Qianjiang Evening News hourly news reporter Yang Wan
"Now my physical condition is getting worse every day, but my mental state is getting better and better." Hangzhou Chengdong Hospital, On the 6th floor of Ward 71, saw Zheng Liang again after 4 months, and although he was in a difficult situation, he still tried to cheer himself up.
Zheng Liang, who is 2 meters 02 tall, was born in a well-known sports family in Zhejiang, his father Zheng Guobao is recognized by old qualified basketball fans as the king of Zhejiang ball, and his brother is the famous basketball player Zheng Wu, who himself was the former main force of the Chinese men's volleyball national team and the former "first asian vice attack".
Paralyzed in bed 2 years ago due to spinal cord disease, Zheng Liang has been looking forward to the day when he gets back on his feet. From traditional Chinese medicine to Western medicine, from precision medicine to folk remedies, all the treatment methods, Zheng Liang has tried, in his words, as long as there is a slight possibility, even if the process is painful, he is willing to try.
"Now all I can do is keep exercising and healing, patiently waiting for the miracle of medical progress to come." AccompanyIng Zheng Liang every day, in addition to the nurse Lao Guo, is the Douyin APP, from shooting a small video of exercise to doing live broadcasting, Douyin has become the best channel for him to relieve loneliness and communicate with the outside world, although at least 7 fans are online, although the live broadcast with goods has not yet seen the effect, but Zheng Liang in front of the mobile phone is still hanging on the medals won in the past.
Zheng Liang said that when he was an athlete, he used the passion on the field to infect sports fans; now, in the ward, he shares his inspirational stories with his mobile phone.
Live streaming in wheelchairs
On the chest hangs the medals of the past
"Dear fans, family and friends, welcome to Liang Ge's live broadcast room. Brother Liang's hand is the gold medal of the 1997 Men's Volleyball Asian Championship, and today I will tell you the story behind it. ”
In the hospital room, Zheng Liang sat in a wheelchair, facing the mobile phone camera, and turned on the daily live broadcast. The live broadcast device in front of him not only has a professional microphone, but also a button to control the sound. "Before I only used mobile phones, the effect was not good, a fan on Douyin sent me this professional live broadcasting equipment."
"Once the teammates of the previous national team and coach Wang Jiawei came to see me, everyone cheered me up, my sister-in-law recorded a vibrato video on the side, I did not expect that this video was popular on the vibrato." The sister-in-law suggested that Zheng Liang had nothing to play with Douyin, which could not only pass the time, but also let the people who cared know his recent situation in time.
In this way, Douyin seems to open a window to a new world for Zheng Liang, who is trapped in the ward. He began to post videos of his rehabilitation exercises, and later opened a live broadcast, "sharing some previous experiences of playing in the national team, answering some questions that everyone cares about, and popularizing some volleyball knowledge." Slowly, Zheng Liang's Douyin account has also accumulated a lot of fans, and now there are nearly 30,000 fans who pay attention to him.
Through Douyin, Zheng Liang made a lot of friends. "The green plants on the windowsill were also sent by these friends, and some people would help me find a doctor or a medical institution to ask for new treatments."
In Zheng Liang's WeChat, there is a "Zhengneng Liang" group, which is full of fans who pay attention to him on Douyin. "There are almost a hundred people in the group, and almost every day there are people chatting in the group." When the group was lively, someone would give Zheng Liang a red envelope, and at first he politely refused. Later, he was also impressed by the enthusiasm of his friends, and occasionally received a small red envelope. "For example, send a red envelope to let me buy some fruit to eat, the money is not much, but I am really touched in my heart."
Nowadays, the live broadcast from 7 to 9 o'clock every night has become one of the few things that can make Zheng Liang happy, and behind the happiness, Zheng Liang also has to endure physical suffering. Two hours of live broadcast, Zheng Liang is in a wheelchair to complete, for a long time, the body will always slide down uncontrollably.
Zheng Liang's live broadcast room, the number of online people at the same time can reach more than 100 people, at least 7. He admitted that he still cares about the number of fans during the live broadcast, and when he sees some fans quit the live broadcast, his heart will "cluck". Whenever the live broadcast room is cold, fans will always brush the bullet screen in the live broadcast room: "It's okay, you still have us." Zheng Liang said that these hardcore fans are now like his family.
Ms. Lou from Hangzhou is one of Zheng Liang's die-hard fans. Every video zheng liangfa, she will forward, like, every night the live broadcast is almost not left behind. "When I was a child, I also lived near the city gymnasium, and sometimes I could see Zheng Liang on the way home, knowing that the brothers were famous athletes, but they never talked or spoken."
Last year, when Ms. Lou brushed Vibrato, she saw Zheng Liangfa's rehabilitation training video, and he was positive and optimistic to fight against the pain, and Ms. Lou was deeply encouraged. "Thinking about What happened to Zheng Liang, I feel that the difficulties and challenges I encountered in my life are nothing."
Ms. Chen of Wuxi, once a fan of Zheng Liang, has now become the field controller of Zheng Liang's live broadcast room, helping him interact with fans. "When new fans come in, let them pay a little attention and join the fan group." Brother Liang's eyes are not very good, sometimes the fans' questions can not be seen clearly, the reply is not timely, I will help explain. ”
"In my heart, Brother Liang has always been radiant on the field, and now he lies in a hospital bed and can't move, which is really difficult for people to accept." Ms. Chen knows that Zheng Liang, who is lying on the hospital bed, is lonely and miserable at heart, so no matter how busy she is, she will talk to him on the phone every day. "He said something to me, and even if I just listened quietly, it was a kind of release for him."
For Zheng Liang, in addition to the help and touch of fans, he is also looking forward to finding a way to live independently through live streaming. "I took early retirement, and my monthly retirement salary was only a few thousand yuan, my hospitalization expenses, nursing staff's salary, plus the daily expenses of two people, at least 10,000 yuan a month."
Over the years, Zheng Liang has also received several donations of love, but the high cost of treatment has long been consumed, and now he can only rely on his previous savings to make up for it. "I'm like this now, I can't do any other work, so I think about whether I can make some money through live streaming, at least I have to find a way to support myself first."
Although the live streaming has not yet seen the effect, Zheng Liang firmly believes that tomorrow will be better. "It's like a war, people are running out, ammunition is running out, I am left alone to hold on, reinforcements have not yet arrived, only to continue to hold on."
Spinal cord lesions for 1573 days, let Zheng Liang understand that people's lives not only have a length, but also a width, although the pain is endless, he will still live bravely.
Hands that had been vigorously smashed
Now the cup of water is trembling
Zheng Liang's ward is not large, and there are two beds of one large and one small in a room of more than ten square meters. The big bed in the back is where Zheng Liang usually sleeps, and lying on it he can see the sky outside the window. Today, this ward is his "home".
On the window sill next to the bed, there are all kinds of green plants, which makes the room warm and interesting. In a small cabinet next to the bed, there is a WIFI transmitter for him to use on the Internet and do live broadcasts; in addition, there is a small speaker that Zheng Liang uses to listen to music during recovery training. "I love the fast-paced, dynamic music."
Of course, the most important thing for Zheng Liang is the small plastic medicine box, which contains the medicines he wants to take every day. However, the simple action of taking medicine is not easy for Zheng Liang. He needed to tremble and exert all his strength to get the cup to his mouth.
"In 2016, I began to feel occasional numbness in my feet, and then I began to have obstacles in defecation, and I couldn't walk steadily, and the people behind me couldn't stand up, and my lower body completely lost consciousness." Zheng Liang said that the condition is still developing, "The location of the lesion that was initially found was in the chest, and now the lesion has moved up, and what I am most worried about now is that the condition will worsen, and my hands will lose consciousness, leaving only a head to move." ”
After taking the medicine, Zheng Liang's fingers were still slightly trembling, and he shook his fists twice, "No way, now my hands are getting number and more numb, and some are out of control." Zheng Liang's palms were wide and slender, and these hands had once pulled out many powerful killing balls, and now it was very difficult to hold up a glass of water.
Such a feeling of weakness once made zheng liang difficult to accept. "I couldn't believe it, and I didn't want to believe it. How could a person like me fall to this point. Nowadays, for such a sense of powerlessness, Zheng Liang has adapted, or become accustomed to.
Although it is difficult to go out once now, as long as the weather is good, Zheng Liang will still sit in a wheelchair and let the nurse Lao Guo push him to the outside of the hospital to bask in the sun and blow the wind.
Smoke the last cigarette
Say goodbye to the reality of suffering in the past
Zheng Liang's WeChat and Douyin nicknames are both called "Zhengneng Liang", and he always shows his positive and optimistic side. Whether it is a former national team teammate, or the director of the platoon management center, or his classmates and neighbors who have been missing for a long time, everyone who has come to see him can't help but say: "Zheng Liang, your mentality is really good, or so positive and optimistic." ”
But behind the smile, Zheng Liang also experienced deep despair, and even wanted to take his life at one point. "It was the last day of 2018, December 31st, and I will always remember that day." Late at night, Zheng Liang lay on the hospital bed, the pain made it difficult for him to sleep, and loneliness and despair soaked into his body with the night.
"I've been sick for more than a year, I tried to quit smoking but I never got it, and I suddenly wanted to smoke a cigarette." At that moment, Zheng Liang suddenly felt that death was not terrible, but rather a relief. The time of this cigarette is very long for Zheng Liang, the experience of the first half of his life, the smiling faces of his family, the pain after the illness... Scene after scene rolled back and forth in his mind.
At the moment when the cigarette was about to burn out, he figured it out, "I was 47 years old when I got sick, and my life shouldn't end so early." And my mother, whose health has not been very good, if I don't hold on, I really don't know what will happen to her. After extinguishing the cigarette in his hand, Zheng Liang made up his mind that even if he could never stand up again in this life, he would live strongly.
With the arrival of the early morning, Zheng Liang also completely ushered in a new life. "It was a farewell to Zheng Liang, who was full of spirit before, and really began to accept himself who was now paralyzed in bed." It was also from that day that Zheng Liang, who had been a smoker for more than 20 years, never smoked a cigarette again.
Every day, Zheng Liang looks forward to the day when he can stand up, and even often dreams of his own free movement at night. "I'm going to play again, I'm going around again." When he woke up, he was stunned, "Oh, I was just dreaming, and I was very lost." ”
In recent years, although the cause of Zheng Liang's illness is still a mystery, his path of seeking medical treatment continues. "What about a wheelchair?" I just exist in a different way of life, life is originally a practice, and I have to try to live as I want. ”
The day I got back on my feet
Cry bitterly
In the past 4 years of fighting the disease, Zheng Liang's condition has been stagnant, and the specific cause of the disease has not been clarified until now. Last year, wang Jiajia, a reporter of this newspaper, also accompanied Zheng Liang from Hangzhou to Beijing Xuanwu Hospital, when five experts in related fields gathered to help him consult.
"If you can't diagnose the diagnosis, you can only drag it out like this." If the diagnosis can be confirmed, there is a targeted treatment plan. "For this medical journey, Zheng Liang was full of hope, and even prepared to risk his life." I thought that maybe I would go through a very risky surgery this time. Even if the success rate is small, I am ready to give it a try. ”
But reality once again dealt a heavy blow to Zheng Liang, and even the most well-known experts in the country still did not find a specific cause. After returning to Hangzhou, Zheng Liang inevitably fell depressed for a while, but he quickly regained his confidence and actively insisted on resuming exercise. "The current medical level is not curable, maybe in a few years, or in a dozen years it can be cured." I couldn't give up, I couldn't wait until I could be cured, and my body collapsed first. ”
Zheng Liang said that although the illness changed his life, it also made his heart stronger. "There is so much pain that I will not cry anymore."
Late one night last year, Zheng Liang received a call from his sister-in-law. "Under normal circumstances, my family would not call me more than 11 o'clock at night, and when I saw the phone number, I had a bad premonition in my heart, and I was worried that my mother, who was not in good health, would have an accident."
On the other end of the phone, his sister-in-law told him that his father had died suddenly. He stayed there for a long time, feeling too sudden, to his consternation, "My father has always been in good health. The day of sending off his father was a long time, and Zheng Liang sat in the taxi, looking confused, but he did not shed tears from beginning to end.
The only time Zheng Liang felt hot in his eyes again was a few months ago, when he looked through the cardboard box containing the trophies, medals and old photos he had won. Today, this cardboard box is placed under Zheng Liang's window, and since he will turn it out from time to time to take a look, the box is clean and not covered with dust.
"If I cry again, it will be the moment I can stand up." Zheng Liang said that when the day really came, he must cry bitterly.