Chapter 1 Juxue's journey to seek inner peace - relive the past
Late at night, Ji Xue sat quietly in front of the window, staring at the bright and charming moon outside the window. Time flies, and at the age of 55, she has entered a single life, and those days that used to run between the crew and the stage have become a thing of the past.
Recalling the past, her eyes flashed with a slight sadness and nostalgia.
Ju Xue couldn't help but recall her dream of becoming a teacher, using the power of knowledge to guide students, and being extremely proud of their growth.
However, fate played a big joke on her, and she finally chose a career as an actress to unleash her talent and passion on the screen and stage.
She remembers that dramatic moment years ago, when a man dressed like a director noticed her delicate face and invited her to try his hand at filmmaking.
Although her sister was skeptical about it at first, in the end, Ju Xue was attracted by this opportunity and stepped into the door of the showbiz without hesitation.
Time flies, and Juxue has gone through a long half century on this road. She has experienced the glory of her career and tasted the joys and sorrows of married life. She once fell deeply in love with a director who was 13 years older than herself, and entered the palace of marriage with him.
However, because the two pursued their careers too much and were often so busy that they ignored each other, this relationship eventually collapsed and their fate came to an end.
Ju Xue sighed deeply, and a trace of remorse welled up in her heart, regretting that she was too obsessed with her career and ignored the beauty of life. Now she is tired of running around and toiling, and only hopes to live a leisurely life.
Chapter 2 explores the family background and dream origin of Juxue
Ju Xue was born in an ordinary and warm family in Beijing, and her parents gave her and her sister endless love. Having received a good education from a young age, she always had the dream of becoming a teacher deep down and wanted to help students thrive by imparting knowledge.
By chance, Ju Xue followed her sister and friends to the theater to watch a movie. After the movie ended, when they walked out of the theater, a stranger dressed like a director noticed Ju Xue's unique temperament and took the initiative to invite her to participate in the movie.
When the stranger made an invitation, Ji Xue's sister initially remained vigilant, protecting Ji Xue behind her, and inquiring about the other party's origins. When she learned that this person was actually a talented director who was looking for new acting talents, her sister was relieved.
In the ever-changing entertainment industry, Ju Xue once had a strong curiosity about the profession of actor. Therefore, in the face of the director's invitation, she accepted it without hesitation and stepped into this new journey full of unknowns but fascinating without hesitation.
When she first joined the crew, what Ju Xue saw here was not only a wonderful character, but also a big family full of warmth. Everyone was enthusiastic and willing to share their own delicacies, which made her feel warmer than ever.
In such an environment, Ju Xue's love for performing arts has become stronger and stronger.
After graduating from high school, Ju Xue was finally admitted to the Shanghai Drama Academy as she wished, and began a new journey of chasing her dreams. Although the father initially objected to this, he eventually chose to support his daughter, giving her a good living expenses and encouraging her to pursue her dreams bravely.
So, under the ardent expectations of her family, Ju Xue came to the bustling city of Shanghai alone and began to write her own chapter of life.
3. The encounter between Juxue and He Qun
During her study at the Shanghai Drama Academy, Ju Xue devoted herself to the exploration of performing arts, and she no longer had the dream of becoming a teacher as before, but firmly moved towards the direction of an actress.
In her spare time, she goes to various stage plays and theatrical performances with a few like-minded friends to improve her acting skills. However, she doesn't easily waste precious time and indulge in meaningless entertainment.
In her sophomore year, the well-known Hong Kong director Zhang Xinyan discovered the unique charm of Ju Xue and tailored the role of the heroine in the movie "Changing Thief" for her. When Ju Xue heard this exciting news, she felt as if she was in a dream, extremely lucky.
She carefully studied the script and was attracted by the novel and interesting plot, and read it in one sitting. However, in addition to the joy in her heart, Ji Xue couldn't help but be a little worried. Her classmates were happy for her, but they were also worried that she would delay her studies because of the shooting.
However, Ju Xue confidently assured them that she would be able to successfully complete the crew's work before the exam and return to school to take the final exam.
As expected, this shocking film won warm applause and praise from the audience upon its release, and with its outstanding performance, Juxue instantly stood out and was as dazzling as the stars, and thus created a new world in the field of business! Since then, she has become famous and known as "Little Pauline", and in the years to come, she will be like a fish in water, constantly innovating and winning numerous awards.
Just when her career was booming, Ju Xue unexpectedly met the talented director He Qun. At that time, she was closely preparing for the filming of "The Married Girl", and in order to express her sincere gratitude to the crew, she specially purchased some exquisite Beijing pastries to share with everyone.
A staff member who claimed to be an authentic Beijinger attracted her attention, and the two learned that the other party was He Qun, a veteran who studied in Beijing Film and later joined the directing industry, who was 13 years older than Ju Xue.
Although there is a huge age difference between the two, He Qun deeply attracted Ji Xue with his simple and sincere temperament, which made her involuntarily have unreserved trust and closeness to this elder.
Since then, they have established a deep friendship with the help of the crew's coincidence, frequently exchanging experiences through letters and sharing bits and pieces of life.
Ju Xue discovered that He Qun was a strict master of the arts, meticulous in his work, often tirelessly rehearsing for a flawless shot.
He is strict with his subordinates, but he is caring and considerate of Ji Xue. The relationship between the two has quietly sublimated into a special emotional bond, occupying an irreplaceable position in each other's hearts.
Fourth, the bits and pieces of married life and busy career
Ju Xue and He Qun gradually fell into the whirlpool of love in this time and again in getting along and communicating again and again, and finally entered the palace of marriage hand in hand and became the most important person in each other's lives.
He Qun takes great care of Juxue and cares for it.
Whenever he heard that Ju Xue liked a certain delicacy, he always did not hesitate to take her to taste it, even if he did not hesitate to wade through mountains and rivers.
Sometimes, when Juxue was in a low mood, He Qun would hold her hand tightly and take her to the beautiful natural scenery, so that the fresh air could soothe the wounds in her heart. In order not to let the smell on his body affect his lover's feelings, He Qun would wash the clothes that had been worn for several days in advance after working for many days in advance, change into neat clothes and meet Ji Xue again.
These seemingly insignificant details, but they all deeply touched the heartstrings of Ji Xue.
Unfortunately, after marriage, both of them had a strong career ambition to revive their former glory, and devoted themselves to work, and their lives were once again neglected. Every time Juxue completes the filming task of a play, he does not hesitate to devote himself to He Qun's crew, eager to seize the limited time and share a moment of warmth with his beloved.
However, He Qun was always busy with the intense filming process, and he had to give up his personal time and let Ju Xue eat alone, for fear of disturbing the important affairs he was doing.
Ju Xue, who deeply understands and respects her lover and puts her career first, does not make too many demands, and often chooses to leave temporarily and return to her empty home alone to enjoy dinner alone.
Once upon a time, He Qun worked all night in the crew until dawn, and fell exhausted on the floor of the workshop and fell asleep. When he woke up, it was already the next day's sun shining on the earth.
He hurried home, hoping to express his deep apologies to his lover for missing the appointment last night, only to find that the drama had already quietly left, leaving only the cold room and his lonely self.
Since then, the two have been caught in a long period of cold war, and life has become as if they are strangers.
Despite this, whenever Juxue is troubled or depressed, He Qun will always rush to her side as soon as possible to heal her inner wounds with silent companionship and wordless care.
However, when the problem is solved, the two will re-engage in their busy lives, as if nothing had ever happened.
5. Independent life after divorce and the heavy blow brought by He Qun's death
Although Ju Xue and He Qun finally broke up, the deep affection between the two was not completely broken because of this. After the divorce, they re-established a friendship that talked about everything, but it was closer and more harmonious than the previous marriage.
Whenever Juxue faced a predicament or needed assistance, she only needed to make a simple phone call, and He Qun would not hesitate to cross thousands of mountains and rivers to help, no matter how much effort she put in.
Every year on He Qun's birthday, Ju Xue will take the initiative to invite him to dinner and spend this special moment together. When friends saw this scene, they couldn't help but sigh that the couple might have a day when they got back together.
However, fate often surprises people. Just when Ju Xue thought that she had finally found a new balance in her life, a sudden bad news completely crushed her - He Qun unfortunately passed away due to illness at the age of 61.
After learning the news, Juxue collapsed instantly, she was in a trance, grief-stricken, and couldn't get rid of the shadow in her heart for a long time.
After in-depth discussion and analysis, we can clearly see that Ji Xue's excessive reaction to the news of He Qun's death undoubtedly stems from her deep love for this ex-boyfriend who is 13 years older than herself.
Otherwise, how could she have left such a deep and unforgettable affection for an old friend?
He Qun's departure undoubtedly dealt a heavy blow to Ji Xue's fragile heart, and since then she has lost her enthusiasm for her love life, and she is also disdainful of the many suitors who flock to her surroundings.
She began to devote herself to the creation of drama art, devoted herself to her work, released her talent and enthusiasm to the fullest, and successfully performed many excellent drama works in just a few years, and also made many like-minded new friends.
Some people speculate that the reason why Ju Xue is so obsessed with work may just be to hide the loneliness deep inside. However, she has a different view, and she firmly believes that this is the role of an actor, and that he needs to use all his spare strength to face life's challenges bravely, rather than stagnate.
She has learned a profound lesson from her past setbacks and is determined not to repeat them.
As a result, Ju Xue chose to live a celibate life, although sometimes she embarked on a journey with her friends to appreciate the beauty of nature and the diversity of life. When night falls, she always reminisces about the good times she spent with He Qun alone.
Perhaps it is because of the baptism of that marriage that she can become so resilient and independent now, full of expectations for life rather than fear.