In my spare time, I tell stories to the children in the community
Han Yuqing recorded at home. Photo by reporter Li Dandan
Dictated by Han Yuqing to sort out this newspaper reporter Xu Aizhen
Han Yuqing, a native of Leling, was in a car accident when he was 2 years old, resulting in high paraplegia. After dropping out of high school for personal reasons, he tried to find a way out on the Internet, worked as an online store customer service, game booster, video blogger, online anchor, etc., and then taught himself more suitable for his own online dubbing, and has participated in the recording of more than a dozen audio novels and 3 short plays.
"First Prize!" On July 10th, at the final site of the "Chinese Dream· New Atmosphere · New Actions" People's Propaganda Contest in Dezhou City, I excitedly shook my mother's hand when I heard my ranking, and she had tears in her eyes.
It was the first time at the age of 24 that I had spoken in front of so many people, and it was a pure surprise to win. What makes me even happier is that during the competition, I opened the door of my heart and liked the feeling of communicating with others, which is also a kind of reconciliation with myself.
When I was two years old, I was paraplegic in a car accident, and I grew up on my mother's back
"If you had to choose between losing your legs and your hands, what would you choose?" When I was a child, I used to ask my friends this question, probably hoping to get some comfort from their answers – isn't not being able to walk not the worst situation in the world? But I never got the answer I wanted, because they all had the same answer: "I don't want to choose either." Yes, no one wants any "part" of the body to fail, and for a healthy person, such an assumption obviously does not make sense.
But I didn't have a choice.
On July 15, 2002, in a car accident, the Grim Reaper took away my father, and I was only 2 years old and I was a high paraplegic with no sensation in my lower body. From then on, the gears of fate took me to another fork in the road. In the eyes of many people, being trapped in a wheelchair is considered "ruined for a lifetime". However, at that time, I had no idea about this devastating blow, and I only felt that I was a little different from other children.
"Mom, when will my illness get better?" I thought I was sick and asked my mother this often, but she couldn't bear to tell me the truth and could only try to make amends for me.
At that time, the family conditions were not good, and all expenses depended on my mother's salary, and she worked hard to give me what other children had. My hobby of reading was cultivated at that time.
When I was in the second grade of elementary school, my mother found a bookstore rental, and as long as she had a membership card, she could borrow books freely, and each book only cost 1 corner a day. The bookstore is small, and every day after school, there are many students squatting in it to read books. I was in a wheelchair and it was inconvenient for me to get in, so my mother chose a book for me and took it home to read. Sometimes it's children's fiction, sometimes it's historical literature, sometimes it's shoujo manga, and sometimes you can borrow cartoon CDs. "Naughty Pony Little Jump", "Diary of a Laughing Cat", "Pipiru and Luxixi", and Shen Shixi's animal series of novels, etc., they were all my childhood best friends.
At that time, it was a 30-minute bike ride from home to school. I couldn't sit still on my bike, so my mom bought a tricycle to take me to and from school. The classroom was on the 3rd floor, with more than 50 steps, and my mother carried me up. She walked very steadily and slowly, and I obediently put my head on her back and wrapped my hands firmly around her until I entered the classroom. My teachers and classmates are also very kind to me and will be eager to help me. With everyone's encouragement and companionship, I grew up slowly.
Adolescence encountered "growing pains", and the road to study pressed the stop button
As my mind matured, I became more and more introverted because I was afraid of the way others looked at me, and I cared about what others thought of me.
Every time I go out in a wheelchair, I bury my head deep like an ostrich, not wanting to hear other people's voices. But many times, there was always a harsh voice pouring into my ears - "Look, she's lame or not." "It's not lame, it's paralyzed, and I guess I won't be able to stand up for the rest of my life." …… All sorts of words stuck at me like a poisonous needle, and I didn't dare to look up, afraid to see the ridicule hidden behind their gazes. I don't know when I knew I had a label on me - disabled. I hate to hear these 3 words, it reminds me all the time: you are different from others, and there are many things you can't do.
Thankfully, my academic performance has always been at the top, which has also made my growth path full of thorns, but also received a lot of praise and encouragement. I thought I would finish my studies like most people, but my path to school came to a halt in high school.
At the age of sixteen or seventeen, he is in adolescence and has very big mood swings. After entering high school, the sudden increase in the difficulty of studying added a lot of pressure to me, and at this time, the inferiority, sensitivity, and cowardice that had been lurking in my heart for a long time were like mountains, which overwhelmed me. The classmates around me are busy studying, and I am no longer as active as before, and I don't have any friends anymore.
Sometimes, I try to talk to the students around me, "Did you take notes on the question that the teacher just taught?" "Do you have any favorite books to recommend?" "Do you understand this question?" …… But I found that they didn't seem to like to communicate with me, and sometimes I couldn't even hear their answers, so I was too embarrassed to ask them again. I thought, maybe they dislike me and don't like me, so they don't want to talk to me. This depressed mood became heavier and heavier, and every day when I came home from school, I sat in front of the table in a daze. Finally, one day, with tears in my eyes, I said, "Mom, I don't want to go to school anymore." ”
My mother looked at my depression in her eyes, and after some persuasion to no avail, she said, "If you don't go up, you won't go up, as long as you are happy." "Since then, I've said goodbye to campus and stayed at home all day, with my phone being my only way to reach the outside world.
The Internet has opened a window for me to understand the world
The Internet has allowed me to know the outside world, and it has also allowed me to hide my physical defects perfectly, and I can talk to others without any scruples, as if this is the real me.
By chance, I logged on to a forum and saw that there would be a cash prize for a well-written article, so I tried to write a novel. After countless "stones sinking into the sea", in 2016, I finally earned the "first pot of gold" in my life - 300 yuan. With income, I also have greater confidence and purpose. I spent more than 3,000 yuan to buy a computer, and I can do more things on the Internet.
Online store customer service, game leveling, video bloggers...... I am eager to realize my value in the network, and I am constantly looking for a track that suits me.
I don't want to use my flaws to gain sympathy, so my friends who have known me online for many years don't know what I'm really about. Many people say that my voice is very sweet and recommend me to do some work related to sound. With their encouragement, I recorded an audio novel, which did not make too many waves, but invisibly enriched my spiritual world.
In 2021, I came across a short video of dubbing cartoons, which was very interesting, so I had the idea of learning dubbing. At the beginning, I ran into walls everywhere, and all the recordings that were cast out were lost in the sea, and there was no news. I was a little discouraged, but I didn't want to disappoint my mother, so I practiced every day and pondered it repeatedly. Finally, on September 17, 2023, I received a phone call, "Hello, your audition passed, do you have time to record?" "I excitedly hugged my mom and shared it with her, and she turned around and secretly wiped her tears.
Since then, I've embarked on the path of web dubbing. In 10 months, I participated in the recording of more than a dozen audio novels and 3 short plays such as "Where Do We Not Meet in Life", and my monthly income increased from a few hundred yuan to five or six thousand yuan.
Studying voice acting made me realize the regret of not finishing my studies. Many times I dreamed back to class, and the long-lost fragrance of books made people intoxicated, and I suddenly woke up to find that the youth and hope of my student days could never be reproduced again. A thought came to me: I wanted to read, I wanted to pick up a book, I wanted to go back to school.
In 2022, I took the step of self-examination. I didn't participate in any training courses, I relied on the information I collected on the Internet and kept reading books and doing questions, and I was determined to pass every exam. At present, I have passed more than a dozen subject exams, and I will be able to graduate from a junior college in the second half of this year, and in another two years, I will be able to get a bachelor's degree.
Years ago, I began to strengthen my self-confidence, I thought, I have found my true self, just like a stranded fish finally returned to the ocean, and a bird with folded wings learned to fly. Sickness can only trap my body, but not my soul. Now, I have learned knowledge, I have learned to think, I have learned to find an exit in difficult situations. I think that's what learning is all about.
Along the way, it was everyone's voices that accompanied me to grow up. One day, I will follow my voice and go further afield.