"Hi, I'm Wang Hao, 35 years old this year, and I'm an ordinary office worker. I whispered myself in the mirror, my tone full of self-deprecation.
I looked at myself in the mirror and sighed deeply. Once upon a time, I was also a handsome young man, but now, the gray hair on my temples and the wrinkles on my forehead all tell me that most of my life has passed.
I turned and walked away from the bedroom, my steps heavy.
"Lao Wang, how about a few of us go to the bar on Saturday?" My colleague Xiao Zhang said to me with great interest.
"No, I have to go home with my wife and children. I politely declined.
To be honest, I rarely go out on weekends. Since my wife Zhang Xue left 5 years ago, I have been raising our son Xiao Ming alone.
Xiao Ming is 8 years old this year, and he is at the age when he needs the most parental care. But his mother chose to leave him behind and be with her first boyfriend.
Every time I think about it, I feel so sad. I really love Zhang Xue, from falling in love in college to getting married, we have gone through 10 years.
But not long after Xiao Ming was born, Zhang Xue's old college classmate and first boyfriend Lu Jiangbo reappeared in our lives.
At first, I didn't pay much attention to it. It wasn't until one day, when I stumbled upon an intimate text exchange between Zhang Xue and Lu Jiangbo, that I suddenly woke up and realized that I might be about to lose my lover.
"Honey, it's been a long time since we've been alone, how about we go to the bar for a drink tonight?" One night, Zhang Xue suddenly said to me.
I was a little surprised by her offer, but I agreed. Unexpectedly, in the bar, we met Lu Jiangbo.
"Xuexue, long time no see! How are you doing?" Lu Jiangbo stepped forward and hugged Zhang Xue enthusiastically, and both of them had happy smiles on their faces.
I looked at the scene in front of me, and a wave of jealousy and unease welled up in my heart.
From that day on, Zhang Xue began to return late often and rarely had close contact with me. I'm 100% sure she must have cheated.
One night, I accidentally saw her and Lu Jiangbo kissing outside, and I was so angry on the spot that I almost wanted to rush up and fight with Lu Jiangbo.
But in the end, I held back. Because I know that Zhang Xue has been completely confused by Lu Jiangbo, even if I do it, I can't save her heart.
A few days later, Zhang Xue offered to divorce me. I pretended to try my best to keep it, but in my heart I had already seen everything.
The night before she was about to leave with Xiao Ming, I said to her, "Okay, I promise you a divorce, but Xiao Ming must be raised by me." "
In the months after the divorce, Zhang Xue completely fell in love with Lu Jiangbo. She was at Lu Jiangbo's house all day and all night, and the two were making love all the time.
"Honey, let's be together forever, and from now on, you're all I've had. Lu Jiangbo said to Zhang Xue affectionately.
"Well, we're always together and never apart. Zhang Xue replied happily, snuggling tightly in Lu Jiangbo's arms.
In order to thoroughly see the true colors of Zhang Xue and Lu Jiangbo, I began to secretly investigate Lu Jiangbo's past.
Soon, I discovered some facts that surprised me: it turned out that Lu Jiangbo was a scumbag, and he used to maintain intimate relationships with several women at the same time.
What's even more terrifying is that several women have even committed suicide for him. It seems that Zhang Xue has completely fallen for Lu Jiangbo's demagogy, and she is beside a dangerous man.
I secretly swore that I must try to make Zhang Xue come to my senses, and I can't be blinded forever by Lu Jiangbo, a scumbag.
In order to let Zhang Xue see Lu Jiangbo's true face thoroughly, I began to secretly lay out and plan a divorce trick.
I first deliberately exaggerated my pain and missing Zhang Xue in front of Xiao Ming, so that Xiao Ming felt guilty about his mother. Then, I began to reveal some of Lu Jiangbo's dark side, intentionally or unintentionally.
For example, he used to cheat, gamble, drink heavily, and so on. My purpose is to make Xiao Ming wary of Lu Jiangbo, and then influence Zhang Xue.
Step by step, I want Zhang Xue to see Lu Jiangbo's true face with my own eyes, so as to completely leave him and return to me and Xiao Ming.
At the same time that I was secretly arranging, the relationship between Zhang Xue and Lu Jiangbo was gradually getting better. Half a year later, the two decided to live together.
"Honey, let's move in together, and just like that, forever together. Lu Jiangbo said to Zhang Xue.
"Okay, let's move in together, and from now on, you'll be my everything. Zhang Xue happily agreed.
The night before Zhang Xue was going to move in with Lu Jiangbo, I specially asked her to meet her for the last time.
"Xue Xue, did you leave me and Xiao Ming like this? Aren't you afraid that Xiao Ming won't be able to stand the blow?" I pretended to be distressed, and tears flowed down my face.
"I'm sorry, I'm already in love with Jiang Bo, and we've really come to an end. Zhang Xue said firmly, without any hesitation.
Seeing her so resolute, I secretly sneered, she, sooner or later, she will regret it.
"Mom, why did you leave me and Daddy?" Xiao Ming asked Zhang Xue with tears in his eyes.
"I'm sorry baby, Mom really doesn't love you anymore, I already have a new life. Zhang Xue said ruthlessly, and then turned to leave.
Seeing my wife leave so resolutely, my heart was filled with the thrill of revenge, because everything was going according to my plan.
In this way, time passed day by day, and Zhang Xue and Lu Jiangbo's cohabitation life gradually improved. And Xiao Ming and I depend on each other for our lives and live an ordinary and stable life.
Until one day half a year later, Zhang Xue suddenly found out that Xiao Ming had always been with me, and I didn't abandon him at all.
"Wang Hao, you liar! Why are you hiding Xiao Ming's business?!" Zhang Xue angrily rushed to my house and questioned me.
"I didn't hide it, you chose to leave. I said calmly, "But now that you have discovered the truth, it is good that at least you can see my intentions for my son." "
"What the hell are you playing up to you, and why are you lying to me?" Zhang Xue was furious and pounced on me to hit me.
I dodged away and said earnestly: "Xuexue, the reason why I did this is because I discovered the true face of your current boyfriend Lu Jiangbo. "
"You are talking nonsense! Jiang Bo is a good man!" Zhang Xue scolded.
"Do you know how many girlfriends he has had? Do you know about his gambling and cheating?" I told you the truth one by one.
Zhang Xue was stunned for a moment, her face extremely ugly.
Looking at Zhang Xue's shocked expression, I continued: "The reason why I want to lie to you is to let you see Lu Jiangbo's true face with your own eyes. I'm afraid you're forever blinded by him, so that's why you have to do it. "
"But why didn't you just tell me, why did you lie to me?" Zhang Xue cried and questioned me.
"Because even if I told you, you wouldn't believe it, you were completely deluded. I reluctantly said, "So I can only use this way to let you discover the truth for yourself." "
Zhang Xue fell to the ground crying, covering her face in pain. I knew that she must be guilty of herself at this moment.
For the next few days, Zhang Xue was in a trance all day, and her face was full of guilt and self-blame.
"Wang Hao, I'm sorry, I was too stupid and blinded, I hurt you and Xiao Ming. "One day, Zhang Xue took the initiative to come to me and cried bitterly.
"I was completely confused by Lu Jiangbo at the time, so that I couldn't see his true face clearly. It wasn't until you did that I suddenly came to my senses. "
"Xuexue, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have lied to you. I whispered, "It's just that you were completely blinded at that time, and I had to do this to bring you to your senses." "
"I know, I know. Zhang Xue nodded bitterly, "It's because I love too much, although your approach is a bit despicable, it's also for my good." "
And just like that, the two of us sat together, scarred, relatively speechless. I know that she must be blaming herself at this moment, and I am also regretting whether I have gone too far.
Just in our atmosphere, Xiao Ming suddenly ran in.
"Mom and Dad, what's wrong with you?" Xiao Ming looked innocent, obviously not realizing what was going on.
Looking at Xiao Ming, I suddenly made up my mind. For his sake, I had to give it a go, and I couldn't just miss it.
"Xue Xue, I know that the grudge between us is already deep, and you may never be able to forgive me again. I said to Zhang Xue sincerely, "However, I still want to ask you, are you willing to come back and be my wife and mother with Xiao Ming again?"
Zhang Xueleng paused, her eyes gloomy. I knew that my request would be a heavy test for her.
"Wang Hao, I know that I hurt you, and I am sorry for you. Zhang Xue whispered, "But, can I give me some more time to reflect?"
I nodded, motioning for her to continue.
"I fell in love with you back then, but I was fooled by your appearance. Later, I empathized with other loves, and I was completely confused by Lu Jiangbo's rhetoric. "
I listened quietly to Zhang Xue's speech, and she made too much sense. We have all been blinded by emotions to get to where we are today.
"Wang Hao, can you give me some time to reflect? When I think clearly, I will give you an answer. Zhang Xue said to me reverently.
I nodded in understanding. I know that she needs time to sort out her heart, it's a long process, and I'm willing to give her time.
In this way, Zhang Xue left, while Xiao Ming and I continued to live an ordinary life. However, there is one difference, that is, there is an extra glimmer of hope and expectation in my heart.
One night a month later, Zhang Xue suddenly came to my house.
"Wang Hao, I've thought about it. She said to me firmly, "During this time, I have repeatedly reflected on my life, and I finally realized that feelings are important, but more important than feelings is family and responsibility." "
"I was too young and impulsive, blinded by emotion. Now that I'm finally sober, I realize that family and responsibility are the most important things in life. "
"So, I want to go back to you and Xiao Ming and start over. Zhang Xue said reverently, "Of course, I know that I have hurt you too deeply, and you may never be able to forgive me." But I still want to bet on this last time, please give me a chance to be a new person. "
When I heard that, my heart was filled with emotion. I didn't expect Zhang Xue to really be completely sober, and she finally realized the importance of family and responsibility.
I stepped forward and hugged her tightly, tears welling up in my eyes: "Xuexue, welcome home." From now on, we will be a family again and live a good life. "
In this way, in our marriage that was on the verge of breaking, it was finally reinjected. I know that there is still a long way to go, and we need to work together to regain the happiness we once had. However, as long as we all remember the importance of family and responsibility, we will be able to move forward.
Since then, I, Zhang Xue and Xiao Ming have restarted their families and lived an ordinary and happy life.
Sometimes I think back to those dark days and wonder if I went too far. But I knew that if I hadn't done that, Zhang Xue would never have come to her senses.
As Zhang Xue said, feelings are important, but what is more important than feelings is family and responsibility. Only by remembering this can we be truly happy.
Our family of three loved each other like this until we grew old together. Sometimes there will be quarrels, sometimes there will be contradictions, but as long as we tolerate and understand each other, we will definitely be able to resolve differences and move towards the other side of happiness.
Life is long and destined to be bumpy. But as long as you stick to your responsibility and love for your family, you will definitely be able to overcome difficulties and win happiness. This is the last life realization of me, a person who was once on the verge of family breakdown.