going to the bank every month to exchange is always a trouble, and Shensi's Hong Kong dollars are placed at home. In other words, with the standard of living in Shanghai at that time, a monthly salary of more than 100 yuan was enough to maintain the daily expenses of individuals.
There is no Shenhua Club at this time, Wang Houjun is our coach, he described professional football with us, and said that the simple point is that in the future, everyone can get 10,000 yuan a month. I later told a friend about it, and I said that I was 20 years old in the Shanghai team, commuting by bicycle every day, and the veteran members of our team all had imported motorcycles. So my professional dream at that time was to be able to ride an imported motorcycle when I was 23 or 24 years old, and then the team could help me share a two-room house in Quyang New Village.
Shen Si did not buy a motorcycle later. One day in 1996, he and his then-girlfriend were in a serious car accident while riding a motorcycle. The Newspapers in Shanghai reported the accident in a few words, and did not cause too much publicity. In the era of no Internet, everyone lived a reserved life and focused on life in the world in front of them. More than twenty years later, when we brought it back to the past, he laughed, the only time in an interview of more than an hour, saying, "This car is still Cheng Yaodong's!" That year, he bought a Santana and has since become a car owner. It is very taitai type to say.
At that time, the players in the Shenhua team only had three self-prepared car license plates, and gave them to Fan Zhiyi, Cheng Yaodong and me. The two of them were the captain and vice captain, and I, because I couldn't play in Shenhua at the time, asked for a transfer and prepared to go to Dalian. In order to keep me, the club gave me the third one...
<h1>We have taken on the responsibility that is nothing more...</h1>
Everything is fate. Shen Si's career lasted less than 12 years, but it was just in time for the best and worst of Chinese football. Such times made him, gave him money and fame, and eventually destroyed him. After retiring in 2005, he gave an interview and bluntly said that China's football league is actually a deformed league, and he is considered to be the beneficiary of the deformity in this deformed league. Today, when all the honor and disgrace have passed, re-examine your own destiny, is it lucky or unfortunate to be born in such an era?
Of course it is... Luckier. You see, the ability and achievements of the generations before us are not inferior to ours, but the social status and wealth accumulation of these aspects cannot be compared with our generation. It's not because we play well, it's just the opportunity that gives us a mark not only on football, but also on being part of the city's fond memories. Frozen, never to be changed again. This is where we are most fortunate, and we must admit it.
But he also acknowledges that such a particular era has made many mistakes that would be relatively difficult to avoid.
This thing (match-fixing) must exist, and that's football. I don't think I need to avoid anything now. Conversely, many things don't exist because they are avoided. For us, as part of this matter, we have taken on our share of responsibility. But in this case, we are not the ones who play the leading role, nor the people who play the planning role, so I think there are factors in the specific system of our country.
There have been many voices that have complained about them, thinking that the players are just people at the bottom of the chain of interests of match-fixing, and many people at the higher end have escaped the punishment of the law, and several of them are equivalent to bearing far more evil than they have done.
Players are just one link in the "chain of interests" of match-fixing
Many friends feel that a few of us are "touching mold heads". I don't think so, it's part of life, or rather, part of destiny. Fate is one after another, and you must have this awareness when you make a wrong choice, and one day you should be punished for it. What we do is not right in the first place, it is something that must be qualitatively determined first. For this reason, I will not blame this era or anyone else, because the choice is entirely up to you, and you have to pay for it if you make a bad decision. If you still feel unfair in your heart, this is a deviation in the judgment of right and wrong.
He admitted to making a mistake, but refused to be completely denied as a player, as a person, because of that mistake. "We were duly punished. If you want to go to a deeper level, it is nothing more than to turn all the details and personnel over and reason, I believe that the public has its own judgment, you restore this matter one by five, one hundred and ten, everyone will come to their own judgment. Maybe in a few years, we can talk about what's going on. ”
<h1>Joining the gong and drum team, getting a college diploma, and being more open to the world</h1>
He had inadvertently seen the man, the man who lived in the legends of his fellow inmates. Shen Si had heard of him as soon as he entered, "A man who robs and kills people for a little ration." ”
It was as if a gate had been opened, and behind it was a world he had never imagined before. "The life of our athletes is actually relatively simple, after going to prison, the social class that we have not been exposed to before, and the things that we have not encountered before have all been encountered." It's not necessarily a bad thing, Shen Si said, and in the final analysis, it still depends on how you behave in it.
When I used to play football in the team, it was a man's world; when I went to prison, it was equivalent to walking into another man's world. The two worlds, though vastly different, are made up of men, so there are some rules that are interchangeable. To make yourself accepted in the world of men, you must first be like a man and accumulate your reputation. I have come into contact with some prisoners, often do some bullshit things, beat this and that little report behind their backs, this kind of man usually makes people disdainful in life, and that is also disgusted in prison.
Shen Si's reputation in it is good, "I also made some friends, when everyone chatted together, I found that their outlook on life and values are very positive, how did this kind of person fall here?" ”
The year after the verdict, Qingpu Prison held the Fifth Games for Prisoners. At the opening ceremony, a photo of Shen Si in a white coat and a red turban, tapping on anser's waist drum and twisting a song quickly spread around the Internet, the only time the outside world was able to spy on his living conditions inside the high walls.
"I learned in it (waist drum performance), and they usually create all kinds of activity opportunities, all of which are voluntary, but there will also be screening." In the prison where he served his sentence, every Wednesday was a fixed education day. People like him who sign up for the gong and drum team will practice with professional instructors for an afternoon. The physical requirements are very high, so it is necessary to select in advance.
It is somewhat strange that the calm smile of the moment frozen in the photo is a very appropriate reflection of a normalcy throughout his sentence. This is contrary to people's habitual thinking, who take it for granted that those who live under high walls must be depressed and negative in their hearts. Shen Si had decided a long time ago that since he had to experience these days, he should try to live a better life.
I asked myself, the days in the next few years are destined to be dark, so what kind of mentality have I been? Think about it or should be happy and live a little more fully. Whether it's outside or inside, no day should be wasted. They have that kind of open university, a few majors for you to choose, computer management, logistics and so on. I went to register, and finally chose computer management, and I also read out of college and got a diploma. I read a lot of novels, and English books, and I have always liked to read. In addition to studying, he actively participated in various recreational activities and sports competitions. So when I came back, my relatives and friends were very happy to see that I was in a good state, and they said, "You're fine!" "It's because I've been trying to keep a good mindset for those years.
In Shen Si's view, the most valuable thing about this experience is that he has become a more inclusive person. Prison is a condensed society, where every aspect of human nature is magnified and highlighted one by one in a world where space has been reduced, and Shen Si observes and thinks. "I am now particularly able to understand people with different worldviews, and each person's level of education and the environment in which he grew up are different, which leads to different understandings of the same thing. I couldn't have imagined it, but now I can understand it. I can't talk about becoming a more tolerant person, but at least I can understand, and I now have a more open attitude towards the world. When I was young, my worldview was very narrow, very absolute. ”
<h1>After many years, he was recognized by Genbao Xu Zhi is a person with a broad mind</h1>
If he meets Xu Genbao now, he feels that the contradiction between the two can be avoided.
"On the matter of guiding Xu... Our biggest disagreement at the time was the difference in philosophy. Xu's guidance is more British and rushes to encircle. I liked Barca at that time, didn't I write about my favorite team on the star card at that time? I wrote about Barca. I wear number 14 in Shenhua because Cruyff also wears number 14 in the national team and Ajax. The style he took with Barca was the one I liked. ”
Shen Si remembered that Genbao once asked him if he had any thoughts about Shenhua's kicking method, and he was naturally direct in his opinion:
I'm certainly right when I say that the siege is for sure, but no team in the world can always carry out the rushing and pressing in 90 minutes. We definitely have to choose different times and different field areas to rush the fence. I also made a point, that is, what are we going to do after grabbing the ball? Well, then he won't say it until ten years later, "Pass it on." And my concept at that time was already like this, rushing to the siege is to be, but it is also necessary to pass around. Xu Zhi felt that shenhua at that time did not need to be passed around, as long as it was forced to be surrounded. It's such a disagreement, and in football, it's a big disagreement.
He later reflected on this past, "Maybe I was ten years older at that time, and this matter was over to pretend to be confused, there was no need." But I was a kid at the time, and I was more real. How can football only rush to the siege, only the defender opens the big foot to pass to the forward, football should not be like this. Football should be played pass, passing. "Genbao is a patriarchal coach who demands not a spirit of independence, but absolute obedience. During his years of coaching Shenhua, Shensi was never allowed to reuse it. So when the time came to 2002, a few years later, in the Hongkou derby, which was still frequently mentioned until now, his rant to the Shenhua coach's bench after scoring a goal was understood by most people as revenge in some sense.
Anyway, the whole city was going crazy about the ball at the time, and as a hands-on participant, it was hard to stay calm. Of course, I was under less pressure, but as Qi Hong, the fans in the audience were waving at him with yuan, and I believe that seeing this scene touched everyone's heart. It's also a funny memory to think about now, and there will never be that atmosphere again. At that time, the views and tendencies of the media in the newspapers were very clear, and now there is no such intense expression of opinion.
Later, Shen Si went to Zhongbang as a coach, and sometimes the team played games with East Asia. "Coach Xu said to Zhongbang boss Wei Ping, 'Look at Shen Si, when he plays football, the defense is not good, and the team he leads is very good.'" After I heard about it, I was very touched that it was not very pleasant to cooperate with Coach Xu in my playing career, but when I went to the coaching position and achieved certain results, as an old coach he still recognized me. "Late recognition is also a consolation.
When we are human beings, grievances are on the one hand, and the attitude of discussing things is also very important, which can see your open-mindedness as a person.
<h1>The only goal in the second half of life is to develop players who play in the five major leagues</h1>
"I'm not a defensive player when I play, but I know exactly how to defend and how to compress the opponent's attacking space." Shen Si is now engaged in youth training, and like when he brought Zhongbang, he will never let the players ignore the defense link. His love for Barca continues to this day, so Lucky Star Club has been firmly committed to the idea of "playing Barcelona like football" from the very beginning.
Shen Si, who is committed to youth training, spoke at the opening ceremony of this year's YICC 14-year-old international football challenge
Barca is the team that pays the most attention to pass control, and many of their pass control training methods highlight two points, one is how to create space when there is no ball, how to expand the field area; the other is that once the ball is wrong, the players will immediately fight back. It's not about coaches desperately shouting "Counter-grab!" on the sidelines. Anti-robbery! "On the line, we usually use the repeated simulation of the training scene to naturally achieve rapid counterattack." The biggest difference between Chinese leagues and foreign leagues is that we have a slow speed of attack and defense conversion. I think the problem is that the habits that our players have developed since childhood are not the best, and what we are doing now is to let them cultivate the habits well. First- and second-graders like these don't play very well yet, but we're already talking to them about how to speed up the transition between attack and defense, to make it fit into the muscle memory and become a knee-jerk reaction.
Shen Si still has a passion for football, and when he talks about youth training, there is a sparkle in his eyes. Shen Ping, the father, told a reporter he knew on the day of his release from prison that on the way home, his son was impatient to discuss the future operation of the club with Qi Hong on the phone. What makes Shen Si feel relieved is that the club he participated in building has not been implicated because of him and Qi Hong, and in the years of their absence, general manager Yi Wenbin and Daniel Zhang they persevered, and the size of the club is slowly expanding, and they now have about 50 coaches.
Lucky Star and Fu Entertainment Culture signed a speech at the scene of Shen Si
In the first ten years of lucky stars, we trained players in SIPG, Shenhua, as well as the national team, the national Olympic team and the national youth team. In the next ten years, I want to improve the quality of our players a little bit, to develop some people who are in the big five leagues, and other top european clubs. For me, that was my biggest and only goal for the rest of my life. People should still set some goals for themselves, so that living will feel meaningful.
<h1>Handwriting "Thanksgiving"</h1>
In the long years that followed, Shen Si actually preferred to recall the 2003 derby.
At that time, Shenhua stationed alberts, Petkovic, with Yu Tao and Wang Ke four midfielders; we were here me, Qi Hong, Wang Yun, and Li Yan. It is equivalent to our two Chinese national team leading youth teams, where two foreign internationals bring two national youth, but I said that at least there is no big difference in midfield control, to some extent, COSCO control is a little better than Shenhua. Speaking of which, Shen Si, Qi Hong, Alberts and Petkovic are not inferior in ability, because the other players are similar.
Now the Chinese Super League can never have the scene of that year," I talked to people a while ago about the Oscars in Shanghai, since the club is willing to spend such a big price to bring in a foreign aid, which means that the Chinese players in the same position as him definitely have no chance to compete. "He said it more gently, in fact, he is not quite competitive. He said that the year he left Shenhua, the international transfer value was about 600,000 to 700,000 US dollars, and Shenhua bought to replace him Petkovic worth about 3 million US dollars, "in fact, the level is not much different", he said, if you can retain people, you don't have to spend such a number to attract reinforcements.
Shen Si and Petkovic watch the World Cup in Russia together
Why Chinese football has come to this point, the problem is that everyone knows. How to solve it? It is also nonsense. Shen Si had an idea, just do the youth training in a down-to-earth manner. For the Shanghai fans who watched him grow up playing football, they should be more interested in hearing Shen Si's views on today's Shenhua, especially the combination of Bai Jiajun and Cao Yunding, after all, the team is left with this left golden corridor that is a kind of inheritance of the master of the king. Compared to Wu Chengying and his combination, which pair is stronger? He smiled and avoided it.
Wu Chengying's situation is more special, and athletes with physical conditions like him are indeed too rare. Because with his super ability to run up and down, coupled with my ability to pass the ball, it is true that our attack on the left side will have a greater impact on the opponent. Very few opponents can keep up with his rhythm, and until now I have not seen a player in China with such a round-trip ability. Like us, the average person may be 1000 meters, 2000 meters away from a medium and high speed distance, and he can easily reach 4000 meters or more.
He still recognizes Shenhua's left side, but for Cao Yunding's use, Shen Si has his own ideas, "Players like this should consider letting him play in the middle, after replacing the foreign aid position, Shenhua has the space to adjust the more needed position, such as center-back, or find a striker with more breakthrough ability, this foreign aid position can be vacated." ”
Old Shenhua played a wild ball
After time has cleansed up the past grudges, for Shenhua, is there still some kind of substance in his heart that can be called feelings? "Two words," Shen Si said, "thanksgiving." ”