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I'm Liu Lin, 65 years old, and I've been retired for many years. I was born in a small county town, and my family is considered an ordinary family, my father is an ordinary worker, and my mother is a virtuous housewife. I have an older brother who is two years older than me and a younger sister who is three years younger than me, and we have always lived a simple and warm life.
When I was younger, I used to be a pretty girl, and at that time, everyone said that I was beautiful and beautiful, and my family and neighbors praised me as a "wonderful girl". My parents also have a lot of expectations for me, hoping that I can find a good home and marry someone who is satisfied.
When I was 20 years old, it was that summer that I met Li Qiang. Li Qiang is a young man from the street next door to my house, his family is not wealthy, but he has a hard-working and simple temperament, he always smiles at me and whispers to me, and I am slowly moved by his sincerity. Our parents were also in favor and thought the two of us were a good match.
However, in the third year of my relationship with Li Qiang, suddenly one day, I found that Li Qiang was with a young girl. I really felt like the whole world was collapsing, and my heart was like a knife. He hid it all from me, and I waited for his honesty. It wasn't until that day when I saw them walking hand in hand that I realized I had been betrayed.
I can't describe how I felt, the despair and the pain. Li Qiang's betrayal made me completely lose my confidence in love, and it also made me doubt my life. I decided to leave this small county town and go to a big city to start a new life.
In the big city, I got a job and made a lot of new friends. However, I didn't have the courage to fall in love again. Perhaps because of the trauma in my heart, I began to become conservative and hesitant about my feelings.
After I retired, I returned to my hometown and lived on my own. Both parents are no longer alive, and the older siblings have also started their own families. I was alone, with only memories and a meager pension to support me.
Now, when I sit in front of the window and look out at the scenery, I often think of myself back then. I regret the choice I made back then, regret that I didn't have the courage to face the betrayal of that relationship, and regret that I became so lonely. Perhaps, if I had been stronger and braver, my life would have gone in a different direction.
Over the years, my life has been like a book with no full ending, with many gaps and regrets. Looking back, I can't help but feel a lot of emotion, I once thought that I would have a bright future, but now, I can only face every silent night alone.
My children often advised me to go on blind dates, but I always refused. They don't understand that I'm not afraid of being alone, I'm just afraid of getting hurt again. Whenever they bring it up, I laugh and say I'm past that age and don't want to meet new people.
However, there are always some unspeakable regrets and unwillingness hidden in my heart. I used to be an enthusiastic girl who looked forward to the future, but now I have become reticent and have emotions that I can't release. Sometimes I would stand silently in front of the window, watching the people come and go outside the window, imagining their lives and stories.
One day, I went to the market in the town to buy groceries and met my childhood neighbor Xiao Li. Xiao Li is a warm and cheerful middle-aged woman who picks vegetables at the market with her two daughters. When she saw me, she happily beckoned: "Sister Lin, long time no see!"
I smiled and responded, "Hello, Xiao Li, your two daughters have grown up so much, it's really time flies." ”
Xiao Li smiled and said, "Yes, they are all in college, and their lives are flying."
Sister, are you shopping for groceries here alone?"
I nodded and smiled, "Yes, it's good to be alone, free and easy." ”
Xiao Li shook his head with a smile, "Sister Lin, you are really an independent person. However, it's boring to live alone for a long time, so why don't we go for a walk in the park together on the weekend?"
I thought about it for a while, and thought it was a good idea, so I smiled and agreed, "Okay, let's go on Saturday." ”
Xiao Li nodded happily, "Okay, we'll discuss the specific time then." ”
I came home after shopping for groceries and felt a lot better. Perhaps, going out for a walk with Xiao Li and them will make me feel warmer.
On Saturday morning, I woke up early to get ready to go to the park. Xiao Li and her family were already waiting for me at the door, and when they saw me coming out, they immediately greeted me.
Xiao Li smiled and said, "Sister Lin, you're here! We're all ready, let's go to the park together." ”
I smiled and nodded, and followed them towards the park. The park is bustling with people. We sat down in an open space and started chatting.
Xiao Li's daughters are all college students, and they are full of yearning and longing for their studies and future. As I listened to their conversations, I wished them success in their dreams.
We chatted and walked, and before we knew it, we had come to a lawn. The sun is shining, the breeze is blowing, and the grass is full of colorful flowers. I couldn't help but sigh, "This season is so beautiful, the flowers on the grass are blooming so brightly." ”
Xiao Li smiled and said, "Yes, spring is a season full of vitality. Sister Lin, you live alone, have you ever been to such a place for a walk?"
I shook my head, "Very little, I usually live at home and rarely go out." ”
Xiao Li felt a little sorry when he heard it, "That's a pity, such a beautiful scenery, it's not enough to see it alone." Later, when we have time, we can go out and walk together often. ”
I smiled and nodded, my heart warmed, and I felt as if I had another company. Perhaps, life is not lonely, as long as you are willing to share with others, there will always be more happiness.
We stayed in the park for a while and enjoyed the sun and a good time. Xiao Li's daughters suddenly talked about their future plans, they want to study abroad and pursue a broader world. As I listened to their words, I couldn't help but sigh in my heart that time flies so fast, and the eyes of these young people are full of infinite possibilities and longing.
Xiao Li looked at me with a smile and asked, "Sister Lin, you also had a lot of dreams when you were young, right?"
I smiled and nodded: "Yes, I also had a lot of expectations at that time. However, it seems that many of them have not been realized. ”
Xiao Li patted me on the shoulder comfortingly, "Life is always full of unsatisfactory, but the important thing is that we still have tomorrow and a future." Perhaps, you can rediscover those dreams and pursue some of the things you once longed for. ”
As I listened to her, I felt a glimmer of hope and motivation in my heart. Perhaps, the road of life does not stop here, I also have the opportunity to do some things I love and pursue some dreams.
The day's trip to the park was over and we headed home together. Xiao Li left my contact information and said that we would come out to play together when I had time in the future.
Back at home, I sat in front of the window and watched the sunset outside the window. There was a lot of emotion in my heart, and I felt as if I had found some joy in life again.
In the days that followed, Xiao Li's family and I became good friends, and we often went out for a walk and chatted together. Their companionship gradually filled the loneliness and regret in my heart, and I began to enjoy life again and re-examine my own life.
Perhaps, my life is not destined to die alone. In this later years, I learned to embrace life again, to face my past and future again.
Although I once regretted my choice, I now feel that everything was arranged by fate. Perhaps, what I need is not a romantic love, but a plain and warm companionship.
Now, when I sit in front of the window and look out the window at the night, I no longer feel lonely and lost. Because I know that no matter what the future holds, I will no longer wander alone on the journey, but with friends and family by my side, and walk together every morning and evening into the future.
This is me, Liu Lin, 65 years old, with a pension of 8,000, once beautiful, unmarried so far, but now I no longer regret not being at the beginning.
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