My name is Wang Xiaoming, I am 27 years old, and I am a programmer in a well-known company. Introverted and steady, diligent and responsible. Li Xiaohong, a colleague of mine, is the designer of our group, who is about the same age as me, sweet and lovely, warm and generous. Another colleague, Zhao Xiaogang, is my good buddy, he is the front-end engineer of our group, he has a straightforward and humorous personality, and he is a very interesting person.
The working environment in our company is very good, and the employees get along well with each other and work well as a team. Xiaohong and Xiaogang and I are a working group, and there is a lot of intersection and interaction in our daily work. Although Xiaohong is very capable of work, she can sometimes be a little sloppy and careless, so I often help her check her work, and she is also very grateful for my help. Xiao Gang is more alternative, often telling some bad jokes after work, which makes us laugh.
In order to have more interaction and contact with Xiaohong, I began to take the initiative to approach her and find some opportunities to talk to her. In the beginning, I would use my work to communicate with her more.
"Xiaohong, I've taken a look at the design of this interface, the color of this button may not be appropriate, do you want to change it?"
"Oh, you have a point, I'll change it. Xiaohong opened the design file as she spoke, and carefully revised it.
Seeing her meticulous approach to her work, I was attracted by her seriousness and focus, and my crush was a little heavier.
My crush on Xiaohong didn't escape Xiaogang's eyes, and he would often make fun of me. Once, I was checking Xiaohong's design files, and Xiaogang came to mess with it.
"Hey, Xiao Ming, are you greedy for Xiaohong's 'body'?" Xiao Gang made an exaggerated blink as he spoke.
"What nonsense! Am I not checking my work?" I blushed and hurriedly quibbled.
"Haha, you're not too young anymore, do you want to go on a blind date?" Xiao Gang said with a wicked smile.
"You stinky boy, I'll beat you up if you talk more!" I pretended to be angry, but there was something in my heart.
Facing Xiao Gang's ridicule, I also began to struggle a little in my heart. Do you want to confess to Xiaohong? If I am rejected, will our working relationship be very good? What if Xiaohong thinks that I am a pervert and will ignore me in the future? However, if I miss it like this, will I regret it for the rest of my life? After repeated considerations, I decided to take my time first, continue to pursue her with actions, and then confess my feelings to her when there is a suitable opportunity.
In order to get more understanding and liking for me, I began to show her favor constantly. In my spare time, I will take the initiative to help her complete some work tasks and do my best to share her worries and solve problems.
Once, when Xiaohong was working on a new page design, she encountered some technical difficulties, so she came to me for help.
"Xiao Ming, I have designed several versions of this new page, but I don't think any of them are particularly satisfactory, can you help me take a look?"
"No problem, leave it to me. Without saying a word, I grabbed her design file and began to study it carefully.
Seeing her embarrassed look made me even more determined to help her. After some careful analysis and revision, I finally found a perfect solution and sent the revised file to Xiaohong.
"Thank you, Xiao Ming, I really don't know what I would do without you. Xiaohong said happily.
"You're welcome, I'm glad I could help you. "I can't say how happy I am.
In addition to helping Xiaohong at work, I will also care about her in life. Once, I stumbled upon her birthday, so I bought a small gift for her birthday. Finally, at the end of the day on her birthday, I mustered up the courage to give her a gift.
"Little Red, I wish you a happy birthday!" I said with the gift in both hands and a little nervous.
"Huh, how do you know my birthday? and bought me a gift, thank you so much!" Xiaohong happily accepted the gift, with a happy smile on her face.
Seeing Xiaohong's happy appearance, I was so happy that I couldn't close my mouth. Although it was only a small gift, she saw the heart I giving, and I hope this little bit will make her feel more good about me.
Naturally, my overtures to Xiaohong couldn't escape Xiaogang's eyes, he saw it in his eyes and worried in his heart, so he began to dissuade me.
"Hey, Xiao Ming, I can see all the thoughts you have about Xiaohong. Xiao Gang said to me with a serious face, "You have to think twice before you act, don't do something hurtful." "
"What's the wrong thing? I'm just a little bit fond of her, where do you want to go?" I retorted with some displeasure.
"Come on, you think I don't know what you're up to? If you're genuinely good to her, I'm for you. But if you have other thoughts, then I will advise you to do all three. The expression on Xiao Gang's face became a little stern.
"Don't worry, brother, I have a good heart for Xiaohong, so you don't have a lot of heart. I quickly explained.
Xiao Gang's words really made me reflect on my own behavior. Am I too much in my heart for Xiaohong, will it cause her trouble and discomfort? I began to waver a little. But thinking that I had always had the purest love for her, I was determined to pursue her.
After much thought and struggle, I finally made up my mind to confess my heart to Xiaohong. I know it's a difficult decision, but I can't wait, I have to be brave enough to pursue my love.
In the process of making this decision, I experienced a violent inner turmoil. On the one hand, I am extremely excited and looking forward to being able to justifiably pursue Xiaohong; On the other hand, I was terrified and hesitant about the possibility of rejection.
I began to carefully plan the timing and manner of my confession, and I wanted to make the moment romantic and memorable. Maybe I can confess on Little Red's birthday, or treat her to a special dinner?
And just like that, I began the difficult preparation for confession. I carefully selected a beautiful dress, prepared a bouquet of roses, and looked up some romantic love stories online. Although the process was difficult, my expectation of this confession was so fervent that it even overshadowed the fear and anxiety in my heart.
"Xiaohong, I like you, are you willing to be my girlfriend?" I rehearsed this sentence repeatedly in my heart, looking forward to being able to say it to Xiaohong in person.
After a long time of preparation and hesitation, I finally waited for a suitable opportunity to confess. It was Hong's birthday, and I invited her to a special dinner.
The atmosphere of the restaurant is very romantic, with candlelight sprinkled everywhere and a faint aroma in the air. We sat in such a contemplative setting and had dinner together.
"Xiaohong, today is your birthday, I specially invited you to this dinner, as a small birthday gift for you. I said shyly, nervousness and anticipation intertwined.
"Ah, thank you so much Xiao Ming, why are you so good?" Xiaohong said with a smile, her smile was particularly touching against the candlelight.
"Actually, there's one more thing I've always wanted to say to you. I mustered up my courage and took a deep breath, "I like you, very, very much like you, would you like to be my girlfriend?"
After saying this, I stared at Xiaohong tightly, for fear of missing any slight change in her expression. Xiaohong was stunned for a moment, then a look of disbelief appeared on her face, and it was a long time before she spoke.
"Xiao Ming, I really appreciate your kindness to me, but we should only be friends with each other. Xiaohong said this with an apologetic look on her face.
Hearing Xiaohong's answer, my heart was suddenly hit hard, and my dream was shattered. I didn't expect Xiaohong to reject me so bluntly, and I didn't expect her to reject me with words like "I can only be friends".
"But, but why? We've been together for so long, don't you like me too?" I spoke incoherently, and my eyes began to glisten with tears.
"I'm sorry Xiao Ming, we really don't have that kind of relationship between us, we are just good friends at most. Xiaohong said, with a sad look on her face.
I lowered my head, tears rolling in my eyes. I never expected this to be the result, I had been so looking forward to this moment, so longing, but I didn't expect it to end so embarrassingly.
"Okay, I see. I whispered, standing up and preparing to leave.
Xiao Gang also noticed my abnormality, and he pulled me into the corner to whisper.
"What's wrong, brother? What's wrong with you? Did you confess to Xiaohong and be rejected?"
I nodded, my eyes darkened.
"Well, I knew it was going to be like this. Xiao Gang sighed and patted me on the shoulder, "But it's okay, don't be too sad if you are rejected, after all, feelings are such a thing, it is difficult to force them." "
"I know, but it's still painful. I said dejectedly.
For the next few days, the whole company was secretly discussing the matter between me and Xiaohong. Everyone was curious about how I confessed to Xiaohong, and how Xiaohong rejected me.
"I heard that Xiao Wang confessed to Xiao Li in a high-end restaurant, it's so romantic!"
It's a pity that Xiao Li still refused, saying that he would only treat him as a friend. "
"Hey, Xiao Wang is too pitiful, I've liked Xiao Li for so long, but he was rejected so ruthlessly. "
Everyone's whispers left me with nowhere to hide, I just wanted to get out of here as quickly as possible and go to a place where no one knew me.
After being rejected so decisively by Xiaohong, I could no longer continue unrequited love. I began to accept the fact that Red didn't love me, and that we were destined to be friends.
I knew that if I continued to pursue her, our friendship would be ruined. In order to maintain our friendship, I had to let go of my love for her, shift my attention, and start a new life.
In this way, I began to try to avoid too much contact and intersection with Xiaohong. When it comes to work, I will tactfully shirk it; I don't go to private meetings anymore.
Xiao Gang also felt sorry for me when he saw me like this. But he still supported my decision.
"Brother, you are right to do this. There is such a thing as feelings, and I can't help it. It's time to let go of your obsession and start a new life. Xiao Gang said as he gave me a strong hug.
After much deliberation and weighing, I decided to quit my job, leave the city, and return to my hometown to start over. I knew that staying here would just keep me tossing and turning and keeping me awake at night.
"Mom, I've decided to go home, I'm too tied up here to start a new life well. I said to my mother.
"Ah, you're back so young, but isn't there a good future out there?" Mother asked, confused.
"There is some promise, but I have some setbacks and I need to pick myself up and start again. I said earnestly.
My mother saw that I was tired and helpless, she hugged me and said, "It's okay, just go home." Our family still has ancestral crafts, you can come back first to rest, and in the future, you can also open a small shop by yourself and live the life you want. "
And just like that, I quit my job, left that city, left that bad experience and memories behind, and started a new life.