1. Zuo Na was born in a family that is glamorous on the surface but broken on the inside. Her father, Zuo Dajian, has been a big carrot since he was young, and even as he gets older, he still does his own thing.
Whenever Zuo Na thinks back to her childhood, she always thinks of her mother Lao Chunxue standing alone in front of the window, her eyes full of sadness. Since the day she married Zuo Dajian, there has not been a day when Lao Chunxue has not been sad.
If it weren't for her family background, I'm afraid she would have been tortured by this marriage to the point that she was several years older than her peers. However, no matter how Zuo Dajian played outside, as long as he could go home on time, Lao Chunxue would be able to convince himself to forgive him.
This attitude of forbearance and forgiveness is not unique to Lao Chunxue, but originates from her own family of origin. Lao Chunxue's father was the same as Zuo Dajian when he was young, and he was also romantic.
And Lao Chunxue's mother, Zuo Na's grandmother, always chooses to forgive her husband for all kinds of mistakes. Grandma not only forgave her husband's bad habits, but also often told Lao Chunxue to learn to be considerate of men: "Men are children, they don't know what they like, they don't know what they are suitable for."
Can those women really like him? It's not that he has a lot of money, or what do you want him to do? These words were deeply rooted in Lao Chunxue's mind. After getting married, in the face of Zuo Dajian, who was the same as his father, although Lao Chunxue was dissatisfied in his heart, he still learned to digest himself.
She even passed on this concept to Zuo Na, often saying to her daughter: "Women are harbors, men are boats, and no matter how far the boat goes, it will come back." However, as she grew older, she gradually realized that this notion was wrong.
She witnessed her mother's forbearance in exchange for not her father's gratitude, but the intensification of the hurt. Zuo Dajian filed for divorce from Lao Chunxue many times, but Lao Chunxue would rather die than keep this family that exists in name only.
Second, this kind of distorted family relationship makes Zuo Na extremely distrustful and resistant to love and marriage. She swore in her heart that she would never repeat her mother's mistakes, and therefore remained highly vigilant against any possible feelings.
Zuo Na built a strong wall inside her, isolating all feelings that could hurt her, and imprisoning herself in it. As an adult, Zuo Na became an excellent doctor of law with her own efforts and worked at Rongke Law Firm.
She is known for her calm and rational workability, and has won high praise from both colleagues and clients. Even in the face of difficult cases, Zuo Na has always been professional and calm, showing extraordinary judgment and problem-solving skills.
Zuo Na's working life has not been smooth sailing. Since Liao Songting took the team to change jobs, her workload in Rongke has become heavier and heavier. In the face of complex cases and increasing responsibilities, Zuo Na never allowed herself to make mistakes.
She puts all her energy into her work, as if this is the only way to prove her worth, and to escape from thinking about feelings. Zuo Na's professionalism and professionalism were fully reflected in one incident.
When newcomer Pan Yan was about to be fired by his boss because of a work mistake, Zuo Na did not sit idly by. Despite her usual impression of being cold, she managed to help Pan Yan stay at the law firm.
This move not only showed Zuo Na's professionalism, but also won the respect of her colleagues. Pan Yan admired Zuo Na's rationality and professional ability. In his eyes, Zuo Na is like a sophisticated legal machine, able to calmly analyze each case and provide the most professional advice.
3. Pan Yan didn't know that behind this seemingly perfect workplace elite, there was a wounded heart hidden. Zuo Na fills the emptiness in her heart with her work, trying to prove her worth through professional achievements.
She put all her energy into her work, as if this was the only way to escape the thoughts and fears of feelings. Whenever she is alone in the dead of night, Zuo Na will take off her calm and rational mask, revealing her inner fragility and confusion.
Even at work, Zona can't completely escape emotional distress. She found that a truly good lawyer requires not only professional knowledge, but also a human touch outside of the law.
Only by experiencing the various states of life can you use what you have learned to help others uphold justice. This realization plunged Zuona into a deep conflict, and she began to question whether she was really right to close her heart.
When dealing with Zhang Rumei's divorce case, Zuo Na showed unusual mood swings, and this case became a turning point for her to face her own heart. The story of Zhang Rumei and her husband Sun Jianye may seem ordinary, but it touches the most vulnerable part of Zuo Na's heart.
Zhang Rumei and Sun Jianye started a business together in their early years, and after decades of hard work, they finally had a lot of net worth. However, as the company developed better and better, the relationship between the two became weaker and weaker.
When Sun Jianye filed for divorce, Zhang Rumei's heart was like a knife, suspecting that her husband had a new love outside. In order to take revenge, she began to torture Sun Jianye mentally every day.
The once loving husband and wife became so strange, and Sun Jianye's attitude towards Zhang Rumei changed from intimacy to fear and disgust. Faced with this situation, many people suggested that Zhang Rumei and Sun Jianye divide their property equally and be well.
Fourth, Zhang Rumei chose to be entangled hard, and just wanted to meet Sun Jianye and ask the real reason for the divorce. When Zona learned the details of the case, her reaction was beyond everyone's expectations.
She has always been known for her calmness and rationality, but she lost her former professionalism and reason when she met Zhang Rumei. Zuo Na unceremoniously accused Zhang Rumei, thinking that she had failed too much, and there was no need to catch someone who had changed her mind.
Zuo Na's words were full of ridicule and disdain: "Sun Jianye is extremely disgusted with you, which means that he has completely changed his mind. You should show the strong woman demeanor of the year and completely break off this marriage like a waste well.
You are over half a hundred years old, and if you continue to toss like this, you will only consume your own time and energy. However, no one knows why Zona is so out of control. Only she knows that in Zhang Rumei's body, she saw the shadow of her mother Lao Chunxue.
The woman who once struggled to maintain a broken marriage, the mother who would rather endure all the pain than let go. The case touched the deepest pain in Zuona's heart and reminded her of her own family tragedy.
Zuo Na's emotional out-of-control is not only an incomprehension of Zhang Rumei, but also an outburst of long-suppressed emotions in her heart. Her criticism of Zhang Rumei is, to a certain extent, an indictment of her own mother, a denial of blind patience and sacrifice.
This experience became a turning point for Zona to re-examine her views on love and marriage. She began to realize that her fear and rejection of feelings might stem from a backlash against her mother's experience.
Fifth, Zuo Na began to think about whether she should give love a chance, and whether she really wanted to punish herself with a lifetime of loneliness. In Zuo Na's professional life, her colleague Shu Yinan had a good impression of her.
Shu Yinan is a sincere young man, he was attracted by Zuo Na's talent and temperament, and looked for opportunities to confess to her many times. However, every time he tries to get closer, Zona always cleverly finds a reason to dodge, as if she is dodging an impending storm.
Shu Yinan's pursuit lasted for a while, and his sincerity and persistence finally won him a chance to get close to Zuo Na. However, just when Shu Yinan plucked up his courage and was about to express his heart, Zuo Na suddenly opened her mouth and asked directly: "Do you like me?" This sudden questioning caught Shu Yinan off guard, his face instantly turned red, his lips trembled, but he couldn't say a complete sentence.
As a smart doctor of law, Zuo Na can certainly see Shu Yinan's heart for her. She chose to challenge Shu Yinan in public, with a very clear purpose: to express her dislike, and at the same time to give the other party a clear answer.
Shu Yinan lowered his head, his heart was full of inferiority complex and loss. He thought he wasn't good enough to match a woman like Zuo Na. However, in fact, whether it is life background or academic qualifications, they are all equal.
The reason why Zuo Na rejected Shu Yinan was not because of his shortcomings, but because of her own inner fear and uneasiness. At a party, someone asked Zona what kind of man she liked.
Sixth, Zuo Na replied expressionlessly: "I don't like panting." This sentence was like a sharp sword, which not only stabbed everyone present, but also deeply hurt Shu Yinan, who still had hope.
Zuo Na's words are not only a rejection of Shu Yinan, but also a denial of all possible feelings. In this way, she built a strong psychological defense, trying to protect herself from harm.
This line of defense also separates her from her sincere feelings. Shu Yinan's pursuit and Zuo Na's indifferent response have become the talk of people in the office after dinner.
Everyone didn't understand why Zuo Na would be indifferent to such an excellent Shu Yinan. However, only Zona herself knows what kind of pain and struggle lies behind her indifference.
Whenever Zuo Na is alone in the dead of night, she also thinks about whether she has made the right choice. She looked at herself in the mirror, the woman who always wore a mask of indifference, but deep down she longed for sincere feelings.
But whenever this thought comes to her, she thinks of her mother's pain, remembers her vows, and closes her heart again. Zuo Na's attitude made Shu Yinan finally give up the pursuit, but this experience also made Zuo Na start to think: Can she really refuse love for the rest of her life? Is this psychological line of defense she has built to protect herself, or is she punishing herself? In this workplace full of emotional entanglements, newcomer Pan Yan brings a different perspective.
Pan Yan is a young lawyer who Zuo Na helped stay at the law firm, and he is passionate about his work, but he also maintains a positive and optimistic attitude towards life and relationships. Pan Yan's family background is very different from Zuo Na's.
7. His parents have always had a good relationship, even if they had to separate later due to special reasons, their loving appearance in their early years is still deeply rooted in Pan Yan's mind. Pan Yan once mentioned to his colleagues that his father made up an excuse to divorce his mother after owing a huge debt in order not to drag down his wife and children.
Despite this, Pan Yan still remembers the warm and harmonious atmosphere when his parents got along. This realization had a subtle effect on Zuo Na. She began to think: Should love be given a chance? Is it believed that not all men are like her father? Pan Yan's existence is like a beam of light shining into the haze in Zuo Na's heart, making her begin to re-examine her views on love and marriage.
Although Zuo Na did not show a noticeable change in attitude, she began to observe Pan Yan more and pay attention to how he handled the balance between work and feelings. Pan Yan's optimism and frankness, as well as his cherishing of love, are quietly influencing Zuo Na, making her heart begin to waver a little.
After experiencing the shadow of her original family, achievements in the workplace, emotional fluctuations, and different perspectives from others, Zuo Na stood at a crossroads in her life. She began to question whether her long-standing resistance to love and marriage was really right.
Zuo Na realized that although she had achieved a lot in her career, becoming an excellent doctor of law and also had an excellent performance at Rongke Law Firm, she had been running away from her feelings.
She understands that true growth is not only about achievements in the workplace, but also about having the courage to face one's heart and accept the possibility of love. However, it is not easy to let go of the psychological defenses that have been built up over the years.
8. Zuo Na still remembers the pain of her mother Lao Chunxue, and also remembers the vow she once made. But at the same time, Pan Yan's words and Shu Yinan's sincerity also caused ripples in her heart.
Zona began to think that perhaps not all marriages were as painful as her parents'. Perhaps, she can try to give love a chance and give herself a chance to experience a different life.
Although the road ahead is still full of unknowns and risks, Zona begins to consider whether she should let go of the shadow of the past and give herself and love a chance. Her future choices will determine whether she can truly get out of the shadow of her original family and find her own happiness.
This process is not destined to be smooth sailing, but Zuo Na knows that only by facing it bravely can she truly grow and find inner balance and happiness.