If you love, you love, stop punishing yourself, stop calculating the cost, if you lose your feelings, don't care about it as a result, and don't punish yourself.
An ethereal song sings the hearts of many people, and arouses the uneasy feeling of how many people love but can't be settled.
The singer of this song "Love is Love" is Chen Lin, a generation of singers who are crazy about love and die because of love.
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She was born in a music class, but she has a crush on pop
On January 31, 1970, Chen Lin was born in an intellectual family in Fengjie County, Chongqing, with two older brothers. Because her parents were busy at that time, Chen Lin was fostered at her grandmother's house since she was a child.
It wasn't until she was 6 years old that she was picked up by her parents and lived together.
Chen Lin's parents are Peking Opera enthusiasts, and they sing at home every day when they have nothing to do.
Under the influence of ears and eyes, Chen Lin also learned so many scenes unconsciously.
Listening to her parents singing every day, Chen Lin wanted to try to imitate and sing Peking Opera out of curiosity.
Taking advantage of the fact that there was no one at home, she secretly ran to the mirror, sang in front of the mirror, and gestured while singing.
Coincidentally, Chen Lin was once intoxicated with singing and didn't realize that her mother was coming. After singing, the moment she saw her mother, her face "brushed" red.
Unexpectedly, the mother was overjoyed when she saw that her daughter also liked Peking Opera so much, and happily said to her: "Seeing that you are so involved in singing, I will send you to learn Peking Opera."
Soon, Chen Lin was sent to learn to sing Peking Opera and learn to be tall.
At that time, my parents thought that Chen Lin was very likely to be a Peking Opera actor when she grew up, and she would listen to her baby daughter sing when she did.
Perhaps because of her nature, when she was in school, Chen Lin not only liked Chinese and music classes, but also often participated in various activities.
When I was in the first year of junior high school, there was a composer who wrote a song "Little Musician", and after learning that Chen Lin sang well, because Chen Lin did not agree to record, that person came to the school again and again to find her.
At that time, Chen Lin was still young, and when she saw that person, she felt that person was a bad person, and she was very scared when she heard that she came to record it.
As soon as he saw him coming, Chen Lin immediately hid. Or when he heard from his classmates that he was coming, Chen Lin ran quickly, and finally hid again.
The man saw that it was hopeless to find Chen Lin, and after several inquiries, he asked for the address of Chen Lin's house, and told her mother straight to the point that he liked Chen Lin's voice very much and hoped that Chen Lin could record this song.
After hearing this, my mother was a little surprised, and agreed to him without changing her face and heartbeat, and was willing to help persuade Chen Lin to record a song.
This time her mother appeared, Chen Lin was not so stunned. I thought it would be easy to record a song, but I didn't expect that she couldn't record it many times, and she was a little frustrated, but she wasn't so easy to be stumped.
It turns out that in the recording studio, any bit of bad will be very clear, and the sound has to be very well controlled.
So, Chen Lin recorded it over and over again, and finally the recording was completed. It was the first time in Chen Lin's life to record, and she felt both a challenge and a sense of achievement.
In 1985, Chen Lin was admitted to Sichuan Dance School to study quyi. After graduating, she joined the Sichuan Quyi Troupe as a Qingyin soloist.
Later, after being introduced by a friend, Chen Lin turned to sing in a bar in Chengdu, Sichuan. Since then, the scales of life have gradually tilted in favor of pop music.
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I will never understand your tenderness, and she said about her marriage
Later, out of hobby, Chen Lin was admitted to the Qing Music Troupe, sang pop songs in his spare time, and became a singer.
In Chen Lin's heart, pop music is the most natural way of expression, and she loves pop music.
In 1992, when she was in the recording studio, Chen Lin met musician Chang Kuan and manager Wang Xiaojing.
Wang Xiaojing was originally a taxi driver, but because of his acquaintance with Cui Jian and his love for music, he turned to Cui Jian as an agent, and then established Star Butterfly Records.
At that time, Wang Xiaojing took a fancy to Na Ying and planned to prepare an album for Na Ying first.
As a result, everything was ready in place, and then I learned that Na Ying was poached by Huang Xiaomao to Taiwan's Fumao Records.
Wang Xiaojing was angry and anxious, and all the blame and chagrin came to his heart.
After calming down, Wang Xiaojing thought of the resident singer Chen Lin, who accepted the lesson of the last time, quickly found Chen Lin, and signed a contract with Chen Lin.
also gave the album to Chen Lin, Chen Lin recorded and sang "I Will Never Understand Your Tenderness", and when she returned to her residence at night, the melody of this song kept echoing in her ears, she liked it so much.
Unexpectedly, Chen Lin became an instant hit with this album "I Will Never Understand Your Tenderness", with sales exceeding more than 1.5 million copies, and has since become a well-known singer.
Chen Lin was not carried away by the momentary success, she had a clear understanding of herself, her appearance was not so beautiful, there was no beautiful appearance, and her voice condition was not so good.
Since you like pop songs, you have to work hard, and if you don't work hard, you can't go down this road.
However, Chen Lin's singing career entered a bottleneck period in the next period of time, without the slightest progress, and Chen Lin, as a famous player, felt faintly uneasy in her heart.
Soon, Chen Lin chose to leave because of her different concepts from Wang Xiaojing.
There is no endless road to heaven, and gold always shines.
One day at the end of 1994, Shen Yongge, the boss of Bamboo Book Culture, saw Chen Lin singing on stage, and Chen Lin also noticed Shen Yongge.
From that moment on, Chen Lin's career and feelings were quietly changing.
In Shen Yongge's view, Chen Lin is young, lively and infectious, which attracts his attention.
As the saying goes, Lang is affectionate, and concubines are also intentional.
Shen Yongge's gentleness and elegance were like a ray of sunshine shining into Chen Lin's heart, and she felt warm, loving and being loved.
Soon, the two who had a good impression of each other had an intersection, and Chen Lin signed a contract with Bamboo Book Culture.
Since then, Chen Lin's love and dedication to music have once again made Shen Yongge look up to her.
Shen Yongge couldn't help but greet Chen Lin, the relationship between the two gradually warmed up, and finally entered the palace of marriage.
In terms of music planning, Shen Yongge has very different opinions from ordinary people, which has played a great role in promoting Chen Lin's singing career.
The second album "Afraid of Falling in Love with You" made Chen Lin win the "Roland Award".
Chen Lin's career has entered the second peak, either singing or being interviewed, and she even runs all over the world on behalf of Chinese pop music, going to France, Germany, Malaysia and other countries to perform, sleeping less than 4 hours a day.
Soon, Chen Lin held a solo concert in Beijing, and achieved such impressive results and was the first singer in the mainland of the mainland. The non-stop career made her have no time to take care of her family.
In the end, Chen Lin finally got tired because she was too desperate. During a recording, she suddenly had hemoptysis, and later went to the hospital for a full examination, and her health was fine.
The cause is tiredness and stress.
Chen Lin thought about taking this opportunity to go home and rest for a while, looking at the empty house, and thinking that it was time to have a child. However, Shen Yongge is a workaholic, unwilling to stop, and does not agree with her to have children, because it will delay the performance.
Chen Lin later learned why Shen Yongge refused to have children, and it turned out that Shen Yongge had a new love.
Shen Yongge was photographed eating at a Japanese restaurant with signed artist Yue Xia, behaving intimately.
Chen Lin later thought about saving the marriage, but Shen Yongge did not look back.
Therefore, Chen Lin ran to warn Yue Xia again, and quarreled with Shen Yongge in front of the employees.
Later, the two separated for a year, and finally ended their 13-year marriage. Sure enough, it's easy to fall in love and hard to stay together.
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The guitarist was poisoned after marriage, and she jumped off the building
In the song "Twelve Colors", Chen Lin sings with an almost whisper-like texture, which is a good interpretation of the butterfly that swirls between darkness and color, mysterious and lonely.
And Chen Lin is like that butterfly.
Chen Lin, who has always valued marriage, fell seriously ill after the divorce.
Chen Lin loves face very much, feels that life is unbearable, and almost seeks death several times. Fortunately, there was guitarist Zhang Chaofeng by her side, discovered her abnormality, silently listened to her confide in all kinds of grievances and helplessness in her marriage and career, and stayed by her side to comfort her again and again.
When Zhang Chaofeng saw that her mood was slightly better, he would take her out for a ride and chat with her about her daily life, and she gradually saw the beauty of life.
Chen Lin saw Zhang Chaofeng's warmth and concern, and gradually fell in love with Zhang Chaofeng.
In 2008, Chen Lin and Zhang Chaofeng agreed to go on a trip, and it was during the trip that they identified each other, walked hand in hand on the road together, and soon registered their marriage.
It is rumored that Zhang Chaofeng has a girlfriend who has been dating for 8 years, and in order to be with Chen Lin, he broke up with his girlfriend.
Therefore, Chen Lin's mother and brother did not agree to her marriage, and even the friends around them were not optimistic, and they all agreed that Zhang Chaofeng had an unstable temperament and coveted Chen Lin's money.
Chen Lin felt that this was the beginning of a new life.
After getting married, Zhang Chaofeng loved Chen Lin in every way, and Chen Lin also trusted and relied on Zhang Chaofeng more and more.
Unexpectedly, Zhang Chaofeng's true nature was soon exposed.
Because he wanted to buy a musical instrument, he asked Chen Lin for money. Later, he felt troublesome and thought that it would be better to ask Chen Lin's bank card for him to take care of and use, but Chen Lin didn't have any defense, so he agreed.
However, the haze of the first marriage has not yet dissipated, and the whirlpool of the second marriage is coming one after another.
Chen Lin's music studio invested more than 100,000 yuan, but there was no return, and the pressure in her heart was getting bigger and bigger.
But the matter has come to this point, and I can only continue to go on with my head. Chen Lin didn't want everyone to worry about her, and the words on her lips often were, it's okay, it's going to be fine.
However, Chen Lin was actually overwhelmed, and her heart was full of thoughts about her ex-husband, she was too tired.
She also called her mother to say that she regretted the divorce. The tone revealed despair and powerlessness.
Later, Chen Lin and Zhang Chaofeng wanted to go back to Zhang Chaofeng's hometown to relieve the pressure. Before leaving, Chen Lin called her friend Zhang Qiang and said sadly that she didn't want to go back.
Zhang Qiang heard that Chen Lin's state was wrong, so he took her over without saying a word, cooked food for her, and chatted with her.
On October 30, Zhang Qiang took the guitar to Chen Lin. Chen Lin said happily that she hadn't touched it for a long time. With that, she started playing the guitar.
Zhang Qiang saw that Chen Lin was in a good state, and he didn't think much about it.
Zhang Qiang's house is a duplex building, and that night, Zhang Qiang went upstairs to sleep and let Chen Lin sleep on the first floor.
As a result, at 7:00 the next morning, a resident in the community walked his dog and found a woman on the ground, wearing a hat and neatly dressed, and immediately called the police.
When the first responder came, he immediately gave the woman an electrocardiogram and found that she was dead. After Zhang Qiang woke up, he thought about cooking and eating, only to find that Chen Lin was not at home, and no one answered the phone, so he felt bad.
It wasn't until later that Zhang Qiang learned that Chen Lin had committed suicide by jumping off the building. That day was Shen Yongge's birthday, the 100th day of marriage with the current Zhang Chaofeng.
Zhang Qiang panicked, his hand didn't obey the call, and he reluctantly called Shen Yongge, and said tremblingly, Chen Lin left us. Shen Yongge said, left us? Zhang Qiang said that Chen Lin committed suicide.
When Shen Yongge heard the news, his heart was stunned, and his brain went blank in an instant. Later, Shen Yongge recalled the bits and pieces with Chen Lin, and he couldn't help but feel a little guilty that he didn't save their marriage at that time.
When her current husband Zhang Chaofeng heard the news, he was like a machine, stupid and stunned.
At 11 a.m. on March 31, 2010, Chen Lin's funeral was held in the Baishiyi Longtaishan Cemetery, and Chen Lin's two husbands did not show up.
At Chen Lin's memorial service, singer Han Hong said that Chen Lin is not good at words and does not like to communicate, but she has left a good memory of this world with her singing.
Yes, Chen Lin did leave too much beauty, including her smile and strength.
Three years later, Zhang Chaofeng sued his predecessor Shen Yongge in court with a complaint, on the grounds that Chen Lin's tens of millions of real estate was sold by Shen Yongge. In fact, after Chen Lin's death, Zhang Chaofeng signed a statement voluntarily giving up Chen Lin's estate, and Shen Yongge was entrusted by Chen Lin's family to sell Chen Lin's real estate, and finally gave the money to Chen Lin's family.
I don't know what kind of mood Chen Lin will feel when she sees this scene in heaven. The Si people are gone, may the departed rest in peace.
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At last
Singer Chen Lin has a unique voice, but she can't love it, and finally the fragrance disappears, which is regrettable and heartache.
In the quagmire of depression and trapped by love, after self-reconciliation failed, she gave up shaking hands with the world and chose to disappear forever.
Chen Lin, who once sang about love, drew an end to her life at the age of 39, but it is a pity that it is pitiful and hateful.
After all, it was her pretense of being strong that hurt her, and such a situation seemed accidental but inevitable.
Chen Lin's story is also telling the world that only by combining work and rest can life be mellow and long, and if you push yourself too hard, you will suffer from it one day.