Heroine: Fanny Heroine Occupation: Drama Actor Actor Occupation: Engineer - "Be careful, there is a crack in the shell!" This article is written for friends who have been neglected since childhood, a little long, I hope you have the patience to read it.
▼ Fanny is a student of drama performance, she looks ordinary, life is not shocking, even unfortunate, because she has a mentally handicapped sister, often manic attacks, the mother of the family put all her attention on the sister, never cared about her feelings, as if she was superfluous.
During the performance, Fanny fell asleep on the stage once, and a famous director came to their school to select the actors for the remake of the stage play of "Camille", and everyone was particularly excited about it, including Fanny, but Fanny fell asleep on the stage where the director chose the role... Although her task on stage was to sit there motionless.
The teacher was particularly disappointed in her for this, and blamed her a lot, but did not care why she fell asleep on the stage?
Why does Fanny fall asleep on stage?
Because her sister had a manic attack last night and made an annoying noise that prevented her from resting normally, she had to get up to take care of her sister, and even danced to please her sister to restore peace to her heart.
Sometimes when luck strikes, it can't be rationally explained. The director gave Fanny an interview invitation, and Fanny gladly accepted, what she didn't know was that this was not only an invitation, but also a door to release her inner repression.
The result of the interview made Fanny excited, because the director admired Fanny's potential, and Fanny, who returned home, could not wait to tell her mother the news, but her mother thought that Fanny was too noisy, making her sister manic and making her shut up. Obviously it was a happy thing, but she couldn't get feedback from her relatives, and Fanny ran to the side sadly and cried.
A few days later, the director's assistant came to the rehearsal room and asked several selected actors to assemble, including Fanny, of course. But incredibly, the director finally decided to let the mediocre her play the heroine Camille.
Camille – Fanny's role in the play, she is fiery, debauched, and aggressive to the outside world. Fanny in reality: cautious, introverted, full of tolerance for the outside world. ● Since the two personalities are very different, why did the director play the introverted Fanny as the enthusiastic Camille? Because director Casper saw the secret and deep connection between Fanny and Camille — both of them were mutilated and both desperately tried to hide it. Fanny uses the way of escape, suppressing the inner self who wants to rebel against fate, Camille, in an aggressive way, hiding the lonely and weak self in her heart.
Fanny has a boy she likes, who lives opposite her house, and whenever he goes to the balcony to read a book or smoke, Fanny will look at him quietly, although she likes it, but does not dare to confess.
During rehearsals, director Caspar, in order to get Euthyphne into camille's role, imitated her indulgence and self-harm.
So, in the first step, she seduced the neighbor who lived across from him as Camille, because of her undisguised (taking the initiative to confess her views on being raped by her father and sex when she was a child), on the subway she skillfully and naturally whispered dialogue on the stage with him, the neighbors were successfully attracted to her, and Fanny also had a further understanding of the role of Camille, and met the nature required by the director during rehearsal.
The second time she met with her neighbors, she imitated Camille's rebellion, ran to the track to lie on the track, was picked up by the neighbors and rescued, and in the process of continuously improving her feelings with the neighbors, she understood the role of Camille more deeply.
But director Caspar is still dissatisfied with her performance and wants to dig out the little man that Fanny suppressed in her heart. Fanny decided to face her true self, her true heart, and no longer hide.
- She stands by the window and calls the neighbor who lives opposite and confesses her true identity. - She smashes plates in front of her mother, kicks her ass, expresses her dissatisfaction with being snubbed for many years, asks her mother to beat her, and tries to suffocate her sister during a manic attack. The shell that had hung over her for more than a decade had finally loosened. She began to understand the director's intentions, and she forced Casper to ask why she chose herself. The director finally confessed, "Because you have a defect." Euthéphane finally saw the abyss of her own heart, the hidden self, the desire that had been hidden, the darkness and destruction.
When I first started to see the heroine Fanny, I thought she was so mediocre, not beautiful, her figure was not good, her skin was rough, her eyes were dull, and at the end of the film, she saw her with her head held high like a queen, emitting a confident smell from the inside of her body, just like the title of the film " Crack in the Shell "Crack in the Shell", she cut through her own shell and released a completely different self. We can feel that a great actor was born.
Each of us is suppressing our own self, and in real life, what we show is not really ourselves, but ourselves that we want others to see. Fanny: Seemingly well-behaved and understand the facts, but suppressing her own feelings, her mother only cares about taking care of her sister, ignoring her own feelings, and putting the focus of her life on her sister, and her joys and sorrows cannot get attention. She felt that without her sister, she would get the attention she deserved in the family, so she actually hated her sister and wanted her sister to die. Fanny hurt herself to let her mother care, by playing the prodigal woman Camille in real life to gain the director's favor for him, hooking up with a tunnel engineer, in fact, those are her desire for love, the expectation of her heart's desire to be concerned, the sacrifice and change for the play, all because she wants to be seen by everyone and recognized by everyone. There are many people in this world, without a complete family, who cannot experience complete emotions, who feel neglected, but who have to face life as bravely as the people around them. They give up their waywardness, live a kind and mediocre life, think of others everywhere, but never ask themselves what they want in their hearts? If you want to live confidently, completely, and courageously, then you can consider asking yourself what you really think in your heart. Accept the inner self, no longer only promises, bravely speak your mind to the people around you, bravely pursue the people you like, and hope that one day, you can also become a queen or prince, and your body emits a confident glow.
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