After a long period of calm thinking, countless sleepless nights, and countless heartache in the early morning, I finally had an answer. Actually, I don't want to miss you, but I can't seem to get close to you anymore. You always act like you're dispensable to me, which makes me dare to hug me affectionately. No one wants to give up on someone they truly love, but when the disappointment and heartache accumulate to a certain extent, they can only choose to turn around and leave. It's not because the love is gone, it's because you know it's time to let go.
Although it is difficult to calm the mind, this difficulty should also be over. I don't regret meeting you, I just regret that we didn't get together in the end. You have become a regret that I can't love. It may have bothered you before, but it won't be like this again. You may never know how much I love you, or how many mornings I've woken up to a tear-soaked pillow. I once checked your social media page in the wee hours of the morning and typed out a lot of text to send you a message, but I never pressed the send button, and I could only delete the words I wanted to say to you repeatedly. Despite his reluctance and helplessness, he could only bury these stories in the dark night.
Please forgive me for brazenly looking for you and causing you trouble. If it weren't for the fact that I loved you so much, how could I wipe away my tears, cover up my scars, and face you with a smile again and again? If it's not out of love, how can you hurt me so deeply? Thinking about everything I've done for you, I can't help but burst into tears and keep asking myself.
I was so tired that I couldn't hold on any longer. The most gentle thing I have ever done in my life is to accompany you here. I have never doubted the sincerity of your promise to love me forever, and even though your words are so clear, there is no trace of you to be found. I have tried all kinds of ways to empathize with you, but I have found that no matter how hard I try, I can't keep your heart.
I've spent too much time proving my love for you, and you've spent the same amount of time proving my stupidity. Maybe we never really had each other, so we don't care about losing. There is still a long way to go, but there is no longer any intersection between us. When love is not enough, it is no longer appropriate to continue to love. However, thanks to you, because of you, I have learned to believe that there is someone who will keep me thinking for a long time. There is a person living in my heart, who does not dare to bask in, dare not think, dare not disturb, and cannot tell anyone.