Today, the story that Joy wants to tell comes from Dostoevsky's Crime and Punishment, in which in an apartment on SStraße in Petersburg lives a law student, Raskrinekov. This protagonist looks like a handsome thief. Unfortunately, he had no money and could not even pay the rent. In desperation, Nekov dropped out of college, and even though her mother and sister were living on food and clothing every day and saving money to send him flowers, she was still overwhelmed by poverty. On this day, Raskrinekov took the only old watch that his father had left for him to pawn, but the infuriating thing was that the watch, which was originally worth four rubles, was crushed to one and a half rubles by the greedy pawn boss, and this hateful old woman also deducted 35 kopecks of it as an advance interest, which made Raskrinekov angry!
Moreover, as far as he knew, this old woman's heart was very vicious, she loved money as if she were destined, and she often gave loan sharks to others, so the seeds of evil under the appearance of justice quietly took root in his heart, and under the life of suffering, she was allowed to be slaughtered. Nekov always wanted to do something to prove that he was extraordinary. One day he walked into the tavern, sat down to have a cup of tea, and thought about life, just then at the table next to him, a college student was talking to an officer, and they were discussing the old woman who was usury, how she was vicious, how how abusive and exploitative others. Finally, he also said that if he could kill her, use her money to serve the majority, and seek the interests of the whole, wouldn't thousands of good deeds not be able to erase a small sin? Sacrifice one life, and thousands of people will be saved from corruption and poison.
A word, suddenly touched Nekoff's heart, he felt that what the other party said coincided with his own ideas, so he decided to kill this old woman to eliminate harm for the people, the next day, Nekov found the old woman's half-sister on the street chatting with the small trader, saying that at 7 o'clock in the evening she was going to go out to run errands, he realized that the opportunity came, but at the same time a chill also came down from the back, the tragic thing was carried out irretrievably, Nekoff had been at home until the evening, When he suddenly heard the 6 o'clock ringing, he hurried to the pawn shop, and Nekov did not prepare at all, so he took the landlord's axe, ran into the other room in the name of the pawn, and hacked the old woman to death.
In a hurry, he took only a money bag and a few pawns of jewelry, but just as Nekov was about to leave, the old woman's sister coincidentally returned. It is also unlucky to meet the hero at this time, which is obviously to send people's heads, so the terrified Nekov hacked her to death before the other party shouted out. After the murder, the hero suddenly lost the arrogance he had before, and he fell into a deep fear and irritability, as if he had a serious illness.
The next day, the police knocked on the door to send a summons, asking him to go to the police station at 9:30, Nekov thought that this was the matter was exposed, so he prepared to go to the police station to confess his guilt, only to find that this time the call, this is the landlord to pay off the debt, but when he was pregnant with a ghost fetus, when he heard someone talking about the murder of the old woman at the police station, he immediately fainted, and after returning to the residence, Nekov fell ill, because his spirit had been in a state of collapse. The next day Nekov's condition improved slightly, so he wandered the streets alone and found a man crushed by a carriage and unconscious. Take a closer look, this is no one else, it is the little civil servant he met not long ago, Marmeradov lost his errands because of alcoholism, the whole family followed him to hunger, and his ex-wife's daughter Sonya had to sell her body to exchange for money in order to support a large family, And the first thing Marmeladof thought of after waking up was to apologize to his daughter, and only shouted, Daughter, forgive me. I swallowed my breath
When Nekov saw that the family was living worse than me, he handed over all the money sent by his mother in his pocket to Marmerado's son. When he returned to his quarters, Nekov found that his mother and sister Dunia had arrived, and they excitedly hugged him in their arms, kissed, cried, laughed... But Nekov, who should have been happy, was motionless like an emotionless dead man, because the thought of guilt was eating him, and once again he fainted on the ground, and at Marmeladov's funeral, Sonya was framed for stealing money, but in fact, the other party wanted to prove her poverty and inferiority in this way. At this time, Nekoff stepped forward and pointed out the vile purpose of the other party, which made Sonia very grateful, and Sonya's act of sacrificing herself for the sake of the whole family had already deeply touched Nekov.
That night, he came to Sonia's residence, knelt down at her feet, and said, I am not worshipping you, I am worshipping all the sufferings of mankind, and he asked Sonia to read the New Testament to him, and found that the two people walked on a path. For the sake of others one became a murderer and one was a prostitute. Raskrinekov told Sonia about his crime. He asks Sonia if she kills an old woman who lends money at a loan shark, but makes it better for thousands of people to live. According to this logic, should he not be innocent, he also overcome himself in the face of Sonia, and seems to have a slow epiphany, he knows that his real motive for killing is actually to become a character like Napoleon.
He asked Sonia what to do? Sonia replied that she should go to atone for her sins. After realizing this, Nekov also confessed everything to his mother and sister, and after Sonia hung a cross on him, he ran to the police station to turn himself in, and because of his voluntary surrender, the court sentenced him to only 8 years in prison. One morning, Nekov stepped out of the shed and came to the river, where he gazed at the wide and desolate river and the beautiful scenery unfolded before him. Just then, Sonia suddenly appeared beside him, and the two looked at each other and smiled, leaving tears of happiness.
Joy loves this ending, where the protagonist is on the verge of collapse because he is suppressed by guilt. Fortunately, he finally redeemed himself. In fact, each of us has the ability to control our own lives.