Crickets are poisonous
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I thought about it for a long time, and I struggled for a long time, and I was still reluctant to write about this topic. Because this thing, which I call toxic, has always accompanied my life- from adolescence, youth to now I am about to enter old age. Crickets, like a huge magnetic field, once you walk in, you can't extricate yourself, you have been sucked and pulled by it all your life! Crickets can affect your whole life and can even change your life and destiny! Oh, yes! Crickets bring too many expectations, joys, excitement, surprises to our lives, and at the same time, they also bring us many, many labors, hardships, tribulations, sorrows, and even crimes and deaths to our lives, towards the road of no return! However, the grasp and right of all this, all the pursuits and trade-offs, depend on your own positioning and value orientation of this little cricket!
A few joys and a few sorrows. In this world, some people are happy and some people are miserable, and some people are victorious and some people are defeated, just like light and darkness, spring and summer and autumn and winter, they are always inseparable, and they are inseparable from each other、、、、、、
Intercepting the most memorable personal experience of my life and the shocking things that have happened around me for decades, and restoring the story in the form of documentary literature to warn the world, I feel that this is very necessary!
The first one, my story
I have been obsessed with cockroaches since I was a child, when the country was very backward, with no electric lights, no televisions and no radios. The family only had a wired conversation box, and every day they sang revolutionary songs that were enough to make their ears cocoon. There is a season of clams, is my happiest time, with my friends to fold the paper cylinder with the clams, with copper wire or wire woven with a clam cover, to the suburbs to go to the suburbs - Kuishan, Taishan, Quanshan, Yunlongshan, Jiulishan 、、、、、、 can be said that the city's four suburbs are tens of miles, leaving us childhood happy insect-catching footprints.
Once, when I was in the fifth grade of elementary school, in a place called Yangqiao in the south of seongseo, I went with my friends to catch cockroaches, and under a large rock on a high slope, I heard a cockroach playing the piano. I lifted the big stone with both hands, only to see a large cockroach lying in the middle, surrounded by several females. I was excited, while carefully holding the stone with my chest, while pulling out the clamshell cover from my waist, just when I was about to cover it, the big guy found me, jumped out of a few meters away, I panicked, hurriedly dropped the stone and panicked to chase, the big guy jumped faster than me, I chased it, I chased it, it was lifeless, it was going to be chased by me, just at this time I suddenly stumbled under my feet, the person suddenly lost control, and the body drew an arc in the air, One end was planted in a ditch more than a meter deep. I felt like I was hitting my head the head, and then I didn't know anything、、、、、、 and when I woke up, I saw a group of our friends around me and was crying. Afterwards, I learned that the moment I fell into the ditch, I was seen by Xi Shun, the oldest of our friends. Fortunately, he found out in time, otherwise my life would have been gone. He said he was motionless when he saw me carrying my head into the ditch. He hurriedly ran over and pulled my legs up, but my body seemed to be stuck by something and could not move, so he shouted loudly, shouting all the little friends around him, and everyone took a lot of effort to drag me out of the mud ditch. I think I must have hit my head against a rock in the ditch before I passed out. I was dragged up covered in mud, my face covered in blood, and my head was hit with a big hole. Back at home, my mother took me to dongfanghong hospital at the south end of our enlightened street and had a dozen stitches. I still have a big scar on my forehead. Playing with cockroaches in childhood almost died. I got a good beating that time.
In 1977, as one of the last intellectual youths, the corresponding party call (which is not mandatory to go) was sent to the countryside to receive re-education from the poor and lower-middle peasants. In addition to eating and living in Zhiqingdian, our group of Zhiqing were all assigned to various production teams to do farm work. Rural life is boring and tedious, facing the loess every day with its back to the sky, and the living conditions are extremely difficult.
When I went, I just emptied the family base in the team and spent 1,300 yuan to buy a brand new hand tractor. The whole village looked around like a baby, but no one would open it, and no one dared to open it. Rural people are real, they will not open it and no one dares to do it, besides, if such a valuable object is destroyed for the public, let alone a family belonging, it is even impossible to afford to lose their lives! I'm not afraid, anyway, I know that there is nothing in the red stripe. Besides, I couldn't stand listening to the captain every day and working in the field like a prisoner, without even having any freedom. I stood up and patted the captain on the chest and said I would drive. The captain was overjoyed when he heard this, as if he had seen a savior, and said: Xiao Wang, you will drive Nathy, just when the team is in urgent need of fertilizer, let's go, let's go to the commune now. As soon as the members heard that I would go to the commune again, they all climbed into the car and said that they would go to the commune to catch the market by the way. The commune is 15 miles away from us, and it is all rural dirt roads that are extremely difficult to walk. This can be my army. Where do I go, I've only seen people in the city. But now it's time to get on this, catch the ducks on the shelves, and hundreds of pairs of eyes in the whole village are staring at me. Open the bow without turning back, the scalp! I had a clever move, and my hands were busy covering my stomach and rushing to the captain and said: Captain, my stomach hurts, let me pull the back and let's go. The captain smiled and said: You are lazy donkey on the and pee, go quickly. I grabbed the instruction manual of the tractor in my hand and hurried into the hut. Where am I, I squatted in the hut and hurriedly opened the instruction manual to read, fortunately, the operation principle of the walk-behind tractor is not complicated, it is very simple. I quickly memorized the essentials of its operation – handle start, clutch, gear, directional operation、、、、、、
That time I successfully drove the tractor to the commune, and I pulled a cart full of people! The captain paid me a dime and a dime for a bowl of mutton soup. It was the first time I had eaten a meal with meat since I was sent down, and it was fragrant! The captain looked at the incense I ate and said: Xiao Wang's hand support is the treasure in our team, the root of life, you should cherish it, open it well, and as long as you come to the commune in the future, I will subsidize you with a bowl of mutton soup to drink! I nodded excitedly, and the tears almost fell.
Since then, I have become a professional hand-held tractor driver in the team, and my work is comfortable and free. Driving a tractor in the countryside at that time was like driving a luxury car now, which was very popular and popular. In addition to doing farm work, the red and white celebrations in the three miles and five townships, building houses, and so on, all asked me to help. Of course I enjoy it and respond to everything I need. Because help can't be in vain. After helping the rural people, they will give you tobacco, alcohol, peanuts, rice and so on. I pulled it back to give the captain a point, and I hid the tobacco and alcohol and brought it back to zhiqing to give my hungry wolf-like zhiqing to divide. I remember that the most gifted at that time was Lihua Tobacco, which was 1 cent and 2 cents, and Xuzhou 85 Liquor, which was 8 cents and 5 cents.
At that time, the rural crops were very single, and they were busy planting in the spring and harvesting in the autumn for two seasons a year, just like shandong now, after cutting the wheat, there was basically no agricultural work on the corn, and they waited for the autumn to be cut.
Entering the hot weather of August, it is the most leisure time in the countryside. This time is also the busiest time for our boys. Under my leadership, a dozen male brothers went out every night to go to the nearby village to catch clams. Hammer all the pots and pans with lids on the soil and fill them with clams. Finally, the pots and pans of the female Zhiqing were also borrowed to hold the clams, and the female Zhiqing did not dry up, we would reward them. Whoever wins the fight will be rewarded with delicious food for the female zhiqing. In fact, there was nothing delicious at that time, that is, some sugar cubes bought in the brigade cooperative. We used a small clay pot as a bucket pot, put the cockroach inside, and a room of young men and women all gathered around to watch. Whoever loses will take cigarettes, sugar or toothpaste, soap, in short, take what they have, and there is really no head to reach over to let the intellectuals play the brain melon, or pluck their butts up and smoke them with the soles of their shoes, making the whole hall laugh.
Every day to catch, every day to fight, every day there are laughter and laughter coming out of our dilapidated huts in Zhiqingdian, haunting the air above this barren land. Rural life is hard, single and no entertainment, this time is the happiest time for us to know the green dots. Because of the clams, we, the young intellectuals who have left our hometown, temporarily forget the boredom and loneliness, forget the sorrows and troubles, forget the barrenness and hardship! Forget the pain of missing your loved ones and hometown.
One day, the second pillar of the commune, who was sent to the commune as a farm, rode a broken bicycle to find me. The second pillar is that I grew up with bare stomach, went to school together, caught the hair of the cockroach together, and the hardcore cockroach fan. Erzhu said: Xiao Qi(this guy actually called my nickname) We have a big farm buddy who wants to have a fighting contest with your brothers who know the green point of Chaohu Lake, dare you fight? Of course, I was not ambiguous, and said: Yes, always accompany. When the Zhiqing people heard that they were going to fight with the Zhiqing douqi who had a big farm, they were all very excited, and they all said: Fighting can be done, but it cannot be fought in vain. Erzhu took over and said: Yes, fight a cigarette candy or something unconscious, if you want to fight, fight excitement, come to some big. The second pillar wants to come to a little bigger, but it can make everyone difficult. We are all poor for money, and we want things in addition to the bed mosquito net, and a kettle and a broken bowl is all the belongings! Erzhu looked up and down in the broken house where we lived, shook his head, and then went to the courtyard behind Zhiqingdian to look at it like a leader for half a day, and finally aimed at a big yellow dog lying on the door of the gang room, and said: Just it. Erzhu's words stunned us all. I hurriedly said: Erzhu, what a bad idea you boy has, rhubarb is the treasure of our know-it-green dots, and the female Zhiqing sleeps every night counting on it to guard the door to protect it. That's not okay, you look at something else. Erzhu said with some contempt: "I don't think you really can come up with anything valuable." You say you want to gamble big, what do you bet? I stared at Erzhu's face and asked, "What are you betting on?" Erzhu alertly looked left and right, and whispered to us: What do we have as a farm to raise? Two-pillar questioning. I said, "You're a pig farm in the commune, who doesn't know that?" Erzhu tapped me on the shoulder and said, "Yes, we have pigs." Let's both know that the green dot has a big gamble of pigs and dogs! How? As soon as Erzhu's voice fell, a group of us intellectuals were dumbfounded, and then there was a burst of excitement and excitement. You know, we haven't had meat for more than half a year, let alone pork, not even lard. The dishes we ate were all boiled in water, and there was not even a single oil flower floating on it. I hesitated and still couldn't hide my excitement, saying: Erzhu, we lost to the dog, you lost to the pig? Are you sure? Erzhu nodded and said: Ok. I was still not at ease, and said: Pigs are communes, and they are not the ones you know, can you gamble when you can say? You boy don't play with us! Erzhu said very seriously and with some laughter: You don't have to worry about this, the gentleman is difficult to chase after a word, besides, as far as you are a few broken clams, who loses does not know, don't get excited too soon! Agree with the second pillar on the time and place of the fighting cockroach. We're busy. Catch every day, fight every day, choose every day. After more than a week of selection and fighting, I finally decided to use one of my black, purple and red tongs to get out of the horse.
The black, purple and red tongs were pulled out of the stone nest of the mountain fort nearly twenty miles away from our Zhiqing point, with a high head and a wide head, six thick legs, thick black body, a whole skin and color, a pair of oversized purple and old red tongs. This insect screamed loudly, and its mouth power was extraordinary, and it took down all the large and small crickets in our green dots, and all of them were a lion shaking its head, and it threw the cockroach out of the tank to win, and there was no two bites. We decided to take this elite soldier with us and make a final decision!
One cool night, I went to the team to secretly drive out the tractor, and Zhiqing selected five strong and fighting Zhiqing (afraid that if they played tricks, we would be easy to deal with) to go with them. Xiao Wu hugged the cockroach, and Qi Min dragged Rhubarb to the car. The female intellectuals were in tears, watching and stroking Rhubarb like they were sent to the execution ground. No way, can't give up the child can't set the wolf. I have repeatedly promised the young women that they will bring the rhubarb back unscathed. Quan Dang Rhubarb was just riding a tractor with us to go for a ride in the commune.
For our victory in this victory, we have captured a delicious feast of booty, and the Zhiqing have been busy for an afternoon -- the cooking master of the gang room, Lao Gou, has brushed the cauldron clean, sharpened the pig-killing knife brightly, and is waiting to kill the pig and boil the meat; the female Zhiqing is responsible for washing vegetables and waiting for the pork dumplings; the male brothers have prepared the tobacco and wine, just waiting for our victory class master to drink a big drink, come to a drunken dream and die! 、、、、、、
I drove my hand-held tractor under the cover of night, along the country road on the edge of the cornfield, toward the commune's great farm. The faint light of the walk-behind tractor, like a firefly in the night, can only illuminate the uneven dirt road more than a meter away, and the cornfield on both sides of the road is more than one person high, but at the moment it is black and pressed to see nothing. The night in the countryside is dark and lonely. Along the way, no one spoke, and they all seemed to feel the heavy responsibility and pressure of this mission. Because dozens of people are looking forward to us with their eyes!
When I arrived at the commune as a farm, Erzhu had been waiting at the door for a long time. He saw us and said anxiously: Hurry up, everyone is waiting. Because you don't dare come!" I said busily: What can I do, the car is stolen, and the road is difficult to walk. Erzhu instructed me to put an end to the fire of the tractor, saying that he was afraid that the leader would hear it. A few of us pushed the tractor together and quietly entered the dayou farm. It was dark and quiet on the farm. On both sides of the road, tall tile houses are neatly arranged. I thought it must have been a pigsty, and from time to time there were pigs calling from the houses on both sides. I whispered to Erzhu with some envy, I fuck, the commune is a commune, and even the pigs live better than us. Erzhu didn't say a word, and signaled me with his hand not to speak.
We came to the last row of houses, and the second pillar opened a gate for us to enter, and then closed the gate as quickly as a thief. A strong smell of pigs came to the fore. The house is very big, like a large factory building, and the rows of pigs are separated by pigsty, and the pigsty is full of pigs, large and small, and they are all sleeping lazily at the moment. In the innermost part of the pigsty, there is a hut, which should be an office. When we entered, it was already full of young people who were working as farms. In addition to the second pillar, there are several familiar faces inside, like classmates of the same school. Everyone greeted each other, and then Erzhu said: Farmers, don't talk, all listen, say this, Erzhu jumped to a bench, cleaned his throat and said loudly like a leader: Today, Chaohu Zhiqingdian and we have a lot of farms, and there will be a fighting game here. The prize is agreed upon in advance, and if they lose, they give us a dog. Speaking of this, Erzhu paused, looked down at me and asked: What about the dogs you brought? Before I could answer, Qi Min preemptively said: It is tied to the tractor at the door. Erzhu smiled and said: You can not run, we poor and lower-middle peasants are still waiting to eat dog meat and drink dog soup. As soon as the words fell, they immediately caused a lot of laughter. Erzhu then said: If we lose, we will reward them with a pig. Everyone has no objections, right? No! Everyone said in unison. The second pillar then said: Well, the game starts now! After saying that, Erzhu waved his hand, only to see a Zhiqing carrying a small trumpet from the ground, presumably a yellow basin for feeding pigs, and the inside was flattened with sand. Immediately after that, several white porcelain jars with the words "Great As a Farm" printed on them were placed on the table in unison. It seems that all of them are filled with their generals. I hurried over to Xiao Wu and carefully took our general, the black, purple and red tongs, and put them on the table. At this time, there was a Zhiqing who said: How can I bring one? Erzhu also looked at me with some surprise. I didn't hurry to say: We didn't stipulate a few rules for this competition, right, besides, our Chao Lake is a small place, a poor place, and it is not as bold as your commune. Just this one piece of broken cockroach is also barely brought to you to fight for fun. Really, if I hadn't made an appointment with Erzhu and was afraid of losing face, we really wouldn't have wanted to come! We are your opponents! Dude, it's really hard to be conscious! When I said this, and when I wore my top hat like this, they all laughed and stopped speaking.
In those days, there were not so many rules and exquisiteness in the past. One is not weighing, not to mention the current advanced professional electronic scale, is the fight, you look at mine, I look at your, the size is almost the same as the size of the fight; the second is that there is no referee, no situation, not limited by time, is to fight the endgame, fight until your cockroach does not bite and completely lose and concede; the third is that there is no current professional bucket circle, all in the basin of the soil, so the cockroach fight fiercely and beautifully, which requires the clam must have super physical endurance and oral strength to win; fourth, there are no rules on the grass, grass, They are all fresh grasses that are split in the ground, each beating their own clams, unrestricted, you can fight as you want, as long as your clams can win, count.
The game officially begins. I first put the black purple into the bucket basin. Erzhu and the zhiqing of Dayou as a farm gathered around to look at my cockroaches, then leaned over and compared their cockroaches with black and purple one by one, and finally decided to fight with us with a green wing. I looked at the size and felt that the big green wings were larger than the black and purple wings, but the head and neck teeth of the big green wings, especially the thighs, were obviously much smaller than the black and purple wings. I deliberately said: This wing is obviously larger than our cockroach, you can take advantage. Erzhu smiled and said: Almost, almost, the wings are significantly larger. Fight, fight, fight. The second pillar did not allow me to say anything more, so I hurriedly poured my wings into it. The two sides fought and screamed. Black purple and big green wings crossed their mouths. After the two heavy mouths of the big green wings were easily caught by my black and purple, the big green wings were obviously weak in their legs, and they were squeezed to the edge of the basin by my black and purple push belts, and only the strength of the parry was not enough. Black and purple fought all the way, and the big green wings retreated all the way. This big green wing is really not an idle person, and I have been beaten several times by my black and purple all the way, and I have not retreated, and I have struggled to resist. The mouth-bearing ability and endurance of the big green wings are too strong! If it weren't for the lack of leg strength, Black Purple would never have the upper hand. Holding this for a few minutes, finally Black Purple finally used its killer skill, using the advantage of the basin edge to bite the legs of the big green wing single clamp and stomp hard, a lion shook its head, threw the big green wing out of the bucket basin, and slammed it heavily on the cement floor that was more than a meter high. The big green wing immediately screamed for his life, lying on the ground and not moving! There was an uproar.
At this time, I heard Zhiqing say: This cannot be counted, the cockroach fell to the ground and fell to his death, not bitten! A few Zhiqing were also busy following and saying: Yes, it can't be counted, it can't be counted! As soon as we heard this, we young people who knew the green dots stopped doing it. Xiao Wu took out a sharp knife from his waist, jumped on the chair at once, pointed the sharp knife at the Zhiqing below and said loudly: Willing to gamble and lose, how can you still play Lai! Fuck, look at us good bullies?! A few of our other zhiqing didn't know where to find out of the guys, making a desperate posture. The cabin was full of gunpowder when it was boarded.
At this time, the eyes of all the young people in the audience were focused on me. All I had to do was wave my hand or say something too drastic, and the fight would have to be fought! I know, if you want to fight, something will happen, something big will happen! Because these few that I have brought are all lords who fight and don't die! Not to mention the guys in your hands!
Don't mess around! I see who dares to do it! I yelled in the house. Suddenly the room fell silent. I didn't hurry to fish the black and purple out of the bucket basin first, put it in the porcelain steel and cover it. I held the porcelain steel in my hand, and then very seriously shouted at the whole house of Zhiqing: Farmers, we are the ones you called to fight the clams, the rules are also set by you, now you lose, we don't care how the clams lose, whether they bite to death or fall to their deaths, in short, your clams are defeated, this is the truth. As the saying goes, a gentleman's word is difficult to chase. I believe that your buddies who are great as farms are gentlemen, not villains! If you are not convinced, we will have the opportunity to play together again in the future, what kind of play, how big to play, how big we Chao Hu Zhiqing zhiqing is not a breed, and accompany us to the end! But today, speaking of this, I turned my face to the second pillar: second pillar, you can watch and do this.
Erzhu was a little overwhelmed by this sudden posture of our Zhiqing, or was really a little frightened. He was a little flustered, and he smiled and said, "Buddy, buddy, stop being angry." They are all young people, why bother! Listen to me, don't say anything, we have a lot of knowledge as a farm to lose this person, if this is passed out, it will not make people laugh off their teeth! Willing to gamble and lose! We admit it! Erzhu said that the atmosphere in the room suddenly eased up a lot. I motioned for our intellectuals to put the guy away. Erzhu busily instructed a big black-faced man to take a few people to tie up the pig, and repeatedly instructed the pig's mouth and hooves to be tied tightly, so as not to let this guy make a sound, alarming the leader is in big trouble! I and I went to the door and waited on the walk-behind tractor. After a while, a few people threw a large black pig with a hundred and ten pounds to the car. Then Erzhu and we quietly pushed the car out of the big way as the gate of the farm. Unlike the two-pillar road, the car pushed out the gate far away, and I dared to start the walk-behind tractor. Suddenly, the hand tractor started, I quickly jumped on the car to hang up the gear and increase the throttle is running all the way, the excitement in my heart! The buddies in the car were even more difficult to suppress their excitement, talking and laughing and singing loudly in the car.
As soon as the tractor drove into the Chaohu Zhiqing point, it was surrounded by the Zhiqing at once. As soon as everyone saw the booty on the car, the big fat pig, the eyes were green, just like the hungry wolf saw the little fat sheep, and the hungry saliva was about to flow out. The house master Lao Gou is a pig killer in the local area, a hundred and ten pounds of big pigs, in his hands like killing a chicken, three times five to two one kung fu will be done.
The whole Zhiqingdian was busy like the New Year this night. The pot of the pot, the chopped meat of the chopped meat, the washing of the dish, and the noodles and noodles. Soon a sumptuous pork dinner party was OK. When there was no table, we would carry over the wooden boxes that the public had given to each of them when they were lowered, and the two rows would be joined together to form a large rectangular table; without electric lights, we would bring all the kerosene lamps and candles of Zhiqing and put them on the table. The atmosphere was pompous like the good men of Liangshan that we saw in the "Water Margin" movie, where everyone sat around eating meat and drinking wine in large bowls. All the intellectuals were infected by the atmosphere of the scene, no one was timid, no one was timid, everyone toasted to each other, toasted each other, drank happily, and seemed to forget all sorrows and hardships.
Xiao Wu proposed that I sing a song of praise for Zhiqing, and everyone applauded and coaxed along. I drank too much wine, my brain was hot, well, Sing it. I stood up slowly, ripped open my throat and howled—
The moon hangs high in the sky,
Like a mother's kind face,
Lift up your gentle face,
Confide in the atrium of the moon,
Ah moon, ah moon,
When will I be able to return to my mother.
We wandered around,
Like duckweed floating around,
When will I be able to return to my hometown...
My song seemed to infect and touch everyone at once. The room was suddenly quiet. All the intellectuals stopped talking, listened to me sing quietly, listened to me howl, so that after I finished singing for a while, everyone did not relax. In the silent air, there was a sudden cry of Zhiqing, and several female Zhiqing could not control their sobs. Immediately after that, all the intellectuals could not control their emotions, and began to cry hysterically, laugh, howl loudly, and some grabbed the bottle and threw it on the ground and the wall、、、、、、 chaos, all chaos! What time we had a fight that night, and when we tossed and turned, I couldn't remember how I went back to sleep in our thatched hut drunk.
That night I slept very sweetly, and had many, many beautiful dreams, dreaming of me and the beautiful girl I admired hugging and kissing in the moonlight; dreaming that I was carrying a pocket of delicious food back to my hometown, and my loving mother was sitting in the courtyard of the house sewing needlework, and when I came in, I was surprised and happy, I ran over to hug my mother、、、、、、 suddenly, really suddenly, my dream was rudely disrupted. Confused, I felt someone shouting at me, and then I felt my hands being pulled hard by someone, and then I felt a cool thing on my wrist sticking to it. When I woke up completely, I found that my hands had been firmly handcuffed by a pair of shiny handcuffs! Standing in front of me was Secretary Zhang of our brigade, a police officer in a public security uniform, and a young man with Sven glasses. I immediately reacted, the big thing is not good, it must be the disaster caused by the pigs of the people who win the fight!
I was pushed and taken to the brigade headquarters by the police company. As soon as I entered the brigade headquarters, I saw the master of the house, Lao Gou, squatting on the ground with a frustrated face. As soon as Master Gou saw me, he shouted at me: Xiao Wang, I must know that you are a pig won by fighting cockroaches and gambling, and I will not help you kill! I don't dare to ask you for the pig's head and the water! Speaking of this, Master Gou cried, and he wiped the tears with his rough hands and continued: Xiao Wang, you are also bold, even the pigs of the public family, you dare to gamble! Also dare to kill and eat! This is good, I am also implicated! How could I be so unlucky!
Looking at Lao Gou's wrinkled face twitching sadly and painfully, I was very sad in my heart. We are young people, gambling, killing pigs to eat, and we carry big things, but Lao Gou is an honest and honest farmer, with six children, the family is so poor that they don't even have a bed, and the family of eight sleeps in a straw nest circled with stones. Not to mention that Lao Gou is innocent. I said to Secretary Zhang, Secretary Zhang, Master Gou is innocent, he doesn't know anything, the pig's head and the water are forced upon me to give him and let him take home. This matter really had nothing to do with Master Gou.
Secretary Zhang looked angry and said: How can it have nothing to do with him?! If he hadn't killed pigs, how could you have eaten meat?! If the pigs are not killed, this matter is still easy to handle, and there is still room for maneuver. Now there's not even a pig hair! Little King, Little King, your courage is also too big, steal the hand in the team to go to the commune to fight the cockroach gambling. Actually killed the pig overnight! Eat! Have you thought about the consequences? Xiao Wang, I tell you, the leaders of the commune attach great importance to this matter and demand that it be strictly investigated and dealt with. Now that things are getting bigger, I can't take care of it, so liu gong'an will take you away, and when you go to the public security bureau, you must honestly confess and admit your mistakes seriously and profoundly. Hear no?!
I nodded vigorously.
A piercing siren echoed over the barren countryside. In front of the brigade department, many people from the countryside watched the liveliness, men, women, children, and a mess. The moment I was taken out of the gate of the brigade headquarters by Liu Gong'an, I tried to search through the crowd of black pressure with my eyes, and it was strange that I didn't see a single of our zhiqing. I understand that we know that no one can get rid of this matter. Thinking of last night we knew that qingqing ate a big bowl of meat and drank wine, that relief, that hilarity, that excitement, that hysteria... I felt a sadness in my heart that I had never felt before. It seems that for a pig, for a meal of pork, all of us know the youth, especially me, to pay the price! For the first time in my life, I sat in a jeep with flashing police lights in front of everyone, and I was wearing white dangling handcuffs! The jeep, sounding its shriek siren, drove slowly past the crowd of onlookers and drove all the way to the commune.
I was taken to a broken house in the commune police station that smelled of musty smell like an iron cage. Unexpectedly, the second pillar was also locked inside. Erzhu told me that he had been imprisoned early in the morning, and he said that it was the complaint of his farm zhiqing, who it was, he did not know, it must have been a complaint filed by the people who fought together. Speaking of this, the second scolded: Mother, let me know who the sued Lao Tzu, Lao Tzu must pick his skin! Erzhu then complained to me that he shouldn't have brought a cockroach to fight, and the fight was uncomfortable, and the zhiqing of his farm were not convinced. That's why someone sued. Erzhu said that early in the morning, the leaders of his farm called the leaders of the commune and the leaders of the public security bureau to the farm, drove the police car and sounded the siren to move the crowd, and took pictures and records, as if they were cracking a big case! It's too late to say anything now. Resign yourself to fate. The taste of closing the class room is not good. Without freedom, time counts every minute and second. When it was almost dark, Liu Gong'an took me to an interrogation room. There was a table in the house, a strip of trees. On the stool sat two police officers with stern expressions. I was scolded and squatted on the ground. Then there was the interrogation. I gambled on the cause and effect of the pig, and the pig pulled back to Zhiqingdian to kill the food, and told the police again and again.
After I finished explaining, Liu Gong'an asked: Have you finished explaining? I said: It's over. Liu Gong'an immediately looked fierce and pointed at my nose: You are not honest! I tell you, if you don't honestly explain your problems thoroughly today, you will wait to go to jail! I said: I have already explained the problem clearly, and there is nothing else to do about this matter! Liu Gong'an stood up and asked: Is there really nothing else? I said: No. Liu Gong'an was furious and slapped the table: I told you to be hard-mouthed! Immediately he loudly ordered the two policemen: Handcuff him upside down and handcuff me! Two police officers came and pressed me to the ground, and they bent one arm from the back of my neck and one arm up from my waist and handcuffed me with a cross. I suddenly felt the pain of my arm being pulled off. I gritted my teeth and didn't say a word. Think about what problems you have, and if you are not honest, hang you up! Liu Gong'an left his harsh words. Then they heard a "bang" and they closed the door and left.
In those days, there were no human rights, let alone the rule of law! Human nature can be slaughtered at will! Not to mention the countryside far away from the Emperor of Heaven!
After more than two hours, Liu Gong'an and the two small police officers returned drunk. Perhaps because he drank too much wine and wanted to sleep, he did not continue the interrogation. Two small police officers let me go and then escorted me back to the classroom.
As soon as he entered the classroom, he saw Erzhu sitting painfully against the wall, his face was beaten blue and purple, and there was blood on his mouth and nose. Erzhu told me that it was a few police officers who interrogated him: Fuck! Let me explain other problems, where do I have any other problems! This is obviously a forced confession! This gang of dog bastards! Erzhu scolded fiercely. Erzhu groaned in the classroom all night, thinking that he must have called the police not to beat him lightly.
I didn't close my eyes all night. I thought a lot about this night— my mother who was far away in the city, my little house in my house, the old street in front of my house, and the friends we played with every day.
At noon the next day, Xiao Wu walked in with a big grin and brought a large bag of eggs and steamed buns. I was surprised and delighted, busy across the iron door and asked: How did you come in?
Xiao Wu told me: When you were taken away yesterday, we knew that Qingquan was locked up and written for inspection by Secretary Zhang of the brigade. It is not released until the evening. All of us Zhiqing each made up some money, and the female Zhiqing also boiled eggs for me to bring to you. I used the money we had pooled to buy peony cigarettes and Yanghe liquor for the police here, and they let me in. But just let me come in alone, Qi Min and Da Qi also came, both outside the door. My heart was suddenly hot, and the tears were almost falling.
Xiao Wu then said: Listen to Secretary Zhang of the brigade, the commune wants to send you to labor camp. Detention! I was suddenly startled into a cold sweat. Erzhu also leaned over and asked in fear: Yes! What about me? Xiao Wu shook his head: I don't know. Xiao Wu looked at me with a frustrated face and comforted me: But you can rest assured, little Joe, who knows Qingdian, called her father last night, and her father has promised to say hello to the county chief. Estimates are not a big problem. Rest assured.
Little Joe is the big beauty of our acquaintance, and we all know that her father is a district commissioner and a big official. Such a little thing is not a piece of cake in the hands of others. That being said, but my heart was still empty, I said: Are people willing to help? Xiao Wu said with great confidence: You can rest assured. Besides, you were locked up for all of us, and people who know all about the green dots are very grateful to you. Now that something is wrong now, can people who know the green dot stand idly by and watch! In order to help you, Zhiqingdian is all out of action, and the rich ones contribute powerfully.
Listening to Xiao Wu's words, I was once again moved.
Sure enough, just after noon, the leader of the commune and Liu Gong'an smiled and squinted and released me and Erzhu. Liu Gong'an looked like a slave and was busy introducing me: This is the wang secretary of the commune. Secretary Wang is a big fat man with a fat head and big ears, and he is a foodie at first glance. Secretary Wang came over with a big belly and shook my hand, smiled and said: It is normal for young people to make some mistakes, and if they know that they are wrong, they will correct them. Xiao Wang, you see we are still a family. What is your relationship with Commissioner Joe? I thought about it and said: It's a relative. Secretary Wang clapped my hand and said: Xiao Wang, I have to criticize you for this, you see you didn't say it earlier.
I really couldn't get used to the faces of these bureaucrats, so I changed my mouth and said: Secretary Wang actually has no relatives with Commissioner Qiao, and I said it blindly.
Secretary Wang looked at me stunned for a moment, and then smiled awkwardly with a face of cross-flesh: Good, good.
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Because of the gambling incident, I was informed of the criticism in the whole commune. The brigade gave me a demerit penalty and deducted my work points for the whole year as a punishment. This means that my hard work throughout the year is equal to nothing, and I can't get a penny! I made a rough calculation of myself - the team stipulated: labor (adults) work a day is 10 work points, women are 6 work points a day, I am 8 work points a day, fortunately I am higher than women, count most of the labor. Our team's 5 cents per job is 3 cents and 5 cents. That is to say, my daily salary is 2 cents and 8 cents, calculated according to 30 days per month, my monthly work penny is 8 yuan and 4 dimes, so my total work cents in a year is 108 yuan! In addition to paying the rations and food expenses of Zhiqingdian, it is good to have a cigarette money left in the end! Fuck, buckle it! What surprised me the most was that the captain of the production team, Zhang, who had joined the team, was also dismissed from the production team by the brigade because I stole the tractor to gamble. In the era of planned economy, it was not easy to become a production captain, but it was an earth emperor. I know Captain Zhang must hate me so much that he gritted his teeth! What is even more infuriating is that master Gou of the gang house, this honest farmer, who was also implicated because of my problems, returned to the team to farm.
The production team could not go back (if I did, the captain and his relatives would have to eat me alive). Secretary Zhang of the brigade arranged for me to work in the fine powder factory of the brigade. My job is to put the thousands of pounds of white potatoes collected every day into a large pool to wash. This man does the work, dirty and tired, and at the end of the day, he is like a muddy water man, so tired that he can't stand up straight.
This winter the troops came to recruit, and I signed up. Almost all of our men who know the green point have reported it. Everyone tacitly wants to take this opportunity to change their destiny. At that time, our fate and future were really uncertain. No one wants to miss any opportunity to jump out of this bitter sea.
After a rigorous physical examination, I and two other zhiqing were selected. The chief of the soldiers said that I had the best physical condition. Ask me if I can play basketball. I don't actually play basketball, and I don't like it. I said: Like, like! The chief patted me on the shoulder with satisfaction. I could tell that the chief liked me. I was so excited and happy that it was hard to describe in words.
I began to dream, fantasizing about my beautiful future - putting on a military uniform and carrying a gun, and my life went to a glorious and mighty career of fighting horses, platoon commanders, company commanders, regiment commanders, division commanders, sitting in the chief's special car, with the guards with guns and live ammunition to go home to the province, the neighbors and childhood friends all looked at me with great respect and envy...
However, really, however! How many dreams of life have been "however" broken! Be woken up "however"! Shattered by "however"! ——I didn't pass the last political trial! The culprit is the punishment caused by this fight! Woe to the Wall!
The leader of the leading soldiers patted me on the shoulder again and said with great regret: Xiao Wang, your conditions are the best, but there is no way, the army is a place that talks about politics, and there is no room for any stains. Look at your young man is very smart and upright, how can he carry a black pot of punishment. Alas, it's a pity! The commander of the leading soldiers was stunned for a while when he said this, and suddenly remembered something, and said: Oh, by the way, what is the name of the one you are fighting, how can you still fight a pig? Interesting, let's hear it. I did not answer the curious question of the leader of the soldiers, and my eyes stared blankly ahead, and gradually the world in front of me became blurred, and I could not see anything, because my eyes were full of tears!
On a bitter winter morning in 1980, as the last Zhiqing to return to the city, I bowed deeply to the empty and almost ruined Zhiqingdian thatched hut, and then walked with my bags on my back toward the commune coach station.
I walked alone along the country path, the winter days in the countryside were particularly desolate and cold, the howling cold wind was like a monster raging over this empty field, and the messy grass and thorns on the roadside were like my body, shivering in the cold wind.
Little King.
I overheard a familiar voice calling me behind me. Looking back, it was Master Gou. I saw Master Gou standing at the door of a simple shack made of broken canvas on the side of the road, his hands covered with flour. Master Gou beckoned and said: Xiao Wang is frozen, quickly go to the shed to warm up.
I haven't seen Master Gou for a long time, and the person is significantly older. Master Gou told me that when the brigade went to the Wolf River construction site to dig the river, they sent him to cook for the laborers. After saying that, Master Gou took out a large black steamed bun from the hot cage drawer, he broke the steamed bun, and then dug a white thing in a yellow basin with a spoon and smeared it on it, and sprinkled a little salt, Master Gou handed it to me and said: Hungry, eat it while it is hot, it will not taste good when it is cold. I was really hungry, I gratefully took the bun, took a big bite, that fragrant, I dare to say that I ate the most delicious time in my life, which I will never forget! I said, "What is Master Gou smearing on this, so fragrant?" Master Gou said: Lard.
Master Gou looked at me and told me to eat slowly, and then he smeared me with lard and a large steamed bun. Master Gou looked at me kindly and with some pity and sighed and said: The students in the city have come to our countryside to suffer, and if My Father and Mother see me, I don't know why I am distressed. Speaking of this, Master Gou paused for a moment and then said: The other zhiqing have all returned to the city to work earlier, but you are the only one who is left behind, and I know that it is because of the punishment of fighting clams. But all the knowledge of Qing has eaten and drunk, and you should carry it alone with what sin! I'm just holding a loss for you in my heart... Now it's good, I can finally go home, and the hard days have finally come to an end. I nodded gratefully, tears swirling in my eyes. I said: Master Gou I have implicated you in my affair, I am really sorry!
Master Gou waved his thick flour-stained hand and said: Wherever you speak, you have not suffered any loss, you are a cropper, and where you work is not the same as earning work. It's just bitter for you city kid! This dog day, where is the whole person dying! When the soldier did not succeed, return to the city and return to the city for the last one, is this not a harmful future! Master Gou was a little excited, and his wrinkled face twitched a few times.
I knew who Master Gou was cursing, and the grievances in my heart once again came to mind. Once man's destiny is in the hands of others, at the mercy of others, and loses his personality and dignity, how sad it is!
I forcibly endured not to let the tears flow down, comforting Master Gou and at the same time comforting myself, I said: Master Gou is fine now, everything has passed, although I am the last to return to the city, but still back to the city, right. Right, right, go back to the city, and you are the big worker in the city. Master Gou grinned. Bidding farewell to Master Gou, I packed my bags and continued on my way.
Without taking a few steps, I heard Master Gou shouting behind me, and the voice was obviously high-pitched and hoarse in the empty field in winter: Xiao Wang, you must work well in the city, don't fight that clam again, the city is no better than our country, can you not make any more mistakes, hear no?!
I didn't turn my head back, and Master Chong Gou waved his hand.
Goodbye, countryside! Goodbye, this yellow land that burned my youth, made me happy and made me sad!
End of the first article
Wangjie
January 19, 2014