In the silence of the night, only a dim bedside lamp emitted a faint light. Ye Tingting was lying on the bed, looking at her husband Li Haiqiang beside her with gentle eyes, and gently shook his hand. Li Haiqiang felt his wife's movements, and habitually shook back, and they held hands like this, and the sound of repeated breathing echoed in the quiet night.
This scene has become the norm for them at night. In the eyes of outsiders, Ye Tingting and Li Haiqiang are a pair of envy of others, but in their marriage, there is always a lack of children's laughter.
"Strong, when will our house be more lively?" Ye Tingting's voice broke the silence of the night with a hint of anticipation.
Li Haiqiang replied gently: "Tingting, don't worry, time will give us the answer." "
They have been together for seven years and have been married for three years. At the beginning, the husband and wife enjoyed the happiness of the two-person world, but as time passed, the inquiries of family members and the care of friends gradually turned into an invisible pressure, entangled in Ye Tingting's heart.
"Did you talk to my sister on the phone today?" Ye Tingting asked.
"Well, she's asking when we're going to have a baby, and you know she's always cared about that." Li Haiqiang replied helplessly.
"yes, I know, but I don't want to..." A hint of loss flashed in Ye Tingting's eyes.
Li Haiqiang put down the book in his hand, turned around and looked at his wife more seriously: "Tingting, I know this is a lot of pressure for you. We went to the hospital for a check-up, and the doctor said that we were all fine, then the problem was not a problem. We have to have faith, maybe fate has not yet arrived. "
Ye Tingting nodded, trying her best to make her voice sound relaxed: "That's right, maybe God is still preparing a most special gift for us." "
But what she didn't say was that every time she faced the care and inquiries of relatives and friends, she would feel like a knife. Holding Li Haiqiang's hand tightly is the last sense of security she gives herself. His warm palm always gives her heart a little comfort.
Just as they were about to turn off the lights and go to bed, Ye Tingting suddenly said, "Qiang, you said that if we really didn't have children all the time, would you blame me?" "
Li Haiqiang instantly held her hand tightly, and his tone was firm and full of love: "Tingting, no, no matter what, we are each other's family." What we have gained is already very precious, and with you, I am happy enough. "
The couple looked at each other and smiled, Li Haiqiang gently kissed his wife's forehead, and the pressure in Ye Tingting's heart seemed to be less. Maybe this is their pattern, no matter what kind of pressure and difficulty, they have to face it together and overcome it together. Late at night, the room regained its peace and warmth again, leaving only two figures snuggling up to each other, enjoying each other's existence in this small world.
Living under everyone's urgent questioning and urging, Ye Tingting's mood became more and more heavy, and she began to feel that her definition of this "home" had become blurred. Seeing this, Li Haiqiang decided to go to the hospital with Tingting to seek professional help.
In the waiting area of the hospital, Ye Tingting looked a little nervous, and Li Haiqiang held her hand, trying to pass on some comfort and courage to her. The doctor's diagnosis was beyond their expectations - "Ms. Ye, judging from the results of various examinations, you are all in good health, but your psychological pressure seems to be very high, which may be a factor affecting the pregnancy. ”
"Psychological stress? It's the kind of thing that everyone has been asking us about lately. Li Haiqiang asked tentatively.
"Indeed, the so-called 'infertility' of the body is actually sometimes due to excessive stress, which leads to endocrine disorders." The doctor explained calmly.
On the way home, the two were silent for a long time. Li Haiqiang took the initiative to break the silence: "Tingting, we have to carry the burden of thought together, and we can't just put it in your heart." "
"I know, I've tried to relax, but... In the dead of night, I was so scared, afraid that we would never have children, and that I didn't want to be the one who would bring shame on my family. Ye Tingting couldn't help choking.
That night, Li Haiqiang suggested: "Why don't we think about this matter for now, how about going out and traveling and changing our mood?" "
"But if we don't keep trying..." Tingting's voice was still full of hesitation.
Li Haiqiang interrupted her: "Tingting, your smile and your happiness are more important than anything else." We're not running away, we're giving each other a little time, don't you think? "
After a fierce inner struggle, Ye Tingting finally agreed. They chose a scenic island for their vacation, where the air was fresh, the waves lapped against the shore, and the sun gently spread on the sand.
"Qiang, look at the children over there, how happy." Tingting pointed to the children playing on the beach, and a smile appeared on the corner of her mouth.
"Yes, happiness is actually very simple, it's just that we forget how to find it." Li Haiqiang gently surrounded Tingting.
At that moment, Tingting seemed to have really let go of everything, she smiled so brightly, Li Haiqiang watched from the side, and he could clearly feel Tingting's changes.
"Qiang, thank you for all you do for me, without you, I would probably be overwhelmed by these invisible pressures." Tingting said gratefully.
"No thanks, I didn't do anything anyway, the important thing is that you are willing to try to face it and change." Li Haiqiang's attitude was very peaceful.
But the good times don't last long, and after the holidays are over, they have to go back to reality. When she returned home, Tingting found that every time night fell, the sound of those worried inquiries echoed in her ears again, and those unexamined fears and anxieties followed her again. At the suggestion of a friend, Tingting began to seek the help of a psychiatrist in an attempt to untie the knot in her heart.
After many conversations with the psychiatrist, the doctor found that the reason why Tingting held her husband's hand was not due to simple fear, but her deep confusion about family responsibilities and personal values. The doctor suggested that Tingting keep a diary to record her daily emotional changes and psychological activities, and at the same time, he also suggested that Li Haiqiang accompany her for family therapy to strengthen communication and understanding with each other.
During that time, in addition to going to work, Ye Tingting insisted on writing a diary and going to consult. Slowly, she began to confide in her diary all her thoughts, including her fears of marriage, uncertainty about the future, and longing for children.
As time passed, Tingting's mood gradually stabilized. The relationship with Li Haiqiang has also been strengthened by the difficulties they have experienced together. She understands that not every question can be answered immediately, and that some things take time, patience, and more importantly, love and support.
Although the psychiatrist's treatment has significantly improved Ye Tingting's mentality, when she returns to real life, she still inevitably faces the impact of gossip from relatives and the old concept of "patriarchy".
One day, at the banquet, a relative said bluntly: "Tingting, you are both not young, the family is looking forward to holding their grandson, you should work hard." ”
Tingting responded with a smile, trying to be polite: "Thank you Auntie for your concern, we will cheer up." ”
Li Haiqiang noticed that the napkin in Tingting's hand was tightly clenched, and he interjected gently but firmly: "Yes, but whether it is a grandson or a granddaughter in the future, it will be the same precious to us." ”
The relative smiled, but added: "Hey, if you can't get pregnant, there's no way to do it, don't talk about it inside, you have to point fingers when you go out." ”
Li Haiqiang's heart tightened, he looked at Tingting's gradually dimming eyes, and his heart ached. They returned home that night in silence, and the oppression of the night suffocated both of them.
Li Haiqiang lost control for the first time and slapped the table heavily, "I'm really fed up!" Why do we have to be shaped by other people's words? ”
The fear in Tingting's heart came out again: "Strong, you won't be because of this... Leave me, right? ”
Li Haiqiang walked over and hugged Tingting tightly: "How is it possible?" I said before that I am very happy to be with you. If we both continue to be influenced by these statements, it will only make it more difficult for ourselves. We're going to figure out the way together, okay? ”
Ye Tingting nodded, and the tears in her eyes slipped quietly. She knew that Li Haiqiang's heart was not easy, he never flinched, and always gave her the firmest support.
In the process of continuous psychological counseling, Ye Tingting gradually realized that she was not simply seeking comfort in holding Li Haiqiang's hand, but more invisibly caused a psychological burden to herself and Li Haiqiang. She began to learn how to let go, and in the company of Li Haiqiang, she tried to stop clenching at night, but gently placed it in Li Haiqiang's palm.
And Li Haiqiang, in order to support Tingting, he decided to also participate in psychological counseling to learn how to better understand and accompany Tingting. The progress of the couple is not only reflected in Tingting alone, but gradually appears with their joint efforts.
As they try to mediate their own problems, the pressure from the outside world doesn't go away. At a family banquet, Li Haiqiang's father's words were more like a hammer: "Tingting, our family has two children, if you can add a great-grandson to me, it would be great." ”
Li Haiqiang knew that everything they had experienced had made Tingting uncomfortable enough, and he couldn't bear it anymore: "Dad, Tingting also has her own hardships, these things really depend on creation." The most important thing for us is to be healthy and happy, whether it is a grandchild or a granddaughter, we will treat it as our own. ”
The atmosphere became a little stiff for a while, but this time's persistence made Ye Tingting see Li Haiqiang's endless love for her and uncompromising on some outdated concepts.
Li Haiqiang's attitude also caused the family's view of the issue to change, and slowly, those unnecessary pressures changed, relatives began to become more considerate, and family members became more supportive. Ye Tingting and Li Haiqiang have experienced tests again and again in the journey of life, and found their stability and harmony in each other's protection and understanding.
The figures of the two of them became brighter as the stars shifted. This challenge also gave Ye Tingting and Li Haiqiang a new revelation, that happiness is not defined by external voices, but by the stories they write together.
Over time, under the guidance of a psychiatrist, Ye Tingting has continuously learned how to face and release inner pressure. After a series of psychological and family therapy, she found that she was gradually able to face everything around her with a more peaceful mind.
"I'm much better now, and I'm much lighter than before." One evening, Ye Tingting looked at the soft afterglow outside the window and said to Li Haiqiang.
Li Haiqiang walked over and hugged her shoulder: "Well, I think you're smiling more now, those troubles before are like clouds of the past when you think about it now." "
After a routine check-up, the doctor gave the news they were most looking forward to - Ye Tingting was pregnant. At that moment, Li Haiqiang and Tingting were so excited that they burst into tears.
The couple hugged each other tightly, and Li Haiqiang said happily: "Tingting, we are going to be parents!" "
"Really? Strong, I'm so happy. Tingting could hardly believe this wonderful fact.
"Of course it's true, you see, this is our baby's first picture." Li Haiqiang held the ultrasound examination sheet, which clearly showed a small beating of life.
A few months later, a warm full moon banquet was held with the blessings of family and friends. The guests sent their blessings, and this time, there was no pressure or criticism, only simple and pure happiness and blessings.
"This is a new member of our family, nicknamed Accidental." Li Haiqiang happily announced to everyone.
"Serendipitously, what a good name, means the best things always come by accident." A relative exclaimed.
Ye Tingting took the child's little hand and said with emotion: "Yes, we have experienced so much, perhaps, all this is destined." "
After the banquet, the two sat quietly in the baby's room, the starlight outside the window shining on the cradle, and their eyes were focused on the little living form.
"Strong, you say, isn't all this some kind of wonderful arrangement? If we hadn't had those difficulties, we might not be happy today. Tingting smiled slightly, full of affection.
"Tingting, you're right. Perhaps every bit of setback, every tear we experience, has its meaning for existence. Li Haiqiang responded, and gently shook Tingting's hand.
In the sound of the child's peaceful breathing, they hugged each other and fell asleep, their clasped hands became natural and soft, and they looked forward to every beautiful moment in the future.
And those difficulties and challenges have also become precious treasures in their memories. They understand that no difficulty in life is insurmountable, and as long as they are willing to persevere and work hard, there will be hope ahead.
As the night wore on, everything was quiet. The outside world has long been covered by night, but there is a small lamp in the house that warmly illuminates it, protecting this little new life and the happiness of a family of three.
The chance arrival gave them a new meaning in life and also allowed them to re-understand happiness and family. Isn't all this the best gift that fate has given them?