The story was first published in Nalan Yunzhai, the original ancient style story number, infringement must be investigated.
Author: Journey, life is short, I hope there will be a story to accompany me on the same journey.
1
Ding Qiu remembered more than twenty blind dates, and it was the first time that he was willing to let himself go to the appointment again.
She didn't hate this man named Hu Hui, not because of how good he was, but because he was normal enough.
Before I knew, most of them were "demons and ghosts", some heard that her profession was a programmer and let her resign and go home as a good wife and mother, there were eight characters that asked her if she planned to have a second child, and some bluntly said that the age was enough to persuade her not to be too pretentious.
Hu Hui was clean and sharp, and did not say those words that made Ding Qiu uncomfortable. He claims to be the owner and landscape architect of the aquarium shop, and there are many interesting fish videos in the circle of friends for Ding Qiu to see.
Ding Qiu smiled but did not answer, her permission for the blind date's circle of friends is set to close, she just can't refuse the enthusiastic matchmaking of colleagues and leaders to come to the appointment, there is really no need to understand deeply.
Hu Hui's comfortable courtesy and sense of boundaries made Ding Qiu loosen the defensive line and agree to his agreement to see him again.
It's just that when she spent some effort to dress up, she sat in front of Hu Hui for the second time, and the tea was not yet cold, when she met a friend of Hu Hui passing by, with an exaggerated look: "Mr. Hu, it turns out that you are also the one who wants to come out on a blind date?" ”
Hu Hui explained with a smile: "I am not young, what is wrong with coming out to meet the girl?" ”
A sentence of age is not small, let Ding Qiu extinguish the fire.
Sure enough, this form of blind date is because she needs to find someone to make up for her age, and she even has a moment to look forward to it, which is ridiculous.
Ding Qiu decided to live alone, what was he afraid of? Only old age without money will be sad.
2
Ding Qiu hated two sentences the most in his life, the first sentence was "When the age is made up, just find someone to live", and the second sentence is "If it is not for you".
Ding Qiu's parents were reluctantly married under the pressure of the first sentence. And she is the product of reproduction in the making-up. Her roots are rooted in the mutual dislike and meanness of her parents, so that the entire childhood presents a malnourished posture, neither full nor flexible.
The father did not look up to his mother, and often scolded a sentence that was "if it were not for the age, the family would be anxious to make up with you"; the angry mother would be angry at Ding Qiu, pulling an insignificant mistake on her homework book and angry, saying "If it were not for you, I would have divorced a long time ago."
Ding Qiu continued to be timid in this day-to-day pattern, and she carefully flattered, trying to glue the two people in front of her who should have loved her the most, but in vain.
In the third year of high school, this futile effort came to an end, and his parents quarreled and snatched the steering wheel while driving, and both died.
Ding Qiu chose to bury the two together, with a playful mood. She had been very afraid of their divorce, afraid of being abandoned and becoming a lonely person, but on this day, she found that there was a little relief in her heart.
3
Ding Qiu, who grew up in the wilderness, is thin and indifferent, which makes her single shadow only reasonable. The more she craves emotional feedback, the less she can grasp it, so she simply devotes herself to learning and work, hiding her gender in her professional identity, which makes her feel safe.
As an adult, Ding Qiu is the most ruthless programmer in the whole company, and the sense of need brought by work makes her excited. Twenty-five, twenty-eight, thirty-two, her salary increased with age, bought a house and a car in the city, and the thrill of success made her persistent. After completely abandoning the matter of finding a partner, she burned her body to raise the exuberance of her soul.
Ding Qiu thought that he was deeply in love with such a life.
Until one day, she ended her overtime, dragged her tired body home, slipped and fell while bathing, and lost consciousness on both knees.
She dragged herself through the room with severe pain to get her mobile phone to dial the ambulance, and in the process of waiting, in order not to embarrass herself for a while, she moved again strongly to find clothes and put them on her body.
In the meantime, Ding Qiu had no one to say.
She signed alone, performed the operation alone, had no family, and had to hire a nurse to take care of her own body.
Ding Qiu was diagnosed with synovitis of the knee and needed a long period of treatment and rehabilitation, and her life was pressed to pause.
A year later, she barely managed to walk slowly on a flat road without the aid.
Work is not going back, going home also makes Ding Qiu difficult, in that empty house if she falls again, what should she do?
4
Ding Qiu did not want to find a nanny or nurse to accompany her, first, the current condition was not so bad, and second, in the previous treatment process, she was tired of the nurse taking care of her while talking about the gossip of others. Ding Qiu knew that he would also become the talk of the nurse's mouth.
She wanted to find an environment where she had an independent space and someone to take care of in time, and slowly recuperated until she was fully recovered.
Enter the keywords you want into the browser, and the results are all nursing homes. Ding Qiu was a little embarrassed, she was only in her early thirties, was this going to live a pension life?
After a few days of entanglement, Ding Qiu did not find a better choice. She eventually ended up in a nursing home that combines medical care and nursing care, becoming the youngest "patient" there.
The initial discomfort disappeared after a week.
Ding Qiu gradually became accustomed to living with the elderly, and she followed the time of the nursing home, rising and resting at sunrise and sunset, and eating three meals in nine nights and six days.
The old people were more energetic than she thought, because they knew that her previous job was a programmer, but whenever the electronic products went wrong, the old people liked to ask her for help, so she also made some friends who admired her.
Although, they are all friends who will urge her to solve the big things of her life.
5
She saw Hu Hui again on a sunny afternoon. At this time, Ding Qiu learned that the old lady who often loved to tease her was Hu Hui's mother.
Hu Hui's eyes were on Ding Qiu, his face stretched out, and he walked towards her with a smile: "My mother said that there is a girl in the nursing home who often teaches her to use a mobile phone, and the person is particularly good, saying that he wants to introduce it to me, I didn't expect it to be you!" ”
Hu Hui held out his hand, Ding Qiu was stunned by the salty smell rolled up on his body, there was no reaction for a while, Hu Hui immediately withdrew, said: "Ah, sorry, on the way to come to the customer call said that the home landscaping cylinder is blocked, I went to deal with it, did not have time to change clothes, the smell is a little bad, right?" ”
Ding Qiu looked at the kind of timidity that was rare in middle-aged people in the man's eyes, and for an instant it resonated with the same sensitivity as Hu Hui's body.
"It doesn't matter." Ding Qiu said.
Hu Hui smiled: "My mother said before that she would introduce me to the girl in the nursing home, and I thought she had fallen into a magic spell in order to urge marriage." I never expected that the nursing home would have such a young girl as you. ”
Hu Hui took a bite of a girl who made Ding Qiu not laugh, and in order to hide her embarrassment, she coughed lightly: "So, are you also prepared to tell me like your mother that people still have to find a companion, otherwise they can only stay in the nursing home and be alone for life?" ”
"What did my mother say?" I apologize to you, I don't think so, I think you're cool. ”
"Cool?"
"When encountering something like you, being able to solve the dilemma on your own is not something that ordinary people can do."
Such a praise, Ding Qiu felt very useful. Indeed, the average person can't easily pay for treatment and nursing homes for a year and a half without working.
The self-esteem was lifted, Ding Qiu's tone also softened, and Shunshi took over the conversation: "Your mother's marriage momentum is so strong, you can still persist until you are almost forty years old and unmarried, and it is not something that ordinary people can do." ”
"No, I'm in a hurry. But if I don't meet a girl I like, I'm willing to get older. ”
But frankly, Ding Qiu suddenly felt that the phrase "age is not small" when they were together before may be over-interpreted by himself.
One afternoon, the two chatted quite happily. Before leaving, Hu Hui said: "Last time you deleted my WeChat, can you add it back now?" ”
Ding Qiu agreed, and this time, she did not block Hu Hui's circle of friends.
6
Ding Qiu found that the video of Hu Hui's circle of friends was really interesting as he had said before. When she was idle, she interacted with Hu Hui under the video.
The brightly colored and small body called the lamp fish is the most matched ornamental fish in the aquarium; the tail is spread like a cape, and the manlong fish, pearl vest, all kinds of agile little life, swaying in the sparkling waves, shaking the boring life of Ding Qiu has color.
After chatting well, Hu Hui invited Ding Qiu to visit his aquarium shop, and Ding Qiu agreed.
Hu Hui came to pick up Ding Qiu, and his car also had a shallow salty smell, and Ding Qiu found that he did not resist this. The car took her into the center of the city, where Hu Hui's aquarium was hidden in the bustling streets and alleys.
Hu Hui led her on a tour, and Ding Qiu found that the scene was more vivid and interesting than in the video. Not only should the mismatch of the match be beautiful, but also pay attention to the harmonious symbiosis of all living things in the aquarium.
When Ding Qiu was looking at it intently, there was a sudden uproar in the shop, and it turned out that a child accidentally dropped his mobile phone into the water while taking pictures of the scenery with his mother's mobile phone.
The clerk helped salvage the mobile phone, and the mother angrily angered the child: "I can't even hold a mobile phone steadily, what do I use to raise you?" Just like your dad! If it weren't for you, I would have divorced a long time ago, saving you the anger of your two grandfathers! ”
The familiar tone made Ding Qiu listen, and the child who didn't look much was also frightened and trembling in the same place.
I didn't think that Hu Hui rushed over quickly, stood in front of the child, and said to the tyrannical mother: "Madam, although the child has made a mistake, you should not say this to the child, especially not for you, your life is your own choice, never for him." ”
What happened next, Ding Qiu did not pay attention, she repeatedly chewed Hu Hui's sentence "Your life is your own choice", this is not a profound truth, she actually understood it long ago, but once she did not have the courage to say this to her mother, and now she did not have the courage to say this to herself.
Hu Hui stood up, on the side of the child, and confronted another adult who was abusing himself as an adult.
Hu Hui finally teased the child with a few landscaping ornaments and persuaded the mother and son to retreat. When he looked back for Ding Qiu, he saw the soft light in her eyes.
Hu Hui was a little embarrassed: "Every time I hear someone say this about a child, I can't help but stand out, and when I was a child, the most hated thing was this 'for you'." ”
It turned out that he was too, and Ding Qiu's heart was soft again. He had the same experience, but made a different choice with himself.
7
When he said goodbye that day, Hu Hui gave Ding Qiu a small aquarium and helped her place it on the table in the nursing home room. There were only two fish with dark stripes on their bodies in the tank, and they were stupid and stupid.
The old lady watched her son send the aquarium box, and when he left, she came to tease the fish, smiled and said to Ding Qiu, "This stupid boy, it seems that he has lost his heart." ”
Ding Qiu was a little shy.
The old lady looked at Ding Qiu's appearance and continued, "This child should like you, but how you think should be carefully considered by yourself, and how to choose in the end, Auntie does not blame you." ”
Ding Qiu was a little surprised: "Haven't you always urged him to get married?" ”
"I urged him only because I was worried that I was gone, and I would leave him alone in the world." But what I care more about is that he can live well, if he really wants to force him to die, he will not be free until he is almost forty years old and still single. The old lady smiled slyly, and there was still some girlish agility in her eyebrows.
Seeing that Ding Qiu did not speak, the old lady continued, "I know that you young people are very disgusted with marriage urging, but for us there is no other point to care about you." In fact, the phrase 'when the age is old enough to get married', you can just listen to it, and you don't need to go on the line, and I can't force you to be an old lady, can't you? ”
Ding Qiu smiled, and it was indeed Hu Hui's mother. There are indeed parents in this world who really persecute their children, but in fact, the final decision is still in their own hands.
Once their own parents, the unsuitable marriage to the society, the inseparable suffering to themselves, and they are also following their old path, the hopeless life to the childhood, now think about it, in fact, all these choices, has always been in their own hands.
8
Half a year passed, Ding Qiu completely recovered, Hu Hui wanted to take the key in advance, said that the room was too long to live in, first ask the cleaning to clean, and by the way moved away the small aquarium given to Ding Qiu.
A few days later, Hu Hui took Ding Qiu home. Pushing open the door, Ding Qiu froze, and Hu Hui not only cleaned, but also dressed up. In the once cold and monotonous space, there are more plants, soft and aquarium landscaping.
Ding Qiu looked at this strange vitality and secretly smiled.
Seeing that she did not speak, Hu Huihuan explained: "If you don't like it, you can take it, I didn't change your original decoration." ”
"I don't have to take it, I love it, it's time to add something new to this house."
"Would you mind adding another new person?"
"What?" Ding Qiu deliberately asked rhetorically.
Hu Hui hid his embarrassment, ran to the small aquarium, and pointed to the two small fish swimming inside: "I haven't introduced it to you yet, this is called the Nine-Room Shili Fish, and they will develop a very loyal partnership." If cold-blooded animals can develop feelings, would you like to try it with me? ”
"Why me?"
"I don't know, I liked it on my first blind date. I feel the same aura as you, we are all people who have an obsession in our hearts and refuse to settle down and try to endure loneliness. ”
"I'm not in good health, I may not be able to accompany you for so long, and I will still be lonely when you are old."
"I'm not afraid of loneliness, and life from its peak to its decline is a lonely thing."
"Why stay with me without being afraid of being lonely?"
"I don't know, because I liked it on my first blind date." They repeated this dialogue over and over again until both men laughed.
Now Ding Qiu still hates those two sentences the most, but she will no longer tie up her life that should be open because of those two sentences. She didn't choose to make it up, and she wouldn't be a mother who said "if it wasn't for you" to her children. That's enough.
Enough is enough.
(End)