My name is Lin Xiaofen, a woman who shuttles through the urban jungle. Six years ago, with a warm heart, I entered the palace of marriage with Li Qiang. At that time, I thought I had found a partner to spend time with, but I didn't expect that this marriage would go through so many ups and downs.
Li Qiang, as the only son in the family, has been bathed in his mother's love since he was a child. His mother, a weathered woman, supported the family on her thin shoulders after her husband's death. However, this maternal love is vividly reflected in Li Qiang, but it has become extremely stingy in front of me, my daughter-in-law.
Whenever my mother-in-law stepped into our house, I always felt an inexplicable depression. She always maintained a detached attitude towards me, as if I was not part of the family. I tried to cater to her, trying to melt the coldness of her heart with my sincerity and enthusiasm, but the results always disappointed me.
What makes me even more unbearable is that my mother-in-law treats me and Li Qiang very differently. Every time she comes to the house, she always goes to wash and cook for Li Qiang as soon as possible, and asks for warmth. And I, on the other hand, could only watch silently from the sidelines, as if my presence was not important to her. This feeling of neglect made me feel tormented and made me doubt the value of this marriage.
Finally, one day, I decided to have a frank conversation with my mother-in-law. I plucked up the courage to ask her, "Mom, why are you always so different from me and Li Qiang?" She glanced at me lightly and said coldly: "You are a daughter-in-law, you should do these things yourself." "At that moment, I felt indifference and despair that I had never felt before.
I began to reflect on the meaning of this marriage, and I began to realize that I may have chosen the wrong path from the beginning. I decided to have an in-depth communication with Li Qiang and tell him what I was thinking and feeling. However, he chose to run away and did not give me any response.
After a long period of struggle and pain, I finally made the decision – to end this marriage that had left me exhausted. I filed for divorce from Li Qiang, and although he was shocked, he did not keep him. I knew that this marriage was irretrievable, and I could not go back to the past.
After the divorce, I moved back to my parents' house. Although they felt sorry for me, they also supported me to start a new life. I began to re-examine my life and values, and I realized that I could no longer afford to lose myself in order to cater to others. I want to work for my own happiness and I want to become a more independent and strong woman.
Now, I have stepped out of that shadow and started a new life. I know that there is still a long way to go, but I believe that as long as I walk bravely, I will definitely find my own happiness.