Hao Lei is 42 years old, she is still an eagle, and she will not go to the queue like a goose. She makes no secret of her self-confidence and ambition: "I hope my name can appear in Chinese performance textbooks." ”
For a long time, the film "Summer Palace" influenced her life. Hao Lei made this role suitable for the cold of late winter and early spring in Beijing, the dusk of Kunming Lake, and the coldness of Funing in Qinhuangdao.
In another sense, the film is a deep threshold in her relationship between the sexes, and few people can generously step over it, and they have suffered all kinds of criticism. Returning to herself, she looked proud and fierce, but in fact all the blades were facing herself.
Hao Lei was never afraid of people's words, and she was still sensitive, and everyone regarded her as an outlier, only because she did not bother to hide her contempt.
Such a Hao Lei, very cool.
In the winter of 2003, director Meng Jinghui and screenwriter wife Liao Yimei's drama "Rhinoceros in Love" came out in the second edition, and once again met with everyone in Beijing with a rough and avant-garde appearance.
Hao Lei became the heroine "Mingming", she wore a long red suspender dress, and her face was full of paranoid desire. She longed for love, but her eyes never specifically focused on anyone on the stage.
She was 25 years old.
When the shadows of the male and female protagonists running on the treadmill hit the ceiling or the wall, the song "Oxygen" sung by Hao Lei would sound throughout the stage, "All the light is pouring towards me, all the oxygen is absorbed by me, all the objects are losing weight, and I am almost at the end of all roads."
Her voice was erratic, dangerous, yet drawn a little closer.
Whenever this happens, Meng Jinghui will run to the audience to listen to this song. In his opinion, Hao Lei's interpretation of "Rhinoceros in Love" "has been passed down like old wine, as if it is a kind of spirit, and there is a root brewing there." ”
The wonderful thing is that this song appears in both "Rhinoceros in Love" and "Summer Palace", and the heroines are Hao Lei.
Yu Hong in "Summer Palace" and Ming Ming in "Rhinoceros in Love" are actually Hao Lei's own temperament, passionate in love, with a certain dangerous vitality, sensitive and obedient that you can't ignore her existence.
Hao Lei's performance is the same as her own life, and her real story has not yet begun.
The third season of "I Am an Actor" has been on the cusp of the storm, some time ago Zhang Ziyi was intimidated at the same time because "efforts without talent are meaningless" and was on the hot search at the same time, and the person who intimidated Zhang Ziyi was Hao Lei.
Hao Lei encouraged young actors like this: As an actress, I have become fat like this, and I still sit here with great confidence, because no one can take away my acting skills.
So confident because there is confidence in supporting.
She is the top literary and artistic young woman in the hearts of countless people, and some people have said that people like Hao Lei, laughing very beautifully, but the next second is always worried that she will cry.
This look was first seen by everyone in the "Summer Palace", when her name was Yu Hong.
"My name is Yu Hong, Redundant Yu."
A clip from the 2003 movie "Summer Palace" by Yu Hong (Hao Lei).
It was 2003, and Hao Lei starred in the film "Summer Palace" directed by Lou Ye, before which she repeatedly refused Lou Ye's invitation.
She is the only one among countless actresses who has rejected this role, and Hao Lei's reason for refusing is that she will lose love for it. Lou Ye said: "This is what Yu Hong can say, I must wait for her, I can only let her act." ”
Lou Ye's persistence is right, and Hao Lei gives Yu Hong and the best temperament of the whole movie.
When she and Zhou Wei, played by Guo Xiaodong, sailed on the Kunming Lake of the Summer Palace, Yu Hong looked into the camera, and her eyes were enough to make Lou Ye's camera shatter.
Stills of Yu Hong (Hao Lei) from the 2003 movie "Summer Palace"
Her smile was breathtaking, and Yu Hong leaned against the door of the dormitory, her eyes drifting into the distance, and no one knew what she was thinking.
Sincere and brave in love, rejecting a dull life, that Rainbow Diary is the best script for her strong desire for life.
"If I hadn't examined my life in an ideal, the mediocrity of life would have made me miserable. When I had this thought, we met, you and I are on the same side of the world, there is no way out, only illusions. ”
The most classic scene is that she closes her eyes, sits on the dry swimming pool, and lets the snow blow on her face, and just a frowning action interprets Yu Hong's helplessness and confusion.
Hao Lei made this role suitable for the cold of late winter and early spring in Beijing, the dusk of the Summer Palace, and the coldness of Funing in Qinhuangdao.
However, such a good work only belongs to the carnival of a few people, and Hao Lei has suffered a lot of unfair treatment because of this film, to which she said dismissively: "If you think it is a tertiary film, it is too addictive, you might as well go to see Cangjing kong." ”
This is Yu Hong, but also Hao Lei.
Stills of Yu Hong (Played by Hao Lei) and Zhou Wei (Played by Guo Xiaodong) in the 2003 movie "Summer Palace"
Some dispositions are due to talent, when she was three years old, Hao Lei pointed to the actors on tv and told her grandmother that she would appear in it when she grew up.
At the age of 15, she began to study acting and wanted to become a real actor.
In 1997, Hao Lei, who was a sophomore at the Shanghai Theater Academy, took over the TV series "Seventeen Years Old Don't Cry", and the stubbornness and pride of youth were evident on her face.
1998 TV series "Seventeen Years Old Don't Cry" Yang Yuling (Hao Lei) clip
Li Chen, who plays the male protagonist, said: "Hao Lei is the highlight of all of us, although she is not very old, she is very thoughtful. ”
She was 19 years old and had a clean and soft smile.
Four years later, Hao Lei is the thirteenth aunt of "Young Huang Feihong", who coexists with wisdom and aura, and once became the dream lover of the public.
2002 TV series "Young Huang Feihong" thirteen aunts (played by Hao Lei) clips
Soon after, she and Deng Chao starred in "Young Heavenly Son", conquering the audience with rich and layered acting skills, and flicking between the brows, it was because of love and hate.
Stills of the 2003 TV series "Young Heavenly Son" Empress (Played by Hao Lei) and Shunzhi Emperor (Played by Deng Chao).
The role of the empress is not pleasing, always self-centered, brash, but Hao Lei makes this role three-dimensional, because she just wants to get a little love.
Stills of the queen (played by Hao Lei) in the 2003 TV series "Young Heavenly Son"
Outside the play, Hao Lei and Deng Chao talked about love.
It was only in 2004 that this relationship suddenly came to an end, because Deng Chao could not accept Hao Lei's large number of nudity shots in "Summer Palace".
In the play, Deng Chao is the Shunzhi Emperor, and Hao Lei loves it and is eventually deposed.
Inside and outside the play, this relationship broke her heart.
"Summer Palace" made Hao Lei lose "the most thrilling love in this life", and she also admitted the pain after the loss, "I have never loved someone like this".
Until later, when she mentioned this past, she said: "The love that can be separated because of a drama is not called love." ”
Hao Lei and Deng Chao
Later, Deng Chao won the award at the Shanghai International Film Festival for "Burning Heart of the Sun", and the guest of honor was Hao Lei.
The organizers intend to take the opportunity to hype up for this, and the major media are sitting below and are already ready to photograph the two people in the same frame of the century.
Of course, Hao Lei will not cooperate, after she presented the award to Duan Yihong, she went straight past Deng Chao and asked foreign actresses to present awards to him, which made people waiting to see a good play have no drama to watch.
This disappointed the reporters who wanted to film the two embracing, and in the early morning of the next day, Hao Lei tweeted: "We are all actresses, we are just actresses." ”
She is not without relief, but she just does not want her feelings to become the talk of others in the past, and the past does not need to be mentioned again.
In the same year of participating in "Summer Palace", Hao Lei starred in Meng Jinghui's drama "Rhinoceros in Love", playing the heroine "Mingming", free and pure, hysterical.
There are no taboos, no norms, she releases her emotions to the fullest, making it impossible to tell whether this is the character or Hao Lei herself.
Screenwriter Liao Yimei described Ming Ming and Hao Lei as follows: "Unable to control the ability in the body, desire, hormones, all attempts to the world must be squirted out of the body." ”
Stills from the 2003 drama "Rhinoceros in Love" Ming Ming (Played by Hao Lei).
This love bible, this running rhinoceros, is an excess of hormones, and the ending of love is not what this drama cares about, and the desire that cannot be placed is.
The recorded song "Oxygen" has also become a classic, which is in line with Hao Lei's personal disposition and is still used in drama tours.
At that time, insiders looked at her on the stage and collectively sighed: "Such a young man, what kind of red will he become in the future!" ”
It's just that all of this has changed from her breakup with Deng Chao. Since then, when Hao Lei is mentioned, everyone is no longer concerned about her acting skills and works, but the overwhelming public opinion, and various voices are pouring into her.
Hao Lei is an optimistic pessimist.
She hid her sadness very deeply, pessimism is the foundation, optimism is the form of expression, Hao Lei frankly said that she needs a sense of security, she is an actor, and she is still studying "The Self-Cultivation of an Actor".
Spontaneously, on the stage of "I am an actor", she bluntly said that there have been many singing programs to find herself, but she without exception, has refused, "I can sing, but it is certainly not as professional as a professional singer, why should I not concentrate on acting, I must carefully participate in various programs across borders?" ”
For acting, she is absolutely sincere.
Every time she receives a work, Hao Lei will vacate her body clean, and only then will she allow the character's soul to enter her own shell to express the new role.
2003 drama "Rhinoceros in Love" Ming Ming (Hao Lei) Ma Lu (Duan Yihong) stills
As we all know, acting is a passive profession, waiting for the director's choice, but she said that the director is attracted to herself.
On an interview show, Hao Lei unabashedly expressed herself: "Except for acting, everything else is not my job, including me sitting here doing the show." ”
In the face of media reporters, she never panders: "Do you think it is important for you to have a good relationship with all journalists, or is it important for everyone to go to the cinema to see your works?" ”
Hao Lei is never afraid of people's words, will not restrain her personality, nor is she afraid of other people's comments, she smiled softly, is confident, but also brave.
The crowd saw her as an outlier only because she didn't bother to hide her contempt.
Hao Lei is still the eagle, and will not go to the queue like a goose.
She is in vanity fair, but insists on her artistic ideals, hao lei hopes that her name can appear in Chinese performance textbooks.
In this era, speed and faster speed are advocated, and everyone's wishes are like spring flowers, scrambling to bloom, and people try their best to become popular overnight. For many people, being an actor and filming is just a bowl of rice, not an ideal.
But in Hao Lei's eyes, those things cannot be left behind, "I hope that my spirit will be left behind."
Never pleased, never pandered, very proud, very paranoid.
"There is something that will come suddenly like the wind on a summer night, and it will catch you off guard, that it will not be peaceful, that it will follow you, that it will linger, and I don't know what it is, but can only call it love." 」 - "The Diary of Yu Hong"
For love, Hao Lei has always dared to love and hate, regardless of the consequences, like Yu Hong in "Summer Palace".
In 2005, Hao Lei and Li Guangjie fell in love with her collaboration on "Secret Order 1949". At that time, she was already recognized as an acting school in the show business circle, but the other party did not have any fame, and the media did not even mention his name in the report.
She confessed: "I don't think he is very handsome, his strength is high cultural attainment, mental maturity, which is rare among young actors." ”
Hao Lei is still passionate about her feelings, no wedding and no wedding ring, she is still married, and she also learned to knit sweaters for her lover.
Li Guangjie and Hao Lei
In 2009, the two decided to make up the wedding, but Hao Lei did not wait for the late wedding, and Li Guangjie was photographed by reporters holding hands with other women.
That year, Hao Lei was 30 years old.
When she walked on the road with her friends on the phone in a duck-tongue hat, she finally couldn't stop crying, she said that her heart was not broken, but crushed into a foam, and finally blown away by the tornado wind.
Just because she doesn't want to show weakness doesn't mean she's not weak.
During that time, Hao Lei fell to the bottom and spent the most difficult days of her life alone, in her words, because she was too young to recognize the complexity of people, the inner fairy tale world was completely broken.
There's a line in Rhino in Love that she loves:
"People can be as brave as rhinos, even if it hurts, it's okay to see if you dare to hurt after you have been hurt." Most people shrink after a single pain, like a sea anemone, never to open again, and finally can only become a stone. If you keep it open, there will be constant hurt, constant pain, but you still bloom like a flower. ”
It wasn't until November 11, 2012, that Hao Lei posted a photo of her hand wearing a ring and announced her engagement.
The other party is a complete outsider, others do not understand, Hao Lei has given the answer vaguely.
Hao Lei and liu ye, an outsider
For a long time, "Summer Palace" was influencing her love affair. For her, this film is a deep threshold in the relationship between the sexes, and few people can walk generously.
At that time, Hao Lei took her boyfriend Liu Ye to see "Summer Palace", and she sent a message to the other party: "I understand all your feelings, but I can only say sorry, I am a professional actor." ”
Liu Ye's answer impressed Hao Lei: "I came to see the movie, not to discuss problems with you." After the message, he took her hand until the end of the movie.
Encountering love and encountering sex is not uncommon, it is rare to encounter understanding.
Hao Lei is pure, she never cares whether the other party is evenly matched and equal to herself.
She got married, had two children, and became a mother. After marriage, the two people have a very low-key life, and may also want to spend the rest of their lives together and see all the scenery on earth.
Hao Lei with two sons
Unfortunately, the two did not come to the final fate, in November 2019, Hao Lei and her husband Liu Ye announced their divorce.
There is no clichéd personality discord, no dog blood tearing plot, just a peaceful breakup. Such a decent breakup is rare and precious.
After experiencing two short marriages, the life of the drama made Hao Lei have a deeper epiphany about life and love:
"Parts of fairy tales have faded away, but that doesn't mean that people have to become realistic, or that there must be people who can communicate souls, and if not, it doesn't matter if there is one person."
Despite being injured again and again, Hao Lei also chose to repair herself in a dead end, it was cold outside, her heart was still hot, and she went back to find her soul mate.
Love is here in her, must be pure, can not tolerate a little impurity, Hao Lei is never ashamed to express, she said that she is not greedy for fame or greed, only greedy.
In an interview, the reporter asked her if there were some past events that she was ashamed to talk about, and Hao Lei smiled and replied: "There is no one thing that is ashamed to let others know, you can stand up and say it." ”
Some say that Hao Lei is one of the few actors in the Chinese film industry whose talent does not match the honors she has received.
For more than 20 years, her acting skills are obvious to all, and the roles she interprets are sharp and vivid, both sensual and powerful, but the most mentioned is the naked performance and various emotional topics in "Summer Palace" that year.
Hao Lei never cared, nor did she hide her love and hate, there is no secret in her world, in the face of the public's strange eyes, she behaved calmly and casually:
"People often say that people are terrible, ask me will not have a little touch, I will not, I am not Ruan Lingyu, I am Hao Lei."
This kind of truth and maverick behavior has scared many people, but she calmly observes from the sidelines, as if she is reading someone else's story.
Hao Lei is a typical Scorpio, and she describes herself as the battle scorpion of Scorpio.
In 2010, she reappeared in Meng Jinghui and Liao Yimei's play Soft, the finale of the "Pessimistic Trilogy," which nakedly pierces the essence of worldly love and desire.
The candor of the play requires the actor to abandon all measures of self-protection on the stage and face up to the harsh words and actions of the characters.
Many actresses like but dare not act, Hao Lei dares.
Standing on the stage of the drama, she reads one line after another with genitals to be vulgar and beautiful, which requires the actor's heart to be extremely clean.
"If I love him, my nose, my forehead, my skin can all be sexual organs."
The audience of more than 1,200 people sitting on the stage collectively marveled that it was the most satisfying moment in the hearts of an actor.
Two years later, she starred in Lou Ye's film "The Mystery of the Floating City", which tells a murder incident related to love, the picture lens is rough and real, and Hao Lei appears in the camera, portraying a woman who has lost love to the fullest.
In the humid Wuhan, all beings are mysteries.
Stills of Lu Jie (Hao Lei) from the 2012 movie "The Mystery of the Floating City"
Later, in "Golden Age" and "Dear", she was not a supporting role, but the audience noticed that Hao Lei at that time was more mellow and restrained than Yu Hong at that time.
Without lines, she is still dazzling, a look and eyes are enough to interpret the role, and she is willing to become the protagonist.
2014 movie "Dear" Lu Xiaojuan (Hao Lei) clip
It is often said that she is "the most underrated actress in China", and Hao Lei's portrayal and psychological grasp of those female images are convincing.
It comes from her flesh and blood, and her sensitivity and amorousness give her innate ability to empathize with her characters.
This amorous is not narrowly amorous, she is intrinsically an artist who is willing to hand over her soul unreservedly to the character.
Jia Zhangke likened her to Per Maruschka: "Hao Lei's performance allows us to find the softest place in our hearts, secretly cry in the movie theater, and continue to be strong after the lights are on." ”
God will be kind to those who are brave, strong, and pure.
Someone on the Internet asked "how to evaluate actor Hao Lei", and there was an answer that received high praise:
This era is not worthy of Hao Lei.
Hao Lei is 42 years old, and she seems to have always been like the song in "Oxygen": Enjoy me Now, life is so uncertain, think of me in the future, the year you get older.
On November 20, 2010, Hao Lei won the most weighty and only performance award so far for "The Fourth Painting", and it happened that day she starred in Meng Jinghui's drama "Soft".
When he was first shortlisted, Meng Jinghui said that he could rearrange the performance time of "Soft", which did not matter. Hao Lei resolutely refused:
"I can't leave the audience alone, the most important job of an actor is not to receive an award, but to perform."
Without the slightest hesitation, she was indifferent and decisive.
When the drama ended that day, Meng Jinghui, under the gaze of all the audiences, walked along the far left side of the stage, and personally bent down to spread the long red carpet little by little to the feet of Hao Lei in the center of the stage.
After that, he officially announced the good news of Hao Lei's award and took her through the entire red carpet.
Suddenly, more than a thousand spectators stood up from their seats at the same time, greeted and applauded the actress, and many of them cried.
In the applause of the waves, Hao Lei looked deeply at the crowd under the stage, with tears in her eyes.
The tears, words, and sighs of that day were all scattered into the air.
People come and go, leaving behind works, pains and memories, as well as Hao Lei, who will never be absent.