Keiko Zheng: What will an ordinary girl experience in the entertainment industry?

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2024-04-25 09:23Posted on the official account of Beijing People

After receiving "The Order Between Flowers", Zheng Hehuizi was attracted by the scar on Yang Caiwei's face in the play, not "pretending to do it (scar)", but running through the entire face, from the brain to the eye. This is a corpse-carrying character who falls in the middle of the family, wants to play ugly, dressed in tatters, and only appears in a little more than two episodes, but Zheng Hehuizi is very interested.

"Realistically", this scar has memory points, and it also appears in the early stage of the plot, "everyone can see it from the beginning". But more profoundly, "there is the growth of the whole character's life experience in this scar", she understands Yang Caiwei, because they are both optimistic and "people with a strong ability to face reality".

After the show was broadcast, Zheng Hehuizi gained unexpected popularity, and in just over two episodes, this role was remembered by everyone. Some people describe her role as Yang Caiwei as "bluegrass on a cliff", she can live no matter what, and she herself is also evaluated as a "weed heroine".

This description fits her personality perfectly. At the age of 21, Zheng Hehuizi was a junior and entered Wanhe Tianyi for an internship, and became an actor by mistake. In her words, "It's the story of a very ordinary little girl who bravely entered the entertainment industry." She has enjoyed vanity and aura, and in 2016, she starred in "Summer Solstice Has Not Arrived", and the image of "Sweet Girl" is deeply rooted in the hearts of the people. But it is not easy to maintain the popularity, she also experienced frustration, ups and downs, and anxiety, and finally relieved and accepted that she was an "ordinary actor", and being an actor is just a profession.

After watching it, Zheng Hehuizi would wear floral pajamas and slippers downstairs to go shopping when she was not filming at home, and when the interview video of "People" was dialed, she was removing her makeup in the bathroom in front of the mirror at home. On the other side of the screen, a "skewer" cat walked leisurely behind her with its tail cocked, and she talked about "five insurances and one housing fund" like an ordinary worker, talked about the workplace atmosphere of "no roll" in Wanhe Tianyi, and also talked about how happy life is after the age of 28. It's not that I don't have trouble, but I don't want to remember it, I forget it, "Otherwise, I'll be so tired."

Regarding what an ordinary girl will experience in the entertainment industry and how to debug herself, the following is Zheng Hehuizi's narration-

Text: Rebecca

Edited by Chu Ming

Photo (unless otherwise noted) provided by the interviewee

1

I entered the actor industry very inexplicably. I studied broadcasting and hosting in college, but I have a shortcoming as a host, I am too petite, especially in Beijing, even game hosts are required to be above 1.66 meters. I'm not tall enough at all, and I can't make up for it. I don't have the expertise to support me in the front.

So in comparison, I think I might have done a longer path as an actor. When I was in my junior year, my best friend happened to like Wanhe Tianyi's drama very much, so I submitted a resume. They were doing a column of "Stars in the World" at that time, and I thought it was also related to the host, so I came.

It was an internship at the time, and I didn't know much about the industry, nor did I have the mentality that I was going to be an actor. I just think that some aspects of being an actor are a little bit related to broadcasting and hosting, and they need to be expressive and expressive, thinking that they can train themselves and earn a little money.

I'm also lucky. As soon as I joined the company, I was catching up with the period when the development momentum of Wanhe Tianyi was particularly good, and after filming "Detective Di Renjie", I felt that I had a certain talent in acting, and I knew that I had a certain audience, and I was very confident.

Photo source TV series "Detective Di Renjie"

At that time, the director also said that they thought I was more intelligent and cute. I also thought I was very cute and beautiful at that time, after all, I was only twenty-one or twelve. Anyway, I was blindly confident, and I was just a junior at the time, so I didn't think about it so much, and I didn't have any plans for my career.

may also be out of vanity, that is, thinking that being an actor will be seen by others. When you're young, you want to be popular. If you want to become popular and become a first-line star, you can get better roles, and you can play with more handsome guys and beauties. When you become popular, you can see the bigger world. I think it's pretty simple.

Of course, my family doesn't understand very much, they feel that being an actor is not guaranteed. Being a radio host will be more orthodox and traditional. And my family didn't want me to run too far, and I was the only girl in the family, and they still hoped that I could stay in Fujian.

My family loves me. I grew up with my grandparents because my parents were always out doing business and were very busy. Because my grandmother had three sons, she raised me as a daughter, and I was named after my grandmother.

A lot of people have slammed my name online because my family is a very equal family. My dad also has my grandmother's last name, which is amazing. My grandfather also respected my grandmother very much, so some people on the Internet said that my name was good, and I didn't understand it very much.

Of course, my family will expect a lot from me. When I was studying, I would be asked to study at home and not go out to play. So I went to Beijing later, and they didn't want to. My mother said every day that she would find me a job in Fujian, and my broadcasting grades were very good, and my teacher also thought that I could find a school in Fujian to teach. But I was also very rebellious and very independent since I was a child, so I wanted to stay in Beijing, and I felt that I had to stay away from home, because I wanted to be free.

The profession of an actor suits me very well. My personality is not suitable for work, so I like to run around. Acting is very fun, you can meet different people, and you can also make money, not that you make a lot of money, after all, you can't make much money when you first debut, you can only say that you have a good income, you have the ability to support yourself, and you have a way to convince your family.

So as soon as I graduated, I became an actor. Life as an actor is really new and interesting, and you don't have to be in the same place. I was heartbroken to pay the rent, but most of the time I was happy.

Later, I went to the company to take on the play, and when I passed the interview and passed the assessment of others, I would also have a greater sense of achievement, because I tried the play through my own strength. At that time, everyone was willing to give newcomers a chance, and the industry was also very good. It's the same for all of us actors, it seems that it's easy to suddenly come out of an online drama.

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If there is anything I regret, it is that when I first debuted a few years ago, many campus dramas came to me, and I rejected some. At that time, I didn't have a clear position for myself, and I didn't have the ability to transform. I wanted to transform when I first started stereotyping, and when I was young, I was blind and arrogant, I felt that I was amazing, and I didn't want to be a sweet girl if I could have the ability to play more mature and richer roles. But in fact, at that time, there was no such ability.

Later there were also some setbacks. For a few years, the company began to shift from short dramas to the long drama market, which was also an attempt. There weren't that many female roles in those movies, and none of them were particularly suitable for me, and besides, who would give a newcomer the heroine. I started to take on the drama outside, and the company encouraged us to develop outside.

There will be a bit of a gap in the process. Because I was relatively ignorant when I first entered the industry, I had high expectations of my unrealistic expectations. If you really come out to take on the play, you will encounter some scenes (try), but the script may not be so satisfactory, or for various reasons, it will not be able to be on the comprehensive measurement. I thought it was very strange and devastating, and the auditions were quite smooth, but it was another thing to really shoot, and I was very depressed.

And I found that I didn't really understand this circle, and I also had wrong judgments in the docking scene. Although I took some plays at the time, some of them may not be what I really want to take. When filming, I will also have a lot of unpleasant and unsatisfactory things because I am a newcomer. This caused me to be confused and not have a specific and clear plan for the future. At that time, my company had just set up a brokerage team, and then everyone was also exploring. They weren't artists at the beginning, they were doing projects, and everyone was in a stage of moving forward and exploring. There is no one who leads the way. In other words, even if the artist has a specific plan, he may not be able to follow this path, after all, the market still chooses you.

It wasn't until 2017, after filming "Summer Solstice", that there was a certain amount of popularity when it was broadcast, and I felt that the future was very promising, and I could receive many projects in the future and become a more powerful actor. At that time, the idea was still relatively simple.

Stills from "Summer Solstice Has Not Arrived".

But soon realized his ordinariness. Because there was something wrong with my face, I kept getting acne. One of the directors I was filming at the time even said that if I continue like this, I won't be able to film in the future, because my face can't cover up its flaws, it's all rotten, it's terrifying.

The acne is very deep, of course I don't have anything on my face now, but there are still some traces of acne pits on closer inspection. And because of the acne at that time, the skin is now often red and bloodshot, and the skin is very thin.

At that time, I was very inferior, especially in the face of those handsome actors and good-looking actresses, I was very inferior. Although I am also playing the heroine, I am still a little girl, and it is impossible not to care about my appearance. The acne can't be covered by the light, and people look at you up close like this.

At that time, my face couldn't be filmed, my state was really bad, and I didn't have enough time to rest, and I only slept a few hours a day. It's not that I'm tired, it's just that I look at that skin every day, crying and putting on makeup. Either the foundation is very thick and covered hard, or the skin is polished. It completely affects the mood.

But the team feels that it is indeed on the rise, and if it misses this opportunity, it may not have a chance.

The impact of acne on me was quite long, it lasted for three or four years, and it was not until 2021 that it completely disappeared. At that time, I was very anxious, my face was messy, and I tried everything, but it was useless. The body's functions are destroyed, so stay up late. To be honest, I don't know what the acne is caused by now, or maybe it's anxiety or oily skin. Or maybe puberty came a little later. But at that time, it was true that I stayed up all night filming.

During the audition, there was a producer at that time, who saw me at first glance and said, you are the actress with the biggest difference between online and offline I have ever seen.

But it's okay, it's not a big problem. After being told, I wanted to say, then you have seen too few actors! Who would say that a normal person would say that? At most, a normal person will say that your skin may not be in good condition recently, and you need to take a good rest, which is a very friendly statement. I was very grateful for this kind of thing, so I accepted it.

But when playing against actors, I really have low self-esteem, and I don't dare to look people in the eyes. There is no cure. When I went to the hospital, the doctor said that I wanted to rest, isn't that contradictory? If I want to work, I can't rest, and the doctor says not to wear makeup, but I wear makeup every day.

The acne made me realize that I was actually very small, and there were many things that I couldn't decide on my own. And after entering the entertainment industry, you will feel that you are an ordinary person in terms of appearance, body shape, and all aspects.

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From the outside world, the two or three years after 2017 were the years when my career developed the fastest. But in fact, it was my lowest years.

Because of acne, coupled with the fact that the resources may not be able to keep up in the later stage, I am a little anxious, and the heat cannot be maintained. I was also confused, what to do, to stop? I didn't think about what to do in the future, because I was so confused that I couldn't think of it. My family would keep asking me what I was going to do now, and their expectations of me became very high because they didn't understand the industry.

At that time, I was also quite funny, and many campus dramas came to me, and I didn't want to shoot them at the time. I don't think I have a strong sense of campus, but now when I look back, it's actually quite strong, and I don't know much about myself.

Later, there was a period of time when my emotional problems were more serious, and I couldn't eat and bathe normally, so I could only sleep every day, and I couldn't do anything except sleep. I walked around my home every day, walking in that room for four or five hours, going back and forth in circles. The weight dropped to 74 pounds.

But I'm still working, because the projects are all accepted, so I'm working hard. The people around me could see that I wasn't in the right mood, but they couldn't give me any comfort. For various reasons, I lived a very chaotic life.

I can only tell myself, don't exaggerate your emotions, it's like a cold and fever. My mother came to accompany me for a long time, and after half a year, I went out to exercise, ride a bicycle, and I felt a simple happiness, and slowly got better.

I tell myself every day to work steadfastly, don't think nonsense, and accept the situation in front of me, now there may be no way to shoot a better project, and there is a problem with acne, if you don't calm down, it won't get better.

This experience just made me slowly accept myself. I used to be resisting, I felt that I was still very young and had a lot of hope, and if I didn't accept it, then I would be very miserable. I also reduced my workload later, because the heat passed, and there were not so many projects looking for me, so everything went naturally. The later idea became, I don't just play youth dramas, not just heroines, then there are actually a lot of scenes filmed.

When I was a child, I would feel that the world was in my hands, and when I got older, I knew that your ability was limited, and there were very, very many people who were better than you, and you had to accept this fact.

Since then, the industry has also undergone earth-shaking changes, and the vast majority of people have no way to resist. I'm good at comforting myself. I just feel that everyone is like this, there is nothing to be anxious about.

I feel like my company has given me some support as well. When I first joined the company, the company was a mix of heroes from all walks of life. I think everyone is very powerful, the actors in our company were not actors before, those who were engaged in dubbing were engaged in dubbing, those who did the later stage were engaged in dubbing, and there were also the top students in the college entrance examination, so they were mixed together. But it's a lot of fun to shoot things. Of course, I don't think I'm talented, they're all more talented.

Wanhe Tianyi is a very human company, and this is the most profound experience I have had over the years. There is not so much intrigue between colleagues in the company, and they are still relatively open. We don't force us to stay up late and work overtime, and we can leave work early when it's cold. There weren't so many vain things, and it didn't say that everyone had to have a drink to talk about work. Everyone is working on the project in a down-to-earth manner. Personality creates people's chances, and they have such a personality, so they attract a group of people with similar personalities.

For so many years in Wanhe, the people in our company are very kind and pure, and I think it also allows me to retain a little kindness, a little fearlessness and innocence in this industry. For example, in interpersonal relationships, I have always been a very simple person, and there are not too many twists and turns. Some people may say that I am not a very emotionally intelligent person, but I don't think I want to do that either.

This thing is not that important, why should everyone be a person with high emotional intelligence? In this world, only people with high emotional intelligence can live a good life? I don't think so. You can think about other people, but what is high emotional intelligence? Is telling lies to make everyone comfortable called high emotional intelligence? No, no. I think it's okay anyway.

Our company people are also very down-to-earth, and I think this thing will give you more benefits in the longer run. Being down-to-earth may not allow you to cash out and get benefits now, but it will give you a solid foundation as a person.

All of this has made me more receptive to the situation. For example, if I can't shoot any good projects, I don't feel anxious. People have their own experiences and destinies.

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When my emotional problems passed and I returned to work, I also felt a little bit of the cruelty of the industry. Because you don't have as many opportunities as you do when you're a newcomer. A lot of people won't bet on you anymore and will be willing to look for newer actors.

And I've also found that my body won't always be under my own control like it was when I was twenty-one or twelve. When I first debuted, I stayed up late and filmed. After that time, I can't do it at all, I can obviously feel that I don't have enough energy, I can't stay up until the back is sleepy, I can't remember the words, I want to say who am I, where am I, what am I doing?

Especially when you boil it continuously, it doesn't matter if you boil it for one day, I can't bear it for four or five days in a row. I can't sleep enough, and my body can't keep up. I wanted to do well, but my body didn't allow it, I couldn't reach it, I couldn't remember, I was so tired that I couldn't cry, I didn't know what I was doing. Some people's energy can be controlled, but I can't.

For example, when filming "Under the Skin" at that time, I played two roles by myself, acting back and forth, too tired and tired. Filming 15 scenes a day, fifteen or sixteen hours, even filming for 10 days, there is no time to drink water toilets. Because as long as you rest, the whole crew is waiting for you. There is basically no time to sleep. On the way back and forth for two hours, I slept in the car and was very tired. And the hair has to be changed back and forth, and when you get your hair, it's in tune.

Zheng Hehuizi played two roles in the TV series "Under the Skin".

I knew from that experience that the body has its limit, and it is difficult for you to break through that limit, and you can still keep your face so beautiful, so photogenic, and not swollen, you can't do it at all. Of course, some people can do it, and she is just very beautiful and talented. I don't have the talent, so I don't push myself.

There is no way, because you can only keep the same, you can protect your play, or keep your face, how can I have time to protect my face? I was still very thin at that time, so I was not so swollen, I was only 78 pounds at that time. I was so tired that I ate very much every day and had to eat two bowls of rice because I was so hungry.

I'm still mentally excited because I love the show. But I really couldn't bear it physically, and after filming that scene, I fell seriously ill and was sick for almost a month. When filming, I didn't dare to get sick because I was hanging for a breath, how could I shoot when I was sick, it was impossible for the crew to stop work and wait for me, how much money would I get for a day of stopping.

I'll know later, I won't be able to do this in the future. For example, if the cycle is as short as 60 days, unless the script is particularly good, I won't take it again. Because I don't think I'm going to get any better results from doing this, it's not worth it. Of course, if there is a good script, it is worth fighting again. But just to make money, I don't accept this kind of thing at all now.

I never think it's a sign of dedication to work too long. I think that I have to complete every scene seriously, which is the performance of dedication. People are not supposed to work beyond their own physical range, no matter what it is for.

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I like the role of Yang Caiwei in "Flower Order" very much, because I think Yang Caiwei and I are both very optimistic, very able to accept the blow of reality, and can quickly get up from the blow.

Now, for example, there are occasional occasional setbacks. When trying out the play, some people don't watch it seriously, they just go through the motions, and they already have someone to decide. In 2017 and 2018, there were very few such things, because there were many projects at that time.

But I just have an occasional emotion, and it will soon pass. I'm not a person who will keep my emotions in my heart all the time, there is no need, because since I still have to work in this industry, I will face this kind of thing, and there is no point in dwelling on it all the time.

Including the outside world, this kind of actor is popular or not, and this kind of discourse seems to be very large. Red or not is indeed a very important thing. If you are not popular, you just have no right to speak, only a relatively small number of projects, and it is normal to be bullied by others in all aspects of public opinion. But it's something that everyone has. I didn't think it was a big deal, and I gladly accepted it. Because being an actor is about facing these things.

After all, I've gone through a very bad phase, I've been a lot more stable mentally, and I think a lot of things clearly. At most, I will be a little anxious if I can't get the play for seven or eight months, but that's it. What can I do if I can't take it? The company is not without effort, I am not without effort, or I have no project, what can I do? I just want to live well.

Stills from "The Order Between Flowers".

A lot of people say that my kernel is stable, but I don't think my kernel is stable. I'm the same as all normal girls, I also go crazy a lot, and when I talk about madness, I'm just losing my temper or being unhappy in private, it's normal. I just have a short period of internal friction, and it is impossible for me not to have internal friction at all. It is impossible to be happy every day, or to be self-consistent every day, and it will not be.

I just feel like I'm just an ordinary person, and an ordinary actor. It's true, some people on the Internet say I'm very popular, and I say, well, yes.

Now that I've settled down, I feel like I'm better than before, and I'm not anxious at all. After the age of 26, I obviously feel that I am getting better and better, I don't care what the audience thinks, I feel that way, so I am more and more confident.

After the age of 28, I became more determined, and by the time I was 30 this year, I felt that I was consuming less things. Because if you want to shoot good projects all the time, you may have to make a little less money and give up some things in terms of interests. Then you will find that your vanity has become much less, and your material needs have become lower. Including buying clothes and bags, my desire has become very low.

I really don't have a high desire to spend, I like the feeling of making money, but it's okay to spend money or not. I think that if I save more money, I may not be so passive in the choice of the project, and I can wait. You don't have to take on scenes you don't want to shoot in order to make money in a hurry.

At this stage, I may not necessarily know what I'm going to shoot, but I do know what I'm not going to shoot. If you work a little harder, the audience will be able to see it, maybe not now, but there will definitely be opportunities in the future. It should be more down-to-earth and more serious. Originally, I also wanted to do a good job as an actor, but now I am even more determined about this matter.

I am now a person who easily feels happy and happy. I'm willing to give myself time, let's sleep, and I (my phone) will fly. When I'm not filming, don't bother me with anything. My motto has been changing, but one phrase has not changed, which is "Please be fully engaged in life."

I think it's better to live well, absorb nutrients from life, and create characters that will be a little more flesh and blood. Now, if you can finish your meal on time and go to bed early, I think it's a perfect day.

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