There is a saying that if you have a shadow in front of you, it is because there is sunlight behind you.
Japanese diva-level singer Mika Nakajima suffered a deaf blow at her peak, and she also thought about it for a hundred, but finally stood up tenaciously and did not give up on herself.
The classic song "Once I Thought About a Hundred", not only sang the voice of Mika Nakajima after experiencing the trough of life, but also reduced the high suicide rate in Japan and saved many people who were in despair.
And when you listen to the song carefully, it is as if you can feel a voice saying to you- "The world is worth it."
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="12" > school bullying and music</h1>
In 1983, Mika Nakajima was born into an ordinary family, the father of a truck driver, and the mother of an ordinary migrant worker.
Mika Nakajima was an introverted and late bloomer as a child. When she was in elementary school, she was often bullied by her male classmates.
Perhaps it was because Mika Nakajima was young and very simple at the time, and her teasing of boys was regarded as a way to show friendship.
Later, When Mika Nakajima went to junior high school, this "friendliness" continued, and she realized that this was not "friendliness", but "aggression".
Why did her classmates bully her?
She began to think about the answer to the question because she was introverted, or because of her lack of affinity, or some other reason.
From elementary school to middle school, Mika Nakajima experienced a lot of dark sides of humanity, and her young mind had a rebellious psychology, she had to rebel, what to do, to change everything at present.
How does Mika Nakajima do it?
She dyes her hair, wears heavy makeup, wears some revealing personality clothes, loves stars, lotuses, spiders, she wants to make herself look stronger through external changes, and she is no longer the little girl who is bullied at will.
Unfortunately, the reality is not subject to human will, and the external changes only make Mika Nakajima look more ostentatious, and there is no substantive change in the other.
Those who bullied her, on the contrary, because of these changes, bullied her even more and gradually rose to "school bullying". The consequences of school violence were severe, leading to Mika Nakajima's eventual withdrawal from school, and what was even more frightening was that the school bullying incident left an indelible shadow in her heart.
Mika Nakajima later said: "I am still not very good at this matter of integration into the group, taking off my uniform and constantly running away, until I finally reached today." ”
The word-of-mouth explosion movie "Young You" focuses on the problem of "school bullying", the darkest and heaviest dark corner of youth, if traced back to the source, it is nothing more than "the evil of human nature", and the pain and struggle of the victims are hidden and struggling, causing people to pity and make people feel depressed.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="44" > suffered the greatest tribulations of life at its peak</h1>
After dropping out of school, Mika Nakajima did not go to high school, but worked in a local fast food restaurant, and in the process of working, she found that she liked music and had unlimited expectations for music.
With the mentality of trying it out, Mika Nakajima sent an audition tape to the record company, and she did not expect to get the opportunity to enter the show business circle.
Mika Nakajima's musical talent was out of control, as if riding on the fast express of life, creating one miracle after another in the Japanese music scene: participating in the idol drama "Shinjuku Scarred Love Song", winning the Best Newcomer Award, singing the theme song "STARS" became popular, and sold a total of 600,000 copies (a record outlier at the time); the debut album "TRUE", released in the first week, won the weekly album chart of the Japan Public Trust Chart.
Along the way, Several singles released by Mika Nakajima have been well received by the public, and they have also won the title of "Born Tome".
Cinderella became a real princess, and Mika Nakajima's wish came true, achieving a perfect transformation. But what she didn't know was that the real ordeal had only just begun.
When Mika Nakajima's career was in full swing, she suffered from Eustachian tube openness.
What is the "Eustachian tube openness": when speaking, his voice will be amplified, easy to tinnitus, and unable to distinguish the accuracy of the scale. There are also serious side effects of the disease, that is, it affects the patient's hearing.
For the singer, it was a fatal blow.
Because of this disease, Nakajima Mika can only feel the sound through the vibration of the vocal cords, and when singing, she cannot control the vocal intensity, and even the basic pitch and rhythm of a singer cannot be mastered.
Mika Nakajima, in pain, sang desperately with her throat until she lost her voice and almost lost her hearing. She said in a later interview: "I have no idea how loud it is and how it comes out. ”
Later, Mika Nakajima stopped all acting activities and went to the United States to seek a cure, but got the answer of "incurable".
Everything was gray, and Mika Nakajima spent every day at that time in torment. Those days were the darkest times of her life.
The former "natural singer" could no longer sing at her peak, and her once proudest voice was shattered and her hearing was seriously impaired. Mika Nakajima fell from the altar, some media accused her of "not working hard", and some people said that she was "completely ruined".
In addition to singing, Mika Nakajima had nothing more to do, she despaired, she gave up, and eventually learned to live in harmony with the pain, she learned gravity yoga, and practiced singing again.
Escape, pain, tears, is never a way to solve problems, face it bravely, re-examine your future, and accept your imperfect self.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="80" > re-emerged on the stage and became the faith of countless people</h1>
In April 2011, Mika Nakajima made a comeback with the single "Dear". She said: "Instead of blaming yourself for not being able to sing well, you should do your best to convey your heart." ”
Mika Nakajima's comeback is brave, but the road back is full of thorns. Her voice is no longer the natural sound of the past, the voice line is somewhat hoarse, and the pitch cannot be accurate, which can be called "the scene of the walking car accident".
Despite this, Mika Nakajima did not bow to fate, and her strong heart supported her to return to the stage.
This power not only infected her fans, but the show business world also showed "tolerance" for her, believing that "it is not easy to sing to this extent with an ear disease."
On the 2015 World Tour, Mika Nakajima stood on her favorite stage in a red dress and sang "Once I Thought About a Hundred."
Listening to the title of the song, it seems to be a negative and decadent song, but in fact, on the contrary, this song is full of great positive energy. The screams, helplessness, and despair in the song are accompanied by the rebirth of nirvana born of death, conveying a powerful healing power to the audience.
Mika Nakajima, who is severely hearing impaired, controls the beat by stomping her feet on stage, and when the songs are played, she kneels on her knees to touch the stereo to find the rhythm point, and she uses her actions to convey the belief of "trying to live".
Fans thanked her with the lyrics of "Once I Thought a Hundred": "Once I thought about it a hundred times, because there are people like you living in this world, so that I began to expect a little bit from the world." 」 ”
The following passage is what Mika Nakajima said before singing "I Once Thought about a Hundred":
"To be honest, I was actually very surprised when I first received this song, but I cried at the end of it. Feeling my hard heart, I suddenly softened, and this is a song that represents my heart's voice. All of you here must have been depressed and depressed, and you have also thought about 'why the world is not satisfactory' and "why no one has come to help me'. Rest assured, I will sing your heart. ”
Japan's suicide rate has remained high and has become a national social problem. It is said that mika Nakajima's song at that time comforted the hearts of many people and saved many Japanese people whose lives were in despair at that time.
Mika Nakajima has once again become the spiritual pillar and even the faith of countless people.
<h1 class="pgc-h-arrow-right" data-track="107" > does not think about the past, does not fear the future</h1>
Nine times out of ten, everyone has had times of low mood, experienced unpleasant experiences, and had difficulties and obstacles. Whenever this time comes, many people are thinking, why is no one coming to help me?
Mika Nakajima has been bullied by her classmates since she was a child, has experienced too much helplessness, and has suffered from illness at the peak of her career, and she has asked herself countless times why no one has helped me.
Mika Nakajima, who came out of the darkness and out of the painful life, finally understood that the person who can pull himself out of the abyss, except for yourself, cannot rely on anyone, only himself, is his strongest backing.
Mika Nakajima, who fights against fate, puts her personal experience into this song - "I have thought about a hundred times too", and those who have heard it will definitely feel the same, seemingly sad, but in fact, it ignites the hope of life, because "the world is worth it"!
The subtitle at the end of Mika Nakajima's concert reads: In order to describe a strong hope, it is necessary to first describe the deep darkness, and life is the same. I hope that people who have listened to this song, even if they are in a desperate situation in the future, will not give up lightly! If you are disappointed in life, please promise me to put on my headphones and listen to Mika Nakajima's music, and find a moment of pleasure and relaxation in the rhythm and song.
When you are depressed and depressed, when you are miserable and sad, when you really can't hold on, please listen to this song and find hope to persevere.
Keigo Higashino wrote in Shisheng: "Man feels the future at all times. No matter how short a moment, as long as there is a feeling of being alive, there is a future, and people can be happy. ”
The song can not save lives, what can save lives is the bravery and strength of Mika Nakajima, not thinking about the past, not afraid of the future, chasing the light, slowly glowing.
At this moment, if you are being devastated by life, very tired and tired, and even think about a hundred times, please do not cry, do not give up living, do not give up future happiness, encourage yourself to say "just stick to it again", life will always have hope.
Insist on moving forward, never give up, the future can be expected.
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