——— belated "I'm sorry!" I can't tell the guilt in my heart
In the morning, I told Feng Li that there was a problem with the company's order and wanted me to go to Xi'an as soon as possible.
"We were also planning to go home tomorrow, so if you have something to do, we'll go back early. ”
I hesitated for a moment, but still proposed to Feng Li that I wanted to go directly to Xi'an.
"You're quite positive, as soon as you say you're going to go, I can't wait to leave soon, I'll think about it!"
Feng Li seemed to be deliberately angry with me, and said that she went out to find her sister and the two went out.
The two sisters went out for a morning and came back with a big bag of things.
"What do you want to eat at noon? I'll invite you to dinner." ”
I deliberately looked at my ex-wife, I had to do something when I came over, and I would invite her to a meal no matter what.
Feng Li didn't say anything, and his ex-wife just wanted to eat at the small restaurant downstairs.
"Sister, we'll leave tomorrow, I don't know when we'll meet again, let's have a meal together at noon." ”
Feng Li couldn't help but have a sour nose as she spoke, and she was about to cry when she saw it.
"Sister, what are you crying about, call me if you miss me. ”
I drove them and found a high-end hotel, and the waiter led us into the box on the second floor.
"Sister, you sit down first, and I'll order food today. Feng Li said and went downstairs with the waiter.
At this time, my ex-wife and I were left in the room, and I complained that Feng Li shouldn't let me stay, and I didn't know what to say in the face of my ex-wife.
I smoked a cigarette and took a few puffs in quick succession, trying to hide the panic in my heart.
"You smoke less, I told you to quit smoking before, but you didn't listen. I just got out of the hospital and still smoke like this, and I still don't know how to cherish myself. ”
"I won't be able to quit for a while, and I will smoke less ............ in the future"
Before I finished speaking, I was suddenly stunned, and she actually said that I had just been discharged from the hospital.
How did my ex-wife know that I was hospitalized, it should be Feng Li. When I came, I told her that I should try not to mention my affairs.
"I heard from Xiaoli, don't blame her. The last time I called and she said she was in the hospital, I insisted that she tell me, and now your head is okay, right?"
"It's all right, it's nothing. Thank you!"
My ex-wife's concern touched my heart for a while, and she still cares about me.
Last night, Feng Li told her about the changes I have made over the years, and I have worked hard to go to work, and I am no longer the drunken and muddy wasted person I was back then.
"It's good that you can change! At least the child won't suffer with you, it's been so long, why are you still alone, it's time to get married. ”
"I haven't met the right one, so it's going to be the same day. ”
My ex-wife glanced at me and said, "Find a woman to get married early, you have to find a woman who can be good to the child, don't let Qiqi be wronged." ”
Although his ex-wife has never been in contact with her children, Feng Li often sends her photos. She may not have the courage to see the child, because she is afraid that she can't help it and hurt her daughter again.
"Qiqi is very good at home, and now she is very sensible, but she often misses her mother, but fortunately, Feng Li often goes over to accompany her. ”
When the ex-wife heard the news of her daughter again, she choked up and said, "I'm sorry for the child! I'm not a qualified mother, but I really can't help it!"
My ex-wife's words make me feel incomprehensible, how can I call it a way?
"You must hate me! Hate that you couldn't get through on the phone, hate that I hid and didn't see you. ”
At that time, my ex-wife went to the south and worked in a factory. I went to her place to look for her, and wanted to take her home to live a good life.
When I got to the place, I couldn't get through to her phone, let alone see my ex-wife, and I was completely desperate at that moment.
Later, I saw my ex-wife again at the Civil Affairs Bureau in my hometown. We didn't say a word, and left each other indifferently after completing the divorce certificate.
"It's all gone, don't mention it. Blame me for not being angry and breaking your heart. You have the right to choose, he's been nice to you, I'm happy for you. ”
I don't know why, but I didn't feel it in my heart, and tried to control the tears in my eyes so that I didn't stay, but fortunately, Feng Li, who pushed the door in, relieved the embarrassment.
"What are you two talking about?" Feng Li said and sat down next to her sister: "Sister, I ordered your favorite fish." ”
The ex-wife especially loves to eat fish, but I didn't expect Feng Li to remember it.
"You're leaving tomorrow, and I know Xiaoli wants to take me home. I will not leave him, not because he is good to me and reluctant to leave, but because he has a life-saving grace for me. ”
A life-saving grace stirred up earth-shattering waves in my heart.
"A life-saving grace, a life-saving grace, how did he save you. ”
Feng Li asked what I wanted to know the most, why did she pull up the help again.
guard
My ex-wife told us about the past that was sealed in her heart:
My ex-wife left me and went to work in the south to earn money. At first, she paid her salary every month and transferred it to me to support the family.
However, I sat on the empty mountain and gave up on myself, and my ex-wife couldn't see my change, no longer had hope, and slowly ignored me.
At this time, she encountered the most dangerous moment of her life, returning to the rental house after work at night, passing through the middle of nowhere, and encountering a robbery.
Two robbers on a motorcycle wanted to snatch her satchel, which contained all the belongings of his ex-wife, as well as the mobile phone she was using.
The ex-wife's resistance and the two robbers tore up, and the dagger in the robber's hand stabbed her.
The two took the snatched bag and fled on a motorcycle, and the ex-wife who was lying on the ground was bleeding from the wound in her abdomen.
At that moment, she felt that it was all over at once, there was not even a figure in this street at night, and her mobile phone was also snatched away, and there was no way to call the police.
"At that time, I thought about death, and I don't have so many worries when I die. I don't give up hope. ”
Just when his ex-wife was disheartened, Jin Fugui, who also worked in the factory, appeared.
That night, he sent his fellow countryman to the train station, came back late, and wanted to take a shortcut to go back early, so he met his ex-wife who was bleeding all over the place, and she was already in a coma at this time.
Fortunately, Jin Fugui was sent to the hospital in time, which can be regarded as saving his ex-wife's life.
The ex-wife's money was robbed by the robbers, and the doctor urged him to pay the hospitalization fee, but Jin Fugui paid the expenses in advance, and stayed in the hospital for two days and two nights until the ex-wife woke up.
Later, Jin Fugui saw that his ex-wife was not taken care of, so he took a long leave to take care of her.
The two were originally just colleagues working in the same workshop, but after these days of getting along, the relationship became close.
My ex-wife's phone was snatched away, so I went over and couldn't contact her at all. I was in the hospital, and I didn't see anyone when I went, so I thought she was deliberately hiding from me.
Later, we all know that when his ex-wife was most dangerous, Jin Fugui always accompanied and took care of her.
After she recovered and was discharged from the hospital, she followed Jin Fugui without hesitation to her hometown in Sichuan and married this man who guarded and loved her.
I never told anyone what happened to my ex-wife back then, but this time Feng Li wanted to take her home, so she had to tell us the truth.
"Sister, why didn't you tell me at that time, we didn't know that such a big thing happened.........
Feng Li cried and hugged her sister, and both of them left tears.
I can't describe how I felt at this time, I never thought that my ex-wife would have such a situation, and I couldn't accept that it was this reason that forced my ex-wife to leave me.
"I know I'm sorry for you and your child! I hated you, I hated your depravity, he saved me, I had no choice but to leave you and my child. ”
My ex-wife's words were like a knife that deeply pierced my heart and hurt me uncomfortably!
"I'm sorry! I'm sorry! I don't know if that's the case, why don't you say ........."
I let the tears flow, what kind of man's face, completely left behind, I only knew that it was all my own reasons, and my ex-wife almost made a big mistake.
I want to be grateful to this man, who has always guarded his ex-wife, accompanied her through the most dangerous days, and gave selfless help when she was most helpless.
"In fact, Fugui persuaded me many times, wanting me to go home, and he didn't want me to be poor with him. Even if I did leave, they wouldn't hate me. ”
The ex-wife choked up and continued: "But I won't leave, and I won't leave in the future." ”
I couldn't sit still any longer, and I went back to the car in despair. My mind went blank, I just thought about crying out and pumping myself a few big mouths, hating myself for being too a bastard in the first place, and letting her suffer so much damage, so she almost lost her life.
At this time, I was shameless to face my ex-wife, and I never had the courage to meet her again.
"Brother-in-law, where have you been? The food is cold, hurry back to eat?"
Feng Li called me to go back to dinner, but I had no shame to face my ex-wife, and I never had the courage to go back to see her.
"I'm not hungry, so eat. ”
"My sister has something to say to you, come back quickly, hurry up and ........."
With heavy steps, I pushed open the door of the box, not daring to look up at my ex-wife, and sat down in a chair with my head down.
The delicacies on the table, I ate in my mouth, and there was no taste.
"You're leaving, I don't know if we can meet again in this life, I don't want us to be able to let go, so today I told you two about the year. ”
The ex-wife took a sip of water and continued:
"I've been thinking a lot about it in the past two days, and I didn't plan to tell you, but I just didn't want our hearts to feel bad. I didn't go back because I wanted to stay and live a good life with him. ”
She chose to say it at this time because she wanted us all to let go of the baggage in our hearts, stop resenting each other, and start a new life for the rest of our lives.
I didn't expect my ex-wife to hide so many things from us, I only hated her ruthlessness, and she didn't hesitate.
"This time you came over, Fugui actually knew that you wanted to take me home.
Before you arrived, he had already packed my luggage, and he knew that you were not Xiaomei's so-called boyfriend. If I wanted to go, he wouldn't stop me.
But I won't go back with you, let alone pregnant with his child. ”
When the ex-wife said this, a happy smile appeared on her face, and she said that Fugui was still waiting for her to come home, and let us send her home.
I didn't know what to do for her, so I went downstairs to the bank and took out the remaining 20,000 yuan from the card, sealed it in an envelope, and planned to leave it for her when I sent my ex-wife back.
Although the money is not much, it can be regarded as a little bit of my own heart, so that I can feel better.
"I'll carry the bag, and you can take those. ”
I took the bag from Feng Li's hand, went out and secretly stuffed the money into the bag, and when we came back, let Feng Li tell her again.
I drove my ex-wife home, and I saw Jin Fugui waiting on the side of the road from a distance, looking in the direction we came.
He may be looking forward to his wife coming home, or perhaps this is the most sincere love a man has for his wife!
Feng Li and I didn't have the courage to get out of the car, and after a hurried separation, we embarked on the journey home.